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Echidna raised her eyebrows and smiled, and then said casually: "Then, what do you think about what happened after that?"

After that...

Subaru had already remembered that it was something that made him feel that all his efforts had been useless, and that all his beliefs had been discarded like garbage.

It was precisely because of that incident that he, a person who did not flinch even though he was misunderstood by the students of the whole school and rumors spread everywhere, chose to drop out of school.

And the cause of that incident...

"...It's Yoshida's call for help."

The original experience of watching my past experience from a third-person perspective suddenly became No.1. The figure of Echidna disappeared, and he was standing near Yoshida Saki’s house, and it was evening.

Although Yoshida Saki regarded him as a stranger, Subaru did not give up fighting with gangsters out of consideration for protecting Yoshida Saki. Even though the police finally came in handy recently, there were still some people who slipped through the net looking for trouble, and Subaru also Worried that someone would find Yoshida Saki's house, so he would take a look around the neighborhood after school.

After receiving a call from Saki Yoshida, the voice of Saki Yoshida crying for help came from the other side of the phone. Subaru knew what happened in Saki Yoshida's house at this time, and also knew what would happen if he rushed in immediately.

"It's really bad fun, Echidna..."

Subaru put away his mobile phone, immediately broke the window on the first floor of Saki Yoshida's house and went in, and ran to the door of Saki Yoshida's room on the second floor with ease and slammed open the door.

There, Saki Yoshida's father was about to rip her clothes off and rape her.

Without saying a word, Subaru kicked Yoshida Saki's father away, and then punched him vigorously in a circle. The screams attracted the attention of the neighbors, and soon the police rushed over, and Yoshida Saki's father was arrested. went in.

Afterwards, Yoshida Saki didn't go to school for several days in a row. Subaru, who noticed this, came to Yoshida Saki's house again, and saw Yoshida Saki who hadn't eaten or drank for a long time and was unconscious.

As for Subaru, he once again heard the words that almost crushed his efforts and beliefs.

"What if... you didn't save me?"

Chapter 365 Save her again!

It would be great if...you didn't save me...

Such a simple sentence completely negates all the efforts Subaru has made and all the injuries he has endured.

Subaru didn't expect Yoshida Saki to thank him, because he didn't decide to help her at Yoshida Saki's begging, but chose to help Yoshida Saki out of his own will.

So from the very beginning, whether it was material gifts or verbal thanks, Subaru never expected extravagantly.Although he will be very happy if he is really thanked, but he will not be disappointed if he is not thanked in person.

However, the sentence Yoshida Saki said, "It would be great if you didn't save me" is different. It is not as simple as not thanking him, but it is equivalent to denying and regretting accepting his words. help.

Subaru never thought that his act of helping Yoshida Saki would make her fall in love with him, because feelings are not that simple and he didn't like Yoshida Saki either.

However, after exhausting his efforts, endured the hurt, and kept telling himself that this was all right, even if it was misunderstood by others, what finally ushered in was the negation of the person concerned, which made Subaru feel sorry for what he had been doing all along. Whether the things he said was correct, and whether he had doubts about Yoshida Saki's goodness.

Yoshida Saki's father was sent to prison because he wanted to rape his daughter, while his mother took away all valuables and abandoned her. What Subaru did did not bring Yoshida Saki a better future. It even became the culprit in Yoshida Saki's eyes that caused her such misery.

What should be done?How exactly?

Subaru didn't know, and he couldn't even think about it. He just called the emergency number in a daze. After sending Saki Yoshida to the ambulance and contacting the teacher who seemed to be in charge, he turned around and returned to his home.

And since then, he has never been to school again.

Father Natsuki Kenichi and mother Natsuki Keiko seemed to know everything. Even though Subaru hadn't mentioned it to them, they seemed to have seen Subaru's experience from beginning to end. They didn't ask or question it. It was very simple. So he accepted Subaru's request to suspend his studies.

After that, the family of three seemed to have returned to a peaceful life. Cai Yuexian attacked his son from time to time in the early morning. The father and son wrestled and grabbed fiercely on the bed or on the ground, while the mother was She took care of him tenderly and met his needs meticulously all the time.

Except for not stepping out of the house again, except for not going to school again, it seems to be no different from usual.

"So, what do you think now?"

Sitting on the chair in front of the desk, Echidna, who was wearing the school jk uniform, looked at Subaru who was sitting cross-legged on the bed with probing eyes.

The trial is coming to an end, except that at the beginning, Subaru was allowed to experience everything in the past as a bystander, and at the end, Echidna let Subaru experience the past again in person from the first perspective The feelings I have experienced and the confusion and pain in my heart.

And now, the trial is about to usher in the final result.

After all, it is to abandon everything in the past, and leave it behind coldly and mercilessly.Or accept the past, hold it all in your arms, acknowledge the part, and carry it on.

Or... completely incomprehensible, unacceptable, and even wanting to escape... once again ushered in the failure of the trial.

"Which one are you?"

Even though she already had a standard answer in her heart, Echidna still opened her mouth to ask.Because, she wanted to hear Subaru's answer with her own ears, and then end this trial.

"me……"

Subaru was silent for a moment, then raised his head and looked at Echidna. There was no trace of gloom in his eyes. Even after experiencing what seemed like a spiritual betrayal to him, his eyes were still shining brightly at this moment. bright.

"—I want to see Yoshida."

"Oh? Why?"

Echidna asked with great interest.

"Why... there is no reason. In other words, I am still too immature."

Subaru scratched his head and laughed helplessly.

"I have to admit that now that I have thought of all these things, I still feel uncomfortable and painful in my heart, and even feel wronged."

