Lingering to the Bone: The President's Way of Chasing His Wife

"His mother, maybe I know that there is one person that you will feel that I have changed, but you have never thought about why I have changed like that, and no one has ever considered anything from my perspective. , who can understand how hard I have lived, but I have come to today step by step and the result I got.

Many times you all feel that something happened that changed everyone's minds, but you never thought about how much your actions have caused everyone around you. Maybe at that moment you feel that you have failed The expectations of your parents are not important. After many years, you will find that if you have your own parents, have your own parents by your side, and give yourself the most authentic company, you will never get it. At this point, no one I am willing to make all of this the way it is now. Everyone has their own desired life. I don't know when that life will come to me, and I don't know when I can make it all come true. "

I thought and remembered everything

During that time, at least he didn't quarrel like before, and his wife's condition was relatively stable during this time, and nothing bad happened, let alone any accidents, which was already a blessing in misfortune for him. , he hasn't lived such a quiet life for a long time, and he doesn't know it, and it's not easy for him until now, but he never gave up.

If he suddenly caused bad results because of conflicts among his family members, then he really doesn't know what kind of ending he will face. He has no thoughts now, let alone any ideas to deal with these grievances Yes, he feels that his every day is very fulfilling, but also very tiring.

It's really not easy for her to come to today step by step in these years. He thinks about everything he has experienced in these years, and every decision he has made. Is he really so clear-eyed? He hasn't thought about how he walked. Up to this point, he lived step by step, just to hope that his family can be safe. Now that his family has reached the ending he wanted most, even though his wife is still awake, he still feels very sad. happy

"Father, to be honest, I am already full of despair for this family now. I dare not give everyone in this family the kind of warmth I wanted before. You

Do you understand that when I am tortured again and again, when I have nowhere to go and need to be drunk, when the person I love cares about and loves me, all I get in return is pain, how much I long for my life to be able to Happy life, happy life and the final outcome, what I got I got nothing, on the contrary I lost a lot.

No matter what you think of me these years, I am really happy. Even though I am hurt again and again, I can only hide in bed and cry alone, but deep in my heart, it is still The happiest time of my life.I have made it to this day by my own efforts. I don’t know that I didn’t rely on anyone for all of this. I was just brought up by my grandfather. At that moment, my heart was actually sad. I didn’t get your love for me. , I didn't get your company for me, deep in my heart, my parents are like invisible people, they will never appear by my side.

The age when I needed you the most has passed, the past time is gone forever, and there is no chance to return to the present, how can you understand the harm you brought me back then, what kind of intense pain it is Pain, I will never tell anyone about my pain, because it won't help, but I really can't bear it today. I have done so much, but what is the end of my exchange? I have nothing in exchange for my harm.

I need your time the most, but you are wandering the world outside, you abandoned me, let me face all the pressure alone, in fact, my heart is always sad at that moment, I never thought that my parents would use Treating me in such a ruthless way, is it really wrong to do what I want? Do I deserve to be hurt by my family again and again in my life, but I endure all the pain indifferently? I am not reconciled, I I used my own efforts to prove that it is correct that I am not willing to be reconciled in my whole life.

I thought about living at all costs. As long as I can live, I will be happy in whatever I do, but what will I get in the end? Even if I can live like this, I will get nothing in the end. I will lose my lover. , lost myself, the family that could have been happy, lost everything I cared about and cherished the most, what was the meaning of all I did at that time?"

"Children, you should understand that from the beginning to the end, I never thought of treating you in this way.

You, the misunderstanding between our father and son is too deep, and it is not a problem that can be solved in a few words. Have you ever thought about it, if I really hoped that you would leave, I would never come back. By your side to take care of you, to accompany you so uninhibited, how can you stand here? When and where have you considered it from my perspective? Could it be that everything you do is correct, and everything I do is right. Is it wrong? I live for my own freedom and for eating. Am I still wrong? I want to leave just to make the person next to my pillow happy, to be happy, and it’s the same for you, you can still hope for yours If your wife can be happy and happy, you also hope that she can be by your side in good health and safety, and will never be separated for the rest of her life. Don’t I want to?

Obviously many things are human nature, but in your eyes they are so heinous, you have never thought about the torment and pain in my heart as a father, you have never thought that when I am caught in the middle, I am in a dilemma, How should I choose at that moment, you think all this is just for yourself, have you thought about how difficult it is for me to do all this, if you can think a little bit from my perspective, then the ending It will not be the current state.I don't want any accidents between us to happen again, and I don't want any of us to continue to make a big fuss about this matter, quarreling all the time, that kind of life makes me feel very tired, what we want Neither is that kind of life. "

"Now you just suddenly said to me, you don't want that kind of life, do you think I will believe it? Once I might really believe everything you said, but now I won't believe it, because I believe you The ending is just to let myself hurt again and again, why should I let myself be covered in bruises, but in the end I still bear all the pain silently, and you laugh by myself, why should I owe it all my life? People, only my grandpa, only my wife, only my children, I do not owe my parents, because they have not given me love, have not accompanied me, even if you gave me life, you have seen me in these years When we gave up, everything was already calculated, we owe each other nothing, and I will no longer be combined because of your appearance and your existence, and you will not feel sorry for you because of what you have done Hate, I am no longer the person I used to be, I want to rely on my own efforts to live an upright life, and I will never use anyone to be sad again.”