Reborn on the Happy Hall + Spoiler
Chapter 113
Deng Yuan lowered his head slightly, and fiddled with the hem of the skirt twice: "Looking out of the window, through the barbed wire, you can see the lights of the town in the distance. In fact, the town is not far from here—I remember my parents sent me When I came, we had dinner at the restaurant in town. But the feeling is, you can see it and you know it’s not far away...but you just can’t get there.”
Every time the film came here, Xu Yihan felt his chest being tightly strangled, his breathing became sluggish, and he felt nauseated at the same time.
"Bai Niangniang and I often stood at the window and looked out. After a long time, he said that I was like his sister. He said that he wanted to call me 'Xiaoqing' when no one was around. I thought it was strange, but in' Righteousness', there is nothing 'normal' at all—right?" Deng Yuan's voice was very soft, almost ethereal, "He wants to scream, so let him scream...so I became a 'Xiaoqing' '."
"It's been like this for a long, long time... In fact, it was two months? But I think it's been too long, as if I can't get out for the rest of my life... I seem to be going crazy. When I was most desperate, I told Bai Madam, I want to die. He asked me, what will happen after death? I said, maybe I will be reincarnated? He asked again, can I become a woman after reincarnation?" Deng Yuan smiled, "I'm talking about the next life I didn't know, he said that you should not die."
Deng Yuan put his arm on the window sill, turned his head to look out the window.Under the camera, he suddenly stopped talking, leaving only the back of his jet-black head to the audience.Wearing a skirt and black low-heeled shoes, he stood tall amidst the mess, like a white eustoma growing out of nowhere in the mud.
Xu Yihan thought, Deng Yuan should not be in this place, no, not only Deng Yuan, no one should be in this place, no one.
"Later, one night, the doctor overheard Bai Niangniang singing "Waiting Once in a Thousand Years", and several doctors dragged him out... I don't know what they did to him that night. When I came back, I fell on the bed and continued to sing "Waiting for a Thousand Years". Everyone else was asleep, so I told him, stop singing, go to sleep, morning exercises will be done tomorrow... I I should ask him what happened, but I didn't ask, because it's too normal in 'Zhengxin', it's too normal to be pulled out for a beating, or a few electric shocks... I told him to stop singing, he He didn’t listen, but kept singing. After a while, two people in the same dormitory were woken up by him, cursed a few words, warned him to sing again and called the doctor over, and he stopped singing.”
Having said this, Deng Yuan's voice froze, he still turned his back to the camera, but Xu Yihan knew that he was crying.
"Bai Niangniang stopped singing, and we all fell asleep... Another time passed... I don't know how long, he woke me up and asked me, Xiaoqing, do you want to go? I asked where to go in a daze He said, get out, get out of here... I thought he was crazy again, and ignored him. I fell asleep again, and woke up again because they woke me up... They were all shouting, I jumped off the building! I jumped off the building! My The bed was facing the window, and as soon as I sat up, I saw a hole in the barbed wire fence—the hole was so small, I don’t know what he used to dig the hole, and how he climbed out... That night’s just My heart was very confused. The doctor and the instructor were taken away by 110, so I ran away... Then I never went back home. I quietly asked about Bai Niangniang, but no one knew why he jumped off the building. No one knows how he broke through the barbed wire fence, the lady of Bai's family is very rich, and I heard that her family made a lot of troubles in 'Zhengxin' several times, and people were killed, 'Zhengxin' closed down."
Deng Yuan turned around slowly, his white cheeks were full of tears, he was still crying, but his tone was calm: "Later, I always thought, if I didn't think he was crazy that night but stayed with him, wouldn't it be , he wouldn't have jumped off the building? If we hadn't been sent to the "righteous heart", we would all be able to live well. How could we be mentally ill? We can work, fall in love, make friends, and We haven’t hurt anyone, so how can we be mentally ill? But you see, not only are others treating us as mentally ill, but I also unknowingly treat him as mentally ill... To a certain extent, I am also" Righteous' accomplice?"
It wasn't until this moment that Xu Yihan finally seemed to be able to understand Deng Yuan. It turned out that he was not that soft-shouldered elder sister, not that coquettish female anchor, not that weak, naive, blindly loving weirdo.He is a victim living in self-blame, a Sisyphus whose flesh and blood are crushed by boulders over and over again, he is a bodhisattva in the eyes of others, and a sinner in his own eyes.
