Not Spare the Years

For the first time, Mu Xueyi realized that she was so unworthy of Zhou Zhenyue.

She had always felt that the words "identity gap" were just a product of self-inflicted harassment. Everyone living in this world is just an ordinary person who needs to eat and sleep.

But now she suddenly realized.

It turns out that there is a real distance between people.

Like clouds and mud, fish and gulls.

Before she met her, Zhou Zhenyue had a wonderful life, sitting on the top of the richest man in Anyang, calling for wind and rain, all-powerful. With a frown, the stability and turbulence of the entire business district can be easily overturned.

But since she forcibly twisted Zhou Zhenyue's lifeline with her own, Zhou Zhenyue began to be ruined.

More and more ruined.

A waste of a good year is here to accompany her as a waste.

To save her from danger.

She was scolded by the insanity.

The hallucination she throws things and scratches her face.

Sitting in the wind and snow, knowing that her health is not good, she still insists on waiting for her to come out.

Just to comfort her lunatic for the first time.

Zhou Zhenyue has changed from a perfect **** to a mortal controlled by emotions, constantly giving up things that shouldn't be given up, and following her step by step into the quagmire.

She seemed to be holding a rope in her hand, and the other end of the rope was tied around Zhou Zhenyue's waist.

She originally wanted Zhou Zhenyue to save her, but in the end, she realized that she had never walked out of the mud, and Zhou Zhenyue... was dragged in by her, and even stepped on her feet.

She even had a brief illusion.

Mistakenly thought that he had found a land where he could stay permanently.

When she collapsed, Zhou Zhenyue was always the first to think of. She was so afraid of losing Zhou Zhenyue subconsciously that if Zhou Zhenyue was really angry, she had no doubt that she could kneel on the ground and beg her to come back.

Zhou Zhenyue really loves her more than she thought.

Zhou Zhenyue really will never leave her.

Even if she hit her with something to "roll", she would only roll so close.

It might be a good thing for her Mu Xueyi.

After all, there was someone who, like a loyal and gentle puppy, would never care how long she kept it out of the door, as long as she was willing to open the door, it would come over and lick her hand.

But what about Zhou Zhenyue?

When they hugged at the door just now, she thought she would feel the warmth in her heart.

However, the truth...was not what she thought.

In her chest, in addition to warmth, there is endless pain and self-blame.

She has been taking temperature from Ah Yue's body.

But what does all this mean to Zhou Zhenyue?

Zhou Zhenyue's dignity, pride, and the independent part of her personality were all thrown away for her Mu Xueyi's sake.

Zhou Zhenyue can do it willingly.

But why is she at ease?

Why does she have peace of mind?

...she based on... what?

There seemed to be some hallucinations in front of him.

The tombstone of Zhou Zhenyue in her previous life, Zhou Zhenyue, who was sitting on the steps not long ago and covered with snow, crossed and overlapped in front of her eyes.

She couldn't help but face a problem.

Death or castration of the pattern of life, which one is more terrifying?

Ayue died for her...

Ayue sacrificed herself for her...

Ayue... can't... not for her Mu Xueyi, only for herself, can you live?

Mu Xueyi bent the corners of her lips bitterly, and the most painful layer of tears in her life filled her eyes.

Zhou Zhenyue didn't speak for a long time after listening to what she just said.

After an unknown time, she raised her hand and took off the warm towel on her forehead, put it aside, and turned to hold Mu Xueyi's hand, and said softly:

"You know that I love you in this life, and you can't say anything in the next life."

Mu Xueyi smiled quietly, wiped away the moisture from the corners of her eyes, and her eyes revealed a bit of relief.

"Ayue, take your medicine first."

"Um."

Zhou Zhenyue obediently got up to get the medicine on the bedside table.

Mu Xueyi held her shoulders, instead of letting her get up, she took the medicine by herself, took out two capsules with one hand, and fed them into Zhou Zhenyue's mouth.

She brought the water cup again, put it on Zhou Zhenyue's lips, and said softly, "Drink it quickly, it will be bitter when it melts."

Seeing Mu Xueyi taking care of herself so obediently, Zhou Zhenyue's heart seemed to be rubbed, extremely soft.

She took the rim of the glass, took a sip of water, and swallowed the capsule on the tip of her tongue.

"Then drink the syrup." Mu Xueyi picked up the syrup jar and fed it to Zhou Zhenyue's mouth again.

The syrup is sour, with a strange smell of grass, Zhou Zhenyue couldn't help frowning when she drank it.

