[Vampire Knight] Briar

[The deadly disease is despair.

Only by relying on "faith" can we have the possibility of living. 】

- Kierkegaard (the disease that kills)

"What did you say...?" Although, in my heart, the calamus that I grew up with is more important than the Sakura family.But after Calamus turned into a pure-blooded vampire again, I always had such a question in my heart: Is Kaoru Calamus... still the Calamus that belongs to me?Could it be that everything in the past was just an illusion used to confuse me?

I have no idea.Coupled with the fact that I couldn't accept the change in my feelings towards him for a while, I felt like I wanted to calm down alone.

He would do this for me.

Blood can't lie, Fei Ying's family and him should be endless enemies.But because he took my mood into consideration, he just put my father who caused all this to sleep and took advantage of the loopholes in the law, so he escaped from the 'shackles'.

"I'm sorry, it was indeed me... who seduced you just now." He whispered uncomfortably, "...because I really wanted to... At that time, I was so dazed that I didn't even hesitate to take advantage of your guilt towards me. "

Iris Kaoru bent down and was at eye level with me.His dark green pupils contain deep affection, like emeralds glowing with soft light: "I know you have never thought about it, but I have been waiting for a long time, and I am no longer willing to wait. Liang, are you willing to wait?" , to be my future wife?"

Boom.Boom.

Whose heart beats so fast.

It must not be mine.

I stared blankly at Iris Kaoru.

When I was in Europe, I thought about our future.

I knew that I would definitely become a chess piece used by the Scarlet Sakura family to marry a pure blood that I didn't know.So I thought, if such a day really comes, I will definitely make a condition to Fei Ying's family, and let Calamus accompany me to marry.

But if possible, I hope that I can escape to a place where no one can find me, with Calamus, just the two of us, living forever.

At that time, I hadn't realized my love for calamus, but the future I envisioned and my own has never been without calamus.

"...But you hid a lot of things from me." I heard my own voice, and I didn't have the persuasive power to refuse at all.

"It's just that I didn't have time." Iris Kaoru smiled at me again, and he patted my head: "I'll tell you everything bit by bit."

Kaoru Kaoru stood up straight, stretched out his right hand, held my left hand, and interlocked my five fingers.

I didn't reject his movement, but slowly, I held his hand.

"Shoto Yisa must be arriving at the Kurosuke Academy soon." He said to me, "Ryo, he is your uncle, we need to meet him."

"But those vampires..." I turned my head and looked at those 'classmates' who were unconscious on the ground.I'm not one of those self-sacrificing saints, but I can't watch them die like that.

"It's okay, Xiaoliang." Jiulan Youji interrupted, "Isn't there still me here? Use my blood." She stuck out her tongue playfully at me, "You and Calamus-kun can reconcile, It's really great." She sighed from the bottom of her heart.

But Kaoru Kaoru threw Lan Tangying a glass bottle, which contained a dark red liquid. "My blood." He said to Lan Tangying, "I know your research ability is very strong, dilute this blood, and then let those vampires swallow it. My name is Changteng, and my name is Xun. I am a pure blood of the Changteng family. Zhong is also Ryo's fiancé. You are Ryo's friends, so you can call me by my first name directly."

"...You pretended to be 'Calamus' and followed Ryo. Did you always protect her? Master Xun?" Lan Tangying put away the bottle in his hand, and then asked Calamus Kaoru.

"I have never pretended to be anyone. I have always been me." Iris Kaoru answered him when he pulled me out of the classroom building of the Black Master Academy: "As for Ryo... Ever since she was born in this world, I have decided to Guard her. She is a miracle that belongs to me alone, a treasure that this world compensates for me, even if she doesn't know it herself."

Iris Kaoru took me back to the night room, our dormitory.

"Aren't we going to the chairman... Kaoru?" I changed my address to him, trying to adapt to his new identity.

"Shoto Yisa will come to the Kurojou Academy tomorrow. It's already early in the morning, you should go to sleep first." I glanced out the window, and sure enough, the sky had already turned pale.

"Since you are the ancestor of the Changteng family, is that uncle I have never met a descendant of you?" What I really wanted to ask Xun was whether he had any other lovers.

"That's my brother's offspring. I fell asleep voluntarily very early. I never even had a lover." Kaoru Kaoru seemed to know what I was thinking, he replied to me.

"Sleeping? Why did you choose to sleep?"

"Because...it's meaningless." Iris Kaoru kissed my forehead as a goodnight kiss, and then he sat beside me. "As the ancestors, we don't know where we were born. Some of the first-generation purebloods, such as me, woke up in the mountains and forests. After waking up, we only vaguely knew our name and probably had an older brother. Others I don't know anything, including who I am, including why I am there. Later, I realized through hunting in the mountains and forests that only the blood of living creatures can truly 'satisfy' my appetite.

"And some of the first-generation pure-blooded species, such as Jiu Lanshu, were adopted by humans when they were ignorant, but gradually realized that they are different from humans and are monsters that feed on blood."

"Originally, there were only human beings in this world. We 'others' carefully hid from the sight of the crowd or human beings.

"Even if we have special abilities, we are no match for the large number of human beings with a long history of civilization at the beginning. In the beginning of pure blood, we all rely on instinct to explore a little bit, what is 'self'."

