I Won't Be a Loser

"But... the sage is going to prepare a house where everyone can live together when he graduates from high school, and then with me..."

That promise is still in the heart of Qingpu Setsuna, recalling that night, in her room, chatting about the future, Qingpu Setsuna couldn't help feeling depressed.

At that time, when the sage saw her, there was at least a gleam of light in his eyes, but now every time he met her, she felt that he was avoiding her.

His eyes would always wander away from her eyes, even when there was something to talk about, he would never look into her eyes, but his eyes wandered erratically, and when she approached him, he would always look into her eyes. He raised his hand subconsciously, trying to push her away and keep a distance.

"He probably doesn't like me anymore."

The girl made her own judgment in her heart, and upon hearing her conclusion, Xiyuan Temple World opened its mouth, wanting to comfort the other party, but couldn't find the right content.

How do you like someone?

Looking at the blank document in front of him, the sage also began to recall the time when he and the girl first met. At that time, she was still a very cute girl in his eyes.

But with the passage of time, when the relationship between the two became more and more familiar, the sage found himself and the girl, it seems that the personality is not so -

He likes to be quiet, and she is always very quiet.

When he thought that the two people's personalities should be very well matched, they have many similarities, and they should be very compatible in life, after time has passed, he discovered that he and her are actually not the same type.

How long have you known each other?

half a year.

Not including the coma time, the total time of knowing each other is only half a year.

What kind of mentality did you have at that time, to talk to a girl about "dating for the purpose of marriage"?

Looking at the computer in front of him, the sage's heart turned pale.

After finishing a day's work early, Mai Qingpu rushed directly from the company and returned home. Knowing that the sage had returned to Tokyo, and the phone call in the morning, Mai Qingpu was also distracted from time to time when she was working, thinking Matters related to sages.

"Feel sorry."

Squeezing out of the crowded subway, he hurried back to his home, only to find that there was no one in his home.

"Aren't you home?"

Presumably it was at the sage's home, but Qingpu Wu was not in a hurry, and quietly started preparing dinner.

When the dinner was almost ready, Qingpu Wu sent a message to the sage.

About 10 minutes later, the doorbell rang at the door, Qingpu Wu came to the door, opened the door, and saw the sage alone.

"Just you?"

"Setsuna isn't at home?"

Looking at the other party in front of them, they both realized that there seemed to be a little misunderstanding.

"I thought Setsuna was with you, so I just... wait a moment, I'll contact you."

Qingpu Wu returned to the house, dialed her daughter's phone, and asked her where she was now.

"At home in the world, what's wrong?"

"Aren't you going home?"

"I'm going to stay at my home in the world tonight. I'm going to go home tomorrow morning or afternoon. What's the matter?"

"that......."

The sage standing in front of her shook his head slightly.

Qing Pu Wu, who was about to say something, couldn't help but fell silent. Looking at the young man in front of her for a while, she pursed her lips and nodded helplessly.

"It's nothing, remember to tell me in advance."

"Ah."

Hanging up the phone, Kiyoura Mai was also a little puzzled, she didn't know why the sage didn't let herself tell Setsuna that he had returned to Tokyo, and she didn't know why the sage didn't tell Setsuna himself.

"I thought you had already told Setsuna about your return."

"I thought so at first, but then I didn't tell her to prepare for a surprise."

"Then just now..."

"I know that I have returned to Tokyo, and she will definitely come back, but since I am with the world, there is no need to disturb her, and it is the same when I see you tomorrow, there is no difference."

It seems that this is indeed the case, Qingpu Wu let go of the little entanglement in her heart.

"Then it seems to be just you and me tonight?"

"Ah."

"Let's eat first, after a while, the dinner will be cold."

At Kiyoura Setsuna at Xiyuanji's house, he hung up the phone call from his mother, looked at the world of Xiyuanji in front of him, and the two of them had dinner quietly.

"My mother won't come back until around nine o'clock, and there's no need to wait for her. We can go to bed earlier."

"Ah."

Although she didn't know why, she had a bad premonition in her heart, but after hearing the words of Xiyuan Temple World, she nodded.

'Sage....'

Suddenly thinking of his boyfriend, Kiyoura looked at the Saiyuanji World in front of him for a moment, put aside the thoughts in his heart, quietly had dinner with the Saiyuanji World, and went into the bathroom together, Lie down in the room of Xiyuan Temple World.

"You world, have you thought about the future?"

"Of course I have thought about it. For the future, I want to have a perfect boyfriend, and then live a relaxed and happy life, a leisurely life every day. I remember, you also have a dream in Setsuna, right? In the past, it seems that you talked to me Alright, where are you going?"

dream.

