Cleanliness

Sure enough, the nature is hard to change.Xiao Tong thought, Yu Qinghan couldn't change it, and neither could he.These years, the relationship between Xiao Tong and Yu Qinghan has always been at a critical point, so even if the superficial peace has been maintained for ten years, as long as they get closer to each other, the relationship is like paper, and it will be broken with a poke. There is no room for it.

What about another ten or twenty years?I'm afraid it's the same.

So the next day, Yu Qinghan wrote a two-page recovery notice and pasted it on Xiao Tong's refrigerator, and left before Xiao Tong got up.

When Yu Qinghan left, it was just dawn, and it was the time when the temperature was low. As soon as she went out, the cold air penetrated into the bones.Yu Qinghan was very chic when he was young, he dared to hang a cardigan outside at minus five degrees, but now he can't, the cool breeze can't bear it.

Yu Qinghan rubbed his hands and shook a few times, and went downstairs with his waist hooked, feeling dingy.

Xiao Tong didn't fall asleep again in the middle of the night, and sat in her room all night, thinking over and over again about those things when she was young, she thought, she might be in a daze again, and looked around, fortunately, there were no more tormenting hallucinations .

Xiao Tong heard the movement of Yu Qinghan going out very clearly. When Yu Qinghan rubbed his hands and came home in despair, Xiao Tong was watching from the window on the second floor. Yu Qinghan was famous for being good-looking when he was young. After forty, the bones are still there, and the figure is still very good, not much worse, so this movement of rubbing hands and hooking waist is very funny, Xiao Tong can't help laughing.

After Yu Qinghan went back, Xiao Tong came out of the room. Yu Qinghan's things in the living room had been cleaned up. Xiao Tong went to see the room where she slept last night, and it was cleaned too, without leaving any trace of outsiders Next, except for the two eye-catching handwritten life guides on the refrigerator.Xiao Tong walked over, took it off and looked at it.

In Yu Qinghan's early years, her handwriting was flying like a phoenix, which was exactly the same as her arrogance. In these years, Xiao Tong rarely saw her writing. Looking at it now, the domineering handwriting back then has long since disappeared. These two pieces of paper The handwriting on it is neat and graceful, and even the serial number is neatly marked, which is completely different from that of the past.

Nature is hard to change, but some things are always changing.

Xiao Tongyuan wanted to throw it away, but after thinking about it, he posted it back again.Such neat calligraphy is quite pleasing to the eye like a work of art, and it would be a pity to throw it away.

After that, Yu Qinghan didn't go to Xiao Tong's store for several days, and when she went again, it was one afternoon, when she just arrived, she ran into Xiao Tong carrying a painting folder, raising his hand to pull the rolling shutter door of the shop, Yu Qinghan He hurried over to hold the handle, and pulled down the rolling gate.

Hearing the footsteps, Xiao Tong knew it was Yu Qinghan, he didn't turn his head, and waited until the rolling gate was locked, then turned around and said thank you.

Seeing that she was about to leave, Yu Qinghan said: "The door is closed so early today?"

Xiao Tong said: "Well, the weather is good today, let's go collect wind."

"where is it?"

Xiao Tong casually mentioned a place name, Yu Qinghan knew that place, in the neighboring county, it takes more than an hour by car, and it might be evening when Xiao Tong gets there, "I'll see you off?" Yu Qinghan said, "Just now I think the bus has just left, and the next bus will probably be an hour later, and when you get there, it will be dark, so what are you doing?"

Yu Qinghan thought that Xiao Tong would refuse, but he didn't expect Xiao Tong to agree very happily, "Then let's go, thank you." As if what happened that night didn't exist at all, Yu Qinghan was startled.

When Yu Qinghan drove the car out, Xiao Tong got in the car and said with emotion: "It's more convenient to buy a car."

"Why, are you going to buy a car?"

Xiao Tong smiled and said, "I don't even have a driver's license, so I have to ask the traffic police to detain me for any car I buy."

"What's so difficult about it, just pass one of the exams." Yu Qinghan said casually, but Xiao Tong smacked this sentence in his heart, and then laughed out loud.

Yu Qinghan didn't understand, so, "What are you laughing at? Am I wrong?"

Xiao Tong smiled and waved his hands, "No, it's just that it's really not like what you said."

"Oh? Then what should I say?"