"Wen Jia persuaded me before that I don't blame the white lady for jumping off the building. He was forced, or he couldn't keep going... I don't need to do these things...to atone for my sins. But am I really just atonement? I like Helping them like an idiot, just to atone for their sins?" Deng Yuan's expression was full of sadness, "Some of us jumped off buildings, some suffered from depression, some completely severed ties with their families, and some sold for surgery. For money, for those who take medicine and become disabled and become disabled, there are... There are all kinds of misery. We paid such a high price just to realize our wishes. In fact, even today I still don’t think it’s A disease, although our society doesn't even recognize 'gender identity disorder', although many transgender people want society to recognize the existence of this disease, but I still don't think it's a disease. It's just a The desire to change is just the control we have over our bodies, like if a man takes aphrodisiac drugs to make his genitals bigger, people will think it’s normal, so why should a man take yellow body ketones to make his genitals bigger? If you become smaller, you become a pervert? I don’t help them to atone for their sins, but because I know that they paid such a high price...too big, the price is really too high.”
"Oh...these things have nothing to do with 'righteousness'," Deng Yuan wiped away his tears, and after a few seconds, he pointed to the window sill and repeated, "That's where Bai Niangniang jumped off."
At this point, the content about Deng Yuan is over.The documentary failed to give an answer: Did "Zhengxin" pay the price for the death of Bai Niangniang?What did the doctor and the instructor do to the white lady that night?No explanation, no truth.Maybe there will never be an explanation, there will never be a truth.Xu Yihan felt both despair and rejoicing. The despair was that maybe Bai Niangniang was destined to become an unknown victim. Fortunately, at least they recorded his suffering.
In the last scene of Deng Yuan in the documentary, he is standing by the window where the white lady jumped off the building. In front of him is the gray sky, and behind him is the garbage borrowed by the wolf. The place is barren except for desolation, and there is no trace of Ling Nüè and blood and tears.
The music of "Legend of the White Snake" sounded at this moment, it was the song that Bai Niangniang hummed before jumping off the building.Because of singing that night, he was taken away by the doctor.They never had the chance to know what kind of mood Bai Niangniang was in when she sang, but the melodious and persistent singing of this song enabled them to more or less imagine the scene of Bai Niangniang singing.White Snake was imprisoned in Leifeng Pagoda, while Bai Niangniang was imprisoned in "Zhengxin". Their wishes were probably the same: one day, when the mountains collapsed and the ground cracked, it rained heavily, Leifeng Pagoda collapsed, and the barbed wire fence was broken, they rushed out. Cage, usher in true freedom——
Wait for a thousand years, wait for a time
I have no regrets after waiting for a thousand years
西湖 的 水 的 泪
I would like to be a flame with you
Wait for a thousand years, wait for a time
I have no regrets after waiting for a thousand years
……
Chapter 109
Half a month later, Shanghai.
When Zhao Xin and Liu Yusheng arrived at the hot pot restaurant, Xu Yihan was already sitting at the table.He shaved his hair into a short cut and wore a lake blue T-shirt, making him look young and capable.On the contrary, it was Zhao Xin and Liu Yusheng, both of whom had dark circles under their eyes and long hair, and looked a little out of sorts.
"What's wrong with you guys?" Xu Yihan asked in surprise, "Did you become a thief at night?"
Zhao Xin didn't even bother to roll his eyes, Liu Yusheng whispered, "We're done!"
"..."I Don't Want Superpowers" is over?"
"Yeah!" Liu Yusheng brushed back the overly long hair on his forehead, "It was finished last night, and we updated [-] words in one go."
Xu Yihan: "Five thousand per person?"
Liu Yusheng nodded: "Almost."
"That's okay, Zhao Xin didn't change [-] a day before," Xu Yihan raised his eyebrows, "Are you so vain now?"
Zhao Xin said indifferently: "You don't know a fart." He looked completely overwhelmed, with black eye circles and blue stubble on his face, and his expression was sleepy.
"Hey, what about this... How should I put it?" Liu Yusheng squeezed Zhao Xin's hand, as if smoothing his hair, "There is motivation when there is competition. We write alone, so there is no competition... We can write twice a day. A thousand words are good."
