Cleanliness

In fact, Yu Qinghan didn't go anywhere, she just stood guard at the entrance of the hotel all night, she thought she understood Xiao Tong's personality very well, and believed that Xiao Tong would be soft-hearted, but in fact she didn't, Xiao Tong only came out the next morning, completely different Li Yu is light and cold.

Yu Qinghan's eyes darkened for a moment, and she cheered up to catch up with Xiao Tong, and asked where Xiao Tong was going today.

Xiao Tong pretended not to hear her, looked down at his phone, and followed the navigation to get on a bus. Yu Qinghan also squeezed onto it. The car wobbled and drove forward until Xiao Tong got off at the terminal, and followed the navigation instructions , turned a few turns, and finally stopped in front of a cemetery.

It is said to be a cemetery, but it is actually unguarded. It is almost like a field. Usually, there are not many people who come here. Today’s New Year’s Eve is a great day for family reunion, and no one will come here to look for bad luck. It’s winter again. Speaking of people, not even a bird can be seen.

It had just snowed and the road was muddy, so Xiao Tong changed into rubber boots, walking on flat ground.Yu Qinghan was not so relaxed, one foot was deep and the other was shallow, and a pair of calfskin Martin boots were covered with mud.

After entering the cemetery, Yu Qinghan probably put all his energy into paying attention to his feet, it was much quieter than before, and he didn't say a word along the way, until Xiao Tong stopped in front of a certain tombstone, Yu Qinghan also stopped.

The tombstone is newer than Xiao Tong imagined. There is a black-and-white photo on the monument. It is Xiao Tong’s grandma. There are mostly arched graves around her. Her grandma has built it with stone bricks and cement to make it look more grand. The tombstone A bouquet of chrysanthemums was placed in front of it, and the flowers were still freshly blooming, obviously just placed.

Xiao Tong's memory of more than ten years ago is still there, her grandma's grave was just a dirt bag, Xiao Tong turned to look at Yu Qinghan.

Yu Qinghan explained with a smile: "When we left, I found someone to worship grandma for us every year. There was a lot of rain in one year, and the man told me that many graves had been washed away, so I asked someone to bring grandma to her. The grave has been rebuilt, and it seems that the man is quite trustworthy, and he should have bought the flowers."

"Thank you, you list the cost to me, and I will call it to your account later."

"Do you have to separate me so clearly? My grandma was very kind to me back then, so why don't you just treat her as if I had a little affection for her?"

"My grandma doesn't take advantage of other people's needles and threads in her life. She would not accept it if she knew it."

"Xiao Tong, do you still have to be angry with me when it's New Year's Eve?"

Xiao Tong smiled, "I'll tell you the truth, you just think I'm mad at you."

Yu Qinghan was angry: "I can't remember the cost, if you want to draw a line with me, you can figure it out yourself!"

"Alright." Xiao Tong replied.

Xiao Tong didn't stay in the cemetery for a long time, she wiped her grandma's tomb, and then bowed to her grandma to the tombstone, "Grandma, I haven't seen you for so many years, you must be angry with me.

Hehe, you must be thinking, it’s really useless to hurt me so much.

Don’t be angry if you are celebrating Chinese New Year. I used to be cowardly. I was afraid to even come to see you. Don’t worry, from today onwards, I will definitely come to see you often. I won’t miss any big or small holidays until you bother me.

Alright, New Year's Eve, I won't bother you for the New Year's Eve, come back another day. "

After Xiao Tong finished speaking, he left without mentioning the 12 years he was absent.She has lived a worthless life for the past 12 years, and she doesn't want to tell her grandma to follow her.

Yu Qinghan also bowed to Xiao Tong's grandma, "Grandma, I used to be an asshole, don't worry, from now on I have treated Xiao Tong a little bit badly, you always come up and take me down personally!" said After bowing a few more times, he staggered to keep up with Xiao Tong's leaving pace.

When Xiao Tong left the cemetery, she met someone who she never expected to meet here.

"Jing Xing? What a coincidence."

Jing Xing was holding a bouquet of flowers in his hand, and was also a little surprised when he saw Xiao Tong, "It's a coincidence, I thought you would never come back."

