Goddess she is always on top

Whenever a person calms down, Ning Xi can't help but look back at what happened in the past.

If Jiang Yan hadn't saved her five years ago, what kind of life would Ning Xi lead now?

For this answer, Ning Xi already knew at that moment five years ago that she would end her life.

If her fate is destined to be like this, then she feels that there is nothing worthy of her nostalgia in this world; the death of her mother, the betrayal of her father, for the 21-year-old Ning Xi, as long as there is hope ahead, she will live with reality. fight to the end.

However, if she really came to the point of being raped, she would choose to end her life, and even in the helpless situation at that time, she had already thought about how to die.

Fortunately, Jiang Yan appeared and rescued her from the quagmire, but soon fell into another predicament. It's not that Ning Xi didn't seriously examine Jiang Yan's feelings for her.

Does Jiang Yan really like herself?The more she entered the entertainment circle, the more she knew the unspoken rules. Their relationship was built on money from the beginning, and she was not qualified to say no.

After graduating, Ning Xi followed Jiang Yan's arrangement, and gradually started working in the film and television industry, but this also made her feel more pressured, until she finally couldn't bear the pressure and fell ill.At that time, Jiang Yan had a tough attitude and used her own means to ask the crew to take a vacation to recuperate from illness. No matter how much Ning Xi persuaded, the other party's attitude was still so tough. Even though Ning Xi knew that Jiang Yan was doing it for her own good, at that time Ning Xi Xicai really realized her identity, not only money but also status separated them.

Even Jiang Zhenhai once talked to her in private, and he said directly: "You are not good enough for my daughter, she should have a better life."

Even though Jiang Zhenhai compromised because of his daughter, these words were like a thorn in Ning Xi's heart, until the thorn grew deeper and deeper into his flesh, his heart.

Ning Xi couldn't help but smile wryly, yes, what can I give her, not even basic love.Ning Xi clearly knew that she didn't like Jiang Yan at the beginning, but her heart is not made of stone, whoever treats you well day after day must have some feelings, right?

Maybe people who have heard their stories will say: Ning Xi is so heartless, Jiang Yan treats her so well, she can't even warm her heart, she is a complete scumbag!And Shen Zhihe was one of the speakers.

She is very grateful for Jiang Yan's rescue, and remembers Jiang Yan's goodness, but being moved is not love after all. If she accepts Jiang Yan because of being moved, it will only make her feel that she is trampling and insulting Jiang Yan's feelings, which is not good for her. It's fair, and this is not the feeling Jiang Yan wants. Such emotions make her unable to give Jiang Yan various promises and responses, and at the same time she is very confused.

With no parents, no family, no background, they are people from two worlds, and in the eyes of those rich people, they are just a joke, and it is difficult to be elegant.

Why, delay her?

Because of love?But Ning Xi knows that love is the most ethereal thing in this world. She has witnessed the fall of acquaintances in the circle with her own eyes.

The reason for this is naturally because her benefactor behind her fell in love with someone else and dumped her. What would happen to a star without the support of her benefactor?Naturally, he fell from a high place, until he changed from a much-anticipated star back to an ordinary person.

A lover who once loved so sweetly can end up with this kind of result in the end.What's more, what about her and Jiang Yan?

In this relationship, they had problems from the beginning. No matter how good Jiang Yan was to her, their relationship was not in a state of equality, and it would collapse sooner or later.

Jiang Yan was the one who gave her all the good things in this world, but the more he gave, the more heaviness and panic she felt.

Everyone is saying: Ning Xi, you are so cheap.

Even her father had told her so.

Ning Xi could even clearly recall that it was a play she had just signed with Jiang Yan. Her father, who had degenerated into a gambler, finally came to him after hearing the news, naturally for money.

She has no money, and if she has money, she won't give it to her. The father who carried her on his shoulders when she was a child and made her feel like a strong backer, pointed at her nose and scolded her: "I knew you were so low as a mistress. I shouldn't have raised you in the first place! White wolf eye, bitch!"

Is it her fault?Ning Xi swallowed tears in her heart, but those people were talking about her at the time: It turns out that Ning Xi got her position by relying on unspoken rules, how despicable.

She never took the initiative to understand Jiang Yan. She was afraid that the more she understood, the more she would feel so unbearable, and she was also afraid that she would soften her heart and be reluctant, and they would eventually part ways.

On the day when the contract ended, when they showed their cards, it was undeniable that Ning Xi felt relaxed.

So Ning Xi never thought about renewing her contract, she thought, she is free, is it like this, can she be qualified to stand side by side with Jiang Yan?

But Jiang Yan told her that she wanted to renew the contract, and even use money to keep her again. Ning Xi was extremely disappointed. Maybe in Jiang Yan's eyes, she was just a girlfriend bought by a contract, and she never realized it. Seeing the gap between them, maybe for her, money can buy everything, including love.

Does Jiang Yan know what love is?She doesn't understand, and she doesn't understand either.

But, she knew that she couldn't turn her head back, and couldn't be soft-hearted. Only when she was deeply hurt and hurt, could Jiang Yan forget her and start a new life.

Until Jiang Yan could really turn a blind eye to her, she knew that her acting skills were successful, but the pretended indifference and bad words made Jiang Yan really give up.

Obviously it was the result I wanted, and it was also the best ending for them to end that relationship, but the sadness in my heart and those sleepless nights couldn't lie to anyone.

But after they separated, she was still worried that Jiang Yan's emotions would be suppressed in her heart and could not be vented. No matter how good the relationship with the friends around her was, some things were unspeakable after all. She couldn't find anyone to tell her. Clear.

So she thought, let's be an anonymous person, "user 997518" is the best choice.

Where you don't know, there is always someone caring about you, but that person is not "Ning Xi".