Xu Yihan: "Is that so? But I remember that both of you used to change at least three thousand a day."
"That was before, we were not together," Zhao Xin asked, "Have you never been in love?"
Every time the film came here, Xu Yihan felt his chest being tightly strangled, his breathing became sluggish, and he felt nauseated at the same time.
"Bai Niangniang and I often stood at the window and looked out. After a long time, he said that I was like his sister. He said that he wanted to call me 'Xiaoqing' when no one was around. I thought it was strange, but in' Righteousness', there is nothing 'normal' at all—right?" Deng Yuan's voice was very soft, almost ethereal, "He wants to scream, so let him scream...so I became a 'Xiaoqing' '."
"It's been like this for a long, long time... In fact, it was two months? But I think it's been too long, as if I can't get out for the rest of my life... I seem to be going crazy. When I was most desperate, I told Bai Madam, I want to die. He asked me, what will happen after death? I said, maybe I will be reincarnated? He asked again, can I become a woman after reincarnation?" Deng Yuan smiled, "I'm talking about the next life I didn't know, he said that you should not die."
Deng Yuan put his arm on the window sill, turned his head to look out the window.Under the camera, he suddenly stopped talking, leaving only the back of his jet-black head to the audience.Wearing a skirt and black low-heeled shoes, he stood tall amidst the mess, like a white eustoma growing out of nowhere in the mud.
Xu Yihan thought, Deng Yuan should not be in this place, no, not only Deng Yuan, no one should be in this place, no one.
"Later, one night, the doctor overheard Bai Niangniang singing "Waiting Once in a Thousand Years", and several doctors dragged him out... I don't know what they did to him that night. When I came back, I fell on the bed and continued to sing "Waiting for a Thousand Years". Everyone else was asleep, so I told him, stop singing, go to sleep, morning exercises will be done tomorrow... I I should ask him what happened, but I didn't ask, because it's too normal in 'Zhengxin', it's too normal to be pulled out for a beating, or a few electric shocks... I told him to stop singing, he He didn’t listen, but kept singing. After a while, two people in the same dormitory were woken up by him, cursed a few words, warned him to sing again and called the doctor over, and he stopped singing.”
Having said this, Deng Yuan's voice froze, he still turned his back to the camera, but Xu Yihan knew that he was crying.
"Bai Niangniang stopped singing, and we all fell asleep... Another time passed... I don't know how long, he woke me up and asked me, Xiaoqing, do you want to go? I asked where to go in a daze He said, get out, get out of here... I thought he was crazy again, and ignored him. I fell asleep again, and woke up again because they woke me up... They were all shouting, I jumped off the building! I jumped off the building! My The bed was facing the window, and as soon as I sat up, I saw a hole in the barbed wire fence—the hole was so small, I don’t know what he used to dig the hole, and how he climbed out... That night’s just My heart was very confused. The doctor and the instructor were taken away by 110, so I ran away... Then I never went back home. I quietly asked about Bai Niangniang, but no one knew why he jumped off the building. No one knows how he broke through the barbed wire fence, the lady of Bai's family is very rich, and I heard that her family made a lot of troubles in 'Zhengxin' several times, and people were killed, 'Zhengxin' closed down."
Deng Yuan turned around slowly, his white cheeks were full of tears, he was still crying, but his tone was calm: "Later, I always thought, if I didn't think he was crazy that night but stayed with him, wouldn't it be , he wouldn't have jumped off the building? If we hadn't been sent to the "righteous heart", we would all be able to live well. How could we be mentally ill? We can work, fall in love, make friends, and We haven’t hurt anyone, so how can we be mentally ill? But you see, not only are others treating us as mentally ill, but I also unknowingly treat him as mentally ill... To a certain extent, I am also" Righteous' accomplice?"
It wasn't until this moment that Xu Yihan finally seemed to be able to understand Deng Yuan. It turned out that he was not that soft-shouldered elder sister, not that coquettish female anchor, not that weak, naive, blindly loving weirdo.He is a victim living in self-blame, a Sisyphus whose flesh and blood are crushed by boulders over and over again, he is a bodhisattva in the eyes of others, and a sinner in his own eyes.
