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Bai Su looked at Nian Queqing who was sitting by the window reading a book. After hesitating for a moment, he said, "How about I take you out for a walk? You've been bored in the room all day and lost energy."

Nian Qingqing didn't raise his head: "Go out? I've been here all day and someone came to make trouble. If I go out for a walk, is it to make everyone rush to arrest me?"

Bai Su lowered his eyes and stopped talking.

Nian Queqing is used to choking him to the point where he can't say anything. I don't know what Nian Queqing does when Bai Su is not at home, but if they are all sitting in the same room, there will only be face-to-face silence.

But we shouldn't.

Bai Su is such a person, for one thing, if you push him away once, he will never hug him a second time.Just like Cai Nian rejected his invitation to take him out, Bai Su would let the matter rot in his heart, even if he was actually hurt and sad, he would never bring it up again.

But except for Nian Queqing, who pushed Bai Su away again and again, and Bai Su still hugged him back again and again.Just because it was his obsession, a cinnabar mole on his heart.

But Nian is pure-hearted and ruthless, he is ruthless to others and himself, he has been like this since he was a child.

Bai Su's thoughts were raging here, while Nian Keqing was just obsessed with the book with a calm face, but he never turned a page of the book for a long time, and kept his eyes fixed on a line of words without moving half a cent.

He was waiting for Bai Su to speak again.

But Bai Su didn't.

Every time he replied to Bai Su's words, there was indifference or sarcasm, but in fact, he would respond to Bai Su's words and listened very carefully. ——Bai Su talked less, and now he is more silent than before, but Nian Qingqing just wanted to hear his voice, but he didn't want to say it, and he returned every word he said, without looking at him, As if disgusted.But Yu Guang was quietly paying attention to him, always there.

They didn't say a word that morning, nor in the afternoon, and when they were going to bed at night, Bai Su said: "Yuchi's house wants me to go again."

Nian's hand that was tidying the bedding was slightly stagnant, and then he said silently, "A few days."

Bai Su said: "Three days."

Nian Keqing's heart felt sore and distressed, his heartache and guilt surged up suddenly, then he turned his back, and he just sat on the bed naturally and said, "Got it."

Bai Su watched his reaction, clenched his hands tightly, and called out for Queqing.

Nian Queqing blinked, drove away the moisture in his eyes, then turned his head as usual and said, "What?"

Bai Su said: "I don't want to go this time."

Every time, there is no time to go.

But it's useless if he doesn't want to go, if he doesn't go, Yuchi's family will come and arrest him.

The Bai family is the righteous fairy gate, and Bai Su is the majestic suzerain.For the sake of Nian Queqing, he lived in such a humiliating way.

He never complained.

But Nian bit his lips calmly, holding back his sorrow and tears, he had nothing to say, and he didn't know whether to let him go or not, he just said: "Yeah."

Bai Su stared at him intently, and said calmly and seriously: "I don't want to go, tomorrow is your birthday."

Nian Qingqing's heart trembled, and then he turned his back suddenly.

After a long time, he wiped away the tears on his face as if brushing his broken hair.

Bai Su kept looking at him, with mixed emotions in his heart, then he lowered his head and said, "You can go out with me for a walk, at least after your birthday, I will ask Bai Fu to report to Yuchi's family that I am out on errands, and I am back." Go again.—will you?"

Is the ending sound good or not, almost begging.

Nian Queqing's cruel heart never softened, he didn't turn around again, just nodded his head.

If it weren't for the unforeseen events and vicissitudes of life, if this day was put many years ago, Nian Keqing would have thought that the day before he turned 17, he would have happily sat in the house with Yu Chisu and packed his luggage for going out for training .

They can probably still talk and laugh, can chat at night regardless of the time, and probably can... embrace each other without any scruples on the grounds of the crowded bed.Unlike today, the same bed is just facing each other, or facing the same direction.Nian Queqing and Bai Su never saw each other's face at night again.

A huge bed, each living on one side.It seems that across the Chu River and the Han Dynasty, it is like blocking the sea.

