Sister, please stop

Calls to the Yeren Business Office stopped, which really scared me!I don't even have time to notify you, and she won't let me notify you either!I really don't know which bastard made Xiaoshi like this, Xiaoshi, you say she is usually silent, but she is actually a very honest and careful person, this can break up, is there still love in this world? "

"Hey, Zhao Han, make a sound!"

Zhao Han supported the refrigerator door: "Squeak..."

Guan Nan hung up the phone angrily.

Zhao Han slowed down for a while, and took out soup dumplings and porridge from the refrigerator to heat up. When eating alone, there was an echo when chewing. This was something Zhao Han hadn't noticed before. She once suspected that she had tinnitus from a cold.

but.

But this meal couldn’t last, Zhao Han put down his chopsticks, Shi Jiu’s position in the phone call record is always at the front, she saved Xiao Jiu, and when the phone was called, Zhao Han changed clothes randomly, but there were only standard And the cold reminder: "Sorry, the number you dialed is not within the service area..."

Zhao Han stretched his arms under the coat, exerting too much force, as if something had been torn, she took it off and checked it again, but she couldn't find any obvious cracks, so she put it on again and went downstairs.

She called a taxi, and she knew where Shi Jiu lived. The driver seemed to be a novice, and even used the navigation system, so he said, "It's quite far."

The navigation shows that it takes 35 minutes to drive.

Shi Jiu is also renting a house, on the third floor, and the lights in her house can be seen downstairs are still on.

Zhao Han wrapped his clothes tightly and climbed up the stairs. The tightly sealed door blocked the light in the room, like a barrier erected in front of his eyes.

Zhao Han stood in front of the door in a daze, thought for a while before ringing the doorbell, but no one answered, and made a call, the reminder over there never changed Sorry, the user you dialed is not within the service area.

Only then did Zhao Han belatedly remember Guan Nan's words and come to Shi Jiu, threw away the phone card, cut off the internet, and she will retreat for three to five months.

Frustrated, Zhao Han retreated to the corridor. It was cold and cold at night, and he sat on the steps to keep warm by smoking.

Waking up, in the cold, in the smoky fog, the memory came back, Zhao Han suddenly remembered, the same thing, Shi Jiu told her in the afternoon.

When Zhao Han came back from a business trip, she almost died of a cold. It was Shi Jiu who took her to the hospital. After the injection, it was Shi Jiu who took her home. She had a low fever and always felt cold. It was Shi Jiu who drove her to the hospital. Under the quilt.

This time, Shi Jiu didn't catch up with the manuscript, so he sat by the bed and chatted with her, the topic went round and round, Zhao Han was sleepy, but Shi Jiu asked about Luo Qingbai, Zhao Han didn't defend himself, and stroked his hair angrily, There was grievance in the nasal voice: "She shouldn't have tested me!"

At that time, Shi Jiu was still smiling and asked Zhao Han, "Are you angry?"

Zhao Han was silent, he was anxious and speechless, he was wronged, he was disappointed, he was discouraged, he was so sad, mixed together, blocking his words.

Shi Jiu also made fun of her: "It's been two years before I remember being wronged, your reflexive arc is insulated..."

Zhao Han held back for a long time before saying flatly, "There's nothing wrong with me."

Now that I know all the sorrow, I want to say it, I want to say it, I want to say it, but I say it's cold and my mouth is stiff.

Shi Jiu touched her forehead, and said slowly: "Zhao Han, I know it's true that you don't blame her, and you don't feel wronged...Zhao Han, among other things, when you were studying, the public opinion was against you every time. It’s all so unfavorable. When it’s serious, someone asks the dormitory auntie to ask you to move out of the dormitory. At that time, auntie, me, Guan Nan, we all advised you to go home, and you refused with one word... But as soon as Luo Qingbai left , The gossiper hasn’t heard the news yet, and there’s no pressure from public opinion, but you didn’t say anything, and applied for retiring from the dormitory and going home. Your home is so far away from the school, so it’s not too much to say that you go to school wearing stars and moonlight.”