"Wen Jia persuaded me before that I don't blame the white lady for jumping off the building. He was forced, or he couldn't keep going... I don't need to do these things...to atone for my sins. But am I really just atonement? I like Helping them like an idiot, just to atone for their sins?" Deng Yuan's expression was full of sadness, "Some of us jumped off buildings, some suffered from depression, some completely severed ties with their families, and some sold for surgery. For money, for those who take medicine and become disabled and become disabled, there are... There are all kinds of misery. We paid such a high price just to realize our wishes. In fact, even today I still don’t think it’s A disease, although our society doesn't even recognize 'gender identity disorder', although many transgender people want society to recognize the existence of this disease, but I still don't think it's a disease. It's just a The desire to change is just the control we have over our bodies, like if a man takes aphrodisiac drugs to make his genitals bigger, people will think it’s normal, so why should a man take yellow body ketones to make his genitals bigger? If you become smaller, you become a pervert? I don’t help them to atone for their sins, but because I know that they paid such a high price...too big, the price is really too high.”
"Oh...these things have nothing to do with 'righteousness'," Deng Yuan wiped away his tears, and after a few seconds, he pointed to the window sill and repeated, "That's where Bai Niangniang jumped off."
At this point, the content about Deng Yuan is over.The documentary failed to give an answer: Did "Zhengxin" pay the price for the death of Bai Niangniang?What did the doctor and the instructor do to the white lady that night?No explanation, no truth.Maybe there will never be an explanation, there will never be a truth.Xu Yihan felt both despair and rejoicing. The despair was that maybe Bai Niangniang was destined to become an unknown victim. Fortunately, at least they recorded his suffering.
In the last scene of Deng Yuan in the documentary, he is standing by the window where the white lady jumped off the building. In front of him is the gray sky, and behind him is the garbage borrowed by the wolf. The place is barren except for desolation, and there is no trace of Ling Nüè and blood and tears.
The music of "Legend of the White Snake" sounded at this moment, it was the song that Bai Niangniang hummed before jumping off the building.Because of singing that night, he was taken away by the doctor.They never had the chance to know what kind of mood Bai Niangniang was in when she sang, but the melodious and persistent singing of this song enabled them to more or less imagine the scene of Bai Niangniang singing.White Snake was imprisoned in Leifeng Pagoda, while Bai Niangniang was imprisoned in "Zhengxin". Their wishes were probably the same: one day, when the mountains collapsed and the ground cracked, it rained heavily, Leifeng Pagoda collapsed, and the barbed wire fence was broken, they rushed out. Cage, usher in true freedom——
Wait for a thousand years, wait for a time
I have no regrets after waiting for a thousand years
西湖 的 水 的 泪
I would like to be a flame with you
Wait for a thousand years, wait for a time
I have no regrets after waiting for a thousand years
……
Chapter 109
Half a month later, Shanghai.
When Zhao Xin and Liu Yusheng arrived at the hot pot restaurant, Xu Yihan was already sitting at the table.He shaved his hair into a short cut and wore a lake blue T-shirt, making him look young and capable.On the contrary, it was Zhao Xin and Liu Yusheng, both of whom had dark circles under their eyes and long hair, and looked a little out of sorts.
"What's wrong with you guys?" Xu Yihan asked in surprise, "Did you become a thief at night?"
Zhao Xin didn't even bother to roll his eyes, Liu Yusheng whispered, "We're done!"
"..."I Don't Want Superpowers" is over?"
"Yeah!" Liu Yusheng brushed back the overly long hair on his forehead, "It was finished last night, and we updated [-] words in one go."
Xu Yihan: "Five thousand per person?"
Liu Yusheng nodded: "Almost."
"That's okay, Zhao Xin didn't change [-] a day before," Xu Yihan raised his eyebrows, "Are you so vain now?"
Zhao Xin said indifferently: "You don't know a fart." He looked completely overwhelmed, with black eye circles and blue stubble on his face, and his expression was sleepy.
"Hey, what about this... How should I put it?" Liu Yusheng squeezed Zhao Xin's hand, as if smoothing his hair, "There is motivation when there is competition. We write alone, so there is no competition... We can write twice a day. A thousand words are good."
Xu Yihan: "Is that so? But I remember that both of you used to change at least three thousand a day."
"That was before, we were not together," Zhao Xin asked, "Have you never been in love?"
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