"I've been away from home for so many years, so I should come back and have a look." Xiao Tong smiled, "It's Chinese New Year, what are you doing here?"

"I'm here..." Jing Xing smiled wryly, "I originally wanted to visit your grandma for you, but I just ran into you head-on." Jing Xing couldn't help being cold when he saw Yu Qinghan following behind Xiao Tong With a snort, "And her."

"Thank you for your kindness, but I have already visited grandma, you don't have to go again." Xiao Tong smiled, "Long time no see, let's have a drink together?"

"Okay, my car happened to be parked outside." Jing Xing looked at the flowers in his hand, "But what about this?"

Xiao Tong turned around and looked at Yu Qinghan with a half-smile, "Then please bring the flowers to my grandma?"

"..." Yu Qinghan looked gloomy, stood there without moving for a long time, and finally snatched the flowers from Jing Xing's hand, "...Okay!"

She snatched the flowers, turned back with difficulty, returned to the same path, and walked deep into the cemetery again.

Xiao Tong smiled at Jing Xing and said, "Let's go."

Jing Xing's eyes ran back and forth on them, not sure about the relationship between them, he didn't ask Xiao Tong until he got in the car: "Are you reconciled?"

"How is it possible." Xiao Tong laughed absurdly, "It is enough for a person to fall down in the same pit once, but I have fallen countless times in that pit, and it took half my life to climb up, and now I am still jumping into it ? I'm not a fool."

Jing Xing hesitated and asked: "Then Yu Qinghan now..."

"Stalker." Xiao Tong propped his chin and looked out the window, "Let her go."

Jing Xing didn't ask any more questions.

Speechless all the way.

Jing Xing never imagined that one day he would have nothing to say to Xiao Tong.

There are not many places suitable for a drink in Shangrong County. Fortunately, Jing Xing came back a little more diligently than Xiao Tong. He knew that there was a good coffee shop on the corner of the street near the square. .

Jing Xing ordered a cup of black coffee, but Xiao Tong didn't like coffee, so he ordered a cup of hot milk, not forgetting to ask the young landlady to add more sugar.

After the coffee and milk were served, Jing Xing asked, "How are you?"

"It's okay." Xiao Tong took a sip of the milk, but still felt it wasn't sweet, so he added the sugar cube from Jing Xing's plate into his own milk, "When the contract with Zhongshe is terminated, I will be truly free."

"Liquidated damages are not a small amount. If you want help, just tell me. You're welcome."

"Don't worry." Xiao Tong smiled.

Jing Xing absently stirred the coffee in the cup, and the two of them were silent for a long time.

As early as two months ago, Jing Xing already knew that Xiao Tong was the girl he refused to save back then, and Xiao Tong had already been a witness to Jing Xing back then.

Regret and self-blame didn't help. For a long time, Jing Xing couldn't face herself, let alone face Xiao Tong - her most hypocritical and dark side was almost invisible in front of Xiao Tong.So Jing Xing and Xiao Tong basically lost contact in the past few months.

Despair and giving up are very simple, just like Jing Xing, no matter how much he liked Xiao Tong before, after learning the truth, he couldn't think of anything else except embarrassment and embarrassment in front of Xiao Tong, and those loves back then naturally shrink back.

Seeing her like that, Xiao Tong smiled first, "Hey, be happy during the Chinese New Year, I've let go of the past, and you have nothing to hold on to."

"You...don't you hate me?"

"I hate it. Even if you beat me to nothing back then, maybe my life would be very different." Xiao Tong changed the subject, "But you have helped me a lot these years, especially when I collapsed. Ah Xing, without you, I really can't get out."

Xiao Tong shrugged, "So forget it, if the merits and demerits balance out, let's call it even."

"Then can we still be friends?"

"I'm afraid not." Xiao Tong smiled apologetically, "Although it's a bit shameless to say that, I'm sorry, I can't be friends with people who want to chase me. I know how painful it is to hope for nothing, so I can't use the same ways to hurt others.”

Jing Xing asked unwillingly: "There is no room at all?"