Mu Xueyi immediately took a toffee, peeled it off, and placed it on Zhou Zhenyue's lower lip.

Zhou Zhenyue opened her mouth and took the toffee.

I thought that Mu Xueyi would take her hand away after feeding the candy, but the index finger, along with the toffee, was sent into her mouth and directly touched her tongue.

Zhou Zhenyue instinctively pursed her lips and asked vaguely:

"what are you doing…"

Mu Xueyi lowered her eyes and smiled lightly: "It turns out that the person who has a fever has such a hot tongue."

Zhou Zhenyue looked at Mu Xueyi whose eyes became ambiguous, her throat moved slightly, and she swallowed the saliva that had been stirred.

Mu Xueyi's fingertips retreated to Zhou Zhenyue's lips, pressing down, forcing the other party to open his teeth and kiss him.

Instead of starting with the friction of the lips, as before, it directly penetrated the tongue, and was tightly entangled with Zhou Zhenyue's.

Zhou Zhenyue didn't respond at first, and the fever made her a little slow.

After reacting, she immediately turned her head to avoid Mu Xueyi.

"I'm sick, and it's going to infect you."

Mu Xue's clothes hooped Zhou Zhenyue's chin, turned her face back, and continued to kiss her.

While kissing, he said vaguely, "Ayue, unbutton my buttons."

"Xueyi..." Zhou Zhenyue put her hands on Mu Xueyi's shoulders, wanting to push but didn't dare to push, "Don't...today is not the best time."

Mu Xueyi kissed Zhou Zhenyue's ear, panted in her ear, and asked:

"Where do you want to be? On the bed, or in the hot spring pool?"

"The hot spring pool in the yard was replaced with clean water today. I haven't soaked in it yet. Ayue, do you want to do it there?"

Zhou Zhenyue's heart began to beat wildly, and every word that Mu Xueyi spat out of her mouth was provoking her desires, tearing at her modesty, and melting her sanity.

But her final bottom line is still forcing her to refuse precariously:

"I will infect you..."

Mu Xueyi bit Zhou Zhenyue's earlobe, her voice trembling.

"Then spread it to me. Your disease and everything you have, give it to me. Let me and you become a real person, and let me... be full of your Zhou Zhenyue's breath, okay?"

Zhou Zhenyue's remaining poor rationality was completely destroyed.

No one can refuse the current Mu Xueyi.

Neither can God.

What's more, she is a mortal who has already fallen to Mu Xueyi.

She held down the back of Mu Xueyi's head and kissed it forcefully, her lips and tongue rolling out a clear and charming voice.

Mu Xueyi said vaguely: "You want to be in bed..."

Zhou Zhenyue closed her eyes, her eyelashes were curling up, "No." She vaguely denied it.

After this lingering kiss was over, Zhou Zhenyue got up and got out of bed, hugged Mu Xueyi, and strode straight out of the door.

Out the door, through the snowy courtyard, to the steaming hot spring pool.

Zhou Zhenyue put Mu Xueyi down and let her sit on the edge of the pool.

It was too cold at night, and Mu Xueyi was very thinly dressed. She was shrunk by the cold wind, and her frozen red toes curled into a ball.

Zhou Zhenyue's skin was pink at this time, but she still suppressed her impulse and asked:

"Are there any exposed wounds on your body other than your little finger?"

Mu Xueyi shook his head.

Zhou Zhenyue bent down and hugged her again.

He didn't pick it up completely, but raised it by about ten centimeters and sent it forward slightly, letting Mu Xueyi sink into the hot spring pool.

When most of the other party's body was immersed in, she grabbed Mu Xueyi's right hand with her broken finger, pressed it on the pool table, and said, "No matter how difficult it is for a while, this hand will be placed here and not allowed to move."

Mu Xueyi stared at Zhou Zhenyue, her eyes bent: "Okay."

She lowered her voice and tilted her head, her wet hair rippling in the hot spring water, "Don't worry, I've always... been very obedient."

Zhou Zhenyue looked at Mu Xueyi like this, her eyes reddened.

His eyes were burning like a wolf burning in hunger.

She supported the edge of the pool, jumped down, and entered the hot spring pool herself.

A pool of hot water swayed back and forth, and snowflakes floated into the pool, fell on their hair, and melted into the endless warm water.

Zhou Zhenyue stood in the water, walked in front of Mu Xueyi, and whispered, "...Untie your clothes."

Mu Xueyi leaned against the wall of the pool, with his right hand hanging lazily outside, his chin still soaked with water, and smiled softly, "Be careful, I like this shirt very much, don't tear off the buttons, okay?"