Zhao Han didn't know how to argue, he didn't want to bring up the past again, he didn't want to recall his state of mind at that time, so he said weakly: "That was the past."

"Yes, that was in the past." Shi Jiu also admitted.

But Shi Jiu also asked: "What about now? Zhao Han, with your qualifications and strength when you graduated, they let you sit in the office of the R&D team and go home from work on time. As for you, you changed into the project department as soon as you heard about it. Following the project, I can’t see anyone who has been running for a year, and most of the time I go to travel after taking a break. Have you ever been in the mood to go home happily after work on schedule?”

Zhao Han was powerless to resist, buried his head and said, "Xiao Jiu, I'm so sleepy, let me sleep for a while."

No matter how she shrank herself into the quilt, Shi Jiu spoke softly and slowly, but said uninterruptedly: "Zhao Han, when you lived in the dormitory, you used to play red wine, keep medicine boxes, grow flowers and grass, and gardenias bloomed. Let's show off your status and live in the dormitory as warmly as your own home, but after Luo Qingbai left, have you ever raised another grass? Look at your room, apart from a living thing like you, there is no life left Zhao Han, ask yourself, is it really because you are busy, or is there some other reason?"

Zhao Han pinched the corner of the quilt and smiled.

Shi Jiu sighed: "Even if these are not the case, what kind of person are you, Zhao Han? After breaking up, I kept protecting her, knowing that she was afraid, you didn't even say a word of nonsense, and in the end, without saying a word, you were willing to let others take you... In the end, people ran away without even wiping their mouths clean , ran away for two years, then came back quietly, came back to look for you, didn't mention the past and didn't make a statement, just to test you, are you not wronged?"

Zhao Han grabbed Shi Jiu's hand shamelessly: "Xiao Jiu, don't talk about it, my cold is worse than what you said." She returned to the state where her nose was just a decoration, and she couldn't breathe out of the stuffed chest. Almost begging Shi Jiu: "Is it okay not to talk about this?"

Shi Jiu lowered her head, pinching her dry and slightly hot palm with her fingers, making up her mind to ignore her softness: "No, Zhao Han, look at you, you are trying hard to maintain the old living habits, but Now your yào box is empty, the refrigerator is empty, the balcony is empty, and even the toiletries in the bathroom... Zhao Han, you have turned your home into a long-term rental hotel, you have never done anything about Luo Qingbai. It's okay to say it's okay, but once she leaves, you will be empty everywhere, you were not like this before..."

"But she is back now. This is the place she escaped from. If it wasn't for you, why did she find her job here? Why did she find your door when she came? Whether she tempted or flinched, she After all, I’m back... In fact, this is fine, Zhao Han, these years, I... I always think that there is no way for you to go on like this, but I can’t go on anymore..."

Zhao Han fiercely propped up half of his body and looked at Shi Jiu. The few drops of liquid in her hand scalded her like flames, and thousands of thoughts were rumbling in her mind, but she couldn't ask, just He called out uncertainly: "Xiao Jiu..." Pulling Shi Jiu up, he saw clearly that there was indeed a tearful face in front of him, and Zhao Han's heart was in a state of ups and downs.

But Shi Jiu smiled: "Yes, I am... Many times, I come to your house to replenish your empty refrigerator, empty yào box, empty kitchen... Do you see the pair of bean green bowls in the cupboard... ...When I bought it...I hoped to make up for your empty wound...I..."

Zhao Han and Shi Jiu have known each other for more than ten years, Shi Jiu is calm, a person like Zhao Han can be relied on by Shi Jiu, at first glance Shi Jiu's teary eyes and speechless words, even though he is usually as calm as Zhao Han Han also changed her expression in shock. She squeezed Shi Jiu's hand and blurted out, "Xiao Jiu, then you come, I'm very welcome..."

Zhao Han is sincere at this moment.

