Shun Guai

Chapter No.16 Cowardly

Qin Nanyue loved Luo Anhuai's answer very much. He finally started to face the question that lay between him and his future. As long as he didn't answer this question, his life would always be stuck at that moment. .Otherwise, he thought he was walking, but he was living in the shadow of the past.

"I think it's very good, people don't have to be so heavy, people have to step out and look forward, and," Qin Nanyue responded with a smile, "your sweetheart, he will be very honored to hear you say that. "

Luo Anhuai ignored him, "Next question, the seventh from left to right in the second row, Clint, answer the question, why do you and Ryan look gay?"

"Oh," Klintern felt that this answer was stress-free, "You're right, we did look gay, but then he got fat, and I moved on."

"That's right," Ryan squeezed his throat and raised his orchid fingers to cooperate with the acting, "Hey, you scumbag, you are so cruel!"

With their gags, the short period between Luo Anhuai and Qin Nanyue passed away, and Kyle Skel, who came over just now, finally had a chance to call Luo Anhuai out.

"Instructor, what's the matter?" Luo Anhuai came over and saw Kyle Skel staring at the optical brain, and asked.

"Oh," Kell Skel turned to show him, "Look at Brother Heng, I just called you out and he sent me a message."

Luo Anhuai didn't bother to look at the things above, but he didn't move without looking at Kell Skor, he had never been so stubborn before.For this reason, he had no choice but to cast a glance.

Brother Heng: "Kyle, if you want to talk, just talk, don't move your hands or feet, or I will break your legs when you come back."

Brother Heng: "Oh, no, if you dare to touch him, that dead child will definitely break your leg. He is very cruel and can do anything."

Brother Heng: "Also, he just confessed his love to me after all, you should be nice to him and talk to him."

"..."

Luo Anhuai regretted it, he should have let Kell Skel continue to hold it like that just now.

"So, instructor, what do you want from me?"

Kyle Skel shook his head, his tone aggrieved, "An Huai, don't call me instructor, I'm not your instructor, you used to call me by my name directly."

"Good instructor." Luo Anhuai said.

Come on, got it.Luo Anhuai is fighting with him again, this guy is so stubborn, it's really annoying.

Kyle Skel gave up and asked the other party to change his name, "An Huai, I'm here to apologize to you. I was impulsive that day, and I made a mistake."

Luo Anhuai knew what he was talking about, so he could only sigh, "You are right." It was him who was wrong.

"It was my mistake. I didn't know the specific situation so I did that. It was my mistake." Kyle Skor knew how pale he was when he said that, but he still had to say some things. No matter how pale he was, he would apologize .

Luo Anhuai knew without thinking that Qin Nanyue must have told Kyle Skel, but whether Kyle Skel knew or not, he didn't have to apologize. "You're right, Kyle, you're right. These are mine..."

"It's not your fault," Kyle Skel stopped Luo Anhuai from saying, "How could it be your fault, no one wants such a thing to happen, but it has already happened, and none of us are willing to, but... ...but there's nothing we can do about it."

Powerless.

Luo Anhuai thought, the word he hates the most is this - powerless.

"It's not powerless," Luo Anhuai said. "Actually, I have a choice. If my ability is stronger, that day, it won't be like this. I won't lose my comrades in arms."

"You've done well enough." Kell Skel was often ridiculed by his brothers for being unnutritive, so he could only speak for himself at the moment, "Luo Anhuai, after you left, I also carried out a mission , During that process, some people were injured because of my mistakes. We can't be [-]% perfect. We can only do the best we can. You have done your best. Everything after that, you really It is powerless. An Huai, you can only be a hero at most, but we cannot become gods, we cannot be omnipotent. Really, we have reached the limit. This burden, no matter what, should not be borne by you. "

"Kyle, don't talk about Kyle," Luo Anhuai smiled wryly, "I know you want me to go over, but, I have to convince myself before I can go over."

That night, Luo Anhuai silently wrote such a poem in his diary——

"They dwell before you in the solitude you occupy,

They are more used to my sorrow than you are.

Now I want them to say what I want to say to you,

To make you hear me as I want you to hear. "

Early the next morning, Qin Nanyue announced that there would be shooting practice this morning, and everyone would come over in the afternoon, and then there would be a competition, and awards would be awarded for good shots.

People are always full of enthusiasm and curiosity about this kind of things that they can't touch normally, so much so that they even ran a [-]-meter sprint during the morning training. The shape is gone.