The more Mu Xueyi was like this, the more moved Zhou Zhenyue was.

The wildness hidden in the bottom of my heart was completely aroused by Mu Xueyi's weakness.

She lowered her head and kissed Mu Xueyi, grabbed the collar of the other's shirt with both hands, and tugged fiercely.

From top to bottom, rows of wooden buttons crackled into the water.

None were spared.

Mu Xueyi smiled helplessly: "Why..."

Zhou Zhenyue kissed her and gasped lightly: "I'll give you another one tomorrow."

Mu Xueyi raised her head, looked at the snowy night sky, felt Zhou Zhenyue's kiss on her ear, and smiled again.

"Forget it, I won't ask you to pay."

She murmured softly.

Zhou Zhenyue took off while kissing, and soon, there was no clothing on them.

The kiss went all the way down, and the water couldn't stop it.

Zhou Zhenyue sank into the water.

Mu Xueyi leaned against the edge of the hot spring pool, staring closely at the heavy snow in the night sky in the distance, watching them fly and roll over a layer of mist, as if there were nothing, like a dream.

She closed her eyes, as if... there were water plants entangled in her thighs.

Bind her, drag her, drag her down.

All the while... sinking.

into the dark bottom.

There, a beautiful flower bloomed.

The next morning.

The snow dwindled and drifted lazily into the window lattices.

It landed on the platform, and before it accumulated or melted, it swayed away in the wind again.

Zhou Zhenyue woke up dimly on the big bed in the room.

She had a bad fever last night, but fortunately she sweated a few times and took the medicine, and now the fever has subsided.

The memory of last night was crazy like a dream.

Especially when she was ill, her brain was not very clear, plus the activities that lasted all night, from the pool to the bed, time and time again, and then she was so tired that she fell asleep on the pillow.

snow suits…

Zhou Zhenyue blinked in distress, touched the position beside her, and called, "Xueyi."

The hands are empty.

She turned her head, only to find that there was nothing around her.

An unspeakable feeling suddenly hit him.

Intuition seemed to realize that something was wrong.

Zhou Zhenyue woke up immediately, got up from the bed, and walked towards the bathroom while putting on her clothes.

Open the bathroom door, it is empty.

Not only was there no one, but there were no towels and toothbrushes on the shelves.

Zhou Zhenyue was stunned for several minutes.

She didn't seem to believe her guess, and turned over the other corners of the room, the wardrobe, the bedside table, and the desk.

Some things are still there, like some bloated clothes and big bottles of lotion.

Some things are completely gone.

Such as computers, chargers, and all financial related books.

Zhou Zhenyue didn't stand still and staggered a small step.

She hasn't reacted to it yet.

After a long trance, she finally remembered that she should call Mu Xueyi immediately.

She took out her mobile phone, swiped her sweaty fingertips several times before unlocking the phone screen, first clicked on the dial, and dialed Mu Xueyi.

A second later, the polite customer service voice in the receiver prompts: Your call cannot be connected.

She clicked on WeChat immediately.

There were three new messages in Mu Xueyi's dialog box.

Zhou Zhenyue closed her eyes, took a deep breath, forced her consciousness, and clicked in.

No tirade of her love letters, no watering, no rambling.

It's just thin, dozens of words.

Zhou Zhenyue stared at the screen.

Almost as soon as I saw the three messages, tears streamed down the ends of my eyes.

[Ayue, in fact, you and I both understand that I can never live without you in my world. 】

[But I hope you understand more. 】

[In your world, there should be no more me. 】

She gritted her teeth, typed the word "come back" tremblingly, and clicked send.

But immediately, a dazzling red exclamation mark jumped out.

[The other party has turned on friend verification, and you are not his (her) friend yet. 】

The author has something to say: let me talk about it

Xueyi already has [mental illness and emotional disorder], so she is paranoid and goes to extremes. Her actions should not be measured by the three views of a normal person.

Later, I will write that she went to the psychiatrist for diagnosis and treatment.

p.s It will be a year after they meet again, and Zhou Zhe will be blackened to a certain extent

Thanks to the little angel who threw the rocket launcher: he lives in Beifushan, and has one strange sister, AhLian;

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: Chen milk, meat buns, a mung bean k, Chen Ling, just a little grass, a little gingerbread, and 1 Suian;

Thanks to the little angel who irrigated the nutrient solution: 30 bottles of Hanhan; the mice in the movie hall were lost. There were 10 bottles in the past; 5 bottles of Xiaojizi; 1 bottle of Jue, now more fun;