Fantasies That Descend on Collapse

Finally, in Teresa's drunken dream, she saw the person who had entered her heart again.

She longed to touch the other party, longed to see the other party's smile, and longed for the other party to listen to her heart. Some things had been suppressed in her heart for 14 years. If she didn't express it at this moment, she might collapse.

Because she understands that what appears before her eyes is all a dream, just like the time in the library, she can express her heart without restraint, feel the body temperature of the other party, and let the other party understand her mind.

"Cecilia...do you know...the bishop told me the mission of my existence since I was born. He told me that my mission is to protect these unarmed people."

"I listened to his words and did it. I fought on the front line and used weapons to resist the attack of the Houkai Beast. I thought I would be praised by those people for doing so. The worst thing is to thank you..."

"But I was wrong. They looked at me with only fear in their eyes. In their eyes, I am the same as those monsters. There is a bottomless gap between me and them. They are human beings, and I... .It's a monster..."

"No one will understand me. The only person who will accompany me at that time is the bishop. He is very good to me, but I always feel that something is missing. His attitude towards me is like doting. I don't hate that. It's a feeling, but I definitely don't like that feeling."

"I don't want to follow that mission and live in this world falsely. I want to live in real life, but I don't know what to do. No one has ever told me why I exist..."

"It wasn't until you walked into my world that I felt that I was truly alive. You didn't fear me because of my identity, and you didn't give up approaching me because of my indifference. Only then did I understand What's missing in my life..."

"I lack a friend who can open my heart. I have always been alone. Unknowingly, I am used to loneliness, but Cecilia, it is you! It is you who let me know what is warm and what is alive a feeling of!"

"After you died, I died like you. I would dream of you every night, and you would leave me during the day. This state lasted for a long time, really long..."

"I hate this feeling, I want to be with you forever, I wish I could die immediately, but I know I can't... Your daughter is still alive in this world, I swore with you to protect her of..."

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In this absurd but real dream, Teresa showed her emotions in front of the other party for the first time.

For her, Cecilia is the whole world, she longs to protect the other party, longs to be the shield in front of the other party, and longs to live with her, but in the end these things can only be kept intact in her heart .

The other party already has a family, her own husband, and her own daughter. At best, I can only be regarded as the other party's friend. My original position in the other party's heart has long been replaced by the other two.

Of course, Teresa would feel sad about this, but at the same time, she also sincerely congratulated the other party in her heart, because the person who can protect Cecilia has changed from one person to two people. When the other party faced this cruel world again, their chances of surviving were much greater.

But what I didn't expect was that this day would come so suddenly, so suddenly that Teresa was caught off guard. In just a few hours, the other party's flower of life, which had just bloomed for less than 24 years, withered in Siberia. On the snow field.

After Cecilia passed away, Teresa really understood her feelings for her.

It's not like, it's not attachment, it's not possession, it's a deeper feeling...

"Cecilia, I always thought I just liked you...but I was wrong...I actually fell in love with you a long time ago!"

Standing up straight from the opponent's knee, he covered the opponent's cheek with both hands.

"I'm in love with your voice, in love with your looks, in love with your soul, in love with your tenderness, in love with everything about you..."

Tears kept running across the cheeks, dripping down, the voice began to tremble, and the hands covering the other's cheeks also trembled uncontrollably.

"During the many years you died, I finally understood my feelings for you. I wanted to say this to you personally, but there was no chance. You would never have the chance to hear my voice again, and I And I will never have the chance to see that smile that makes me give everything for it..."

Putting her arms around the other's neck, putting her mouth close to the other's ear, Teresa, who was crying bitterly, finally said what she wanted to say to the other party 14 years ago.

"I love you...Cecilia...I want to protect you, I want to be family with you...I want to be with you until the end of my life..."

Burying her head on the other's shoulder, Teresa expressed her thoughts by crying loudly. In this absurd but real dream, she finally expressed the truest thoughts in her heart.

The matter has come to this point, the result is not very important, she just wants to maintain this state until the dream wakes up.