"Those purebloods born in nature are fine, after all, although the blood of animals is not as sweet as human's, it can still barely eat.

"However, those ancestors who awakened from the human race were divided into two situations.

"One type is persecuted as a monster, abused, and even bloodletted and eaten by humans wantonly.

"Because vampires are a race that is almost immortal, the only way to kill a vampire is to destroy or swallow the vampire's heart, and integrate its power into itself. Back then, those humans feared and hated vampires, They also wished to obtain the powerful ability and immortal face of vampires. As a result, many first-generation pure-bloods were tortured, and life was worse than death. Therefore, they also developed an unforgettable resentment and hatred for humans."

"The other is that they grew up safely under the protection of their human relatives and friends, and escaped the pursuit and killing of those crazy humans in the early days. Some of the first-generation adoptive parents or human lovers and friends died because of protecting them. So they can't forget the warmth that humans have given them."

"Decades have passed, and those of us first-generation purebloods have gradually grown up and matured, and we have fully controlled our own power. At this time, the revenge of the vampires broke out.

"The ancestors of the war faction who harbored hatred washed every village of human beings with blood, almost destroying human civilization. At this time, the ancestors of the vampires who advocated peace disagreed with the actions of the war factions. Fight. But human beings are too weak, so no matter how many ancestors of vampires protect them, they will always be slaughtered by vampires, and they have no power to protect themselves.

"At this time, a powerful ancestor of vampires who was raised by humans stepped forward. Her name is Moli, and she is one of the leaders who advocate the protection of humans. She hopes that humans and vampires can live in the same world. , harmonious coexistence.

"So, she threw herself into the furnace, and her heart became the source of all vampire hunters' power, while her body turned into several blood hunting weapons. For example, the 'Goddess of Hunting' held by Jiulan Yuki.

"Humans have the power of blood hunting, coupled with the ancestors of the vampires of the Peaceful School, this gradually forms a force to contend with vampires, and the two have reached an unstable balance. After tens of millions of years, then It became what it is today.”

"But what does this have to do with your deep sleep?" I asked Iris Kaoru puzzled.

"I chose to sleep during the battle between vampires and humans." Iris Kaoru said softly, "Because at that time, I was still unable to find the meaning of my existence in this world."

"Day after day, I don't know what to do. In addition to following my instinctive needs to hunt, I just see the devastated and slaughtered world.

"Because I was born in nature, I have no other relatives and friends. The so-called elder brother is just a stranger who has only met a few times.

"I have never been able to experience the joy of being alive. Whether it is love or hate, I have neither. I am like a ghost wandering outside the world, watching my skin forever young, but the soul inside is Decaying and aging day by day.

"It's like an apple that rots from the inside but is smooth and beautiful on the outside. The long time is the original sin that I can't escape.

"I was afraid that one day I would lose my rationality completely because I was tired of living, and become a monster who only acted on blood-sucking instincts, so I took the initiative to choose deep sleep. If endless deep sleep can make me annihilate in time, It’s also a relief.”

"So I fell asleep alone in the dark, sleeping.

"Until—you were born in my world and woke me up.

"That was the first time I 'saw' light in my world."

"Go to sleep, cool." Although I didn't fully understand what Iris Kaoru was saying, his voice was low and slow, like a lullaby for sleeping.So, I gradually felt sleepy in his words, and in the arms of this man, I entered the world of dreams.

I once again walked in the world of 'dreams' with ease, looking for and feeding my 'Youth Tuaner'.

The Youth League is extremely clingy today.In addition to rubbing my cheeks with the softest belly hair, it also curled its tail around my wrist, and refused to let go of its tail no matter what.

No way, after feeding it and smoothing its hair, I can only put it on my shoulder, which has shrunk into a small ball, and prepare to take it with me to relax in the world of dreams.

However, Qingtuan took advantage of the opportunity to wrap its tail around my neck. It looked at my expression, probed its head, and stretched its big fox ears to my chin to rub and rub.Seeing that I didn't object, I still made a flattering sound of 'huluhulu' from my throat.

I took the Youth League for a walk in that beautiful but dangerous world.

I passed through countless familiar or unfamiliar 'doors'.

The world inside these doors is full of strange things and changes in many ways.

But today, I'm not in the mood to explore those doors.

"I'm very upset today." I said to Qingtuan'er. "Iris, he became the ancestor of the Iris family, Iris Kaoru. Moreover, he proposed to me."

The Youth League started rubbing its head against my neck and face again, acting like a spoiled child.

"Don't make trouble," I smiled and patted its head lightly, but sighed again. "I am very happy in my heart. Because I found out that I love him, and he loves me. But... Iris is very close to me, but 'Iris Kaoru' is too far away from me. As the ancestor, he , why do you like me, a weak and self-willed pure-blood? Bailu is right, she is more beautiful and powerful than me, and she is more suitable for his pure-blood..." Qingtuan said quietly Listen to my words.When I sighed, it stood up from my shoulder, turned sideways like smoothing its fur, and licked my face lightly.

Just when I was about to say something, I suddenly heard a shout from a gorgeous ancient door beside me: "Let her go!"

If I heard correctly, that voice is actually—Jiu Lanshu? ? ?