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Nie Qinghuan still remembers Zhou Fang's confession to her.

After the weekly exam that day, Zhou Fang suddenly said, "I have something serious to tell you."

The two of them usually fight and fight, and they are out of shape, so Zhou Fang suddenly said that he wanted to talk about something serious. Nie Qinghuan was still a little nervous, but she didn't expect Zhou Fang to say: "Be my girlfriend."

"Ah?" Nie Qinghuan didn't expect him to confess his confession, so startled, he blurted out, and then froze for a long time.

Zhou Fang didn't give her a chance to refuse immediately, and said seriously: "You should think about it carefully before giving me an answer." Then he left with his companion.

In the following days, Zhou Fang acted like a normal person, never mentioning the matter of confession, and treated her as usual, but Nie Qinghuan acted like a guilty conscience, and was afraid of meeting him on the road.Finally one day, Nie Qinghuan couldn't bear it anymore, and called Zhou Fang to stop before going to lunch, and was going to chat with him.

Nie Qinghuan asked him: "Do you really want to be with me?"

Zhou Fang only let out a "huh".

Nie Qinghuan continued: "I am a very caring person. If you are with me, I am afraid that I will hurt you."

Zhou Fang didn't expect her to say that, as if he didn't know how to answer, he didn't answer her.

Seeing that he was silent, Nie Qinghuan made persistent efforts, persuaded him a lot, and finally patted him on the shoulder earnestly.

As a result, when I went back for lunch, Zhou Fang sent a message: "Have you thought about it yet?"

Nie Qinghuan asked: "What have you thought about?"

Zhou Fang sent a series of exclamation points over, as if speechless.

Only then did Nie Qinghuan slowly understand what he meant, and she asked in surprise, "You don't want to be with me anymore, do you?"

The other party replied yes, followed by a shy expression.

Nie Qinghuan: "Then what if I hurt you?"

"You won't." Zhou Fang replied, "You are a good girl."

When Nie Qinghuan and Zhou Fang were together, they were really close. They were handsome and beautiful, and many people envied them. Later, the school and parents found out, but they couldn't let them separate.Nie Qinghuan really thought about living a good life with Zhou Fang, Zhou Fang might have thought about it too, if, if there was no Zhou Min...

Nie Qinghuan still remembers the day they broke up, they both drank a lot and cried.Zhou Fang talked a lot with her, about the girl he fell in love with later, and about their meeting and acquaintance.It was also on that day that Nie Qinghuan found out that there really is male phobia in this world, and it does not exist in third-rate novels, but exists in real life, in that girl named Zhou Min.Zhou Fang told her that Zhou Min was almost raped by a stranger when he was a child, and he had severe male phobia, and sometimes even his own father would be afraid.

Nie Qinghuan asked him tearfully: "So you feel sorry for her, right? You think she needs you, right?"

Zhou Fang said, "Yes."

"What about me? Am I not pitiful? Did you cause her phobia? Why should you be responsible? I caused it? Why should I be responsible?" She was almost hoarse.

What they said later, Nie Qinghuan didn't quite remember, but every sentence felt heart-wrenching.She was defeated, terribly defeated, by a girl she had never met.The other party remained calm, but she dropped her armor.

She knew that she shouldn't make herself so ugly, she had never been like this, so humble.In the end, she even asked viciously: "Don't forget, she was molested before, do you know the exact extent?"

Then she saw Zhou Fang's hesitation, so she went on to say: "If, she has been slept with, do you still want her?"

"Yes." Zhou Fang didn't look her in the eyes, just said, "Sure, it shouldn't be to that extent."

Nie Qinghuan didn't know what to do with herself, whether she should feel overwhelmed with pain for that "yes", or laugh at him for that hesitant "should not": "Look, you still mind." She kept saying Laughing, tears also fell down.In the end, she slapped Zhou Fang, completely cutting off all possibilities.

Zhou Fang seemed to feel that he was in the wrong, so he didn't do anything, he just said, "You let me go."

He stood there, saying such words, facing his ex-lover who wept bitterly, there was sadness and unbearable in his eyes, but there was no love alone.

When they broke up, Nie Qinghuan lost weight for a period of time. She couldn't eat and didn't feel hungry. She often suffered from insomnia at night and had to turn on the lights to fall asleep.That period of time was simply the darkest time in life for Nie Qinghuan.Occasionally, when she went out to look for food, even if she didn't wear makeup, she still had to put on lipstick, otherwise, her whole face would be pale and bloodless.After returning home, my mother also found that she was terribly thin. She didn't want her to worry, so she always pretended to be nonchalant, saying that her mother was overwhelmed and she was not thin.

Later in Changsha, her work was not very smooth, she had no money, and shared a room with several people. The roommates slept late and were noisy, which made her unable to sleep.Even more difficult times, can not afford to eat.For countless days, she felt that she had collapsed, but she didn't cry much. She was really depressed, so she smoked a cigarette and slowly got over it.

Later, Nie Qinghuan gradually improved in writing novels.In the beginning, she just wrote short stories to make ends meet, and later she started to write novels. As a result, the novel became famous in the first battle, and she signed a company and became a professional writer, which gradually improved her life.

One day, she heard that Zhou Fang and Zhou Min had broken up, and she didn't know how they broke up.Surprisingly, she was not happy with the news, she just felt indifferent.

She knew she would never be with him again, maybe she still loved him, but she would never look back.