Not Spare the Years

In the cold evening, the sun has gone down.

Twilight filtered in from the floor-to-ceiling windows, lining the candles on the table, tracing the delicate outlines of each plate of food.

Mu Xueyi looked at the darkening sky outside the window and silently counted the passage of time.

There are many clouds in the sky tonight.

She thought, I'm afraid the moon can't be seen.

The waiter served the last dish, and Shen Huaixing called her softly, "Xueyi, the dishes are ready."

Mu Xueyi turned around, glanced at the sumptuous dinner on the table lightly, and said, "I have no appetite, you can eat it."

"How can you lose your appetite?" Shen Huaixing stood up, sat next to Mu Xueyi from the opposite position, picked up chopsticks and helped her pick up a piece of dessert, "This pumpkin cake is your favorite, don't you remember? The next time I went to other provinces for research, you asked me to bring you a copy of their pumpkin cake. After class, I would sit next to the playground and watch the training of the school flag team while eating. Fortunately, this store has also After driving to Anyang, if you want to eat, I can bring you here often in the future..."

"Did you ask Mu Ruqing to ask me to accompany you to dinner?"

Mu Xueyi's emotionless voice interrupted her.

Shen Huaixing clenched his chopsticks, and the corner of his smiling mouth slowly flattened:

"I said no, do you believe it?"

"...But you are here too." Mu Xueyi stared at Shen Huaixing, "You clearly know that you shouldn't use the Mu family to approach me, but you are still pampering Mu Ruqing."

Shen Huaixing was silent for a moment, then suddenly smiled:

"You're right. I knew it shouldn't be like this, but I didn't say no."

Mu Xueyi clenched his fists.

Shen Huaixing said in a deep voice, "Xueyi, let's talk, okay?"

Mu Xueyi didn't speak.

Shen Huaixing lowered his eyes and looked at the pumpkin crisp on the plate, his voice was very soft: "You may not know that after breaking up with you, I have never regretted it. At that time, I didn't know how to love you. Everyone said, you As a child, the best way to love you is to let go of you. I thought I had fulfilled you, but it took me a long time to realize that I didn't fulfill anyone, I just did a stupid thing."

She paused, "After that, I also tried to be with other people, men, women, and even other students. To be honest, they are all very good, some are richer than you, some are better than you. You are smart, and some people like to eat pumpkin crisps from this store as much as you, but you never ask me to buy them as often as you do, just to prevent me from taking the detours of those two streets."

Mu Xueyi asked softly: "They are all better than me, why can't I be with one of them?"

Shen Huaixing stared at Mu Xueyi and said gently and solemnly:

"No matter how good they are, it's not you."

Mu Xueyi's thumb nail sank into the palm of his hand.

If... Shen Huaixing could have told her this a few years earlier, or if she hadn't broken up with her back then, maybe...

The first love when I was young always has the most beautiful filters and the most uneasy unwillingness in my memories.

Mu Xueyi knew that she truly loved Shen Huaixing. In those years, every night in those years, every confession she wrote with a small lamp in the dormitory bed curtain was evidence that Shen Huaixing existed in her heart.

If Shen Huaixing hadn't left her back then, Shen Huaixing would undoubtedly become the most important person in her life. They may talk about a relationship that needs to be hidden for a few years, and when she graduates, they can openly accept everyone's blessings. In a few years, Uncle Shen will become the principal, and my father will allow this marriage of good match.

But…

There will be no if.

Zhou Zhenyue has already appeared in her life.

Love is one person as the axis and one person hanging in the air. Once her axis was Shen Huaixing, but now she knows very well that there is only one axis that can make her hang in the air.

Zhou pillow month.

Mu Xueyi pushed the plate with pumpkin crisps back to Shen Huaixing, his eyes were calm and firm:

"Forget it, teacher."

The expression on Shen Huaixing's face seemed to be forbearance: "Is this rejection?"

Mu Xueyi nodded: "Yes. I hope you can understand that the past is over. Now... I only love Ayue alone."

Shen Huaixing was silent for a long time.

She suddenly asked, "Why are you so sure that your feelings for Zhou Zhenyue must be love?"

Mu Xueyi was stunned.

She was in a trance for a moment, "What did you say?"

Shen Huaixing said slowly: "I heard your sister say what happened three years ago. I know what happened between you and her. Xueyi, have you ever thought that maybe you don't love her at all?"

Mu Xueyi laughed inexplicably: "What are you talking about?"

Shen Huaixing: "You once owed her, you thought you couldn't let her go, but in fact, you may just not let go of that guilt. When you come back to her now, it's not necessarily that you love her, maybe you heard that she was having a hard time. Good news, there's an urge to make amends. You feel happy being around her because you feel like you're giving her what she wants, and you're happy for what you're doing atonement."

Mu Xueyi tore off the tablecloth at the collar, got up and left with a cold face.

Shen Huaixing: "Don't you dare to listen anymore?"

Mu Xueyi didn't stop: "I just don't want to listen to meaningless nonsense anymore."

Shen Huaixing: "Xueyi, I know you better than anyone else, and Zhou Zhenyue doesn't know you as well as I do. I know that you like someone is not as cautious and timid as you are now, you are so humble now because you are sacrificing To please her with your own dignity, you are simply paying her a debt!"

Mu Xueyi quickened her pace, her voice full of impatience: "Stop talking!"

