I Will Be the Son of Man

"But you, despite destroying my meaning, did not deal the final blow to me."

Julius raised his head and looked straight at the boy.

"Yeah, unlike everyone else, you've been looking directly into my eyes the whole time."

"No matter how dark it is, even standing in the abyss of despair, those eyes have a strong light."

"Really, it's really enviable to jealous..."

The man who was the assassin finally showed a relieved smile.

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"Ah....... Lost."

In the sixth battle, Tohsaka Rin looked down at his eroded arm, his face was very calm.

"Sorry, Master, for playing so poorly at the end."

Rin Tohsaka's follower, Lancer, Cu Chulainn had an apology on his face.

"No, you and Caster are evenly matched. It's just that I didn't reach that point, and it's me who should apologize."

Rin Tohsaka shook his head, but did not blame the other party.

In those words, there was no nostalgia or regret, and he simply accepted the consequences of fighting with all his strength.

"However, losing to you has never occurred to me since the first meeting."

"Speaking of which, I said it before, please be aware."

"I hope you can answer again. As a loser, I will listen carefully."

"Who are you now? Are you a human being without confusion and will? Or, are you still looking for answers?"

Turning his head to look at the boy, Tohsaka Rin stared at him.

"I am, human."

After going through many life-saving battles, the young man's words are clear, and he has no confusion.

"Very well, then, even if I die, don't make strange moves."

Rin Tohsaka smiled, obviously her whole body was gradually disappearing.

"I'm a little tired after caring too much about the battle after that. Now, I can rest assured."

"However, since I participated in the Holy Grail War, it is only natural to have the consciousness of death. At that time, I must have done it with regret."

"However, once I think about it, I become very calm... probably thanks to you."

"Even if you don't get the Holy Grail, if someone defeats Leo, it will cause a great delay to the Harvey family's domination on Earth."

"Although there is no Master who can trust such a level of power, but for some reason, if it is you, I think it can be done."

"Obviously the Master was like a little sheep at first, but now he is strong enough to reach the Holy Grail. If it is you, even if the opponent is Leo..."

Speaking of this, Tohsaka Rin suddenly understood something.

"Ah, that's right. From the time I thought about it, I've already lost."

"It doesn't matter if you lose. No matter how you think about it, there is no reason to win, ah, you failed..."

While Tohsaka Rin was saying these words, her figure gradually became thinner.And her servant, without saying a word of death, just disappeared.

And she will soon follow in her footsteps.

"Ah, by the way...... Do you like children?"

"Although I don't particularly like it, I always feel a little happy when I see a child's smiling face."

"After the Holy Grail War is over, I'm sure you'll see a lot of smiling faces...you should go see it for my own sake."

With a soft smile on her face, the girl disappeared from this world.

******

"Ah, is that right.....It's unbelievable, but I seem to have reached my limit."

The opponent in the final battle, Leo hugged his eroded arm, and smiled as if he had understood it.

"I never imagined defeat, no, there is no such function at all."

"Because I only know victory, so I haven't learned the feelings after defeat."

"It's not without lack, it's just that I haven't felt fear."

"I have never held such a heart... for granted..."

Although the soliloquies sounded sad, Leo had a smile on his lips.

While welcoming the death brought about by defeat, he savored joy.I'm afraid it's the very trivial joy of achievement just like human beings.

His body like that is slowly losing its pigment.

"The feeling I hold now, the fear is illogical, and the resistance is irrational..."

"'One more time', 'I won't lose again next time'... Well, it's complicated, but it's a good feeling."

"The rise of those who can't stay, the simple 'don't want to give up', can be such a powerful force."

"There is unwillingness, there is also sadness, and there is also the fear of facing death."

"And... are you persistent..."

Leo looked at the boy opposite and murmured.

"I have never understood the true meaning of these feelings before. How stupid. Such a person can't lead people at all."

Leo looked at his servant, the knight of the sun, Gawain.

"Gao Wen, you know it. In order to become a real king, what is missing."

"My lord, no, O king, I..."

Gao Wen hesitated to speak, but was stopped by Leo.

"Well, I understand, Gawain."

"Even though you know defeat is necessary, you still swung your sword with all your might to win me."

"Bet your life and do your loyalty to me."

"For the time of my defeat that will come sooner or later, I took care of my growth knowing that that time will definitely come."

"Although it is a very unreasonable way of life, I would like to express my sincere thanks to you."

Leo looked at his knight with gentle eyes, and said sincerely.

"I wouldn't have noticed without you."

"I will only treat this natural defeat as a purely accidental defeat, and let it be ruthlessly discarded."

Gao Wen raised his head, and replied with a serious face.

"No, king, as long as it is your words, I will accept no matter what kind of defeat it is."

"I just offered the sword to you as a knight, your growth is something that comes from your heart. But..."

"Now, I am honored to be able to witness its growth. You are a real, honorable king."

Respecting his master from the bottom of his heart, Gawain lowered his head slightly like a knight receiving the canonization.

The knight who dedicated everything to Leo just disappeared in place.

After staring at the direction where Gawain disappeared, Leo turned and looked at the boy opposite him. There was a line of tears in his eyes that were different from usual but appropriate for his age.

"I hate it, I'm afraid of the cold body temperature... This is the lowest feeling of human beings, is it despair..."

"Even something so simple, I don't know."

Leo's voice was sad.

"However, this defeat... is necessary for my kingly way..."

"I can't walk down the road I've been climbing, and I can become a complete king just because I know the defeat..."

"Just now, it's a pity that it can't be used..."

Leo's expression became calm, his eyes looked at the boy, as if he wanted to find something from the other's clear eyes.

"Then, as you who also have the qualifications of a king, what are the necessary things..."

"...So that's the case, have you lost something important once, is this the gap between me and you..."

A boy born as an ideal king left this world with enlightenment.

———[Memory ending dividing line]———

"Honey! Honey..."

Warm tears fell on his face and slid down to the ground. Hill stared blankly at the sky, the golden light in his pupils gradually fading.

The gap in the chest has already been soaked in the gushing blood.Pain or something, I couldn't feel it as early as the first moment.

——A flower of blood bloomed under the pure white boy.

The revolving lantern in his mind was coming to an end, and his breath gradually weakened.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry....... If at that time, it was me who attacked next......"

He is obviously the most frightening big demon fox in history, but now, Tamamo-mae is sobbing and crying like a little girl whose candy stick has been broken.She kept using healing spells, but to no avail, with the deepest despair on her face.

In the distance behind her, a man in a white coat, black hair, gray pupils, and glasses watched all this expressionlessly.

Beside the man, the Bodhi-colored Buddha, suspended in the air and sitting in cross-legged lotus, clasped his hands, looked at all this with compassion but without mercy, with compassion but without mercy.

do not Cry.........

For a moment, I thought of the lonely figure who always liked to sleep in his arms and stayed alone in the imaginary space.

Hill's finger moved slightly, but he had lost the strength to lift it up again.

Is this... dead?

It is different from the biting coldness when you go to the underworld in Greece, and it is also different from the emptiness when you are in the underworld in Uruk...

The feeling of death is like the whole person is being slowly eaten, and the consciousness of the whole body is falling into the stomach of eternal darkness.