Lingering to the Bone: The President's Way of Chasing His Wife

"Dad, how many times do you need me to say it before you can understand the meaning of every word I said? I never thought of leaving this family, let alone abandoning you. I did All of these are just final decisions that are forced to be made. Can you think about it from my perspective, is it easy for me to live these years? You always say how painful you have been these years I’m so uncomfortable, can’t I live without suffering or torment? People’s hearts are fleshy and it hurts. I have given everything I have time and time again, but what kind of ending did I get in the end? You stand Have you experienced it from my standpoint? How painful I am, who among you can understand a little bit?

You always feel that as long as I do something wrong, it is an unforgivable crime. I have no way to get your forgiveness. I tell myself again and again in the depths of my heart, no matter what I did at the beginning, I am sorry. For your affairs, I have to accept all the punishments you have imposed on me. Even if you let me leave this house, you will never come back in this life. I have no way to refuse. It is my own fault. I should Bear the consequences, but the moment I chose to bear the consequences, I never thought that one day I would stay in this home safely, but what you did really made me feel cold.

Over the years, I have said to myself time and time again in my heart that no matter what, I have to go back and make up for my father and my son. Every one of you is heartbroken for me, do you know how much I am afraid of losing you, but deep down in your heart you are afraid of losing me, in fact, it is like this, maybe you feel that I have not been in your heart all these years anyway I have been by your side, you have me as much as you without me, I don’t have much, and I don’t have much, and sometimes I feel that I am in your eyes and I am in your eyes.

Think back to whether everything I did was right or wrong. I have only done it once for so many years. I have suppressed my sadness in my heart, and I have gained nothing.

Maybe I am nothing in your eyes now, I am just a heinous villain, I have no reason or qualification to ask for your forgiveness, you think everything I do is wrong .

Haven't you ever thought about what I did for everything, and what was the reason for me to do it? You never thought about what kind of reason I did for me. Never asked me either, kind of self centered and put a death sentence on everything I do, you know what you're doing is selfish, you're killing me over and over again to be able to stay at home You drove me out of the house time and time again, and time and time again I had to leave my hometown and wander outside alone. Who can understand that feeling? , I thought about who knows what I will get if I do that, I regard everything about myself as so important, and the ending, how do you treat me?"

"Now you tell me how we treat you, then how do you treat me? As a father, I have worked so hard to pull you up. Is it easy for me to grow up? Since Li's mother is not by your side, since you were born She left you not long after the beginning of the day, do you think my heart doesn’t hurt? I understand how you love your wife, because I love your mother as much as I do. Over the years, how many days and nights have I been with your mother? Together, I held her in my arms and fell asleep when I was pulling her in my dreams. Do you know that I miss your mother a lot.

But in the end, I can only choose to face your mother, she will never come back to me no matter what, even if I do everything wrong, I just hope he can come back to me and scold me, criticize I give it a shot, but this is not a possibility, he will never come back, he has left me for decades, how much I have blamed myself, how much I have thought, he has me again and again I hide him deeply in my heart, because I know that no matter when and where, I have no reason, let alone any right to reject him. Everything he gave me is the greatest love, if I choose to leave, if I choose to treat everything as a kind of blasphemy to your mother, do you think I am still worthy of being your mother's husband, do I still deserve to live with him for those years

Don't you feel that you are actually much happier than me? You and your wife can live together for at least so many years, but your mother and I only have a few short years. Those years are in my life memory It was the happiest, most relaxed and happiest time. I can never go back to that time anyway. Do you know how much regret and pain I have in my heart? He is my wife, so he died in my life In his arms, but I can't do anything, I beg the sky, I beg the earth, I just hope they can give him another year of life.

But at that time, I was crying every day, and the earth was not working. No one had experienced the despair I had at that time. How I wish she could come back to me. Is it possible? She will never be a The possible ending, I regard everything as the most important thing in my life, what do you take me for? I suffer so much again and again, who cares about you? Maybe you think you live now It is the most painful, because I gave you all this, but you have thought about it, your mother, who is lying alone in the cold ground, may have turned into a pile of bones, but we are still here It is also a kind of comfort for her to live here with laughter and laughter

As a human being, never compare yourself with others, whether it is selfish, because it is possible that everything you do is more selfish than others, do you know how envious I am when I see you and your wife are so loving, even if you are my son , I still envy you for having such a life, even if you are against me, I can still secretly look forward to it, and one day I can have such a life, but such a life, I have no chance to experience it again in my whole life Once, he never had a chance to come back to me. "