"Ahem." Xiao Tong pretended to speak like Yu Qinghan when he was young, "Driver's license? What kind of certificate do you want? I'll send someone to send you one tomorrow. Why bother to take the exam? There are still money in the world Something that can't be done?"

The learning is quite similar, Yu Qinghan can't laugh or cry, "Am I so vulgar? How come I look like a middle-aged nouveau riche with a bald beer belly."

Xiao Tongfu sneered, "Where do you think you are so advanced?"

Yu Qinghan thinks about it, when she was young, she was pretty vulgar, stupid and vulgar.

"The time you met me was considered good enough." Yu Qinghan was not afraid to expose her old background, and continued to follow Xiao Tong, "You haven't seen me when I was fourteen or five years old, when I was not I know what's wrong, I love to wear Versace, how can I be so flamboyant, my whole body is colorful, even my hair is dyed blue, my dad gets annoyed when he sees me, even Mo Xiyuan says I look like a fool of."

"How did it go back to normal?"

"Later? Then Mo Xiyuan beat me up and said he wanted to correct my aesthetics."

Xiao Tong was surprised, "My sister still beats people?"

"She and my brother were taught by the same teacher, what do you think?" Yu Qinghan felt lingering fear, "Beat me so hard that my bones ache when I see someone wearing Versace..."

"That's your own aesthetic problem, don't rely on other brands."

"I know, but isn't it a conditioned reflex for me?"

Neither of them mentioned what happened that night, and the two returned to that delicate and fragile relationship that was on thin ice.

There is a well-known national forest park in the neighboring county. It is next to the mountain. The scenery on the top of the mountain is very good at sunset, so Xiao Tong went there in the afternoon, just to paint the sunset.

Someone built stone steps in the mountain, but it was too steep, and it was still difficult to walk. Yu Qinghan helped Xiao Tong carry the paint on the drawing board, and the two of them climbed up the mountain, resting halfway up the mountain, before reaching the top of the mountain. Just in time for the sun to set slantingly towards the mountain, Xiao Tong quickly set up the drawing board.

Xiao Tong only brought a small bench up the mountain, Yu Qinghan had no place to sit, so he stood behind Xiao Tong and watched her draw for a while, his legs were a little numb, there happened to be a big rock opposite Xiao Tong's drawing board, and he could sit and rest at that angle , the drawing board couldn't cover Xiao Tong's face, so Yu Qinghan sat down there.

"Not blocking you?" Yu Qinghan asked Xiao Tong.

"It's okay." Xiao Tong said.

So the two fell silent, Yu Qinghan leaned his elbows on his knees, and rested his chin on his palms, not daring to stare directly at Xiao Tong, pretending to be playing with his mobile phone, sneaking a glance from time to time.

With a thought, Xiao Tong fixed the stone opposite her, together with Yu Qinghan, in the painting.

Yu Qinghan has been paying attention to Xiao Tong's every move, so Xiao Tong put down the pen and palette in his hand, stretched, and Yu Qinghan put away his phone and walked over, "Did you finish the painting?"

Xiao Tong nodded.

"Let me take a look." Yu Qinghan walked behind Xiao Tong to look at the painting that was not completely dry, and was stunned for a moment, "Why did you include me in the painting?"

"Old paintings are boring, but there are talented people who are not monotonous."

Yu Qinghan said: "The painting is pretty good, the details are quite accurate."

The details were indeed grasped accurately, it happened that Yu Qinghan was absent-mindedly holding the phone, and the moment he glanced towards Xiao Tong, even the cautious hope and despair in Yu Qinghan's eyes were vividly expressed, Yu Qinghan thought that he had already She pretended to be quite normal, who would have thought that looking at it from Xiao Tong's perspective, it would be so obvious, even Yu Qinghan could feel the despair of the people in the painting when she looked at the painting herself.

Looking at the painting, Yu Qinghan lost all strength.

She was watching there, but Xiao Tong didn't urge her, he just put away all his brushes and paints, folded up the bench and put them in his bag, until Yu Qinghan's mouth was astringent, and he said to Xiao Tong: "Let's go. "

Yu Qinghan also knew that she and Xiao Tong were over ten years ago.

It's over, it's over, even if I dragged it along for ten years because of myself, the full stop had already been marked ten years ago, and everything after that was invalidated.

Yu Qinghan laughed at herself, "Hey, so I have lived such a miserable life these years, why didn't I realize it before."