In the early morning of the next day, the sage woke up, looked at Qingpu Wu who was still sleeping, put on his own clothes, left the room, sat in the living room and poured himself a glass of water, then walked to the refrigerator and watched Take a look at the remaining ingredients inside.

After preparing breakfast, he returned to the bedroom and woke Qingpu Mai who was still sleeping.

"It's morning, it's time to get up."

"Ok?"

Opening her sleepy eyes, Qingpu Wu looked at the sage standing on the edge of her bed, stood up slowly, and stretched her body. The soft bed slipped off her body, and the large snow-white did not attract her. In the sight of the sage, he was temporarily tired after two nights of fierce fighting.

Picking up her own clothes on the bed, Qingpu Wu looked at the sage who turned around and was about to leave the room, but didn't say anything.

Similar to the tired sage, Qingpu Wu is also a little tired. Her age has long since prevented her from being too crazy. Even last night, she didn't hold on for too long, but she couldn't help but lie down. Come to rest.

"I have to go to work at the company today. Tomorrow is Saturday. On Sunday, I have a day off. Obviously Saturday should also be a day off."

"Why don't you find another job with weekends?"

"That way, there won't be enough income. Taking care of her to go to college is not a simple matter, and the scholarship is not bad, but it is still too heavy for Shan's future."

It is very expensive to study in a university, and ordinary families in this society cannot even afford it. Therefore, for those students whose family background is not very good, such as universities and educational institutions, they propose 'scholarships' 'system.

Although it is named as 'scholarship', it is just an alternative loan similar to other countries.

It is not that there are no completely free scholarships for outstanding students, and scholarships that do not need to be repaid as long as they complete their studies, but there are only a relatively small part of them, and the application conditions are very harsh.

More and simpler scholarships are all low-interest or interest-free.

It cannot be denied that these scholarships have indeed played a considerable role in helping some students, but for more students, starting after graduation, they will have to repay about 400 million yen in ten years. It is an extremely difficult thing.

It may sound like the amount of 400 million yen is not higher. In this society that lacks young and middle-aged labor force, if you work a few more part-time jobs a month, you can have more than 20 yen.

However, college students who have just left society do not immediately become regular employees. First of all, they have to go through the embarrassing period called "dispatching employees", plus the monthly rent, water and electricity expenses, as well as meals and other expenses. .

In the city of Tokyo, the cost of renting a house alone must be at least [-] yen per month. In addition to the newly rented house, you have to pay thank you fees, deposits, etc.——

Anyway, without the help of parents, it is very difficult, almost impossible, for a student who has just graduated from school to repay the school's scholarship alone.

"Um...university?"

"In the past, I also talked with me about studying abroad."

"before?"

Walking to the living room, the two of them sat down around the dining table, and suddenly learned from Qingpu Wu that Setsuna wanted to go abroad to study, the expressions on their faces looked a little surprised and surprised.

"A long time ago, probably when I was in middle school, I talked about it with me, but I didn't talk about it with me this year."

"Where do you want to study abroad?"

"Paris, or London."

"Aren't you going to New York?"

"She doesn't like that environment very much, it's too free, and you know her personality. I had a good chat with her at the time, and I felt that what she said at the time made some sense, so I did it for her to study abroad. A lot of preparations, but now it seems that there is no need for this.”

After taking a sip of milk, Qing Pu Wu's eyes fell on the sage.

"Actually, I don't have any intention of going abroad. For unfamiliar environments and unfamiliar relationships, I have to learn the language of that place, which is also very troublesome."

"Did she learn those languages?"

"The plan is to learn two or three foreign languages ​​during high school, and to study abroad when I graduate from high school."

"Give up now?"

"Because there is a sage, you left your side at this time, went abroad, and when you come back, you probably have no chance, right?"

Qingpu Wu looked at the sage in front of her and smiled. She may not know as much about the sage as her daughter, Qingpu Setsuna, but she has a very keen intuition, and she guessed something .

Telling these things to the sage is just to tell the sage what his daughter gave up for him, and hope that the sage can pay more attention to his daughter.

"I didn't know these things before I heard you say these things just now."

"Do you know now?"

"Her dream?"

"A previous dream."

Noticing the sage's reaction, she didn't seem to be moved, but instead blamed herself, and Qingpu Wu quickly added.

"Also, isn't the you you are now the best dream of Setsuna?"

A little surprised to answer, looking at Qingpu Wu, the sage fell into deep thought, stood up quietly, and walked towards the door.

"I'll go, relax a little, and go back first."

"Huh? Breakfast?"

The sage did not give an answer, got up and left the living room, pushed open the door, faced with the icy cold wind, left silently, went back to his apartment, returned to his room, lay down on his bed, closed his eyes.