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"If you go back, you will have classmates, acquaintances, and maybe you can date young girls..."

"Even if brother can date many girls at the same time, won't he be lonely?"

"Correct."

Liu Shengshuangyue frowned and said, "I don't believe it."

"I'm not lying. When people grow up, they should get married and have children. When they get busy, it doesn't matter whether they are lonely or not."

Bai Wei relaxed his body, pressed his hands on the tatami, leaned back, looked at the ceiling, and smiled helplessly: "It's just..."

"Just what?"

"It's just living with the flow, not so much living, it's more like survival, living by inertia."

Great things I have accomplished.

A long life has been repeated.

It's not that I feel a little tired, but more or less, as if something is missing.

Bai Wei laughed: "Maybe it's just hypocrisy. People don't have to have a goal to live well. Isn't that good?"

Liu Shengshuangyue denied: "It's not good!"

She always thought that her brother seemed to be a different person after going through the Qilin competition.

The outside has not changed, but the inside has completely changed. It is not that the sharpness is introverted, but that the sharpness and fangs have been lost, and the mentality of forging ahead has been completely lost. Have to succumb to the ordinary.

What he lost was not only self-confidence, but also the goal of life.

Dreams are the kindling and the driving force in people's hearts. Once the kindling is extinguished, they will lose their direction, just like a sailing ship has no navigation and cannot find the North Star in the sky.

Whether in the past or the present, she likes any elder brother, but she just doesn't want to see him so frustrated.

She would rather see her brother standing on a high place shining brightly, and then brag loudly to the people around him that this is her brother.

This is also the happiness she imagined.

However, if it cannot be realized after all...

"I just want to know, brother, what exactly do you want?" Liu Shengshuangyue said softly, "It's been so long, haven't you found it yet?"

"what do you want?"

What Bai Wei can think of is probably power, power, wealth, beauty... To put it mildly, it can be replaced by career and love.

But he found that he didn't seem to enjoy these.

The emperor who has been an emperor all his life understands that even if he holds these in his hand, he cannot enjoy it, and every moment is like sitting on pins and needles.

If you have power, you have to think about how to use it; if you have power, you have to care about its price;

Possessing wealth only wants to grab more; as for beauty... let's not mention it.

In the end, he raised his own throne and empire, which is enough to prove that he does not enjoy it from the bottom of his heart, nor does he long for it, and he even wished to throw it out earlier and hand it over to a more suitable person.

Because becoming an emperor means that you have everything, and from now on you can only keep losing.

In the end, he found that he might still enjoy the life he enjoys more now. His family is harmonious, his life is leisurely, he doesn’t have to run around for a living, he does some good deeds occasionally, helps others as much as he can, and finds a beautiful girl with a beautiful body and a double body to eat softly. The meal was perfect.

"Like, no," he said.

"But, I have," she said.

"I have a lot of dreams to achieve."

"I want to rejuvenate the family and comfort the spirits of my parents!"

"I want to win the imperial competition and get a plaque from the general!"

"I want to be a swordsman. I like swordsmanship very much. I want to swing my sword against the sea and smash the tide with my sword energy."

"I also want to go to the Ming Dynasty to see the scenery that I didn't have time to see before, go to the Ise Shrine to receive the congratulations from the palace secretary, see the purple air coming from the east on the Baiyujing, and see the president mountain and Baba in the allied countries. Beta, walk along the Avenue of the Champs Elysees, and listen to the hymns played in the sky theater of the Holy Church..."

"Perfect love, lovely children, walking arm in arm with the person you love the most, walking through the mountains and seas, to see the thousand-year-old ice flowers blooming on the snow-capped mountains."

"I want to achieve all of these."

"Even if it's all achieved, I don't think it's enough."

"I'm still greedy to grab more...every day, treat it as the last day, and try my best to live."

She paused and continued.

"But now I'm still just a student of the Far East University, and I'm far away from any of these goals."

"so……"

"I don't have a brother, it's impossible."

The girl's rhetoric became softer, she stared at Bai Wei, and said each word seriously, but also like a baby.

"I need my elder brother to accompany me, encourage me, and witness me... Otherwise, I will stop halfway, or get frustrated, or get lost."

"Brother is the most important person in my life."

"I hope that when I achieve those goals and dreams, you can witness by my side."

loudly...

Bai Wei can see the light in her younger sister's eyes, which is different from her own. She only lives this life as her last, so she pursues the wonderful.

