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"You mean her and the landlady?"

"Of course, the proprietress is so pretty..."

Xin Yu leaned her back against the wall weakly, listening to them continue to discuss her girlfriend's experience of being the first to benefit the crowd.

Chapter 36 Chapter 36

What kind of years were those?

In those few years, Hongyu was filled with anger, and then vented it with alcohol and desire. After others ruined her trust and love, she further ruined herself.

And what did I do then?

The corners of Xinyu's eyes dripped with crystals. I chose to stand on the sidelines, and tried to alienate her by using the excuse of being indiscreet in my private life.

She didn't know how Hongyu got out of deep despair.

Looking back at what she has experienced, the person in front of her who loves her is so heart-warming, so considerate, so sincere, how much courage must it have taken to hand herself out to me again, such pampering, such love , that kind of care, and what she asks for in return is just trust.

But because of her past, I couldn't trust her 100%, and I kept opening up the past to use in disputes. Doing so was no less than pushing her into the abyss of the past, forcing her to think back to the dire times.

This is not love at all, I kept hurting Hongyu, but she opened her heart because of her love for me, and she was hurt by me almost defenselessly, again and again.

No matter how hopeful people are, they should despair, right?

But she is still gentle, and she is not afraid to say love!

Xin Yu finally understands why even Mommy hates iron for steel, she is doing something wrong on her own.

Looking at the person talking and laughing with Lisa from a distance again, Xinyu felt so guilty and ashamed that she had nowhere to go, so she raised her feet and moved slowly, step by step towards the door.

Xinyu didn't come back after a long time, and she was a little tired after drinking, but Hongyu still went to the bathroom to look for it, but there was no one there?

Going back to the sofa, she found her cell phone and called Xin Yu anxiously, but no one answered, she called twice in a row, at this time she received a message from Xin Yu: "I'm already gone."

With question marks all over her face, Hong Yu was at a loss for Xin Yu's unexpected arrival and farewell without saying goodbye. Her exhausted body finally couldn't hold it anymore. She sat down on the sofa and thought for a while before returning: " Oh well."

Seeing that her face was not looking well, Lisa walked over from the bar again and asked softly, "Are you okay? I'll take you home?"

"No need, you're still busy!" Hong Yu forced a smile and said, then picked up the bag, and walked out with unsteady steps.

It was at this time that the nightlife at Clarke Quay came alive. Hong Yu quickly caught a taxi, and the car was speeding along the road. She watched the lampposts receding one by one, not knowing where she and Xin Yu were going.

In fact, Xin Yu didn't leave, but fled to her car and sat there blankly.For the most intelligent people, the hardest reality to accept is finding out that they've done something terribly wrong, which shakes their self-confidence, and when that self-confidence is challenged, self-esteem kicks in.

She couldn't believe that she waited silently for three years to find the right time to start a relationship with Hongyu. In fact, it was not a manifestation of rational handling of feelings. On the contrary, it was a cowardly choice to make excuses for not being able to trust her.

If she had been braver, she might have been able to be with Hongyu earlier, but who can say for sure in the world?

When she was beating her head angrily, she saw Hongyu coming out of the bar with faltering footsteps, and walking towards the place where she could take a taxi with her not sober head propped up.

The security guard at the door of the apartment recognized her car and let her go. She saw that the taxi had stopped and guessed that Hongyu was paying. After the car was parked, she also got out of the car.

Hongyu seemed to be a little more awake than before. She looked up at the crescent moon in the sky, took a deep breath, and walked towards the elevator entrance.

Xin Yu looked at her back silently. There was thick fog in the late night air. Hong Yu, who was dressed in dark clothes, seemed to blend into the thick night. The back that looked up at the moon was full of loneliness, and her footsteps were deep and shallow. Walking forward, his back is no longer straight when he staggers forward, unlike the day when he uses strength to hide his fragility, Hongyu at this time is so weak that he seems to have no strength to move forward.

