My love simulation with them

It was under the gaze of Matsuzaka Sayuri that Nanxiang Shi continued to speak:

"Aunt Sayuri, although it may be strange for me to say this, I still hope that you can take good care of Matsuzaka-san, and at least set an example as a parent."

He looked at his surroundings.

After cleaning, the whole room was clean and tidy.

After ventilation, there is no odor anymore.

If Matsuzaka Sayuri could act like such a guardian earlier.

Presumably Matsuzaka Sugar will not become the emotionless girl she is today.

But Nango Shi's words aroused a little resistance from Sayuri Matsuzaka: "I have always loved sugar."

yes.

She has always loved Matsuzaka Sugar.

Whether it's education or other things that girls should have... let the other party have them.

Elementary school, junior high school and even high school.

She bears almost all the tuition fees alone.

"I've already worked so hard, so why should I be dissatisfied with Sugar-chan?"

Sayuri Matsuzaka's cabbage-blue eyes stared at Nango.

She really couldn't figure out what else she could be dissatisfied with about Matsuzaka Sugar.

"Mere material satisfaction cannot satisfy spiritual emptiness, Aunt Sayuri. Do you really think you have done a good job? Or, do you really love her?"

Nanxiang Shi asked her calmly.

"Of course I love sugar, and I have done my best."

If it comes to other issues, Sayuri Matsuzaka has no intention of giving in.

Comparing herself with her own, she felt that she had done her best.

but--

"Is this really the case?"

Nanxiang raised his head, looked steadily at Sayuri Matsuzaka in front of him, and slowly asked the next question:

"If that's the case, why doesn't Matsuzaka-san refuse to let you have contact with her friends? Even after she has enough independence, she is unwilling to live with you?"

yes.

Sayuri Matsuzaka kept giving Matsuzaka Sugar "love".

But in reality?

However, Matsuzaka Satou was alienated from her and was not even willing to let her interfere with her life circle anymore.

This question is raised.

It really stunned Sayuri Matsuzaka for a moment.

But she spoke quickly.

"That kid just hasn't figured out what love looks like yet."

That's right.

Matsuzaka Sugar just doesn't understand how love is expressed.

There is no doubt that she loves Matsuzaka Satou.

Regarding this issue, even if Nanxiang was standing in front of her, she would never back down.

but--

"If this is really what Aunt Sayuri said. Then why is Aunt Sayuri not willing to give sugar even simple companionship?"

"Why…?"

Matsusaka Sayuri opened her mouth.

"Usually all food is taken out, and the room has not been cleaned. Since you claim to love Matsuzaka-san very much, why are you not even willing to cook a meal for her?"

Nan Xiangshi raised his head.

He had takeout.

Sayuri Matsuzaka also ate takeout.

There isn't any food in the refrigerator.

Presumably Sayuri Matsuzaka has lived such a life from a long time ago.

Matsuzaka Satou lives this life with no ability to live alone.

"That, that's because... I also have my own life... I also have to give love to others -"

When Matsuzaka Sayuri's cabbage eyes looked at Nango, she tried hard to refute.

But the rebuttal voice seemed to become weaker at this moment.

Because Nanxiang Shi started talking again at this time.

"You have satisfied all the desires of others. Is it difficult to give this to her?"

He stretched out his finger and pointed at himself.

"Even if I am a stranger who just came to visit today, you are willing to spend time and energy on me. What about Matsusaka-san?"

"Have you been watching Matsuzaka-san's growth unconsciously with a playful look?"

Nanxiang Shi's voice fell completely.

This made Matsuzaka Sayuri's fingers tremble slightly.

Because just like what was said when I was with Nanxiang.

She had never noticed this all this time.

In other words, she didn't really care about these things... she just lived according to her own ideas...

She thought about when she was about five or six years old.

Matsuzaka Satou, who was wearing kindergarten clothes, once pulled her clothes corner and asked her softly.

"Aunt, do you love me?"

At that time, Matsuzaka Satou's face was full of innocence, and her pink eyes seemed to be bright, which made people pity her.

At that time...how did I answer the question of Sugar standing in the shadow?

Sayuri Matsuzaka has long forgotten.

She only remembered that after she told Matsuzaka Granu the answer, she looked at him with a very teasing look.

She was secretly looking forward to it at that time.

Looking forward to what kind of girl such a clean and pure girl will become when she grows up, and what kind of path she will take.

She is really looking forward to it...

But in that feeling of anticipation...

Have you ever loved Matsuzaka Sugar...?

Or is it all selfishness?

Sayuri Matsuzaka couldn't tell clearly.

But she still didn't want to face high school students like Nanxiang Shi here. Admit that your values ​​have shifted over the decades.

Her lips moved: "I must love her to..."

Bang!

He slapped his palms on the table.

"Sober up! You stupid woman!"

"Well--"

The tone of surprise was prolonged at this moment. When Matsuzaka Sayuri looked at Nango who raised her voice in front of her, the words she just retorted also slowly weakened at this moment.

The mentality that was still stubbornly resisting became weak at this sound.

Did you feel angry when you were in Nanxiang?

He admitted that he did have a point.

Because the attitude shown by Sayuri Matsuzaka in front of her was really too irritating.

The other party is like a big kid who hasn't had enough fun. He just satisfies the hole in his heart and has never really cared about Matsuzaka Sugar.

A long period of indifference.

Perfunctory for a long time.

Just give superficial care.

This is the biggest reason why Matsuzaka Sugar has such a huge emotional void that is almost impossible to fill.

After all, from a certain perspective, Sayuri Matsuzaka is the entire spiritual world of Matsuzaka Satou, who has had no parents since she was a child.

"Aunt Sayuri, you have been satisfying the desires of others. You may not realize that you treat everyone without distinction."

Nanxiang had stood up completely at this time, and looked at Sayuri Matsuzaka, who was silent and confused.

"You were actually Matsusaka-san's only one. But how did you treat Matsuzaka-san?"

Rhetorical question pause.

That's all.

Nanxiang Shi took his own steps and walked out.

Until he closed the apartment door, Matsuzaka Sayuri still didn't say a word in rebuttal.

She sat there in silence for a long time.

Then he stood up unsteadily and went to his room.

She found an old photo album sitting in the corner.

This photo album must have not been used for a long time. The hard paper cover has become wrinkled and the surface has begun to turn yellow.

She held out her hand silently.

Open a corner of the photo album.

There are basically no photos in it.

And among these few photos.

There is one when I was a kid.

Matsuzaka Satou, whose face was full of innocence, looked up at her photo.

"You were actually Matsuzaka-san's only one."

Nanxiang Shi's voice seemed to ring in his ears at this moment.

"Am I ever Sugar's only one...?"

Sayuri Matsuzaka stroked the surface of the photo, with a wry smile on her lips.

She was so focused on filling the hole inside that she didn't notice it.

She just taught Matsuzaka Granu what she thought was the form of "love".

But for a child...

It's just that the almost perfunctory words are completely meaningless.

Sayuri Matsuzaka slowly knelt down.

She has always been focused on filling other people's desires and didn't realize...

It turns out that when Matsuzaka Satou was a child, she already had desires and thoughts that wanted to fill her emptiness.