"But it's not Yoshida's fault, is it? After all, I just took it for granted."

"I clearly said that it was just a self-assessed good deed, and I didn't expect any rewards, but in my heart, I was still looking forward to receiving positive feedback from the people I helped."

"That's why after hearing what Yoshida said, I looked like I was devastated, because let alone a positive feedback, it can already be said to be a completely negative blow."

"However, you can't say that it's all Yoshida's fault, right?"

"Yoshida has been a victim of everything from the very beginning. She was ignored and bullied at school. After working hard to change herself, she was afraid of changing back to the way she was before. Because of her father's disqualification, she lost her family and because of her mother's disqualification. orphan……"

"For a girl, the blow she has experienced is really too great. In comparison, I just heard a sentence that is equivalent to complaining. Compared with her, there is nothing comparable."

So, it's really immature.

"Although I am suffering now, I am more aware of one thing than in the past, that is, no matter how hard I try, I may not necessarily get the expected good results. In many cases, hard work is just an attitude. "

It's as if Akigase or Akigase tried hard to uphold his justice but was broken down by God in the end, Fuma Kotaro tried hard to resist and was assassinated in the end, and Kawagami Hikosai tried hard to change society and was finally executed.

The world is not beautiful, and what he wants to do is never something like a child playing house. Hard work, persistence and patience may not necessarily give positive feedback in the end. All he can do is continue to do his best. Just move on.

"So, I want to meet Yoshida and talk to her about it."

Subaru thought of the few times he saw Yoshida Saki after amnesia, at that time she once again turned into that unnoticed rustic appearance, the whole person seemed to be oppressed by an invisible mountain.

The surprise when I saw him again, the loss when I found out that he couldn't remember anything, the fear of being unable to open my mouth when I wanted to say something, and the cautious appearance like a fragile object.

Presumably, the girl named Yoshida Saki must have never come out of that incident, and she must be full of guilt and apology.

"I... want to save her again!"

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Chapter 366 Heading to Sanctuary Core

"...Wow, it's so cold!"

Subaru got up from the ground and rubbed his cheeks vigorously. Although it is not winter yet, even autumn is not here yet, lying on the stone ground in the wild for a long time at night is not a comfortable thing. .

When he was in the trial environment, he didn't feel anything. Now that he woke up after the trial was over, Subaru only felt that his cheeks pressed against the ground were a little numb.

"How long have I been lying here..."

Subaru looked around in distress, the only thing he could be sure of was that it was still night, and he couldn't be sure how long it had been.

After all, there is no time recording in this ruins, whether it is 1 minute or an hour, it is almost the same, anyway, Subaru, who has been in the trial, can't feel it at all.

"Should I tell Echidna next time, can't people make preparations before the trial begins?"

After all, he fainted before he was ready, these two times were just luck, if he accidentally bumped into something and hit his head, wouldn't it be bad?

Although Subaru doesn't think that just a single fall will cause serious injuries, but if possible, he still hopes to find a corner to sit against the wall or lie down before performing the trial, at least so that he doesn't have to worry about what will happen later. Will wake up with a big bag on his head.

"However, there are other things to do before that..."

Subaru sighed helplessly.

Originally, his plan was just to challenge the trial again, not to mention whether he could pass the trial, at least he didn't want to push all the pressure on Emilia because of his evasion.

After all, as a person who has personally experienced what the trial is, Subaru knows that it is not a good thing, even if Roswaal or others put the responsibility of dispelling the barrier on Emilia, There was no way for Subaru to really hand over the things he wanted to avoid to Emilia like a turtle.

After all, when you already know that it is a painful thing, and you have the ability to bear the pain on behalf of the person who likes your colleague and yourself, will someone really choose to avoid putting the pain on the other person?

Subaru didn't know, but he knew he couldn't do it.

And the result of the trial was also gratifying. Although it was the second trial, according to Echidna's evaluation, he had indeed passed the trial.

It's not that you fail because of escaping, nor is it that you abandon everything in the past and become indifferent, but pass the trial by recognizing and carrying your past immaturity and pain, and moving forward with these feelings.

"But, that Echidna guy..."

Thinking about the trial, Subaru gritted his teeth and muttered Echidna's name again in a bit of displeasure.

At the very end, when Subaru said that he wanted to meet Yoshida Saki and wanted to try to help that girl again, his trial had already passed.

However, although the trial has passed, the enchantment surrounding the sanctuary has not disappeared because of this.And the reason is very simple, there is not only one trial.

"There are three trials to remove the enchantment of the sanctuary, so you have to work harder next time!"

"Of course, you can also choose to leave all these to the half-elf by your side. After all, you are not the only one who is qualified to challenge the trial, right?"

Echidna's original words poured cold water on Subaru who was just happy. One trial was already like this. What will the next two trials be like?

Subaru didn't think that the trials set by Echidna would be easier than the last, and it would definitely be more difficult by then.

As for Echidna's proposal to hand everything over to Emilia, Subaru rejected it without even thinking about it.After all, he didn't want to put all the pressure on Emilia, so he decided to try again. He had already taken the first step, so how could he choose to turn back.

"Let's find a chance to talk to Emilia later. Since I have already passed the first trial, there are only two left."

"Compared to letting Emilia continue to participate in the trial, it would be more convenient for me to continue..."

Scratching his head, Subaru walked out of the ruins and returned to the forest while thinking about the next trial.

However, Subaru did not walk back towards the village in the sanctuary, but walked towards the depths of the jungle on the other side, which was different from the direction of the village, by the moonlight.

Although he had already passed one trial, and now he should return to the village to take a good rest, but Subaru still had another important thing to do.