Lingering to the Bone: The President's Way of Chasing His Wife

"Father, in fact, I understand very well that it is really difficult to be an honest child in this life. Some people have paid a lot to be an honest child, but I also believe that as long as I am willing to be an honest child If you are a person, then no matter when and where you must have integrity, you know better than me what a person's city will mean. Over the years, you have experienced much more ups and downs than me, but I have never I never thought that one day I would embark on such a path, do you understand? You said that you can’t fall in love. Indeed, in the process of growing up, if you choose to fall in love, then you will only be defeated, and you will be injured. I can only bear all the pain in silence.

I am not a saint, and I have no way to bear the harm that all these pains have brought to me. You should know better than anyone else that all I want is a peaceful and happy life. Even if I live like that, I There is no way to get it in this life, but I will never allow myself to be tortured. The pain of suffering is just to make myself more and more tormented. Why should I let my life be so difficult?

In fact, you all know what kind of life I have lived in these years and all the pain I have experienced in those years. I never tell anyone, because I understand that it is useless to say it, and why should I use my own misfortune? What happened to bring unhappy thoughts to my family, I want everyone in your family to be happy, but am I doing something wrong?

Because I can't see the meaning of what I do at all, I don't get anyone's understanding of me, in your hearts, everything I do is wrong, I don't understand me as a child, do I Is there a bold knight who can think about it? Do I have to let myself live so much pain in my life? I just want to live in peace and stability in my life. I have said this more than once, but in the end I Did I get this result again? It didn't happen at all. I suffered pain and pain again and again. What I got in the end was still hurt and pain. I didn't get anything in return. Even if I gave everything, I didn't get what I wanted most in return"

"Son, it's grandma who is sorry for you. If I hadn't done all of this, you wouldn't have encountered such a thing. Do you know when I first saw you, I thought who is this kid?" Yes, you are so polite, so cute, you do things in such an orderly manner, and every word you say is so logical. I really hope that you will be a child in my family at that moment. I am so eager to see my grandson, but I But there is no way to see it. Sometimes I can’t help but think, I occasionally think about whether my own son will be so happy and happy, whether everything will be like you, he Was it just as cute, lively, and innocent as you when I was young? I dare not even think about it, because I know how my son was abandoned by me...

Sometimes when I think about it, my tears will flow down. I can't imagine how my son has spent these years. How much he hates me as a mother in his heart. I don't even think about it. Dare to think, as long as I have such an idea, I want to kill myself. Why did I do all this and why did I make such a choice to hurt my child, but in the end my child hated it I am a mother.

Maybe you think all these mistakes are caused by me alone, I should bear all the pain and consequences, I should not put the responsibility on others, no one owes me, and no one should spend my whole life on my behalf I have suffered all these injuries, but I never thought that I would become like this. Every thing I do, every decision I make is just to hope that my life can be happy and the final result is nothing. I hurt the people I love the most, those people who love me the most, and even destroyed my family that could have been happy for a lifetime, all of which were caused by me.

I have never been afraid of anything in my life, but I am really afraid of guilt. Guilt spreads deep in my heart and spreads all over your body. Every cell in your body is proud of your guilt. That feeling is so painful, but I looked at my husband again and again, because I was there with his guilt, I realized how deep the mistakes I made were, and there was no way for me to let him go. All of this has never happened, but he chose to give me the most perfect ending. How I wish my husband will only have me in those buildings in his life. I have never seen him do anything sorry for me. Things, I believe that God also has a pair of eyes, I believe that all his emotions for me are true, I believe that he will not use them, and I will not deceive me, but I am hurting him again and again, using He is also deceiving him. "

"Grandma, I actually never thought that the person I met at the beginning would be my biological grandma. How much I longed for me to be real at that moment, how gentle and kind you were at that moment. Kind, but why is there such a big gap between you in reality? I can’t believe it’s really you. I recall the scene when we first met again and again, and that scene is deeply engraved in my mind. No, I watched those things turn over and over again in my mind, how I wished that everything was true, how I wished, you didn't come back to me, how I longed, this It's all just a fantasy I've experienced, not reality

Grandpa and grandma, do you know that the person who has had the hardest time these years is not me, but my father, or your father. It is really not easy for them to do all this, but they have never complained about you , They always want to give you the best, even if you never thought about staying with them, they still did everything for you without hesitation, they planned for you Everything, I just hope that your future life will be smooth and smooth, without any conflicts, without any harm, that is a father."