Everything Shi Jiu said about her loneliness and emptiness is true, and everything Shi Jiu didn't say about her loneliness and emptiness is also true.It's not that she can't bear it, but if there is such a person who is willing to rescue her from this empty, boundless loneliness, if this person is Shi Jiu, she is grateful and welcome.

But Shi Jiu wiped away her tears, and she calmed down again. She shook her head with a wry smile: "No, Zhao Han, I can't, I ask myself... I ask myself, have I liked you all these years, or even... I love you, but this love... can only have so much!"

Zhao Han understood in an instant, like a person trapped in an extremely cold wasteland greeted a short-term warm embrace, and fell out of this embrace in an instant, falling on the ground paved with ice. Yes, it was that embrace that let go of her.

Zhao Han only watched the tears on Shi Jiu's face wet and then dry, dry and then wet, and finally said something to her, he had almost no idea.

I only remember that when Shi Jiu left, he bent down and kissed her forehead, telling her to get well soon.

Chapter 21 Chapter 21

Waking up on Sunday, she was still woken up by Guan Nan’s phone call. Zhao Han yelled into the phone, but the sound didn’t come out, and her throat hurt like a handful of wheatgrass. She remembered the scene in the TV series and pinched it with her fingers Twice the handset of the phone to indicate that the call is connected.

Guan Nan worried: "Why are you more serious than yesterday? I was going to ask you about Xiaoshi, but you guessed that you didn't have time to take care of her. Alas, I don't have time to see her now, don't let her alone Let something go wrong!"

Zhao Han was glad that he was hoarse and didn't have to search his brains to answer this question. Guan Nan muttered a few more words, superstitiously blaming everything on Luo Qingbai: "It was fine at first, but when she came, everyone didn't go well. You A cold has become such a virtue, and Xiao Shi has also lost his love..."

Zhao Han coughed until his whole chest hurt. She didn't hear what Guan Nan said at the end, and she had already hung up.

In the foggy weather, Zhao Han swayed from the sink with his teeth in his mouth, stood in front of the bedroom window and brushed his teeth, watching the cold wind roll down the withered yellow leaves like a harvest.

After washing up, I went to the hospital. When the seasons change, there are frequent colds. The outpatient clinic is overcrowded. Zhao Hanqian waited for half an hour for an old lady to finish the injection. She was also alone. The old lady saw that there were many people waiting for a seat. , After the nurse pulled out the needle, she only rested for a while and left.

Zhao Han watched the old lady walk around the crowd tremblingly, adjust her hat, lift the heavy curtain of the outpatient building with some difficulty and disappear from sight, as if she saw her own future.

The old lady who came to get the injection alone, and the neighbor who lives alone are her future.

Alone in the future.

Zhao Han didn't know what time he came home last night, and he was sleepy even though he slept until noon today, and he was afraid that he wouldn't know when he was going to sleep, hang the bottle, and he could only swipe his phone to relieve his sleepiness.

It wasn't like this yesterday. Zhao Han tilted his head and fell asleep when he received the injection yesterday. Shi Jiu looked at the bottle for her.

Swipe the phone to swipe a bunch of messages, all of Luo Qingbai's right swipes ignore, the little Wang Xifeng introduced by Xu Jing is still busy, is she free? Didn't ask why she didn't reply to the message, and sent out a series of questioning, and finally no reply , and then asked her when she was free to come out for a meal, business is not righteous, no matter what you say, you should explain it face to face, WeChat said that there is no sincerity, which makes people feel particularly insecure.

sense of security!

Zhao Han stared at these three words, almost seeing through the screen of the phone, and finally said nothing, only saying hello.

Then I checked the news in the work-related group, as if seeing the word Xu Yuan, Zhao Han read the unread news again from the beginning.

A small group of several people, a project in the gossip company and Xu Yuan, the old Zhao who is in charge of the project is said to be on vacation and is negotiating a replacement. Everyone speaks to each other. Zhao Han keeps looking down until he hears the complaint: "Yào is almost over, why don't you care about yourself!"

Zhao Han looked up, and the nurse who was too busy to touch the ground frowned and looked at her. She smiled apologetically, but her throat was so sore that she couldn't speak.

