[Reaper] Evening Primrose

Tsukimi is a timid child.

She might cry out of fear even standing on the podium to speak, but off the stage she is a woman who is not afraid of anything.

Grandma is sick.

At that time, Yuejian, who was in the second year of junior high school, didn't pay much attention to the news.

Grandma is getting old, so she is naturally sick.

Grandma was hospitalized, and she didn't think much about it, she just thought about going to see her again on the weekend.After all, it is common for her to be hospitalized.

But she never thought that that day would come so soon.

"Grandma is dying soon."

My aunt came to school at noon that day and said so.

At that time, she couldn't believe it at all. She boasted big strides, she was not at all as kind as other people's grandmothers, and she looked so healthy...

"No more."

Never thought about it, she never thought about it.

Yue Jian was brought up by her grandmother.

Watching them move again and again, and then she was the only one who took her hand to and from school in elementary school.

"Where's Dad? Where's Mom?"

"They have their own business."

After entering junior high school, even the remaining warmth of that hand was not given to her.

"See you, be independent." In memory, grandma said so.

"nothing."

"nothing."

She said it over and over in her heart.

He kept talking.

Then, when she was taken to the hospital, she saw her haggard mother sitting on a chair.

The doctor said that only two people can enter the intensive care unit, and they must wear masks.

"Go in later, grandma may look a little different from usual." Mom patted her head, as if to comfort her, "Don't be afraid."

People who are about to die have also read a lot of those books when they usually read them, so how could they be afraid.

No matter what she becomes, she won't cry.Moon thought so.

However, when she saw grandma's appearance, she couldn't help it.

She was wearing a respirator, and she lost a lot of weight, and her face was a little pale. The doctor gave her water, and after only one mouthful, she choked because of the trachea.

"Cough, cough, cough..."

"Yuejian?" Grandma's voice was still warm, but it made Yuejian very sad.

"Hmm." Even Yuejian found it difficult to answer the one-syllable word.

"I want to transfer to the general ward." Grandma smiled, her heartbeat slowly slowed down as she took off the respirator and spoke, "That way... I can see you every day."

"Yeah." Yuejian still used this word.

"I want to go home." Grandma grabbed Yue Jian's hand, "The air in the hospital is not good."

"Ah."

"How are you doing recently?" Grandma asked Yuejian, but she turned her head to the mother, "Don't let Yuejian stay at home alone."

"Well, yes, I'm fine, hiccup, grandma, I..." Yue Jian wanted to speak out, but was choked by tears again and again.I covered my mouth and nose with a mask, afraid of snot and tears splashing out, afraid of crying.

Mom hurriedly apologized to the nurse, and dragged Yue Jian out of the intensive care unit.

"nothing."

"nothing."

She said it over and over in her heart.

Grandma will be fine, she has been sick so many times, she will be fine this time.It seems to be affirming something, the word "certain" has been traced back and forth many times in Yuejian's diary.

"Grandma said to move to the general ward."

"Grandma said to go home."

"Grandma said..."

"Don't leave Yuejian alone at home."

That night, Yuejian didn't go back to school for evening self-study, but went home alone, and lay on the bed early, unable to fall asleep.

Mom won't let her stay there.

"why?"

She is not afraid.

Not afraid of the hospital, not afraid of blood.

See, she's not afraid of anything now.

She was only afraid that she would not be there when she left.

Then only two days later, when my aunt came back, the news was——

— to attend grandma's funeral.

She didn't even know that her book had fallen on the floor, she stood there staring blankly at the aunt who had delivered the news and her eyes were still red and swollen.

"how come?"

"how come......"

She felt like she had never wanted to cry so much.

He wasn't even by her side at the last moment.

Many people came to the funeral, comforting Yuejian not to think about it, but she huddled in a corner alone, crying all the time.

Look, so many tears.

At that time, my mother was with my grandmother, and she...

Didn't even say goodbye.

want to cry.

I want to cry.

"why?"

"Why did you keep her?"

Even if she keeps bickering with her, even if she keeps saying that she doesn't like her, she still writes that sentence in her diary every day.

——"I like grandma the most."

The neatest and most beautiful fonts are all reserved for this sentence.

There is no scribbled handwriting in the diary, and every word is carefully written.

Listening to the funeral home singing and asking her if she would like to order a song, she just lowered her head and continued to cry.

In the early morning of the next day, it was the cremation.

As required, she walked in front of the crematorium, scattering paper money.

Only she knew that her hands were shaking all the time.

Arrived.

I saw grandma's body lying there quietly.

Not as serene as the sick face in the intensive care unit that day.Grandma's skin is very good, unbelievably white.Just so quietly, lying there.

Quietly.

Not a sound at all.

"When the conveyor belt is running, please say 'good journey' to your loved ones." This is what the funeral home staff said.

The conveyor belt started to deliver.

The family members next to me shouted to go all the way.

non-stop.

kept shouting.

But Yue Jian's voice was stuck in his throat, and he couldn't say those simple four words no matter what.

On the day of the cremation, Yuejian didn't cry.

It was January.

This time should be about the Spring Festival, but because of the news of grandma's death, Yuejian couldn't be happy at all.The house is also lifeless, not even a piece of red cloth.

"I miss her."

It had never been like this before, when she was still with her.

I really want to... Grandma took her hand again and passed the warmth on it to her.

Then say something——

"I am here."

"Hey, Yuejian, the new book is here." My best friend ran to Yuejian's seat with the book, "You, what are you doing with a bitter face?"

"...You take it." Yuejian continued to do her homework, "I don't want it anymore."

"Really, since last week you've..."

"Don't make trouble."

The girlfriend curled her lips and walked away quickly.

Moon has changed a lot.

After she left, Yuejian stopped crying.

No matter where she stood, she did not reveal the slightest timidity.

Study wholeheartedly, until the first year of high school, and then to the third year of high school, to get into a good university.Even if he was called a nerd, he never cared.

"grandmother......"

Tsukimi looked at the blue sky of summer in this world.

did you see it?

"I'm here."

Monthly diary:

Whether you want it or not, there is always one thing that will force you to grow up, but I would rather stay there.

--Inscription.

I cried today and suddenly felt a little ashamed.

My eyes became sore for no reason, and I missed her.

It will be sunny tomorrow too, right?

The author has something to say: Well, this chapter is probably the only memory.In the future, there will probably be no more memories of Yuejian. Now that the death date is here, the story will be done properly after that [clench fist.

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There is a problem with the waist, it looks like a bone, it hurts and makes me cry (Q皮Q)

Is this chapter a manuscript box?Ah Chen is waiting for a reply in the hospital _(:з」∠)_ After talking about the next few chapters, copying lines is so tiring TUT