Self-help Strategies for a Femme Fatale

I once liked someone.

When I was still ignorant of what I didn't know, that person broke into my life with a posture of inverting sentient beings.

Perhaps it was because the impression was so deep that when my hair was gray and old, I still remember that when I first saw her, she wore a white cheongsam embroidered with bamboo stripes.

I was gnawing on the apple I was holding. When I saw her, the apple in my hand hit my leather shoes with a ‘click’.

The pain did not make me look away.

At that time, I was only nine years old, and she was already sixteen.

At the age of nine, I can't think of anything else, and I can't look at women with men's eyes, but I still look at it.

It's just that I just feel good-looking, and I can't say how good it is. Anyway, people can't bear to remove their eyes.

My stare blankly finally caught her attention.

She stopped talking with my mother, smiled and asked, "This child, what are you looking at?"

I was the least willing to be seen as a child by others. She was obviously not much older than myself, but she looked like an elder and was not happy in my heart. I lifted my chin and looked at her and said, "I'm almost ten years old. ."

No longer a child.

She was stunned, and then laughed out, as if she was amused by me, and her squiggly eyes were slightly bent.

I suddenly became a little nervous. I don't know where the tension came from, but it was even more helpless than when I was caught skipping class.

I don't know what she is laughing at.

In the next instant, she squeezed my baby's fat cheek with her soft fingertips, and said very softly: "Good, call Aunt Yin."

I don't want to do it now! A pair of eyes are wide.

This is clearly taking advantage of me!

I saw the joke in her eyes, and at the time I felt that this was a woman of different appearances.

He seems to be such a gentle person, how come he is actually so bad?

...

What I never expected was that this woman whom I had looked at for so many times actually married my cousin Jiang Heng and became my cousin.

This is really a blow to me.

My cousin Jiang Heng is the most powerful person in my eyes, where the best is everywhere, no one can compare to him in the world! Naturally, no woman can match him!

I only know that the person my cousin is going to marry is Shen Liuyin, the young lady of Shen's mansion. I went to the wedding with my mother and found out that her cousin was going to marry her!

Although Western weddings were popular at the time, my cousin chose Chinese weddings when he got married.

I followed my mother to see the bride.

Seeing my cousin lift up the red hijab with the hi-scale, a piece of hibiscus noodles was exposed.

When I saw the familiar face, I was very surprised.

Seeing her looking up, she slowly lowered her eyebrows.

But Jiang Heng's expression was faint, and there was no sense of happiness or anger.

I looked at her, then at my cousin.

Turning his eyes, he noticed something extraordinary.

It turns out that my cousin doesn't like his bride!

This discovery made me a little proud.

Things that no one knows, but I can see at a glance, this is enough to satisfy my vanity.

Since Shen Liuyin married his cousin, I have had more opportunities to see her.

"It's rare, why did Young Master come?" Shen Liuyin, wearing a green cheongsam, swayed like a willow in the spring.

I'm really embarrassed to say that I hid in this young marshal's mansion because I was fighting with people and afraid of being punished by my father. This is too shameful!

So I quickly changed the subject: "Where is my cousin?"

"He hasn't come back yet." The corner of her mouth was smiling.

Talking about her cousin, her smile is not the same as usual, as if the wind is a little bit more intoxicating.

"Oh." I replied casually and there was nothing to say.

"You just came here. I just made a snack. Would you like to try it?"

I looked into her eyes and nodded confusedly.

I have to say that the dim sum she made is really delicious, so good that I ate all the dim sum on that plate.

She was also happy to see me so supportive.

I made up my mind to stay here for a few days, she was also bored alone, just hit it off.

My cousin seldom had time to come back. She took me to the teahouse to hear about books, to listen to the opera in the opera garden, to eat in the restaurant, and even took me to cruise the lake.

She is not short of money at all, and the appearance of spending a lot of money is more free and easy than my second brother.

My second elder brother is a good man, and most of the women are jealous for him. Someone once asked him what method he used to make those women willingly follow him. He only said at that time, "Just be willing to spend money."

At that time, I didn't realize the meaning of it. After seeing her, I realized that there was such a way to spend money.

This day is really happy and happy, but she doesn't seem to be very happy.

This is nothing to guess, it's just for cousin.

Since the young marshal's mansion where I came, I have seen only a handful of times with my cousin.

Every time her cousin came, she would be happy, and the corners of her brows and eyes were bright spring, but when her cousin left, she couldn't do anything.

I saw her dragging her cheeks in a bored look and asked: "Do you like cousin so much?"

"That's not it." She said pitifully in the shape of a xizi holding a heart, "I like it, and the heart I like hurts."

I was trembling with goose bumps caused by her deliberately holding her throat.

She smiled, looked at the sparkling lake and sighed: "You don't know how good he looks in military uniform."

I rolled my eyes, "Superficial."

Seeing the loneliness in her eyes, I have a heart to comfort her.

But I don't know how to comfort.

She said: "You said I look so good, why doesn't Jiang Heng like it?"

Don't like it?

At this moment, I suddenly remembered the desserts she made for my cousin. He even ate all the sweets, who never touched them.

In this way, at least I still like her snacks.

...

This day is the Qixi Festival.

The second brother asked me a lot of benefits from my mother under the guise of taking me shopping. As a result, as soon as he left the house, he was hooked away by a slightly beautiful woman.

I despise my second brother's eyes, the woman is not as good as her cousin.

