I Have Crossed Over, but You Are The Second Week?

And now...

"Facing, own past?"

Subaru was a little aware, but also a little puzzled.This kind of trial really feels like the unfolding of a light novel story, but if it is about facing the past, what past can he face as a trial?

Unlike the protagonists in those light novels who have unbearable past and dark history, Subaru knows that his past is just living and growing up like an ordinary person.

What is there to face with such a past?

"Do you really think so?"

Echidna suddenly approached Subaru, her fingers lightly tapped on Subaru's chest, and asked with deep meaning in her words: "Do you really think that your past was just growing up as an ordinary person, Ordinary and boring daily life under the care of your parents?"

"...Please, don't I know about my own past?"

Feeling itchy, Subaru patted Echidna's frivolous fingers on his chest, feeling helpless.

"And I don't think life as an ordinary person is boring!"

"Hmm... If you just take your experience as an example, it's really not boring, and it can even be said to be full of drama."

Echidna nodded her head in deep agreement, then walked around Subaru to the gate of his school.

"Then, Mr. Subaru, who knows your past clearly, would you be interested in reviewing your high school life with me?"

"..."

Subaru didn't answer because he didn't want to go to school.

However, Echidna seemed to have expected this, so she said with a smile: "Don't you want to confirm, maybe there is a story that you have forgotten happened here."

"And, if this stalemate continues, there is no way for you to wake up."

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"Speaking of which, did you ever get into a fight when you were in school?"

Stepping into the gate of the campus, walking among familiar and unfamiliar schools, Subaru suddenly heard Echidna ask.

"Although the teaching environment in another world is different, there is no difference in human nature. There will be conflicts between students, right?"

"Hearing the word "different world" in your mouth, I always feel a little uncomfortable..."

"Is it because, Subaru, the world I live in is a 'different world'?"

Echidna raised her eyebrows in surprise.

"I thought you wouldn't care about such things."

"After all, it's as if what I call myself is me, and Subaru you call yourself 'I', although there are also terms like 'おれ' and 'ぼく', what we say to each other's world' "Different world" is just a subjective name, isn't it?"

The example given by Echidna is her and Subaru's respective self-proclaimed names. Although the pronunciation and writing are different, they all have the same meaning in the end, and this is no different from the term "different world".

Of course Subaru understood this, but he was not used to his original world being called a different world, so he naturally agreed with Echidna's remarks and nodded.

"Echidna, what you said is not wrong..."

Subaru scratched his head.

"I'm just not used to the name "Different World". As for your question... To be honest, I don't really have much interest in socializing. I don't have any friends or enemies."

"So in school, you should be regarded as a very ordinary student. You will neither conflict with others nor be targeted by others. If you have to talk about it, it is that kind of particularly boring campus life."

"... I, is that so?"

Echidna asked with a smile, then looked at a corner near the side of the teaching building, pointed and asked, "So, what's going on with that?"

"……that?"

Subaru looked strangely in the direction Echidna was pointing at, and there he saw a very familiar person.

Very familiar, it can be said that it is absolutely impossible to forget, you can see it every day, as long as you look in the mirror, you will see it, the man with fierce eyes like a member of the Black Society.

Subaru saw himself, and it was himself who was viciously threatening the woman beside him while beating the man.

"That...is me!?"

Subaru is very confident in his own strength and skills. Although in terms of physical ability alone, in the mansion in another world, no one can beat it except for a child like Petra, but if it is placed in this world where he is Among them, even if I don't have a "natural body", I can definitely deal with ordinary three or five gangsters.

Although it is no longer clear to what extent his strength and speed have grown, we must know that before he went to another world, before he obtained the "natural body", without professional training and the blessing of the gym, he was able to easily The grip strength of one hand has reached the level of more than 70kg.

That is, you can lift something over 70kg with just your wrist strength, and a person with the weight of Ram can easily throw it away. In the student group, especially the high school student group, it is said that' Invincible' power is no exaggeration.

So, Subaru was surprised, even unbelievable, not that he could easily commit violence against others, but what made him unbelievable was the fact that he was committing violence.

What he didn't want to believe was that he would do things like violence against men and threats to women, which can be said to be scumbags!

"Impossible...I can't do such a thing!"

Using his own force and power to inflict violence on others at will, seeking to satisfy desires or vanity in this way, is what Subaru hates the most and is also the most unacceptable thing.

The life before the crossing that I can't remember clearly is also the life closest to him now, except for "Akigase or" and "Fuma Kotaro" and "Kawagami Hikosai" who he already knew in a certain life.

He lost his life just to save people, died at a young age and crossed over.

As a person, as a person who can give up his life in order to save others, Subaru never thinks that what he has done is so great, because he just followed his conscience to do a basic thing. .

And he grew up in Caiyue's family, and he was taught and influenced by his father, Caiyue Xianyi. He believes that responsibility, kindness, these most basic qualities are things that cannot be discarded no matter what.

Even if he didn't learn his father's comprehensive ability to talk happily with anyone and think about whatever he did, Subaru was still working hard towards the direction that Natsuki Kenichi had in his mind.

