Spring, summer, autumn and winter (GL)

The little girl was stunned for a few seconds before she realized that she was about to say something in a hurry, her black eyes were shining brightly, and her cheeks quickly turned pink, but she seemed to be unable to think of anything else, so she could only answer instinctively, "Yes, It's not like that..."

Shi Ci looked at her, Tang Chi's complexion was very fair, most of the time it was pale, he looked like he was malnourished.In the sunny dining room, her slightly pink cheeks are like transparent flower petals.

"Oh?" Shi Ci still wanted to tease her.

"Shi Hai is a nice person..." Tang Chi resumed, "He is very cheerful and carefree, the girls who are with him should be very happy..."

Tang Chi lowered her eyes and looked at the half-eaten yogurt and cereal cup. Her long eyelashes were like a pair of still butterfly wings. The tea mole was hidden on her lower eyelid. In the light of the summer morning, it looked like a crumbling tears.

"He's a good love interest, but I'm not."

How old is she?Just say something like this?The feeling is like the vicissitudes of life expressed by a veteran who has been in love for decades, and Shi Ci, who is more than ten years older than her, can't say it.

If other young people said such almost hypocritical words, Shi Ci would scoff.

But Tang Chirp's tone is gentle, and his expression is indifferent, just the mole of tears flickering, just like the dewdrops on the petals in the morning.

Shi Ci's smile faded away, her eyes were particularly attractive when she smiled, and they were also deeply tender when she was not smiling.She didn't need to speak, that look said a lot.

Don't say that about yourself.

Tang Chi's heart was sour for no reason, and he didn't know why.

In fact, she hasn't said such words that reveal her inner emotions for a long time.

Her only good friend now is Zhang Zinan, and their way of getting along is that Zhang Zinan said, Tang Chi listened, and occasionally talked about Tang Chi's own affairs, she always lightly mentioned them.

When did it start?

She used to be a person who loved and shared her thoughts with her close classmates and friends.

Until her father passed away and her mother was seriously ill and hospitalized, she asked for leave to go to the hospital from time to time, and when she came back to class, she frantically filled her mind with knowledge.

Slowly distance yourself from your peers.

They are talking about the latest lipstick color, chasing after debut stars, chatting with boys they have a crush on, worrying about pimples, and getting tired of exam rankings.

What is she doing?Worried about my mother's diet, worried about the results of her chemotherapy, and thinking about whether I have enough money every day, I tried my best to study every day.

She couldn't sleep well or eat well for a long time, but she had to force herself to eat and sleep, and force herself not to hide from her mother.

It's not that they haven't talked to their friends, but they are all adolescent children, and they can empathize with minor annoyances. They are powerless to deal with such a major matter of life and death.

Gradually, Tang Chi became the unwelcome one. As soon as she appeared, the bustling place would be quiet for an instant. Everyone's polite smiles and sympathetic eyes said everything.

No one likes a person who is too heavily influenced by negative energy.

She actually knew.

At that time, there was a boy who had some crushes, and the other party was also chasing her, and at first he would show concern for her, and then he avoided her.

Once when she was on the way to find him, she overheard him saying to others: "Crying all day long, and saying things like she's sad every time, I'll get tired, okay? I'm afraid of such a pretty face." .”

Tang Chi will always remember this sentence.

It turned out that she made others so unhappy.

Not disappointed or sad either.

It's just too much time to be disappointed and sad.

She spent all her time studying and fighting death for her mother.

She is too tired, confiding requires energy and propriety, and she will also unconsciously bring her own expectations. As time passes, she will not confide, nor will she understand.

Over the years, I seem to be used to it.

For a person like her, it would be tiring to be her friend or lover.

That's why she said that she was not a good love partner.

"I'm not a good romantic partner."

She also said this when Zhang Zinan chased her and asked why she didn't like Shi Hai. Zhang Zinan didn't understand, and asked her, "Why are you so old-fashioned? What does this mean? How do you know if you haven't tried it!" , Tang Chi couldn't say it, so he could only silently sip a little like a smile.

She cherishes Zhang Zinan as a friend very much, and she often has to filter the words in her heart before saying something in her heart.

In this way, she can say a little bit and get rid of a little emotion, and she is satisfied.

Probably because Shi Ci was too gentle to her, she said a lot.

However, after she said it, she felt a little overwhelmed and embarrassed, and she didn't expect to get such a gentle look.

She also understood the unspoken words in Shi Ci's eyes.

For a moment neither of them spoke.

Tang Chi speculated according to common sense, and knew that her words were not easy to answer, and it was a bit embarrassing.

Tang Chi's impression of Shi Ci after several meetings, he felt that Professor Shi was a role model for young girls, with an outstanding appearance, and a talent that could match her appearance, she was dazzling.

You think that such a person would be superior, but she is not, she is proud but not lofty, confident but easy-going.

Tang Chi saw her as a respected teacher, but sometimes Shi Ci would make some jokes that she didn't know how to answer, and it didn't matter.But because she silenced the other party, she didn't feel very good.