Zhao Han didn’t dare to drink water when he was getting an injection. He was afraid of going to the toilet. He had to wait in line and lift the bottle. He didn’t have extra trousers. I got a cup of hot water, stood up and drank it before going out.

Zhao Han sauntered home, and it was already night when he arrived home. When he opened the door, he was choked by the smell of smoke and retreated. Suspecting that his home had been broken into illegally, he went in at the door in a daze for a while, and then dispersed. The smell of cigarettes in the scattered room just entered the door, and there were cigarette butts lying all over the floor in the living room, which looked like corpses all over the ground after the trench war. It was only then that she remembered in a daze that she squatted outside Shi Jiu's house for a long time last night, and couldn't sleep after she came back. Wandering in the living room thinking about life.

The cigarette butt on the ground was her own masterpiece, and it was only a pack of cigarettes anyway.

Zhao Han opened the door to take a breath, endured the discomfort and cleaned up the mess, and then took a bath, it was time to sleep, Zhao Han lay on the bed flipping pancakes, and every time he endured to the limit, he had to look at the time , this patience time for pretending to sleep is accurate to 10 minutes, Zhao Han almost made himself laugh.

But at night, with Zhao Han's voice, he gave himself goosebumps with a single laugh, so he had no choice but to hold back and pretend to be asleep.

In the world of adults, I got bald the night before, and I have to go to work the next day, and I still have to report what needs to be reported even if the sound is like a screaming chicken. It is already noon when Zhao Han is struggling to finish the task , When reporting work, in order to have a little voice, I shouted hard, and I was sweating all over.

In order to eat yào, he insisted on eating half a bowl of porridge in the cafeteria at noon. Zhao Han turned his mobile phone and saw the news of Luo Qingbai's perseverance. They were all boring strike-ups. Zhao Han completely ignored it and tried to call Shi Jiu. , still can't get through.

At noon that day, the sun finally emerged from the mist, and the light was able to shine into the cafeteria. Zhao Han felt that his cold was better after he was exposed to the sun until it was time to go to work.

When she went to work in the afternoon, her colleague put a box of Golden Throat Lozenges on her desk. I don't know if it was really a medicinal effect or a psychological effect. After finishing the class in the afternoon, Zhao Han felt much better.

It was a bit early to go home after get off work. She went to the nearby supermarket for a stroll, bought a bunch of vegetables and meat, and prepared to live an exquisite life of "making delicious food for herself". Follow the music in the earphones.Huffing his throat and humming in a broken voice, "This love always repeats the same pattern, even the same words are endless and endless..." When he changed his shoes and opened the refrigerator, his voice stopped abruptly.

Zhao Han stood holding the door of the refrigerator for a long time, then slowly turned his head, and found that there had been changes at home. Red roses and lilies wrapped in gypsophila were placed in extra white porcelain thin-necked vases on the dining table, and new ones were on the coffee table in the living room. The ashtray is pea green, in the shape of a leaf, the flower stand on the balcony, there are green radish and spider plants on it, and a pot of lush gardenia tree...

Also, on the coffee table in the living room, the key to her house.

Underneath is a narrow note, counting it carefully, there are only six words that are cherished by each, don't read it.

Zhao Han repeatedly watched and watched, as if he couldn't get enough of it, sat on the sofa and watched for half an hour, only to find that she was still holding the food in her hand, and the earphones were not taken off. I don't know when it looped to "Reserved" , Sister Fei sang in a cold voice, "You closed your eyes and kissed me, and hugged me tightly in your arms without saying a word, you love me, you must love me to the end..."

Zhao Han's body seemed to be bursting with cold air. She wanted to let out this breath slowly. The breath she exhaled made her teeth hurt from the cold. signs.

Zhao Han laughed at himself, ignoring this uncomfortable feeling, and stuffed the things he bought into the refrigerator with plastic bags to make some delicious and exquisite life.

She went downstairs, took a taxi to Shi Jiu's rental house, and went downstairs to the third floor.