Gan Lin

I opened my mouth, but in the end I didn't make a sound, the words I wanted to say were stuck in my throat.

... Or, after parting, I will find that I like you.

I looked at Ru Yuze in front of me, and felt very delicate in my heart, my chest was stuffy, heavy, and swollen with an unprecedented agitation.

"Are you...really gay?"

He smiled bitterly: "Is it still meaningful to say this now?"

"Yes!" I said, so loudly that I was taken aback. "If you're going with a girl I hope you're gay, if it's a boy I hope you're not."

He opened his eyes, his pupils were full of astonishment.

"why?"

"I don't know." I lowered my head slightly, "Probably because of willfulness, possessiveness, and other messy things, anyway... anyway..." I gritted my teeth and said the worried words, "The two of you are in a strange place. The environment depends on each other, and it is easy to produce special feelings.”

The blood finally returned to his face, and the corners of his mouth curled up almost imperceptibly.

"Like us?"

I nodded and shook my head again, my mind was very confused.

Maybe I shouldn't have rushed over on impulse today and said something inexplicable, I was secretly annoyed, and my head sank.

Ru Yuze rubbed my hair and said, "It's jealousy."

"what?"

I didn't hear it clearly, and wanted him to say it again, but he withdrew his hand and said to me: "If you don't go to eat, the canteen will be closed."

My stomach immediately growled twice in response to the situation.

He smiled and said, "Go ahead."

I clutched my stomach, a little reluctant to leave.

"One meal, if you don't eat, you can't die."

He sighed and picked up his coat: "Let's go, I'll treat you."

I said, "Didn't you eat it?"

"Eat another meal, you won't die."

In fact, I have eaten it too, but if I eat it again, I won’t be able to hold it to death, can I?

There have been countless conversations like this between us, where he urged me to eat regular meals, and I would rather go hungry when I was lazy.That's why there was later, he brought me breakfast, bought dinner... I think every step that came naturally came from his meticulous care.

For this meal, I took the words "chewing slowly and swallowing carefully" to the extreme, and I dragged it until the last moment when the lights in the cafeteria were turned off, before I could barely close the meal.I finally know what I'm missing.

Because, I will lose Ru Yuze.

"You explain it to the teacher in charge. It was a fool's brain to reject him at the beginning."

"Ah."

"Switzerland is a great country. There are many beauties and handsome men."

"Ah."

"You must not worship foreigners and hook up with foreigners."

"Ah."

"I'm not a good person. Rabbits don't eat grass by the side of their nests. Is it worthy of the school's cultivation that two high-achieving students don't study and fall in love every day?"

"Forest drought."

"what?"

"Will you get drunk if you drink Coca-Cola?"

"..."

He spoke clearly and logically, but when it came time to take it seriously, I was the first to be persuaded.

Unfortunately, there is no permanent banquet in the world.

Sending Ru Yuze back to the dormitory, I walked around the corridor, and finally stood downstairs in the dormitory, staring at the light in his window in a daze.

I was thinking in my heart that there should be some drizzle in the sky at this time to match my worries, and my neck was hooked.

My first reaction was Song Lan, and without even thinking about it, I slammed it into the back of my stomach.

With the sound of "嗤", I immediately knew that I had hit the wrong person.

Duan Hongxuan clutched his stomach and complained: "The attack is too heavy, brother."

I was surprised: "Why are you?"

"I just want to ask this question," Duan Hongxuan became angry all of a sudden, "Why did Ru Yuze move to our dormitory? Tell me, what are your two intentions?"

I was even more surprised: "He moved to your dormitory?"

Duan Hongxuan and I stared at each other for a long time and asked, "You really don't know?"

My summer palm: "I swear to God."

He raised his neck and asked the sky speechlessly: "I just couldn't bear you to mess around every day, so I moved out. Why did I come back after being clean for a year?"

"what?"

Duan Hongxuan moved out in the first semester of his freshman year. I always thought our dormitory was very harmonious. Until yesterday, I felt that the reason he moved out was because he couldn't bear the handsomeness of Ru Yuze and me.

"You're not mistaken, where are we going?"

He said: "You are tired of being together every day and you don't have sex, how dare you say you are not gay?"

I honestly say, "Not yet."

"..."

Duan Hongxuan made a bitter face.

"I didn't know for a while whether to complain about 'not' or 'yet'."

I shared a bitter face with him: "Don't worry, I won't go to your dormitory anymore, and Ru Yuze won't stay for long."

Duan Hongxuan looked blankly: "Why?"

I said, "Didn't Ru Yuze tell you?"

Duan Hongxuan shook his head.

I felt relieved: "It seems that the person who knows him best is still me."

Duan Hongxuan: "...Damn gay."

On the day when the exchange students were going to apply for visas, the school bus stopped at the door of the dormitory early in the morning. I felt panicked at a glance, so I forcibly ran to Song Lan's dormitory and dragged him out of bed.

"Hey, you won't cry, will you?"

Song Lan looked down at my face.

"Wow, what a cry, you!"

I sniffed, occupied his bed, forcibly took his quilt, and bullied his pillow.

"You know shit."

I said so much before, and now it's too late to regret it.

Song Lan couldn't bear it and said, "Isn't it just losing the election, why are you crying?"

"Who lost the election?" I cried and hiccupped.

Song Lan was stunned: "Didn't you cry because Ru Yuze lost the election?"

"What!" I grabbed his collar, "What did Ru Yuze lose?"

