[APH Luzhong] Ivan Diary

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I really want to see you.See you and tell you how much I miss you.But at that time, I will definitely not be able to say anything, and you can only feel my missing if you hug me.

Is this a poem?Anyway, I miss you very much.

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To Ivan:

I miss you too, I often think about the past, once I start remembering, I can't do anything else, and you are all on my mind.

I think this is a good thing, it means I still like you.And you?

The winter here is very cold, I drink some hot soup when it is cold, somehow I think of you, and want you to sit beside me and drink soup with me.In school too, I always want to find you in the classroom.When I was walking alone on the street, I suddenly forgot the reason why I went out, and then I thought of you, and thought that you were still working in a certain factory, and I was very sad all of a sudden.

Why is there such a big difference between people?There are many people who go to school here like me, but there are more people who suffer like you.Anyway, I hope you are doing well.

Everything here is as usual, I became friends with the art teacher, we sometimes draw pictures together, and then post them for everyone to guess which one is mine and which one is his, sometimes we guess wrong.I sent you this book, it's a good thing you still enjoy reading, you learn it and read it to others, they should like it.

Also, say hello to your sister for me, how is your sister's injury?

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Zhiyao:

Recently I received a letter from Gilbert-kun, and they are doing well now.Gilbert-kun seems to want to join the army.

My side is a little dangerous. There are Bolshevik pamphlets and leaflets everywhere in the factory. Some Bolsheviks pretend to be small traders and sneak in, spreading those leaflets every day. Some workers help them, some workers expose them, and some people have been arrested. I got up, but the Bolsheviks were still firmly stationed in our factory, and sometimes they made speeches secretly. They were very bold.

Please forgive me, I am one of the workers helping them.In my conscience, I think what they did was really for our own good, and they were good people.I don't want to think about political issues at all, but I will pay attention to my own safety, don't worry.

We can afford Nata to go to school now, a girls' school, expensive but we think it's worth it, I have to try a little harder.Did you move up a grade in school?I guess, you're the smartest one in the class again.

I want to see you in April, and I've already saved enough money for that.Take the train, you can get there in two or three days, if you are free, come and pick me up.I have everything planned.

I have a lot of things I want to say to you, a piece of paper can't fit them, more importantly, I want to see you, touch you, or I will go crazy.See you, find a quiet place, and do whatever you want—anything with you.

Soon, wait for my next letter.

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To Ivan:

I study in a high school and live in the dormitory there. If you want to come, I will definitely pick you up. You don’t need to stay in a hotel, just come to my dormitory. There is no one in the dormitory during holidays.

You remember that safety comes first, no matter what you do.You came to see me too, and you helped the Bolsheviks in the factories.I will not object to which party you support, as long as your personal safety is not involved.In fact, regarding the Bolsheviks, our students also have some, and some have been arrested, including nobles.

I have never supported any party, but I have read their flyers and attended their rallies. I will use my own thinking to judge what kind of group this is.Maybe we'll be gay in the end, and that's fine, as if two people share the same beliefs.Are you still religious?

I am studying hard, and I am not far from graduation and employment, but I still have no ambition.Many people say that my paintings are beautiful, and I like painting myself. If you don’t think about the future living expenses, do you think I am suitable for art?

I couldn't help laughing when I thought that if I went to paint in the future, someone would be so angry.

April, I will wait for you.I also have a lot of things I want to tell you.

You live well.

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Zhiyao:

My sister is married.The other party was a typist. Although he was not rich, he was kind-hearted and didn't mind my sister's face.I think he will take good care of my sister. My sister also likes that man. Our two families just finished the wedding in a small church. It was not lively but happy enough.

My mind is now full of that wedding, and the bride's wedding dress is as beautiful as I imagined.

You said, we two also get married, okay?

But my side has been in danger recently. Some people organized gangs and arrested a lot of people. Some were put in prison, and some were directly exiled, exiled to Siberia.But I am safe, I have not participated in publicity activities, I write and print flyers for those people, and sometimes subsidize some money.

The black party is also active, maybe our country will undergo some changes.The whole of Europa is abnormal, and it is rumored that there will be a war.I think this is inevitable.

