Lingering to the Bone: The President's Way of Chasing His Wife

Zhang Zhentian felt that the most important thing he should do now was to protect his father. He owed his father so much, and he never took the initiative to ask for compensation from himself, but now he has some reason, I let my father suffer all kinds of injuries over and over again, while I was just watching from the sidelines, and I seriously saw my father being tortured. Is that kind of life really what I want? Is it the life that I, as a son, should bring to my father? That kind of life just hurts my father time and time again.

Sometimes I might really think about whether what I did was wrong from the perspective of my father. Only by empathizing can I experience a different life, and think about problems from the perspective of others. The ending might really be different.

Sometimes I feel like a clown, being used casually by others, coaxing myself around with a few nice words from others, maybe I am nothing in his eyes, until now every day Only one person understands this truth. Everyone in their family no longer chooses to trust their loved ones. The only person they can trust is themselves.

"Yichen, I think it through now, I shouldn't do anything, what I should do is to stay at home and be by the side of everyone's relatives, so that each of you can know that I am not a heinous person.

I also have a childlike innocence, and I also look forward to being comforted by every family member. I got everything again and again, but in the end I found that I lost more than I got. Even if you get it, so what, in the end, everything will not leave you.

When I think that what I have done is only a wrong decision but not a correct decision, who of you has experienced my loss from my perspective, how much I want my relatives to live such a happy and happy life forever , but in the end what did I bring to my relatives, apart from hurting them, I couldn’t give them anything. I don’t understand why I became what I am now. I am doing it step by step. I just hope that I can do better, I don't want to be worse, but in the end I find that no matter what I do, I will always be the worst person, I can't get the best results, and there is nothing I can do Give my loved ones the most perfect life.

Sometimes I can't help but wonder why there is such a big gap between me and my son when we are both men. My son can make everyone in the family happy and live so happily, but I can only Bringing disasters to my family, even if those disasters are not directly caused by me, they can be indirectly related to me, how uncomfortable and painful those pains are in my eyes, who can tell me? From my point of view, I have experienced how that kind of pain came about. I have come to today step by step. What I want is so simple, but in the end I found that I am not worthy of anything, not worthy of anything. owns.

Have you ever experienced the feeling of disappointment, the feeling of despair, but you don't know how to go about your life?

I sincerely don’t want my family members to bear that kind of pain. It’s enough for me to bear that kind of pain once. Why should I let my family members bear those hurts and pains together? Those tortures It can only be my own, I can't let my family bear it, it will only feel unfair to my family, I am not a saint, but I did the wrong thing that all men would not do, that is to abandon My own family, I can still vividly remember what I did until now, I can’t let it be as if it never happened, I only know that every decision I make hurts the person I love the most, hurt those who love them the most.

Even if you guys can really forgive me, I won’t forgive myself. What I have done is simply unforgivable. I haven’t thought about why I have become like this in my whole life, because of love?

In fact, think about what love is in this real society. Many people live selfishly for love, but in the end they find that the people they love the most have betrayed them. Who can truly feel that feeling? to understand once

You have never experienced many things that I have experienced, so you cannot understand the feeling of despair, you know? The person you love the most is not you, he may have fallen in love with many people, the person in his inner world, even he himself may not be sure who it is.

He keeps saying in front of you that he just wants to spend his whole life with you, but the end result is that you discovered his secret today. When you give everything to him, you find out that he has betrayed you. In his eyes, love is just a child's play, and marriage is just a game.

He will not regard all this as more important than life, but you are foolish enough to put everything into it.

All you want is to exchange for his most sincere response to you, but in the end what can you get in return? You can’t even get his sincerity towards you, you will only feel that you have a clear conscience no matter what, You have given everything you can in this life, but in his eyes, even if you give everything, including your life, he will not feel guilty about these things, his heart is already a numb heart , he has no conscience, do you understand

I believe you know better than anyone else, who I am talking about, when I sincerely wanted to spend my life with my wife, during that time I found out that he had an affair with his ex, and I found out that he had betrayed me, Betrayed my love, betrayed our marriage, at that moment I was really desperate and painful, I felt that all the painful things in the whole world were not as miserable as mine, I gave all the things I love most to myself Wife, I only want to dedicate my best and everything I care about to him, including my own life, but what did I get in the end? I got his betrayal of me."