How greedy...

But this is what a human being should be like.

Bai Wei put his hand on his forehead and laughed happily: "Hahaha..."

Liu Shengshuangyue blushed, "You shouldn't be laughing at me now!"

"It's not ridicule, but gratification." Bai Wei smiled gently: "It's also emotional...my sister is much stronger than me. To be honest, the appearance you just explained seriously is very charming, and I am a little fascinated by it. .”

Liu Shengshuangyue's heart beat faster, she flinched subconsciously, and wrapped her fingers around her hair: "Yeah, it's nothing."

"It's like seeing a superhero appear in a special film." Bai Wei crossed his arms and leaned back tactically.

Liu Shengshuangyue's face collapsed, when the kettle rang, she picked up the kettle and started to brew tea.

No one spoke during the whole process, and when the green tea was handed to Bai Wei, she asked, "Did brother's mood change when we talked about this?"

"Honestly, hardly any."

"Well……"

"Just kidding, your words have inspired me a lot."

Bai Wei turned the teacup with his fingers, picked it up steadily, and blew the white mist over the tea, causing ripples to appear and then subside.

"People, there should always be something to do."

"In order not to wait until the situation is irreversible before regretting it."

"When you are alive, you will inevitably be caught up by the memories of the past. Even so, there is nothing you can't let go of."

He puts down his teacup.

"I drank this bowl of chicken soup."

Occasionally drinking a bowl of chicken soup for the soul will always make people feel extremely fulfilled, and it will also make people bravely take half a step of hesitation.

Liu Shengshuangyue didn't understand what kind of decision Bai Wei had made.

The young man opened his eyes again, and it was no longer his sister who was sitting face to face, but the illusory obsession from the past.

He said, "Come on..."

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Open your eyes and look at it in an instant.

Thousands of years, thousands of years.

Open your eyes and be in the bustling Heian-kyo.

Clothes are scarce, food is scarce, hunger is rumbling, a broken sword is held in hand, and even a piece of steamed bun cannot be exchanged, it is quite miserable.

Shenzhou, Dragon Lord, turmoil, chasing, fleeing, living in seclusion, going to sea, boarding a ship, pirates, fighting, falling into the water...

It's exciting and wonderful, and it's tragic and tragic.

A dignified heroic spirit of the new generation, but ended up in exile overseas.

The principle of the heroic spirit has been broken, and it is impossible to play it again.

As the price of surviving, it is to completely lose the power and noble status of the heroic spirit.

The young man who was raised as a candidate for the four pillars of the world at birth, after losing his strength, status and identity, transformed into a beggar on the road of Heianjing.

The identity of a beggar is the best, and you don't worry about being exposed, and you don't worry about being discovered. What's more, this is Sakurajima, which is not considered desolate, but it is a small country where it is difficult to eat enough, and there is no land for conquest.

So, be safe.

But it is precisely because of the remote mountains and remote areas that it faces a more severe survival crisis.

Yingzhou has lacked compassion for the weak since ancient times, and most refugees will directly become thugs instead of beggars.

Because begging can't get food at all, and it is doomed not to survive the winter, either starving to death or freezing to death on a snowy night.

In order to survive, many people are struggling to survive under the guise of performing arts. Some people are wandering outside, carrying shamisen with them, knocking on the door of different people, playing a song to add to the fun in exchange for a full meal.

The half-crippled boy sat on the street of Heianjing, thinking that he really came to the wrong place. If he was on Chang'an Avenue, after half a day, at least there would be a few copper coins in the bowl, enough to buy some steamed buns.

But after sitting here for three days, I didn't have a single copper coin.

It's better to pick up fruits in the forest to eat, but that will inevitably become the food of some non-human creatures in the forest. Moreover, the forest is the territory of the tengus. They hate humans, and they are easy to be attacked when they get close, even if they are lucky and don't meet the tengus In fact, monsters and ogres are hidden in the mountains and fields far away from human settlements, and they may become gifts of nature.

However, if you continue to sit still, you will starve to death sooner or later.

I didn't expect to die like this this time, it would be better to kill myself with a knife.

He stared at the broken sword in his hand, then noticed the group of stray dogs half a street away, and withdrew the thought.

He can choose to end his pain, choose to start over, and then stubbornly type "very simple", but he can't tolerate not even having a shroud after death, and being reduced to food for wild dogs.

Then struggle for a while.