More to come [Rebirth] (GL)

"Look, isn't it ridiculous? I don't know when it started. My parents and I seem to be unable to communicate on the same channel. Most of the time we don't communicate. Once we communicate, it is easy to take the truth as lies and the lies as the truth. "

The truth she said was taken as a lie by her parents, and the lie said by her parents was taken as the truth by her.So in the last life, they never saw each other again.

Tears slid down Ji Yuyan's face silently, and Jing Xiu's heart ached as if something had grabbed her.

"Every family has its own different form, which is not ridiculous at all." Jing Xiu comforted softly.

Ji Youyan touched Jing Xiu's gentle face on the screen, wiped his tears and continued: "When I was a graduate student, Lu Fang was going to study abroad. I don't know how the two parents discussed it, and I don't know how Lu Fang I told my parents, and they decided to get me and Lu Fang engaged. When they asked my opinion, I immediately exploded. It was the first time I argued and protested so loudly with my parents. But I couldn’t win them. They Everyone asks me, what is my dissatisfaction with Lu Fang, Lu Fang likes me so much, what is there about Lu Fang not worthy of me? Everything is fine, but I don't like it. But liking is an indistinct thing to them. And naive words, it doesn't constitute a reason at all."

"Ah Xiu, do you know? In fact, I am a very cowardly person. I was used to being restrained since I was a child, and even the struggle seemed symbolic. I couldn't break free, so I habitually wanted to find some comfort for myself. I can’t convince others anymore, so I habitually convince myself. I convince myself that in fact, everyone is not united because of love. Maybe it’s really not that important whether they like it or not. The previous generation of them can do this , No, it’s fine, I should be able to do it too. Or maybe, I may still like Shang Lu Fang slowly. So I compromised and agreed to get engaged.”

Jing Xiu's heart twisted into twists, and she bit her lower lip tightly.

Ji Youyan saw her sadness, and forced a joke to tease Jing Xiu: "It seems completely nonsense now. After all, you see, I'm bent into a paper clip."

Unfortunately, none of them laughed.Jing Xiu saw that her smile was uglier than crying, and the tears that had been swirling in her eyes also fell, and she raised her hand to wipe them away quickly.

"However, before I got engaged, I went to the hospital to visit a friend. She was a good friend of the off-campus music club I joined when I was in college. She suddenly became seriously ill and time was running out. In fact, I had already broken up with her for a long time. , because during the time I joined the club, I did a lot of things that my parents thought were outrageous, including skipping classes to participate in singer competitions, and staying out at night to engage in music. The time has come to the critical period for obtaining the postgraduate qualifications, so my father expressly forbade me not to mix in it anymore. I couldn't compete with my parents, so I really cowardly stayed away from them."

Every time she said that she was "cowardly", it was like a knife was stabbed in her heart, and it was also like a stab in Jing Xiu's heart.

"The day I went to visit her, she asked me to sing her a song. She said that she hadn't heard me sing for a long time. When she was unhappy before, when she heard my singing, she would forget everything. My song , has the miraculous effect of healing. Before leaving, she asked me a word, she said, life is long and short, are you really willing to live like this obediently all the time?" Yu Yan, I think you , very special, what a pity.Ji Youyan thought of his friend's pale face and regretful tone at that time, and his nose seemed to be stuffy.

Jing Xiu watched her cry, and followed her with tears streaming down her face silently.

"Shortly after she finished saying this, she passed away. I went to see her off, and a friend from the same club gave me a guitar, saying that she left it for me. I went home with that guitar on my back, and my father saw Guitar just remembered my skipping class before, and his face suddenly darkened. It was like a rainy day again, and I suddenly felt very boring."

"It's exhausting to be their ideal daughter. They always take my humiliation for granted. If I die tomorrow like that friend, then during the years I've been alive, what can prove that I am Do you really know what you have lived? That night I couldn’t sleep until dawn, and I kept asking myself this way, and the more I thought about it, the more I was afraid. I found that I seemed to be unable to find myself.”

"Before I got engaged, I made up my mind. I don't want to be their ideal daughter anymore. I want to live the life I want. I communicated with them and broke up. In the end, I was kicked out of the house and severed the relationship. It's the end." Ji Youyan looked directly at Jing Xiu, and said with difficulty and sincerity: "So, Lu Fang and I really have nothing. Ah Xiu, you trust me."

Jing Xiu reached out and wiped Ji Youyan's tears on the screen, but she could only watch more and more drops of water on the screen.It was her own tears.

"I believe in you." Jing Xiu raised her head to stop her tears and replied hoarsely. "Yanyan, I have always been willing to choose to believe you, and I have always been willing to understand and understand you. It's just that you never gave me such a chance before. You didn't tell me anything, and I didn't know anything."

She has always believed that understanding a person, including understanding her family and her past, can only be truly understood if she truly understands her.But Ji Youyan has always been like a cloud of fog, which she can see but cannot see through.Ji Youyan's deception has overdrawn her understanding and trust.When her insecurities overwhelmed everything, she couldn't find the confidence to continue to convince herself to believe unconditionally.