Xiao Tong began to put away the drawing board, "It's not too late to find out now."

"Let me take it." Yu Qinghan naturally carried Xiao Tong's bag on her back, "Let's go, the road will be difficult to walk when it gets dark."

Xiao Tong was not sure whether Yu Qinghan understood what he meant.

Xiao Tong went up the mountain, and Yu Qinghan went down the mountain. At night, the dew in the mountain was a bit heavy, and the bluestone bricks were slippery. In addition, Xiao Tong himself was absent-minded. When she was about to go down the mountain, she accidentally stepped on the stone teeth and slipped. He fell, and by the way, bumped into Yu Qinghan who was walking in front. If Yu Qinghan hadn't been steady and prepared, the two of them would have rolled down the mountain together and lost their lives.

Yu Qinghan reacted quickly, turned around and supported Xiao Tong, and slowly supported Xiao Tong to sit on the stone slab, looking at the steep hillside, a chill came down her spine.

Xiao Tong's face turned pale when he sat down, Yu Qinghan took off her shoes and socks, and lightly pressed her ankle, her ankle twitched in pain.

"The ankle is twisted." Yu Qinghan put down the bag she was carrying and put it on Xiao Tong's back, "Let's go, I'll carry you down."

"Can it work?" Xiao Tong endured the pain, gritted his teeth and said, "Why don't we call for help?"

"It's not completely dark yet, and the road is easy to walk. It will be even more difficult when the rescue team arrives. Besides, the stone steps are so narrow, even if the rescue team comes, they will have to carry you down. Don't worry, I have the foundation. You have more than enough."

What Yu Qinghan said was right, time waits for no one, the sky in the mountains will be dark when it says it is dark, and there are seven or eight roads up the mountain, it is still a problem when the rescue team can find them after they arrive.

So Xiao Tong carried the bag, Yu Qinghan carried Xiao Tong, and the two slowly went down the mountain.

With Xiao Tong on his back, Yu Qinghan didn't dare to be careless, his eyes were fixed on the steps, and he took a wrong step and the two of them finished playing. Fortunately, they were not far from the exit of the downhill. After walking for half an hour, it was just dark. They went out of the stone path and walked to the road.

On the main road, the two were relieved, Yu Qinghan's breathing became heavy, a big living person with a big backpack, this is Yu Qinghan, most women don't talk about walking with their backs on their backs, just stand up are difficult.

Xiao Tong said: "Let me down."

Yu Qinghan took a deep breath, supported Xiao Tong's thigh and pushed it up, "We'll be at the parking lot in a while, it's okay."

Xiao Tong said: "You must be exhausted."

Yu Qinghan was so tired that he was so tired, yet he still had the strength to laugh, "Tired, but also happy."

Xiao Tong raised his eyebrows: "Gloating?"

Yu Qinghan said: "No, I'm very happy if I can take care of you."

Yu Qinghan said: "Xiao Tong, do you think I'm waiting for you to change your mind?"

Yu Qinghan asked himself and answered: "I have given up hope a long time ago."

Yu Qinghan said: "Xiao Tong, you are right, the love between us has worn off early."

Yu Qinghan said: "What happened last time was that I crossed the line, Xiao Tong, I apologize to you, I just want you to know that I am not forcing you, I just have a little bit of selfishness, thinking that our relationship can be I can't be any closer, since I can't, then I'll retreat, we just need to maintain this relationship, you see, Xiao Tong, you don't need to be burdened, don't worry that I will hurt you again, Xiao Tong, you will always be What is yours, no one can force you, no one can hurt you, not me, not anyone."

Xiao Tong obviously doesn't believe Yu Qinghan's words, none of what Yu Qinghan said is credible.

"I know you don't believe me." Yu Qinghan seemed to be able to read minds, guessing Xiao Tong's thoughts, "You don't have to believe me, Xiao Tong, just trust yourself, you see, the relationship between you and me can only be It's here, so I can't even take a step forward, Xiao Tong, you are not as fragile as you think, you are very strong, very powerful, enough to protect yourself, and you don't have to think about relying on anyone to live a good life."

"Really?" Xiao Tong sneered, "I don't believe it myself."

"You don't believe it, but you can do it."

Xiao Tong didn't know if he could do it, but he only knew that his ankle was in pain and he needed to go to the hospital urgently.

