Who is the heroine? + extra

The car couldn't drive into the narrow alley, Lu Jin helped carry Guan Xi's heavy bag, and went downstairs with her, Qiao Xin originally planned to go downstairs, but Guan Xi politely refused - the sky had already darkened , It’s inconvenient to go downstairs, and it’s not a big deal to go back—there’s no one from the Guan family, so let Uncle Chen pick it up?

She only said that she wanted to have a few whispers with Lu Yun.

So Qiao Xin stood at the door of the anti-theft door, watched them change their shoes, and then gave Guan Xi a light hug.

Lu Yun accompanied Guan Xi and walked down slowly. No one spoke that day, and the afterglow of the setting sun could not shine into the corridor of Tongzilou. The sound of footsteps echoed in my ears. Listening to the staggered footsteps, they seemed to be lost in thought.

The driver, Uncle Chen, took the luggage.

Some people living nearby stretched their necks to look around. The corners of the mottled buildings were covered with moss, like Guan Xi's heart, obscure and difficult to understand.

Finally, it was time to part.

After the two adults finished speaking politely, they looked over at the two of them.Lu Yun still didn't speak, but he didn't really say "goodbye."

"...I'll go to Mingyu tomorrow morning." Lu Yun put his hands in his pockets and kicked the dust, "I don't know which class I'll be in...I'll send you a message when the time comes."

"I'll find you then." Guan Xi said.

"..."

"..."

Lu Jin was a little impatient, he took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, shook out one, and handed it to Uncle Chen—of course he was rejected, and he didn't care at all, as if this sentence was just a polite way to say it casually, Since the other party refused at this moment, he turned the direction of the cigarette case with a natural expression, took out one and put it in his mouth.

"Let's put our luggage in the car first." Lu Jin's voice was a little vague, his eyes drooped, softening the sharp and sharp face.

Uncle Chen followed him, and the two walked out one after the other.

Lu Yun scratched her head with an annoyed expression: "...Anyway, I'm going to move to Guan's house tomorrow, so I want to stay at home tonight...Actually, if you can, I think you can stay here too. One day, just one night, it will be difficult to come back after tomorrow.”

Seeing her trying to explain, Guan Xi was silent for a while: "Really?"

"Of course." Lu Yun said, "It's mainly because I don't want to part with my parents—"

"Do you know," Guan Xi said suddenly, "Actually... I always thought before that, among the two of us, I was the one who tended to be more conservative and didn't want to change the status quo. I really thought so. After all, no matter from which point of view, I have gained more... At that time, you told me that you didn't want to change it back. I thought it was because you didn't really have everything you should have. That’s why I said that, I think that even though we both want to stay the same, my desire must be stronger than yours. But I seem to be wrong.”

Her eyes were heavy and fell on Lu Yun's cheeks. Those eyes looked so dazed, as if she was stunned by the sudden series of words. She clearly couldn't figure out the situation, and could only wait for her brain to gradually react in a daze.

—I should stop.

Guan Xi's rationality told her so, but she didn't want to, and couldn't.

"I was wrong," she paused, "You are the conservative, the one who clings to the past and is unwilling to change. The surface and the heart are completely opposite. In fact, you don't want the things you value to change even more than I do——Ben You don't want those things that should belong to you but now belong to me, not because you despise those things, but because you refuse the possibility of exchange at all, so you would rather give up those things you don't have and choose now Hold it in the palm of your hand." Speaking of this, Guan Xi once again thought of the somewhat surprised but uneasy look that Lu Yun showed that day, and she felt a little tight in her chest, "I thought you would cause my uneasiness , but the fact...is that I make you feel uneasy?"

At this moment, everything seemed to be gone. She looked at Lu Yun stubbornly, wanting to get an answer.This problem has been in her heart for so long that every morning when she wakes up and sees Lu Yun lying on the bed and sleeping peacefully, she will feel unspeakable sadness - that sadness is not even Her own sadness was derived from Lu Yun's sadness, like... The moss covering a corner of the wall is because of the decadence and withering of the wall itself.

Before, Guan Xi never knew that he was such an empathetic person, that as long as he thought of the other party's uneasiness all the time, he would empathize with him.

...It seems that the two of them are twins with telepathy.

Lu Yun seemed to wake up suddenly from a dream, and looked at her in a daze. After a while, he showed a somewhat embarrassed expression: "I..."

Lu Yun was very embarrassed, and her unprecedented embarrassment forced her to take a step back, as if as long as she did this, she could completely escape this bewildering space.

Being hit by Guan Xi's words, she really did feel this way.

That kind of feeling that I don't want to change at all, and I don't want to exchange at all.