In the early morning of the next day, it was only a few minutes after dawn, but Bai Su and Nian woke up in the clear—or maybe they hadn’t slept all night. Only when Fang reached Maoshi, Bai Su explained the matter to Bai Fu, and took Nian with his sword. Queqing left Beihe.

The air is a touch of moisture, blowing head-on, it is the wind outside that has not been blown in the past two years.

The two of them only had one sword, and Nian Queqing's sword was at his waist. He didn't say anything, it was a tacit consent, and the two of them had to get very close. Bai Su hesitated slightly, and held it back. Nian Qing's wrist.

Once upon a time, when hunting in Xizhou, Yuchi was only in a coma for an hour, and when he woke up Nian Keqing disappeared.

After that, he disappeared and disappeared for a long time. Yuchisu searched repeatedly on the way back and forth with his sword, but in the end it was fruitless.

He lost his Ding Lingzhu, and his sword was not on his body, Yu Chisu blamed himself and felt sad, and wanted to explain his affairs to him in a hurry. ——Those people called him Bai Su so loudly, Nian Queqing must have heard it.

But Nian Keqing seemed to have evaporated, and suddenly disappeared without a trace. Liu Yuchisu felt anxious and guilty, and searched hard.

At that time, he swore that if Xunian Quqing could come back, regardless of the injury or death to Nian's family, Nian Quqing would have to live unscathed.

No one can hurt him a bit.

Bai Su is a man who follows his word and acts with chivalry and tenderness.

Especially for the sake of his youth.

When Nian Queqing was holding his wrist, he subconsciously wanted to throw him away, but suddenly he lowered his head and saw the unfathomable land, and the despair that fell in mid-air suddenly hit him, reminding him of the past and stopping his movements.

Then he turned his head away, speechless.

Bai Su didn't know where he was going, so he headed south against the wind, passing large and small cities and towns on the way, he asked Nian Queqing where he was going, and Nian Queqing said: "Whatever."

Bai Su dropped his sword there, and where the sword fell was a wilderness.

In the winter, the north wind blows the ground, and there are withered and yellow grass everywhere.

The withered grass is very dense and long. Looking around, it is a desolate and desolate scene.

Endless weeds, weeds.

Crazy growth into a wilderness, fall and winter into a barren, do not know what this is foretelling.

Bai Su held Nian Queqing's wrist all the time, and he didn't object, so Bai Su didn't let go.

But facing the wind in the wilderness, the two of them just changed places and remained silent.

Until Nian Queqing said, "Have you seen Jiang Dongchen in these years?"

Bai Su said: "No." Then he asked, "What's wrong?"

Nian Qing looked calm, and said: "Season always affects people's mood. It has been almost two years since my brother passed away. Now that early winter is approaching, I want to know how he is doing."

Nian Queqing was curious about how he would deal with Nian Quesheng's current relationship with Bai Su.

But he thought it might be fruitless.

In Nian Queqing's heart, day and night, there are four curse-like words - not a good end.

It is that they should have a heart of ice in the jade pot, but they can't resist the unpredictable things in the world, the ups and downs of the world, the two feelings that are clearly as clear as a clear stream, will only be rotten and rotten by many unavoidable erosions, and after that They separated and never met again.

Don't die well.

Bai Su didn't answer Nian Queqing's question about Jiang Dongshen, and Nian Queqing didn't expect him to answer, he just said, "Go to another place, I'm upset to see here."

So they went to the nearest town, and took their meals at an inn.Knowing that he was always indifferent to what to eat, Bai Su still tried to say: "There is osmanthus cake here."

Nian Keqing liked to eat this the most when he was a child, no matter what season it is, sweet-scented osmanthus is in season or not, if he knows that there are some in the dining room, he will definitely bring back a few pieces to Yuchi's room, and pick them up with him for a change after dinner When you eat it, you will be very happy.

Nian Queqing was thinking wildly in his mind, when he heard the words, he glanced at Bai Su, and blurted out an unkind way: "I have lived like this, what sweets do I eat?"

But Bai Su, like a stubborn child, insisted on serving a plate of sweet-scented osmanthus cake.Nian Queqing didn't take a bite, and frowned, "What are you insisting on? The bond between people can't overcome the vicissitudes of life, and the taste won't change. I don't like sweet things."