Universities are supposed to be safe, don't wander around at night and don't get partisan, I'll figure it out, until then you have to be careful.I can't go to you in the near future, take care of myself, I have to see the direction of the wind in the past few months.

Don't worry too much about me, I still know how to hide myself.

And the most important thing - I love you.

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To Ivan:

Fool, what can happen to me as a student?It's you, you should clean up as soon as possible, and be careful that you won't get out later.My side is fairly calm, and I go to class every day, but occasionally someone goes missing.

Be it war or revolution, I won't get involved, so don't worry.

So these months you should be lonely, right?Good news for you - me too.I'll wait for you, anyway, I'm used to waiting, don't worry, as long as the result is good, I'm willing to wait forever, as the same sentence: Safety comes first.

Also, remember to congratulate your sister for me.She's had a hard time pulling you off, and I'm glad she has a good home.

And, finally, about getting married, I agree.

So from the moment you read this letter, I am your fiancé.That's why I turned down everyone's social invitations, my fiancé.

Find a good time to have a wedding in the future, no priest, just you and me.Besides, Jehovah will never bless us both, will he?How nice it is for two people to be quiet.

My love for you won't change.

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Zhiyao:

I've been very busy recently, but I haven't forgotten to write to you, and I'll find you when I'm done.Wasn't a new railway opened before?Going from there should save a lot of time.

I was slightly injured and recuperating at home.Some people came to propose marriage to Nata in the past few days, but Nata refused. We all supported her as if she wanted to continue studying, and we said that she would become a big thing in the future.At that time, I was thinking, in fact, it is a kind of luck not to have parents, so that we can decide our own lives.

I really appreciate you being with me for so many years.

It's really uncomfortable to be bored in the house, and I really want to get out quickly.Do you feel this way?I especially want to go to an empty place where there are no people, such as the grassland in the east, and I can do whatever I want there.

I have this feeling of freedom when I'm with you.

Really really, really want to find you.

But Yakov is worse, right?You'd better take good care of him during this time, don't come to me, after all he is your father.Wait for me obediently.

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To Ivan:

I won't wait for you anymore, come back to me the day you read this letter and go back to your hometown.

I have something very important, if you don't come, just wait and see.

Three extra episodes

Extra Story [-]: The Ring

I love you. — Ivan Braginsky

"Ding Ling..." The door was pushed open, and the golden doorbell rang.

The man behind the counter peered at the visitor with glasses and cloudy eyes from behind the newspaper—it was a young man in a gray overcoat, wearing a white scarf and a wide-brimmed hat, holding a cheap-looking The suitcase and shoulders were soaked in snow, and the man was not afraid of the cold, shaking off the snow on his body, a pair of blue-purple eyes collided with the man's gaze.

Tonight is Christmas Eve, the man never expected that there would be guests coming to the hotel, so he stood up quickly: "Hi sir, are you coming to the hotel?"

The light-haired young man narrowed his eyes and smiled politely: "Yes, one room, one night... No, two nights."

The hotel owner adjusted his glasses, quickly wrote a line on the account book, completed the transaction, and took the guest upstairs to choose a room.There is a rumbling sound outside the window, the sound of wind and snow. Looking down from the third floor, the lights of Wanjia are bright, and everyone in the window is reunited at the dining table.The boss coughed and complained: "This year's business is really bad... My mother-in-law went out to fool around again... What kind of world is this!"

Ivan raised his eyes and looked at the boss's tired, burnt yellow face, which was tortured by daily trivial matters, and suddenly asked: "Sir, you look very much like an old friend of mine, what is your name?"

The innkeeper looked at Ivan in confusion: "My name is Sasha Maxim Ochumelov. I am a native of this small town and have never been to other places."

"No, it's nothing." Ivan kept smiling.

The boss shrugged and took out the key ring from his pocket to search for the key: "But then again, sir, what are you doing here? Are there any acquaintances in this town?"

"Come to sweep the grave."

Ivan shook his head, took the key from the boss, and entered the room by himself.

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this fall,