Xiao Tong later gave that painting to Yu Qinghan as a thank you to Yu Qinghan for carrying him down the mountain. Yu Qinghan asked someone to frame the painting and hung it in the living room.

Another three months later, Xiao Tong was going back to Jiangyu City for a review, and Yu Qinghan accompanied Xiao Tong back. At this time, the two of them seemed to be on good terms. Even Mo Xiyuan went to pick up Xiao Tong, thinking that Xiao Tong and Yu Qinghan is on the mend again, but Xiao Tong and Yu Qinghan both know that there can no longer be a love-like relationship between them, and being an acquaintance is already the best ending.

Xiao Tong is recovering very well, and there is no major problem in the reexamination. The doctor said that if there is no recurrence within five years, Xiao Tong will probably live a long time.

Xiao Tong used to think that if he is alive, he is alive, and if he is dead, he is dead, but now he thinks it is better to be alive.

Yu Qinghan said: "Of course it's better to be alive. To be alive, there is sunshine, the fragrance of flowers, delicious food, and countless new things to see and hear. If you die, you can only stay in that small box. Which one do you think is better?"

On the way back to Shangrong, Xiao Tong said: "Yu Qinghan, you said that when we get old in the future, who will die first?"

Yu Qinghan said, "Let me go first."

"why?"

"You're afraid of the dark, so I'll go explore the road first, and light a lamp for you on Huangquan Road. Besides, you've endured me for so many years, so you should have a few days to relax."

"Since you know, are you still sticking to me?"

"That's no way, I tried, Xiao Tong, I can't live without you for the rest of my life, and besides, it's pretty good for us to live as a companion."

Xiao Tong hadn't thought about the relationship between himself and Yu Qinghan before. When Yu Qinghan said this, Xiao Tong remembered, that's right, they just lived together, and no one invaded anyone's private territory. Xiao Tong is quite acceptable, besides, there is no one more suitable to live with Xiao Tong than Yu Qinghan, they are old acquaintances who know each other's dark history, and they can know what the other party thinks with just one look.

Whatever causes you planted when you were young, you will reap the fruits now. Cowardice, arrogance, weakness, and arrogance, everything has a price, who is not like this, one foot deep and one foot shallow, slowly growing up, and slowly getting old.

"Yu Qinghan, maybe I can really live for a long time."

"I absolutely believe it."

"Let's eat shrimp dumplings tomorrow."

"Okay, I'll send it to you tomorrow morning."

"And the shirt you changed last week has also been changed. You can take it back tomorrow morning."

"Row."

The love is gone, the memory is still there, and the understanding of each other is engraved in the bones. It is easier for two people to walk forward with the help of one person than to stumble alone.

(Finish)

The author has something to say: It's over, I can't spend it anymore.I agreed to update the last few chapters daily, but I still broke my promise at the end, because I didn't really want to write the ending in the end, and now I finally finished it.

(The four chapters will be released on Weibo every day from tomorrow. Considering that some readers do not read Weibo, I will re-open a free article to post these four chapters after writing all four chapters, so as to avoid the confusion of readers who do not use Weibo. trouble.)

I have been writing this article for more than a year. I have experienced too many things in this year. The biggest thing is that I have changed from a student to a social person. This change of identity made me unable to adapt for a long time.

Thank you readers for your perseverance.

The biggest gain of writing this article is actually at the end.

To be honest, I used to regard every word I wrote as my own private property, sacred and inviolable. At the end of last year, someone said something that woke me up.

An article belongs to the author when it is being written, but once it is published, the article actually belongs to the readers. How readers comment, whether it is calm or fierce, whether it is positive or negative, or even offensive words , In fact, it is the article that should be borne. Since I published this article under this pen name, I should bear all the consequences that follow. Readers of course have the right to comment on public figures who are evaluated. It is impossible for an author to enjoy attention without allowing readers to comment. This is unfair to readers.

Of course, I, who hide behind my pseudonym, hope not to be disturbed. After all, I have the right not to be disturbed in real life.

From now on, the writing mentality will be more peaceful, and the mentality will not collapse after a slightly bad evaluation of the glass heart like before.

As for this article, I won’t say anything myself. After all, everything I want to say has been said in the article, and you are the ones who have the right to speak freely and judge freely.

Finally, I would like to thank the readers again for their support for this article, goodbye.