But he likes it. When Yu Chisu arrived at Nian's house, Nianqing was only eight years old, and he was always greedy for sweets when he ate, and almost broke his teeth.

It's the same now, when eating at Bai's house, when a table of dishes is put on the table, he always subconsciously looks for the sweetest one.

It's just that he is stubborn.

When it was time to pay, Bai Su called Nian Queqing was waiting for him alone, so he went to the counter alone and whispered to the proprietress: "I'll pay you three times the price later, I'll ask you, you just say There is only one single room, and it is hard to find an inn here, so you are advised to stay here, do you understand?"

Even though she was puzzled, the proprietress accepted the money and nodded.

So at night, Nian Queqing and Bai Su lived in a room that was not spacious.The two inevitably slept together. ——The bed in the single room is small, even though Nian Keqing's back is facing Bai Su, it's like sticking to his arms like this.

He could even feel the rise and fall of Bai Su's chest when he breathed, and the snort close to his ear.This feeling is too long away, even if it is so close, it doesn't feel real.Nian Queqing didn't even dare to breathe heavily, and just kept listening, his whole body and mind tensed up, unwilling to let go of any sound.

This is true in Nian Queqing, and it is even more so in Bai Su.

So after a long time, Bai Su said softly, "Queqing."

Nian Qing was too tense and listened too intently, so Bai Su's soft sound made him tremble uncontrollably, and his voice was a little uneven, and he replied, "Yeah."

Bai Su said: "You obviously..." He stopped halfway through the sentence, and changed his words: "Why can't we go back."

Nian Queqing didn't speak, and after a long silence, he said softly: "Ask knowingly."

You should have known how much I trust you and how important you are to me.For a gambler like you, you should have bet earlier on whether I will hate you when I know the truth. You should have told me your plan earlier. Even if I betrayed the Nian family together with you, I would go with you without hesitation.

But it's too late.

If you let me know in that situation, I can't rebel.

So now my position is defaulted to be the Nian family and not you. I am the only survivor of the Nian family.The spearhead of Yuchi's family will be pointed at me, if you cover up the enemy, then you will also be implicated by me.

Things have developed to this day, but to no avail.

Bai Su stopped making a sound, and after a long time, as if he was paranoid and refused to accept his fate, he reached out and hugged Nian Queqing.

Nian was shocked, looking at the window in front of the night, pushed him away with a dry voice and said, "Respect yourself."

Instead, Bai Su hugged him tightly, pressed his forehead against his back and said, "Just let me go this time."

I'm really tired.

Nian Queqing stopped talking and simply closed his eyes.As soon as the world is dark, other senses become clearer. Nian Quqing even feels that the body temperature from behind his back is gradually warmed to his shoulders through his clothes, which is so painful.Nian Queqing suddenly turned around as if realizing something, and asked, "Do you have a fever?"

This turning around, Nian Quqing was falling into Bai Su's arms, but Nian Quqing didn't seem to realize that he was in an embarrassing situation, and subconsciously stretched out his hand to touch his forehead, until he heard Bai Su's low laugh, Nian Quqing suddenly burst into tears After reacting, his face became hot, and he withdrew his hand.

At least this night, Bai Su won't let him turn back again, put his hand behind his back, and said with a soft smile: "I have a fever, but it's not a problem, just let me hug you for now to dissipate the heat."

Whether in the past or now, Bai Su is a person who rarely speaks, and it is even rarer to speak with a smile like this.Nian Keqing was dazed when he heard it, and was in a trance for a while, losing all confidence in his speech, and murmured: "Let it go... let it go."

Bai Su said: "Today is your birthday, so don't say what you mean."

Nian Qing opened his mouth to argue, but was speechless and lowered his head.

If he really has been hugging like this all the time, then I will definitely not sleep again tonight.

But when Bai Su patted Nian Keqing's back to lull him to sleep like before, he still gradually fell asleep.I slept more peacefully than any night in these years.

Good dreams.

The author has something to say: Maybe Nian Queqing is a Scorpio...