Secret (GL)

Proposal.She is not mine anymore. "

"I can only leave, I have no other choice. But Shen Juan will be sad, she is so kind to me, I have an unreasonable desire for her, and in the end I have to use her kindness to hurt her. I really hate it Myself."

There were tear marks on the diary, the handwriting was blurred and dried, and several words were melted into a ball, so I couldn't tell what the words were. I could only guess what the words were from the context.

Shen Juan didn't expect this to be the case, she read the diary from that period again and matched the dates one by one.During that time, Gu Shuge's sudden indifference and alienation became very clear.

Shen Juan recalled repeatedly like masochistic, Gu Shuge's face came alive in her memory.

She was sitting opposite her, not looking at her, but her whole body seemed extraordinarily alienated.At that time, she thought it was her who stole the kiss and Xiaoge found out, she couldn't accept it, so she stayed away.Thinking back now, the few times when Xiaoge made eye contact with her, the emotion in her eyes was obviously full of grievances.

But she didn't find out.

The late discovery brought only regret, and she couldn't make up for anything.Shen's family is heartbroken.

That night, she was dreaming of Gu Shuge, who was not what she was when she was young.

She turned into the appearance after the car accident, her face was smashed, and her face was so bloody that she couldn't see her face clearly, but her eyes were still so clear. With tears in her eyes, she said aggrievedly: "Now you know, I have always been Like you. We missed four years."

She changed into an unrecognizable appearance, but she was still so obedient that it made people feel distressed, and she didn't dare to speak out when she was wronged.

Shen Juan woke up with a start, her heartache turned into deep regret.

Regret is the most helpless and incomprehensible thing in the world. It hurts the heart, but it is powerless, like a vine getting tighter and tighter, like a fire that burns all the happiness in the rest of her life into ashes all over the sky.

If they hadn't missed these four years, what would they be like now?Shen Juan couldn't help but think about it, the more he thought about it, the more his heart was riddled with pain and numbness.

She sat like this all night, her eyes fell on the rest of the diary, she thought, read it after everything is over, at that time, she will have nothing to worry about, and she can slowly understand Xiaoge for the past four years How did it go.

At dawn, her eyes were full of red bloodshot eyes, but Shen Juan still didn't feel tired or sleepy, her body seemed to be shielded from all sensations, turning into an ignorant and painless shell.

Shen Juan packed up Gu Shuge's things.

These things now have a new collective term called Relics.

Shen Juan sorted Gu Shuge's belongings and put them in boxes one by one.She tidied up very carefully, a pair of socks, a cup, a towel, and a pen were not missed, and they were all placed neatly.

Although Gu Shuge likes simplicity and is very careless in purchasing furniture and some daily necessities, after four years of living, there are still a lot of items accumulated in the apartment.

It wasn't until nearly noon that Shen Juan had only half cleaned up.

Steward Ji came with her, checked the time, and brought her lunch.

The Western-style meal seemed very full. Shen Juan swallowed a few mouthfuls, but still felt nauseated. She prayed silently in her heart: "Xiao Ge, it will be over soon, no matter where you are, you have to wait for me .”

She muttered silently, and she managed to hold on, filling her stomach with something.When Steward Ji saw her, he thought she had cheered up, and was very relieved, and hurriedly said, "It's better to adapt to our Chinese food, and I'll make dinner."

Shen Juan nodded.

Steward Ji left, and he and his fellow investigators lived in a hotel not far away.

Shen Juan sat for a while, and when he was about to continue tidying up, his cell phone rang, and it was Lin Mo who called.

It was still early morning in China at this time, and when it was almost dawn, Lin Mo called at this time, there must be something urgent.And Shen Juan had told her that the only thing that contacted her immediately was Master Jingyun's trace.

Shen Juan picked it up, and the male voice on the other end was sober, without a hint of drowsiness: "Chairman, the several teams looking for Master Jingyun have clues. After he appeared in Xiaomeizhuang, he went west. Because he took the mountain forest, he lost They asked a few local people who had met the master, and they said that the master had mentioned that he planned to go to Wushan to practice Zen."

"Where is Wushan?" Shen Juan asked.

Lin Mo replied: "I haven't found it yet. The locals said they had never heard of this place. They went to ask the monks in some big temples to see if it was a Buddhist holy place, but there was no result. The monks in the temple didn't know. He That junior is still at your house, I want to ask him for advice."

This is the purpose of Lin Mo's call. The head monk of Guangping Temple is still in Gu's house, watched by two bodyguards.