Later, Qin Nanyue and Luo Anhuai accidentally chatted about this matter, and made the following comments, "Tell me about them, do they seem to have sex when they see a bone?"

Luo Anhuai was keenly aware of the lack of a subject in this sentence, "You say my classmate is a dog?"

"No, no, no," Qin Nanyue retorted with the desire to survive, and then gave an answer without any desire to survive, "I just think that they have never seen the world, unlike you."

"Not like me?"

Qin Nanyue touched Luo Anhuai's waist to take advantage, "Unlike you, I love you so much."

Of course, those conversations are all follow-up matters. Let’s take the time back to the present. Although it is not a real gun with great lethality, it is also a military simulation weapon. It still feels profitable to touch it, at least round. A heroic dream in an ordinary life.But the number of them is not too many, each company has only five. After Qin Nanyue carefully taught the movements, he asked them to line up and take turns to practice without any more attention.

Compared to the other people who were excited, Luo Anhuai looked very cold. He didn't even plan to line up, but just stood aside and watched coldly from a distance.But it was also because other people were too enthusiastic, but no one noticed him standing there alone.

Qin Nanyue walked over to him and asked in a low voice, "What's the matter, you didn't touch the gun anymore?"

Luo Anhuai didn't speak, he retracted his eyes and stared at the ground, as if he wanted to see a flower.

"Why did you become bored again? You were not like this last night. When you confessed to me, you clearly..."

Luo Anhuai couldn't see him talking about this, "Who confessed to you."

"You, brat, you said you have a sweetheart, who else could be your sweetheart besides me?" In order to prove this point, Qin Nanyue even belittled himself, "What's more, you also said that your sweetheart is an asshole , I was thinking, in your heart, probably only you have such a special evaluation for me."

Luo Anhuai felt in his heart that the second half of the other party's sentence was quite correct. In fact, he could also recognize the first half of the sentence. Unfortunately, he just didn't want to make Qin Nanyue feel complacent, and the best way to prevent him from being complacent was to keep his mouth shut and say nothing. Know this.

But this time Qin Nanyue did not continue the topic, and he went back to the beginning, "So, why don't you dare to come together? This is military training, and you don't even listen to the instructor's words?"

"I've never seen an instructor who is in love with a student."

"Now you have seen it?" Qin Nanyue tilted his head and smiled at him, his blue-green eyes were too beautiful, "This is the only one, don't miss it when you pass by."

"You are really shameless."

Qin Nanyue was scolded too much by Luo Anhuai, but he was not annoyed. He followed his words, "I can't help it. I'm an asshole. But no matter how much I am an asshole, I will still be your instructor."

"Okay, instructor, you just said to let everyone line up."

But I didn't say that everyone must go up and try, so it's not a violation of the rules for me to stand here.

Qin Nanyue consciously helped him complete this sentence. He actually had an idea in his heart, but there were too many people here, and he didn't want to open his mouth. In other words, he waited for Luo Anhuai to speak first and be honest, so He had no choice but to raise his hand and rub Luo Anhuai's hair fiercely a few times, "You brat, I can't always say no to you."

"Old man, each other." Luo Anhuai replied.

At noon that day, Luo Anhuai didn't go to eat. He was really tired and sleepy, so he went back to the student apartment directly to sleep for a while, but just fell asleep when he was haunted by dreams.

In the dream, there were crowds of people rushing to and fro, and he walked in a daze against the flow of people. After walking for a long time, he bumped into a person's chest. Kid, are you in such a hurry to throw yourself into your arms? I don’t usually see you like this.”

In the dream, Luo Anhuai heard these words and wanted to push him away without saying a word, but before he could move, the scene suddenly changed, and the crowd disappeared in an instant, leaving behind the scene of his last mission - the top green The branches and leaves, the safe house with layers of protection, and the blue sky that is too thick.A fresh, depressing, solemn and bitter atmosphere floated, and the sound of the wind brought the wailing of birds and beasts.

Qin Nanyue, who surrounded him, raised Luo Anhuai's chin and forced him to look around, his tone suddenly changed, like a devil's whisper, pointing out the deepest fear in his heart.

"Luo Anhuai," he asked, "After going through this time, now you, once a well-known sniper in the Third Military Region, don't you dare to pick up a gun?"

The author has something to say: Note Jun:

"They lived before you in the solitude you occupied, they were more used to my sorrow than you were. Now I want them to say what I want to say to you, so that you can hear me as I want you to hear. "Excerpted from Pablo Neruda's Twenty Love Poems and a Song of Despair