"There is no room at all." Xiao Tong refused firmly, with only a calm expression in his eyes, "I have lost the ability to love others, and I have also lost the ability to accept others' love.

From now on, I just want to love myself. "

When you come, you are alone, and when you go, you are alone, no one is reliable, no one is worthy of love, it is too painful to love others, it is better to love yourself.

Everyone is just a passer-by in someone else's life, Jing Xing knew that when he accompanied Xiao Tong to this stop, it was time for him to get off.

In Jing Xing's next journey, there will be no one named Xiao Tong again, that person is very nice, Jing Xing wanted to love her, but before he knew her, he had already missed her.

Life is like this, with a single thought, all future efforts will be in vain.

Not even a chance to correct mistakes.

Jing Xing had no choice but to admit it.

"Xiao Tong, I wish you happiness alone in the days to come."

"thanks, I will."

"Can I see you later?"

"I don't want it anymore." Xiao Tong said, "Jing Xing, you are so kind, you will find your own happiness."

"Xiao Tong..."

"Happy New Year."

Jing Xing's throat was tight, and the tip of her tongue was dry. Her mind was spinning a thousand times, and she said only four words: "Happy New Year."

Xiao Tong finished drinking the hot milk in his cup, put the money under the cup, and left first, leaving Jing Xing staring at the empty cup opposite him in a daze.

After some time, Chen Luo called Jing Xing, "Jing Xing, where are you? Hurry up, the New Year's Eve dinner is about to start, and I'm waiting for you to serve it!"

The phone was very noisy, firecrackers, TV, and children shouting and laughing. Jing Xing motioned to the proprietress to pay the bill, put the money on the table, and hurried out, "We're on the way, go back right away."

"Aunt Ah Xing, Gong Xi Fa Cai brought the red envelope!" A child's voice came through the phone.

"Brat, you know you want a red envelope. How did you do in the final exam? Auntie doesn't give you a red envelope if you don't do well in the exam!"

"Look at how stingy your aunt is. It's all right. If your aunt doesn't give it, I'll give you double."

"Hey Chen Luo, who are you calling stingy?"

"Ha ha ha ha……"

The atmosphere of the Chinese New Year is so joyful that no matter how much sadness or loss there is, it can be washed away completely.

Jing Xing is not someone who clings to the past, even if she feels reluctance and guilt towards Xiao Tong, she will continue to move forward.

……

Xiao Tong spent New Year’s Eve in the hotel eating compressed biscuits. She checked Weibo for a while, and they were all related to the Spring Festival Gala. Someone knocked on the door, but Xiao Tong didn't bother to open it, he pretended he didn't hear it, but the person kept knocking for 11 minutes without stopping.

"Who is it?" Xiao Tong finally asked.

"Me." Yu Qinghan's voice came from outside the door.

Xiao Tong didn't want to talk about it anymore.

"Xiao Tong, if you don't open the door, I'll knock until you do."

Xiao Tong's first reaction was to call the police, but after thinking about it, it's not easy for the police to be on night shift during Chinese New Year, so don't cause trouble to others, so he had to open the door.

"Is there something wrong?" Xiao Tong asked.

"It's okay, it's almost New Year's Eve, and I want to be with you."

"Okay." Xiao Tong agreed smoothly.

"Really?" Yu Qinghan's entire face seemed to be illuminated, but Xiao Tong didn't let her in at all, he just waited at the door with his mobile phone until 23:59, 00:00.

As soon as the time on the phone jumped, Xiao Tong immediately said: "It's over." Then he closed the door again.

Yu Qinghan didn't even have time to say a word.

Isn't it ridiculous, they haven't crossed the new year together in the ten years together with Yu Qinghan, but they did it after they separated.

Xiao Tong himself thought it was ridiculous.

Soon after, Xiao Tong received a call from Mo Xiyuan.

The author has something to say: Regarding the two paragraphs in the first two chapters about the Mo family worshiping the ancestors, let me declare that I have not researched what the actual ancestor worship is like, how many cars and how many people are there. Just take a look at the ostentation, thank you readers for pointing it out.