Are You Born Again?

Hikigu thought so, completely ignoring the young lady staring at him at the reception desk, walking quickly in the empty corridor, he pressed the elevator button, stepped up again, took out his mobile phone to confirm where Kasumigaoka Shiwa was Floor, and soon he got this information: the fifth floor—Room 516.

Damn, the communication between people is always so troublesome, either something happens to you, or other people's desires are dissatisfied.He thought viciously, put the phone back into his pocket, turned around to stare at the clean metal compartment of the elevator, and pinched his face hard.

It's day, I have to laugh!It was only then that Hikigu remembered that Kasumigaoka Shiyu was a patient with severe depression, and this was the opportunity for him to meet this woman. What happened at that time?Thinking about it, Xiazhiqiu Shiyu was standing by the window of the apartment corridor, and was scared by someone's roar, and was about to jump out of the window, a full fifteenth floor!A mouse would die if it fell down, the kind that would be smashed to pieces, let alone a grown woman!

Extreme depression prompted her to make this reaction, a very stupid move, completely subconscious, Hikigu still remembers what the doctor said: This is what happens in the final stage of severe depression. When stimulated, the whole person will immediately start to act. There are dangers around them, but their reactions are different from normal people-this group of people avoids any risks by putting themselves out of the way.

All fools know how to quit the game of life OL and commit suicide. The scary thing is that severe depression does not want to die, not at all, it is even full of desire for life and a yearning for a better life, so depression is a disease, she is sick!It is impossible to judge normally.

I can't stimulate her!Not at all!Hikigu told himself again and again whether that person was a bucket willing to accept garbage, or his predecessor. At that time, he lost his wife and was decadent, and all the sewage was poured into Xiazhiqiu Shiyu's body. It's my turn!

Hikigaya Hachiman stepped out of the elevator, just as he had decided just now, with a cheerful smile on his face at this moment, as if he could melt the strongest piece of ice in the harsh winter.

He became nervous, his heart beat faster, he walked to the door of Kasumigaoka Shiyu's room, stood there motionless, and tried his best to dispel the last trace of darkness in his heart, leaving only the bright side.

Hikigu felt that he was wearing a white dress, the kind that people couldn't see, and there was a pair of wings behind him. He was taking on his role, that's right - an angel in white.

Five minutes later, he reached out and knocked on the door.

Only then did he realize that the door was not closed, and opened as soon as he knocked.

"Ahem..." The room was so smoky that Bi Qigu couldn't help coughing. There was a strong and pungent scent that permeated every corner of the air. It was arranged by a love hotel. It would inflate the desires of men and women. Experience better times when having sex.

This room is not big, and there is a bed in the center. The cushions are pink, and the pillows are red, in the shape of a heart, which is exactly the same as the shape of the bed.

There was a lot of water on the ground, spreading out from the bathroom, a wet footprint reached the side of the heart-shaped bed, and looking up, Kasumigaoka Shiwa was sitting there, all wet, her hair as smooth as black pearls condensed into lumps, The hair tips stick to the white and tender skin like glue pinched into branches.

In her arms, she held a bottle of bamboo crane for 21 years without opening the cap. She carefully protected the bottle between her legs. She was wearing a simple bathrobe, but it was all wet, sticking to the sexy body. Alluring carcass.

Through this scenery, Hikigaya Hachiman seemed to see himself many years ago. When he was still decadent, his memory told him that it was the scene after he confessed his love to the girl who was his first love in the second grade of junior high school and was declined.

Everything in the love hotel is satirizing this woman, but the whole scene complements each other, outlining a hopeless [Along the River During the Qingming Festival].

Some people have said that the world of depression is colorless. At this moment, Kasumigaoka Shiwa gave Hikigu the feeling that it was red, scaring red, like the brightest blood.

Hikigu Hachiman stood there for 2 minutes, and Kasumigaoka Shiwa remained the same, neither raising nor lowering his head, looking straight ahead, as if he was not breathing, and his face was frighteningly pale.

Thinking of the many doubts he had at the beginning, all of them were said over the phone, Hikigu couldn't help but feel a chill go straight to the sky, he suspected that he had just murdered someone.So much so that he didn't even know how to speak.

"Ah, are you here?"

"I am coming……"

"You came slowly."

"I should have come earlier."

Like Kasumigaoka Shiwa's close friend and girlfriend, Hikigu went straight to the bed, sat down on her buttocks, and wiped the water stains on her body with a bath towel.

Time is terrible. It turned a woman into this. He smiled and said, "What do you want? I'll buy it for you. What are you doing now?"

Kasumigaoka Shiwa turned her head blankly, stared straight at Hikigaya, and said, "I should be writing a novel now? But if I start writing now, they will definitely trouble me again. Should I write? "

He suddenly discovered that he knew nothing about Xia Zhiqiu Shi Yu's high school days.What is she doing, what is she thinking, who is that man she once liked?