I raised my head and sighed, showing that my brother is not as powerful as an ordinary woman in the eyes of my second brother.

In fact, I love playing with my second brother. Every time my second brother has something good, I will never forget him. I thought the brotherhood between us is deeper than the mountains and the sea. Only today did I realize that it was so unbearable. hit.

This makes me quite melancholy.

I wandered in the street for a while, and suddenly thought of her, thinking that it was not just me who was left behind.

Sure enough, I finally saw her when I ran three streets and couldn't stand up straight.

She was drinking in the pavilion alone, looking lonely.

In this situation, my little melancholy is really nothing.

I walked over.

She seemed surprised when she saw me, but her face was not as sad as I thought.

She asked: "Why are you here?"

Of course I can’t say that I came to play with her because I was left behind by my second brother, so I blurted out a coaxing line from my second brother: "I miss you."

After I said it, I realized that this sentence was a bit too intimate, and my cheeks were a little hot. I lowered my head and kicked the stones on the ground with my leather shoes.

Liuyin patted me on the shoulder with relief. She looked around, then pushed the glass against me and whispered, "Drink?"

I asked suspiciously: "How do you act like a thief?"

Liu Yin tapped my forehead lightly and it didn't hurt at all. I also smelled a faint fragrance that made my nose itchy.

She said, "Don't tell me, Jiang Heng won't let me drink."

My curiosity was aroused, and then I asked: "Why don't you let you drink it?"

Her face was flushed, and her voice was low and soft: "I was accidentally drunk last time, I bit him."

When I heard this, I suddenly became displeased!

Frowning: "How can you bite my cousin?!"

Liuyin squeezed my face in anger and said, "Don't worry about so much kid!"

I am very upset that she always treats me as a child, but reminds her again and again that I am not young anymore, which makes me very immature.

So I had to pretend to be calm and said: "Then don't bite my cousin in the future."

After speaking, I took a sip from my glass.

It is a little spicy and fruity, which is better than the wine I have tasted before.

I really didn't expect her to drink so badly!

The two shared a small pot of wine, and I was fine with it, so she dared to go fishing for the moon in the lake!

This really shocked me.

Fortunately, I saw my cousin at a glance.

I quickly waved and called him: "Cousin!"

Liu Yin was also stunned by the voice, and as soon as he turned his head, he saw the young man walking under the moonlight.

Jiang Heng was very handsome, and he wore a sturdy military uniform that made him a little colder.

Liuyin saw it, and stopped fishing for the moon in the water. He dangled and threw himself into his arms. Two slender arms wrapped tightly around his waist and rubbed against his neck. Then he complained a little bit: "Jiang Heng, Jiang Heng, today is Qixi Festival."

I looked dumbfounded.

I have never seen her look so soft.

Looking at my cousin, the cold eyebrows are actually as gentle as water.

I don't know what he said in a low voice to her, so that her eyes lit up instantly, brighter than the stars.

I was sent home by my cousin's staff.

I looked back and saw nothing.

My heart is bored.

I can't tell what it feels like.

Then I knew that my cousin liked her.

Also, she is so good-looking, why would anyone not like it?

...

The political situation is turbulent, where can there be long-term peace?

I overheard the news that my family is planning to move abroad. Has the situation been so bad?

The war was raging, and Jiangzhou City was about to be lost. My mother stopped letting me go out. I didn't see her again until the day I boarded the ship.

It was my cousin who sent her here and watched her board the boat with his own eyes. Until someone urged, the cousin took a deep look at her, and then left without looking back.

I couldn't understand the meaning of that glance, I just felt that the heavy pressure on my heart made me breathless.

When I looked back at her, she was quiet and unreasonable.

"Where are you going? It's about to set sail!" I grabbed her hand and asked anxiously.

"let me go!"

Her voice was kept low, not wanting to disturb others.

I held her tightly without speaking.

She squatted down and said to me in a very gentle and seductive voice: "It's also good, okay?"

"Jiang Heng is a bastard. He took my things and hasn't paid them back. I just went to get my things back."

"I will come back and look for you when I get the things."

My finger was torn off by her a little bit.

I said to her: "I'm not a kid anymore, don't lie to me."

Her hand paused, dragged my hand, turned and ran.

I lay on the railing, watching her back become smaller and smaller until she disappeared, and finally couldn't help crying.

You said you will come back.

Do not lie to me.

...

That was the last time I saw her, and for decades thereafter she was gone.

I grew up slowly, and no one would treat me as a child anymore.

I study, fall in love, work, get married... I live a step-by-step life like everyone else, cheesy, without any waves.

My wife is a gentle woman, but she also jokingly complained about my incomprehension.

Stereotyped, serious, and boring, this is probably the impression that everyone who comes into contact with me will have.

Yes, I often feel that this world is terrible, dusty and colorless, unlike the spring when she laughs.

Sometimes I think, if I could hold her back then, would many things be different?

I am slowly getting older, gray hair, wrinkles, and my eyes are gradually blurred.

My legs are almost out of the way, but I still like to sit in the port, put on a neat suit, and polish my shoes to make myself look more energetic.

I put down my crutches and sat on the bench to rest.

The sea breeze was blowing gently, and I stared at the blue sea in awe.

In a daze, I seemed to see her slowly stepping off the boat, smiling like a spring breeze.

I ran to her excitedly, took her hand and asked her: Are your things coming back? Why haven't you come to me?

I have been waiting for you for a long, long time.