Such a self, how could he commit acts of violence against others! ?

"...I absolutely, have never done such a thing."

Subaru tried to step forward to stop him, but the violence in the corner was over.The self who made him feel strange has left and returned to the teaching building, while the men and women who were the targets of violence also chose to leave after the quarrel.

Why do you want to be violent towards other people?What are the men and women who are the targets of violence arguing about?

Subaru didn't know, because he never had such a scene in his memory. Before he dropped out of school, he should just go to school normally. He could talk to everyone in the class, but they were not particularly close. , just living an ordinary daily life as an ordinary student.

How could he do something that disgusted him like this?

"Echidna, your so-called 'face the past' trial, is it possible to create a so-called 'past' that doesn't exist at all, to fool others!?"

Subaru felt inexplicably angry, and within this anger was a strong sense of resistance and the desire to escape.

Why are you angry?Obviously it's just an illusion, even if you see the violent self, but it's just an illusion created after all.

Subaru couldn't understand why he was so angry, and even had a nausea-like feeling, but he knew one thing very well, that was that he couldn't control his conflicted and excited emotions.

"What's the point of such a trial!?"

"Of course it makes sense."

Echidna looked at Subaru calmly, not flustered at all by his questioning.

"The trial of the ruins is a scene reconstructed based on my 'knowledge' of the memory ruins in your mind. All of this comes from your real past, not the so-called 'fabricated past'."

"In other words, these things are real things that happened, not some false illusions that don't exist."

Having said that, Echidna paused for a moment, then laughed with great interest.

"In the final analysis, why do you have to think that what you see now is fake, instead of doubting whether the memory in your mind is true?"

"Think about it carefully, since everything is fake, why are you so angry about fake things? And why are you hesitant about my proposal to go to school?"

"Your memory may be deceiving, but my 'trial' will never be deceiving!"

"...Are you trying to say that I actually lost my memory?"

Subaru said indignantly, and was about to contact Ms. System.He didn't want to continue this trial at all, and since Echidna refused to let him go, then he had to ask Miss System if there was a way to leave.

If it really doesn't work, you can also use the traversal function of the chat group to travel to the world where other people are and then come back, and use this method to leave the trial.

but……

"Are you contacting your Miss System, although if you really want to leave, I really have no way to stop you."

Echidna approached Subaru and said quickly, "But, don't you really feel puzzled?"

"Why do you hesitate to step into school, why do scenes that you don't remember appear in the trial, why do you suddenly feel angry... No, it's not anger, it's excitement, it's avoidance."

"Why is this happening? Is your memory really reliable? Think about it carefully. Don't think emotionally, but think rationally without emotion."

"Will your personality be the type that has neither good nor bad relationships with other people, knows everyone in the class but isn't close enough to everyone?"

"Is your high school life really peaceful and boring, boring?"

"And even if you are really bored, bored, and bored with the same thing, is there really someone who chooses to give up their studies and suspend their studies and live a life of doing nothing at home just because of this?"

"If you haven't traveled to other worlds, if you haven't met Emilia, what kind of work will you do in the future? How will you make money to support your family? What will your parents do when they get old?"

"Maybe some people don't think about this, and don't care about the burden and responsibility of family and parents, but have you always been this kind of person?"

"And if not..."

Echidna approached Subaru with a smile that Subaru couldn't understand. The distance between the two was so close that Subaru could clearly smell Echidna's breath when she spoke. It was him. The smell of 'tea' that Echidna said was her bodily fluids that she drank during the day.

However, at this moment, Subaru didn't care about that at all.

It doesn't matter that Echidna is very close to her, her chest is already tightly attached to her chest, it doesn't matter that she has an intriguing look in her eyes, or she has a malicious smile at the corner of her mouth.

There was no way for Subaru to notice this, because he couldn't answer any of Echidna's questions in one breath.

Why, why, why why why why why why why why why why why why why... why?

Subaru's mind was full of why, he wanted to say that he was the one who chose to rest because of boredom, he wanted to answer that he hadn't considered the responsibility of family and supporting parents that Echidna said, he wanted to say that he should be people like that.

But, did he really not think about it instead of choosing to avoid it?

Did you not go to school because you were bored or did you avoid school instinctively?Why did Echidna hesitate when she invited herself to visit the campus?Why are you so excited about something that you have clearly identified as false?

My own past...is it really the past in my memory?

Subaru was shaken, his experience of the past that he thought he knew all the time, all the experiences in his memory were shaken.

"I……"

Subaru wanted to say that he didn't care at all, but no matter how hard he opened his mouth, he still couldn't get it out.

Everything Echidna said, everything she asked were real problems that he hadn't noticed before.In other words, they actually knew about it but deliberately avoided it.

And now that Echidna has completely uncovered his fig leaf for avoiding problems, Subaru has no way to avoid these problems that should have been noticed by him, but chose to turn a blind eye.

Moreover, he also realized a thing that could not be ignored anyway, which corroborated what Echidna said.