How can you judge a person if you don't know anything about her?Hikigaya chewed on this sentence over and over again, and thought of another sentence - at least I know her present and future.

"You write, why don't you write? Won't you be happy when you write it? As for what you're worried about—I want to say that writing it doesn't mean publishing it, have you forgotten?" Bi Qigu paused: "No ambition The author is just unwilling, many manuscripts are stored in the computer, there is no chance of publication, this manuscript is only known to you, oh, and me."

Xiazhiqiu Shiyu pursed her lips and asked, "Then—you write with me?"

Bi Qigu nodded: "Okay! I will write with you. You use the computer and I use the mobile phone. You write for half an hour to compare with me to see who writes more words, and we spell."

"Okay!" Xiazhiqiu Shiyu began to write a novel.

Hikigaya also began to write: Suppose I want to break a person, just hitting her is not enough, after one round of blows, the second round must be seamlessly connected, then I can't do it alone, I need the power of the masses, Let the crowd unleash countless blows on the man, and the man will be broken, more broken than coffee beans in a blender.

Half an hour passed quietly, during which time Hikigu stopped after writing the first sentence, staring at Kasumigaoka Shiyu intently; she also stared intently at the screen in front of her, firmly embedded her heart in the book, wantonly Express every emotion of yourself on the battlefield of words.

Hikiguya observed Kasumigaoka Shiyu's writing, and realized one thing: he really realized the feeling of pen sharpness like a knife, this woman is an undoubted genius. ;Her thoughts are refined through emptiness, and every bit of emotion is expressed in words through strong pen power.It is also because of this that the despair is magnified countless times, which is enough to be called a "Raliyah manuscript" in the novel world, which will pollute the reader's spirit.

Hikigu couldn't help bowing down to her talent.It’s so strong, it makes people despair, this is just the most intuitive feeling; when God closes a door for people, he will open a window at the same time. If this world is a picture scroll, Kasumigaoka Shiwa at this moment is the darkest one in it. one point. ;If the world is a dark night, then she is the brightest star in the night.

Half an hour passed, not less than a minute and a second, Xia Zhiqiu Shiyu raised his head: "It's time, show me yours."

"I deleted it, and I'm allowed to play tricks, because I lost." Bi Qigu raised his hand in a bachelor, and threw the phone on the bed, revealing the sentence he wrote before, only three words: I admit defeat.

Then he said, "Show me what you wrote." In fact, he had already read it.

Xiazhiqiu Shiyu's face showed a very reluctant expression.

Biqigu smiled: "Are you a writer? - You are. Writer's book must be published? - Now Biqigu Publishing House helps you publish it. If it is published, you have to sell it for money?"

He paused, "Hikigu Hachiman wants to read a book, now I ask you to buy it. Here is 1000 yuan. I can't afford the limited edition of the first edition. It will cost [-] to [-] yuan, so I can only buy a library Ben! Biqigu Publishing House is bankrupt! I’m poor.” He took out a [-]-yuan coin and threw it over.

Xiazhiqiu Shiyu showed no reluctance, and pushed the notebook over, "Then read it."

He tried his best to tell some cold jokes and pretend to be funny, feeling very tired, so Bi Qigu simply blanked out his vision, pretending that he was reading a book, thinking about the actual content of this half hour in his mind.

"It's over." Five minutes later, Hikigaya Hachiman closed the screen of his notebook.

Xiazhiqiu Shiyu stared nervously at Hikigu, for fear of hearing a rebuke from him.For a while, she felt that the whole world was targeting her. On blogs, LINE, and light novel libraries, there were abuses and denunciations everywhere, targeting her novels, and even targeting herself. Maliciousness came from all directions. She seemed to be in the There is no place in the ocean of evil in this world that is not black.

"It's beautiful." Hikigu concluded with a smile: "It's really beautiful, please allow me to say a bad word-it's so fucking beautiful!"

"Does it look good?" Xiazhiqiu Shiyu showed violent mood swings for the first time: she was shocked.

PS: Rebirth means different things to everyone.

Chapter 10

"I remember, haven't you improved a lot?" Hikigu asked.

"Yeah, this..." Xia Zhiqiu Shiyu was a little worried: "..." Then he sat on the spot without saying a word.

Hikigu Hachiman tries hard to recall the past, Kasumigaoka Shiwa is not exactly the same as now, at least after licking each other's wounds with himself for many years, he can gradually go out to meet people, and also plans to try to write a new book, that is a fantasy adventure In the story, Xiazhiqiu Shiyu is avoiding herself, trying to insert herself into a different world. ——But she can no longer write words related to love, even if it is a

Sometimes I envy your talent, just like the huge, dazzling and bright lights on the dance floor of a banquet, attracting people to gather below.This is the most apt analogy Hikigu could think of—then the lights went out, and the men and women on the dance floor were shocked, and then they jumped into a rage, loudly questioning the organizers, but they paid the money, although it was only 1000 yen to [-] yuan It doesn't matter, but it's handed over anyway, you have to give me an explanation.