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During the period of time when Teresa was crying, Luo Chen just hugged her like this, allowing her to vent his emotions.

The crying sound gradually decreased, the trembling body gradually calmed down, and the rapid breathing sound gradually became longer. Teresa fell asleep quietly in the process of crying loudly.

Putting Theresa carefully on the bed, Luo Chen wiped away the tears on her face with a towel.

"It's...a surprising speech... But unfortunately, I am not Cecilia. Although I have the same appearance and memory as the other party, in the final analysis, at this time, I can only It's just a counterfeit similar to Cecilia."

"It's Cecilia you love, not me. Although I have thought about taking on the responsibilities that Cecilia didn't fulfill in the past, the only thing I can't do is feelings..."

"Sorry, Teresa...I can't get Cecilia to respond to your feelings..."

This sentence seemed to be said to two people, one was Teresa who fell into a deep sleep, and the other was Cecilia who had passed away long ago.

But fortunately, Teresa had already fallen into a deep sleep while crying bitterly at this time. In addition, the other party was still drunk. Maybe after the other party woke up, they would regard what happened at this moment as a real one. Where is my dream...

"Please treat all of this as a dream... Good night... Teresa..."

After wiping away the tears on Teresa's face, Luo Chen was about to turn around and find a place to hide, but found a situation that caught him off guard...

Now, Teresa, who fell into a deep sleep, unknowingly grasped his hair tightly with her hands. No matter how hard he tried, there was no way for Teresa to let go of his tightly held palm.

"This is really...too troublesome..."

Chapter 32

The rising sun in the sky slowly rises from the end of the horizon, tearing away the sky covered by night, and the rising sun enters the room through the windows, dispelling the darkness entrenched in the room.

Even so, the only person in the room didn't have the slightest idea of ​​waking up.

Teresa lay curled up in the middle of the bed, her eyes closed tightly, the pillow on the bed lost its original function and she was hugged in her arms, her naked feet poked her head out of the quilt mischievously , The delicate and smooth skin looks extraordinarily fair under the sun's rays.

The sleeping Teresa had a peaceful expression, and her neatly combed long hair became messy after a night, and her two cherry lips opened and closed unconsciously with her gentle breathing.

Time seems to be frozen at this moment. The combination of the sleeping girl and the slightly weak sunlight forms a wonderful scene in this ordinary room.

Then a soft hum broke the long silence in the room.

After another soft snort, Teresa, who was sleeping soundly, turned over with the pillow in her arms and hugged the pillow tightly in her arms. After doing all this, she slowly opened the tightly closed eyes.

Teresa woke up. She sat up from the bed with her pillow in her arms, and covered her aching head from the hangover with her hands. As she gradually regained consciousness, she gradually remembered what she had done in the dream. .

"Wow!!!"

There was a meaningless sound in her mouth, Teresa buried her head in the pillow she was still holding in her arms until now, under the influence of shame in her heart, her face buried in the pillow began to slowly heat up , and then rolled unnaturally on the bed.

Teresa, who was fully awake, already remembered the absurd and stupid words she said in her dream after she was drunk.

At this moment, Teresa was completely unable to calm down, swallowed by shame, she could only desperately bury herself in the only thing she could find at hand.

Even in a dream, even if these words are what she really thinks, but there is no way, some words are destined to be hidden in the depths of her heart forever, even the closest people have no right to know.

Teresa, Teresa...what the hell are you thinking about!

Poking her head out of the pillow, Teresa, lying on the bed blushing, recalled what she had done in the dream angrily.

Not to mention that my best friend Cecilia has passed away for many years, even if she is still alive in this world, it is absolutely impossible for me to say such bold words to her.

Because the other party has already had a family, a lover, and a child of her own, and to her, she can only be regarded as a relatively close friend, let alone...

Both myself and the other party are women... There is no possibility between the two of them.

"But... Cecilia... I really miss you..."

Although she was a little ashamed of her bold declaration of love in the dream, Teresa still inevitably missed Cecilia.

Originally, Teresa thought that she had stepped out of the shadow of that year, but what she didn't expect was that after so many years, she could see the shadow of Cecilia in this world again.