Shen Huaixing questioned: "In the beginning, your father just asked you to steal documents, but he never forced you to break up with Zhou Zhenyue. If you really love her, why did you leave her three years ago without looking back?! "

Mu Xueyi's back suddenly stopped.

She clenched her fingers, and the light in her eyes flickered.

But it was only two seconds, and after two seconds, the shaking light became extremely firm again.

She turned her head slightly, glanced at Shen Huaixing, and said word by word:

"Even if you're paying your debts, so what?"

Shen Huaixing was stunned.

There seemed to be tears in Mu Xueyi's eyes.

"I don't care. I don't care whether I feel guilty or really like it. I only know that I owe her. In this life, my path is destined to be only one, and that is to live for her.".

After Zhou Zhenyue finished the party, she looked at her watch when she went downstairs, it was half past six.

She said to Xiao Ai, "Check where the nearest Lego store is, and take me there first."

Xiao Ai asked with a smile: "I'm going to buy Lego again. Last time you bought such a big box of Second Miss, you've finished all the spells?"

Zhou Zhenyue pressed the elevator and looked at her watch again, "You have been very busy recently, and you are so interested in my affairs."

Xiao Ai shrank her neck: "I dare not dare."

The nearest Lego store is in a mall. On the way to the mall, Zhou Zhenyue fell asleep leaning against the car window. Xiao Ai looked at her from the rearview mirror and sighed silently.

I don't know why I stayed up all night again.

At the destination, Zhou Zhenyue asked Xiao Ai to drink coffee by herself, and she went to the store alone.

During the rush hour, there are many people in the mall, especially white-collar workers from nearby companies who just got off work. Because it is close to Zhou's, there are also many Zhou's employees in the mall hanging out with milk tea.

People of Zhou Zhenyue's status don't usually go to shopping malls, especially when they just got off work and crowded. Some employees just rubbed their eyes when they saw her, thinking they were dazzled.

Finding the Lego store, Zhou Zhenyue went straight to the counter.

Counter staff: "Hello, what do you need?"

Zhou Zhenyue took out her mobile phone and called up the parts diagrams on the two manuals she took last night: "There are two missing pieces, can you make up for them here?"

Counter staff: "You can apply for a supplement on the official website, and it will be sent directly to your home in about a week."

Zhou Zhenyue: "I want it today."

The counter staff was a little embarrassed, "We may not be able to do it here..." She scratched her head, "If you are really in a hurry, there is an open block pool for children to play with, you can go and find it yourself."

Zhou Zhenyue looked in the direction she was pointing, and saw a group of little kids surrounded a pool full of building blocks, snot bubbling from playing.

"thanks."

She politely thanked her, walked to the building block pool without any hesitation, moved a small stool, found a gap among the little kids to sit down, lowered her head and carefully plucked those fine blocks.

There are so many building blocks that Zhou Zhenyue's eyes are exhausted. After searching for a long time, I finally found a piece and picked it up. A little boy with a round head and a round head next to her stared at her and said, "Sister, I want that."

Zhou Zhenyue looked at the childish face of the little boy, the tenderness in her eyes slowly collapsed, she gently handed out the building block: "Here it is."

The little boy laughed happily: "Thank you, sister!"

"Hey, isn't this President Zhou!"

The company's Xiao Li widened his eyes at the door of the store, looking at Zhou Zhenyue, who is usually aloof and unsmiling, squatting among a bunch of children playing with building blocks, and began to wonder if he was dreaming.

Zhou Zhenyue immediately lowered her head when she heard the sound. She didn't seem to want to chat with him, and said perfunctorily, "Hello."

Xiao Li saw that Zhou Zhenyue didn't want to be recognized, so she winked back "Mr. Zhou, hello", and immediately said "Goodbye, Mr. Zhou", so that she quickly caught the sight of Zhou Zhenyue. disappeared.

Zhou Zhenyue looked into the distance, as if confirming that he had indeed gone far.

The little boy secretly looked at the big sister beside him.

Suddenly he found...

Big sister's ears seem to be turning red.

Zhou Zhenyue found the two building blocks as quickly as she could. After finding them, she quickly left the pile of milky children without any nostalgia.

She clenched the two building blocks in her palm, imagining what Mu Xueyi looked like when she saw them, and she couldn't help but feel satisfied.

Even the embarrassment of being caught by a subordinate just now has been diluted a lot.

When we left the mall, there was a light rain in the night sky.

Zhou Zhenyue thought that she was working in the inner room tonight, and Mu Xueyi was building blocks on the balcony. Open the balcony door and window, and then they can listen to the rain outside the window together.

When he reached the corner of the street in the old house, Zhou Zhenyue was caught off guard and saw a white Audi parked at the door through the raindrop-stained car window.

Zhou Zhenyue stood up straight on the seat, frowning: "Stop."

Xiao Ai immediately parked the car on the side of the road.

Audi's door was opened, and Shen Huaixing walked down first. She held up her umbrella, walked around the car to the passenger seat, and helped open the door.

The next second, Mu Xueyi came out.

Zhou Zhenyue watched Mu Xueyi walk under Shen Huaixing's umbrella, her hand in the coat pocket tightened instantly.

The building blocks in her hand made a green mark on her palm.

The author has something to say: Thank you to the little angel who threw the grenade: 49886276, just 1 small grass;

Thanks to the little angel who threw mines: 498862764; Bai Yisen and Chen Ling 1;

Thanks to the little angel who irrigated the nutrient solution: 20 bottles of skspry; excellent seasons, what year. 2 bottles; 49886276, 1 bottle of Sang Sang;