Half a minute later, Hikigaya Hachiman stood in the bathroom and sat on the toilet seat. The central air conditioner was turned off. It was so cold, the toilet seat was really cold.

He took out his cell phone and started making calls, which rang and Lima answered.

Xiazhiqiu Shiyu's voice sounded inside: "Didn't you ask me before...has it improved a lot? Yes, it is true, Hikigu-kun, after I woke up a week ago in the morning, I found myself sitting in the library for sale. The venue of the meeting." Now, her voice is much smoother.

Rejection of oneself, rejection of others.Hikigu thought of this, on the deserted plain, Kasumigaoka Shiwa is just a melancholy girl, but if a mirror appears in front of her, she will start to panic, if there are many people standing beside her, this The woman would squat down and hug her head, trembling all over.

"You're telling me... what happened to you." Hikigu frowned, rationally he didn't ask the depressed patient.

Especially when the problem is about to touch the depths of such people's hearts.

"That's right, Mr. Hikigu, I met someone."

"Oh, then when I met you, I was already 28 years old, so I definitely don't know about your high school relationships."

"At this point in time, my second volume was released. It was a book called Love Metronome. He asked me to argue, but I really didn't know what to say-yes, I was also very dissatisfied. Why did I Can I write something so ridiculous? I feel sick to myself that I wrote this book when it was Longinus who took up the spear and stabbed Jesus but stabbed himself."

"I see." Hikigu hung up the phone.

The reason of the matter has been clarified. He has been very careful in contact with Kasumi Hill Shiyu these years, and he will never show a strong attitude and attack her with words. At least don't get in touch with the person who made her sad again, and experience some happy things again.

Because I have been in touch with you for a long time, now I can talk about depression with the professor of the Faculty of Medicine, University of Tokyo, at least for an hour without falling into a disadvantage.I went deep into every corner of a patient with severe depression, her diet; her heart; her life; her feelings.

Hikigu carefully judged that his understanding of human nature and analysis of human beings, on the road of being a writer, has been helped a lot by this woman, and this is also an inseparable part of his heart.

At this time, the phone rang, and Hikigu looked at it and found that it was Yukino Yukino.

"How's things going?" Shino asked.

Hikigu said: "I have figured out the initial situation, but it is a bit troublesome, and now that the last tram is gone, I can't go back tonight."

"..." Xue Nai was silent for a while: "That's good, my sister will sleep with me tonight, so you'd better not come here."

Hikigu smiled: "I'm staying with other women now, don't you have anything to say?" He felt forbidden, and the destructive desire in his heart was vented.

"Mr. Biqigu, you seem to still have a little bit in your heart-I mean: it's really sad to think that I am a 'that' person. I suggest you go to the hospital to take a good look."

Familiar tone, familiar lines... Huh.Hikigaya felt he was healed.

"You're enjoying my insults, aren't you? Mr. Hikigaya, Tou M, Hachiman?"

Biqigu smiled: "By the way, I heard the sound of water. Are you taking a bath? Soaking in the bathtub? How about you take a photo for me to see, from the angle of your legs to..."

Didu... the phone hung up like this, very resolutely, without any hesitation.

To be honest, I am curious about what the body of Yukino was like when she was a girl...He pursed his lips, his face was a little red thinking, although the immature bones are green and their fragrance is not as charming as flowers, but they are always very comfortable to look at.

There was a buzzing sound, and the phone rang. Hikigu picked it up, took a look, and took a deep breath. A MMS message to Mr. Hikigu · Shaking S · Yawata arrived, above... Then the phone rang again.

"Does it look good?" Yukinoshita Yukino's tone seemed like she was evaluating a trash.

"It's beautiful. I will equate it with something. I remember when I went to France, I saw an oil painting of the Virgin Mary. It's similar to that in the Middle Ages."

"Then let me just take it as you are admiring me." Xue Nai's voice had an indescribable smile, "Then, where are you?"

"Is that what you want to ask?" Biqigu looked around: love hotel.

"Say." Xue Nai just said one word.

Hikigu nodded, "I'm in a love hotel with a woman." He was very straightforward.

Chapter 11

I mean, will she jump out of the phone and hit someone?When Hikigu Hachiman thought of this, he felt a little funny, but after weighing the pros and cons, he felt that it was right to do so.

Honesty first, long live honesty!

I have been a very honest person since high school.

You know what a fart, adults are dirty! ——Sakata Gintoki.

Well, Sakata Gintoki is one of Hikiya's favorite characters!

Yukinoshita Yukino was silent for a while, and said, "Do you think who would want to be with you except me and Yui? I'm jealous, Hikigu-kun." Then she hung up the phone.

Hikigu Hachiman suddenly felt a little terrified...

Let's say that.

Even if all the jars of jealousy in this world burst, it's impossible for Yukinoshita Yukino to be jealous!

Biqigu can assert!