Whether it's the Fourth Herrscher, or the dream she saw in the library...all of these stir Theresa's heart all the time, making her inevitably think of what can be said to be the most beautiful thing in her life. Important person.

However, if the other party is still alive and has not found the other half of his destiny, maybe he will really woo her...

"Oops... eh? Is this... my hair?"

She hammered her head heavily with her hand to interrupt her wild thoughts. While screaming in pain, Teresa also found what she was holding tightly in her hand.

In the center of her palm lay a few strands of snow-white hair quietly. The first time she saw these hairs, Teresa associated them with her own hair, after all, her hair was also white.

She touched her hair with some concern, and checked it carefully from top to bottom, but no matter what, Teresa didn't find any missing parts of her hair.

"Aren't these hairs mine?"

Looking carefully at the white hair in his hand, the incision of the hair is very flat, it looks like it was cut off with a sharp weapon, and judging from the texture of the hair, the owner of the hair seems to be a woman.

wait a minute...female?Why is there hair left by other women in my room?

Suddenly thinking of this question, Teresa looked around vigilantly, for fear that there were people hiding in the room who would plot against her.

Then she saw a completely different layout from her own room, and the door frame that lost the door, and the missing door was carefully placed aside.

"Here...where is it?"

From waking up until now, Teresa finally realized that she was not in her own room, but now in a room that she knew nothing about.

Clutching her head, she thought about what she did after drinking last night, but in the end she only remembered the memory before she walked out of the office.

After throwing the pillow in her arms to the side, Teresa looked for her shoes and socks beside the bed, and after getting dressed impatiently, she rushed out of the room and came to the living room.

For Teresa, the most important thing now is to find where she is, why she came here, and the owner of those hairs.

Standing in the living room, Teresa looked at the surrounding environment. The whole living room was the standard configuration of St. Freya's student dormitory, nothing special, and then she saw something on the dining table.

It was a closed book, which Teresa had seen before, and Teresa still had a deep impression on this book.

That was the culprit that caused the library incident, and I relied on it to see my best friend Cecilia again in my dream.

"Why is this book here... Could it be that this is..."

Teresa walked to the dining table, reached out to pick up the book from the table, and saw an envelope under the book.

Putting the book aside, Teresa took out the letter paper from the envelope, opened the letter paper, and read out softly what was written on it.

'Good morning, Teresa.It seems that you have something unhappy... After thinking about it for a long time, I decided to lend you this book, hoping this can make you happy. ——Luo Chen'

Looking at the slightly delicate font on the letter paper, she turned her head to look at the book she put aside, reached out to take it in her hand, and then Teresa lowered her head slightly.

"Since you know I'm unhappy, why don't you come and spend more time with me..."

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The morning dew dripped onto Luo Chen's face along the leaves, feeling the touch on his face, he opened his eyes while lying on the bench.

He took out his mobile phone from his pocket and checked the time. After confirming the time and that today was the weekend, he heaved a sigh of relief, and then covered his head that had been hurting since last night with his hands.

The pain is still getting worse. The fatigue from not sleeping all night and the sick body are the best supplements for the pain. It makes the already unbearable pain even worse. It made him feel like his head was about to split open.

He adjusted his posture and lay back on the bench again, using his arms as pillows under his head, forcing himself to ignore the still aching brain, and he couldn't wait to close his eyes.

Because he was really too tired, he dragged his sick body to work until midnight, his energy had been exhausted to the extreme, and now he was desperately longing for sleep.

But with his eyes closed, he couldn't fall asleep right away, and the pain in his brain kept preventing him from falling asleep.

But he has no choice. There is Teresa in his dormitory, and he has no way to go to Theresa's dormitory. At this moment, he can only choose to stay here, and he has no other choice.

However, the only thing that made Luochen feel relieved was that very few people passed by this area, and it was the weekend, so it was impossible for anyone other than him to appear here, so he could lie in the open Here, without worrying that anyone will find him.

However, at this moment, the cell phone in his pocket rang.