Ning Xi once again clicked on the group photo taken by the company yesterday, and watched it over and over again, wishing to melt into her blood and engrave it into her bones.

Now, I can finally be by your side, but you are no longer where you are.

Ning Xi has always been completely obedient to the work assigned to her by the company, even if she is assigned one or two agents, she doesn't care, but when she learns that the assigned person is Shen Zhihe, and Shen Zhihe was specially recruited by Jiang Yan Yes, she was angry, and even impulsively ran to Jiang Yan to argue, she thought she was angry that Jiang Yan had a "new love", and angry that she was still the one who bought love with money.

But thinking about it now, her emotions at that time could be interpreted as jealousy, a word that was very unfamiliar to her.

Ning Xi's emotional experience was blank, and she had never been jealous of anyone in her life for more than [-] years. The unfamiliar emotions made her confused about her feelings for Jiang Yan.

Are you possessive of her or do you like her?Now Ning Xi can answer with certainty that it is the latter.

Some people say that love is a hand that wants to get closer and then withdraws, but Ning Xi feels that liking someone cannot be stopped, at least she can't, she doesn't want Jiang Yan to be with other people.

This kind of emotion planted a seed in my heart, and finally took root and sprouted, and gradually grew into a towering tree. When I realized it, I couldn't hold it anymore.

She thought, this is retribution, retribution for the five years she didn't respond to Jiang Yan.

Jiang Yan can't accept herself now, it doesn't matter, she still has many, many years to come.

If she didn't wait until that day, she wouldn't wish Jiang Yan to be with someone else.

She would wait, wait, wait until she couldn't wait any longer.

On that day, she will bless Jiang Yan and the people around her.

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The phone call from the delivery boy brought Ning Xi back from her memories. She carefully put the drawings back to their original places, returned the chairs to their original places, and silently exited the room.

The chicken porridge was boiled silky, the chicken was soft and rotten, the taste was very sweet, but it lacked the taste of home.

Ning Xi ate the porridge one bite at a time, and her stomach, which had been hungry for a long time, was finally satisfied.

After eating porridge, Ning Xi took out the medicine box to take out the cold medicine, but she found that although the fever subsided, the cold was still very serious.

It's just that when she opened the box of cold medicine... there was only one medicine left in it.

It seems that I have to go out today. Ning Xi has been busy with work some time ago, and she didn't know that the drinks and fast food at home had been eaten long ago, so she can only order takeaway, and now she can only go to the supermarket.

Ning Xi put on the casual clothes for going out, and took out a mask to put on. On the one hand, it was to avoid being recognized, and on the other hand, it was also to prevent cold and infection.

There is a big supermarket near the apartment. As the Chinese New Year is approaching, the supermarket is not as lively as usual, but deserted.Ning Xi knew that most of those people would go home to spend the New Year with their families, and most of the locals would choose to travel or, the usually overcrowded city X is now like an empty city.

They all have homes.

Ning Xi walked into the supermarket, and as soon as she entered, she saw a very conspicuous holiday announcement sign hanging in the supermarket.

Supermarkets are on holiday from the 28th of the lunar year to the fifth day of the Lunar New Year, closed for cleaning on the 27th of the lunar calendar, and open until the sixth day of the Lunar New Year.

Ning Xi subconsciously took out her phone and looked at the calendar. It was already the 25th of the lunar calendar, which meant that she had to buy enough things for the New Year this time.

Jiang Yan used to purchase and tidy up all the things needed at home. Ning Xi was only in charge of work, and she was considered a half idiot in living. Now she has no one around her, and she can only rely on herself for everything.

Take your time and everything will get better, right?she thought to herself.

Ning Xi pulled a cart and walked to the supermarket, and bought a few packs of paper towels, toothpaste and other daily necessities. When it comes to picking daily necessities, she can still know some brands, and even has a fixed common brand.

But when she got to the fresh vegetable section, she had a hard time.

She doesn't know how to tell which dishes are tender and which are old, how to choose meat, which parts of meat taste tender but not old, and how to cook them.

During the Chinese New Year, the restaurants are closed, and there is no food or takeaway, so she can only do it herself.

Maybe it was because she stood in the meat section for too long, and the uncle of the staff couldn't help but came over and asked, "Little girl, what do you want to buy?"

Ning Xi stroked her hair in embarrassment. She didn't know what she was going to buy, so she replied truthfully: "I don't know either."

"What?" The uncle thought he had heard it wrong, and Ning Xi was even more embarrassed. Thinking that the other party was probably complaining about himself, he had to add another sentence: "I want to buy meat, but I don't know how to choose. Uncle, can you give me some meat?" Do you recommend it?"

"Okay." The uncle pointed to the dazzling array of meat in the refrigerator. Perhaps because there are no customers at the moment, he explained to Ning Xi carefully: "The soup is usually made of bone, keel or chicken. Chickens include native chicken and black-bone chicken. , It depends on what you like to eat. If you want to make braised or stewed ones, you can choose pork belly, pork ribs, pig feet, etc. We are all local pigs! Girl, don’t worry!"

As he said that, the uncle really picked out a few boxes of meat for her. He originally meant to let her pick it out by herself, but he didn't expect the little girl to put all of them into the cart.

Ning Xi looked at the pile of meat in the cart and said to the uncle, "Thank you, uncle."

The uncle looked at the back of the little girl pushing the cart, and couldn't help but start to wonder if it was too little for her...?

Ning Xi bought meat and fresh vegetables, and went to the non-staple food area to buy some commonly used seasonings and rice noodles. She didn't stop buying more until the cart was full.

I was thinking of going to pay the bill, but when I passed by the fast food area, Ning Xi turned in and got a few sets of instant noodles.

She still has no confidence in her unknown cooking skills, so she has to prepare a plan B, otherwise she will really go hungry for the new year.