"Calm down, calm down." Song Lan pushed my hand away, "Switzerland, isn't there a notice posted on the bulletin board? It doesn't have his name on it."

My mind went blank for a moment, and without thinking about it, I left Song Lan and ran to the teaching building. My vision was blurred by tears, so I wiped the corners of my eyes with my sleeve until I could see the words on the bulletin board clearly. until.

"Congratulations to our two students, Li Mingming and Zhao Qingying, who have won the exchange student places at the University of Biedsburg in Switzerland. Here..."

I was panting heavily, and before I could feel the swarming joy, I started to run wildly in another direction uncontrollably.

The person who was supposed to be on the bus was leaning against the window at this moment, flipping through a classic book calmly, with his cuffs rolled up at the elbows, revealing a small part of his arm, as beautiful as a phantom.

I stood outside the window and watched him push open the window and look over.

"In a panic, what's wrong?"

"You, you didn't leave?"

"The quota has already been determined."

The breeze brushed against the sea of ​​his forehead, he leaned out half of his body, and stretched out his hand to me.

"Besides, I'm not here, you don't know how to eat."

I stared at the hot eye sockets, don't start.

"Tch, why are you pretending to be cool. You thought it was a romance novel."

"Oh? It turns out that you are usually peeking at romance novels when you are covered under the quilt."

"certainly not!"

I was dissatisfied and said, "Then when I said it, you still kept responding."

Ru Yuze said, "I want to see how stupid you can be."

It seems... quite silly.

I giggled foolishly.

I haven't lost Ru Yuze.

very nice.

I held his hand and let him gently wipe away my tears and blow my nose.

"Crybaby, why didn't I find out before."

"What tears, a man can only sweat."

He smiled: "Isn't it bleeding?"

I shrank my neck: "Bleeding hurts so much."

He said: "It turns out that you are not only a crybaby, but also a coward."

"Ru Yuze." I whispered.

"Well, here it is." He replied in a low voice.

I let out a breath of foul air slowly, and met his dark brown pupils in the quiet time.Beautiful, clear eyes that seem to be shining in the sun.

"I will try my best to like you, before you don't like me anymore."

"……Um."

Ru Yuze still hasn't moved back to the dormitory, but I think things are still perfect, so I don't care about that much.

"Would you really not be harassed by my sister if you consulted about love affairs?" Song Lan asked me.

"If you're talking about a dozen calls a day, Weibo, WeChat, and Koukou are bombarded in turn," I said to him seriously, "Yes."

Song Lan said: "Do you need me to accompany you for her mental damage?"

My mood faded: "Forget it, I have no one to blame for the sin I committed."

"Young man, your thoughts are really dangerous." Song Lan took out two movie tickets from his pocket, "Here, put them away."

I glanced at it: "No appointment."

"The ghost will ask you out," Song Lan said, "I want you to ask Ru Yuze."

I stared suspiciously at the two tickets in my hand: "Are you joking?"

"Spiritual damage fee."

"unnecessary."

"It's a rare opportunity for the two of us to be alone."

Sounds a bit tempting.

I asked, "Will Ru Yuze go?"

"It must be," Song Lan said, "I told him that this is the mental damage fee for his refusal of my sister."

"To whom?"

"Of course it is me."

I lost to the logic of a Song Lan fan and obediently put the movie ticket in my pocket.

He added: "Remember to watch 2D movies, don't choose 3D blockbusters."

"Why?" There is still learning in watching movies.

He nodded his chin and said confidently: "I bought the cheapest voucher, and I can't exchange it for a 3D ticket."

"..."

I pressed the blue veins on my forehead, desperately resisting the desire to beat him up.

Song Lan raised his wrist and looked at his watch: "Oh, my appointment with Ru Yuze is almost up, so hurry up and leave."

"..."

"There's only half an hour left. I guess I won't be able to make it in time by car. You might be able to catch up by taking a taxi."

"..."

"Why are you standing still, don't you go?"

I gritted my teeth and gave him my middle finger.Ten years is not too late for a gentleman to take revenge.

Fortunately, the school gate was not too far away, so I trotted, listening to the sound of the wind blowing past my ears, took a shortcut across the basketball court and arrived at the intersection within 5 minutes.In front of the bus stop, a few chatting and laughing girls were waiting for the bus to arrive. I breathed steadily and found a kind-hearted girl among them.

"Excuse me, do you have tissue paper?"

The girl blushed and took out a small pack of napkins from her satchel.

"Give you."

Her friend bumped her with an elbow: "The handsome guy is trying to strike up a conversation with you." The voice was not too loud, and it was obviously meant for me.

The girl complained "Don't talk nonsense", but her eyes still looked at me with implied expectation.

I pretended not to hear, took out one and returned the rest to her.

"Thank you."

I turned around and stopped a taxi, I sat in, spread out a tissue, wiped off the sweat from my forehead and neck, and then kept brushing the hair on the top of my head, causing the driver to look at me through the rearview mirror. laugh.

"You guys are going on a date?"

I answered "yes" rather awkwardly.

The driver kept feeling young, and he was always recalling to me the love stories of the youthful age.

I thought to myself, let alone a girlfriend when I was young, I didn’t even have a boyfriend, you can’t find resonance with me.

When it came, the moment he got off the car, he even yelled "Come on" to me.

I smiled back and walked quickly towards the gate of the cinema, where there was someone I wanted to see.

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