She saw Hongyu swiping the key card, and through the glass door she could see her leaning against the wall weakly, silently waiting for the elevator to come down, and then looked down at the phone, trying to press something with vigor, at this moment Xin Yu 's cell phone rang.

"are you home yet?"

Xin Yu replied immediately: "It's here. How about you?"

The elevator door opened, but Hongyu didn't go in, she hurriedly replied to herself: "It's here, my bed is still comfortable, good night, I wish you a good sleep."

"Well, good night." After Xinyu sent this message, she couldn't help shedding tears. Hongyu's tone was so familiar. On those days when she was away on business, she would always receive similar messages. A white lie to reassure yourself.

Hongyu didn't want her to worry, but wanted her to feel at ease. Many times she would hold back and just want to leave her love. Even after she left without saying goodbye tonight, she could see that Hongyu was trying to hide the sadness in her heart. But she was still gentle with herself, concerned about whether I got home safely.

And what did I do?

He refuses to apologize because of his proud self-esteem, and admits that he has actually hurt Hongyu everywhere.

I don't know how long I stood downstairs. After recovering, Xinyu found the door card and key that Hongyu had given her in her bag. The moment she opened the door, Hongyu lifted up from the sofa with a face full of astonishment. Start by asking, "How do you...?"

After returning home, Hong Yu didn't take a bath, but took a bottle of brandy and drank alone on the sofa.Xin Yu didn't answer Hong Yu's question, she put down her bag and washed her hands, and brought a round brandy glass from the bar.

At this time, Hongyu was getting more and more drunk, she didn't even have the strength to get up, Xin Yu sat beside her, stepped forward to sniff her nose and mouth, and said softly: "You drink too much."

Hongyu showed a smile of "I was caught by you", and Xinyu also smiled at her, picked up the round bottle on the coffee table and drank a full glass for herself, and swallowed it breathlessly.

"Hey!" Hong Yu shouted, but it was too late to stop, Xin Yu had already swallowed it all, and she wanted to drink before going forward, Hong Yu had to grab her hand to prevent her from taking the wine.

"You let me drink, one more cup is enough." Xin Yu turned her head to look at Hong Yu intently, Hong Yu shook her head helplessly, Xin Yu knew that her coquettish expression had worked, and moved her face to rub Hong Yu's neck Ceng Ruo, softly begging: "One more glass!"

Hong Yu sighed deeply, very helplessly: "One more drink, drink slowly."

But Xinyu wanted to use the wine to boost her courage, so she couldn't drink it slowly. Although the brandy was slightly sweet, it was choking. In order not to let Hongyu stop her, she stood up and swallowed a glass again. Hongyu looked at her and was speechless .

Wiping the liquid dripping from the corner of his mouth, Xin Yu let out a breath, his body seemed to be on fire instantly, Hong Yu opened his drunken eyes and looked at his girlfriend with a flushed face, and said with an angry smile: "What are you doing? "

Pressing the burning abdomen, Xin Yu sat down next to Hong Yu again, took Hong Yu's hand with both hands, looked at Hong Yu seriously, and said again: "Hong Yu, I'm sorry."

Hong Yu was stunned on the spot, not knowing how to answer.

Xin Yu looked at her for a while, and then said: "I always thought that you enjoyed the days when you were full of beauties very much."

Hong Yu suddenly grabbed Xin Yu's hand tightly, Xin Yu looked at those beautiful big eyes, and continued: "Actually, you don't enjoy alcohol and sex. Love may make you feel better now, but the passion is gone. The great emptiness and loneliness that ensues is more torturous, like tonight, after drinking, you are actually more sad now."

"I'm sorry, I've always cared too much about my jealousy, and ignored the pain of your past being brought up constantly." Xin Yu sighed deeply at this point, and raised her hand to wipe away the tears from the corners of Hong Yu's eyes , Said softly: "I didn't think about it for you, you actually regret it more than me and want to forget those days."