Breaking the cocoon gl+ Fanwai

She did it only because of the nasty and perverted feelings in her heart. How can I be swayed by it.

She contacted my mother, and my mother came to pick me up. She followed us home like a candy bar, then entered my house shamelessly, and even went to see the child.I felt disgusted, but I didn't show it, I don't know what happened to me, maybe, I was just thanking her, at least she took me in for a night.

That afternoon, my mother went out for a trip, and when she came back, she actually told me that she wanted me to move to Gu Fan's house for a while, as a change of environment and a change of mood.I was noncommittal, there was resistance in my heart, but there was also a faint expectation. I felt that I shouldn't have such emotions, and subconsciously wanted to refuse.But looking at my mother's expectant eyes, I couldn't open my mouth. Because of me, she couldn't enjoy life at this age. She had to go to the hospital to take care of my father, take care of my children, and even take care of me. Jiāo exhausted, in just over half a year, all her hair has turned white.I think, obeying her is my last filial piety.

(four)

I started living with her.

This is not as difficult as I thought, she will not interfere with me too much.Other than the initial friction, we've been fine.On the first day I entered her house, I felt very uneasy because I changed to a strange environment. I didn't have the confidence that I lived in her house that night, but I could feel hallucinations and malice everywhere.I was very disturbed, and turned on the TV to divert my attention, but she interrupted on purpose.Seeing her sitting in front of the TV, showing me a weird smile, anger and fear made my mind explode, I couldn't restrain it, I hated her, feared her, everything was her fault, I wanted to kill her, kill her her!

I wanted to go to the kitchen to get the knife, but she hugged me by the waist and picked it up. No matter how hard I struggled, I couldn't shake her off.Her strength is terrifying, and she restrained me, I think I really fell into the tiger's acupoint this time.But she called my name so earnestly, Lin Yi, Lin Yi repeated it like this, no one has ever called me so seriously to the point of piousness, I gradually calmed down, the anger and fear faded away, and what remained was a touch of sadness and timidity.I had no choice but to gather my energy, stimulate her with words again, and was eager to draw a line with her.She just agreed obediently. I didn't look at her expression, but from her simple sentence, I heard loss and hurt.I pretended I didn't know and forcibly ignored her feelings.

That night, I was lying on the bed and couldn't sleep, but I heard movement outside the door, and music sounded soon.Although the music was beautiful, there was an inorganic coldness in my ears, which made me tremble for no reason.I opened the door, turned off the music, knocked on her bedroom door and threw the player back at her.She asked me why I didn't like music, and in order to prevent her from pestering me, I honestly refused her.Unexpectedly, she even said that she would sing for me.I didn't believe her and shut her out.I was lying on the bed, but she really sang through the door.Her voice is very pleasant, a little deep, but very melodious female voice, singing is also very moving.She sang that famous lullaby, and I knew she was trying to lull me to sleep, but I had mixed feelings in my heart and didn't know what it was.But her singing is so charming, it seems to be the light of a lighthouse guiding me in the silent night, I followed the singing ups and downs, and actually fell asleep, I don’t know how long, I finally fell asleep sleep well.

Getting along with her is actually a very enjoyable thing. At the beginning, I was right. She has a high emotional intelligence, knows how to get along with me, and can always find a suitable method to save me from painful emotions.Sometimes I am very grateful to her, but sometimes I hate her so much, sometimes I can't help but want to get close to her, but when I think of her special feelings for me, I stay away.I fell into a conflict with her, but I didn't have the mood to mourn my own misfortune.

One day, she accidentally cut her hand while cooking, and I happened to see it.The blood reminded me of the horrible memory of cutting my wrist, and I couldn't breathe, fear overwhelmed me.I saw her expression, she was full of worry, and I felt that I couldn't show my fear lest she come close to me again.So I forced myself to remain calm and endured until evening.Patience has a limit, and finally fear became unbearable for me any longer.I have to find something to divert my attention.I felt that my hands were covered with blood, so I turned on the tap and started washing my hands desperately, but I couldn't get it clean no matter what.Blood flowed out from my wrist continuously, and the pool was full of blood, and it couldn't be washed clean.I felt desperate, and when I walked out of the bathroom, I heard the sound of the water stop abruptly, and she was standing behind, I was momentarily in a daze, and pulled away from the hallucination of blood.But I was still very scared. I squatted down and curled myself into a ball, intending to use this method to isolate myself from the world again, but I fell into a warm embrace. She comforted me so gently and told me that it was okay, everything was alright. She was there, but I couldn't break free from the fear.

That night, I was awakened by a nightmare, and the terrible hallucinations wrapped me up. I struggled crazily, but the noise attracted her to come over, and she restrained me again with that terrible force.I gradually calmed down, but my heart was so turbulent that I couldn't help but confide my heart to her.I told her that I hated myself, I dare not kill, and I couldn't kill myself, I was too cowardly.I didn't expect that she would open the chatterbox to me.