I had a crush on her and finally broke up

Qi Landang was drinking soup, when she heard this, she choked up and let out an earth-shattering coughing sound.She quickly turned her face away to avoid the tragedy of ruining the whole table.

Ruan Yu was startled, stood up quickly, stretched out his arms and gently patted her back.

It took a while for Qi Lan to recover, took a sip of water, suppressed the urge to cough, then looked up at Ruan Yu, and asked her, "Where are you going?"

Because of the severe cough just now, her whole face was red, the tip of her nose was especially red, and her eyes were so innocent because of the physiological tears infiltrating, there was a bit of undisguised expectation hidden in her eyes.

Ruan Yu was slightly taken aback, "The reaction is so big, do you have other arrangements?"

"No." Qi Lan quickly denied, "I have time for these two days, you can arrange it."

Ruan Yu felt that something was wrong.But Qi Lan didn't say anything, she thought about it, didn't ask further, but said, "My parents' death day is coming soon, I want to go back to visit the grave. If you are free, come with me."

"Ah..." Qi Lan was a little surprised, and even felt a bit of untimely joy in her heart.Went to visit the grave of Ruan Yu's parents, rounded up, it was considered meeting the parents, right?But she soon realized that this kind of joy was inappropriate, and quickly corrected the expression on her face, "Are you free, when is it?"

"next Tuesday."

Qi Lan was startled again, and the little joy in her heart faded away.

Ruan Yu guessed right before, she was indeed preparing in private these two days, because in two days it will be the first anniversary of the two of them.

Although at the time, Ruan Yu probably didn't think about the further development of the two of them at all, and agreed very casually, but this day is still worth remembering for Qi Lan.It happened that both of them were not busy, so she planned to go out to play.

The date of departure is set, which happens to be next Tuesday.Because that day was the first time she officially appeared in front of Ruan Yu.

Unexpectedly, this day has such a special meaning to Ruan Yu.

No wonder Ruan Yu was in a bad state during that time. It seems that it was not only because of the bottleneck in creation and Ye Siyun's derailment, but maybe it was also affected by this aspect.

It was precisely because of this that she needed "comfort" at that time, and she had the opportunity to take advantage of it.But if it is possible, Qi Lan hopes that she will never have to experience such pain, even if that is the case, there may be no trace of herself in her life.

On the day I went to sweep the grave, the weather was not good. Thick clouds piled up in the sky, making the whole sky gloomy, and even the wind was stronger than usual.

Considering that this could be regarded as a "first meeting", Qi Lan deliberately changed into a new black suit, making sure to make herself appear calm and steady, so that Ruan Yu's parents could rest assured.As a result, the clothes were too light and slim, completely sacrificing the function of keeping warm.

It was okay when I went out. I went directly from the elevator to the underground parking lot. There was no problem with the air conditioner in the car, but after getting out of the car, the wind was blown through within a few minutes, and the whole person shivered uncontrollably.

Ruan Yu had something on his mind, so he didn't notice her attire.At this time, seeing her shivering, she realized it.

There are no extra clothes in the car, and this is near the cemetery, and there are no clothing stores.She frowned and looked at Qi Lan, "Don't go up, wait for me in the car, the wind is even stronger on the mountain."

"No." Qi Lan shook her head tremblingly, and refused firmly, "I'll go with you."

Ruan Yu thought for a while, then turned around and got into the cab, "Get in the car, I suddenly remembered that there are still some things I haven't bought. I will also add a piece of clothing for you on the way, so as not to really get sick from the cold."

Qi Lan suspected that she was lying to herself, but Ruan Yu spoke up, and it was really cold, so she hesitated for a while, and got into the car anyway.

Ruan Yu drove the car back to the city, went to the cake shop to order a cake, and then led Qi Lan to buy clothes.Because it needs to keep warm and look beautiful, it took a long time to choose.Putting on new clothes, Qi Lan came back to life.She looked at Ruan Yu, thought about it, and picked out two more scarves.

Because it was ordered urgently, the cake was already ready when we returned.

Qi Lan was carrying the cake, she was sure that this was what Ruan Yu said she forgot to buy, she couldn't help being a little surprised.It should be rare to take cakes to visit graves.

With this idea in her mind, she went to the parking lot to pick up the car absent-mindedly, but she didn't see the car that drove out suddenly, and almost had an accident.Fortunately, the speed of the car just started was very slow, and it just rubbed against the pants.On the contrary, Qi Lanjing was frightened, and suddenly got excited, and a certain thread in his mind was finally connected.

Ruan Yu doesn't like cakes and desserts, but sometimes she will order one, put it aside and watch it, and don't eat it.

Qi Lan is very aware of this habit.But now she looked back and finally found the pattern.Ruan Yu doesn't often waste food like this, only during the period from September to October every year.

She doesn't go back to her hometown to visit the grave every year, maybe that's a kind of private sacrificial method?

Perhaps, there is also a story hidden in this cake that I can't bear to export.

The car stopped again in front of the cemetery.

Most of the cemeteries in the city are built on the hills on the outskirts of the city. The tombs are connected successively and continuously upwards. Pines and cypresses are planted around the cemetery and between the tombs.This cemetery was built more than ten years ago, and the small trees planted that year have long since grown up, and the cypress shadows are dense. Coupled with the cloudy and windy weather today, there is a sense of desolation far away from the world.

Before getting out of the car, Qi Lan took out the scarf she had just chosen and tied it on for Ruan Yu.On a day like today, this may be the only thing she can do for Ruan Yu.

In addition to cakes, they also prepared flowers and paper candles, so they went to the management office to register and received a lighter and an iron basin for burning.Carrying these things, he climbed up the stairs layer by layer, and walked through the criss-crossed tombs for a while before finding the tomb of Ruan Yu's parents.

The two graves are side by side, as if they are still together when they go underground.

As expected, the wind on the mountain was even stronger. Ruan Yu arranged the offerings one by one, inserted the joss sticks, and found a leeward direction to burn the paper money quietly.Qi Lan quietly helped, feeling that Ruan Yu at this moment seemed to be covered with something that outsiders could not touch.

It took a long time for the two of them to finish burning the thick paper money.

Seeing the last sparks in the basin turn into ashes, Ruan Yu suddenly said, "After my father passed away, my mother made the decision and bought the two adjacent places. Actually, I wanted to buy three, but I didn't have enough money."

Qi Lan couldn't help frowning.Although many people don't deny their afterlife, the practice of preparing the cemetery of a family of three like this is still a bit creepy, especially including a child who is only in his teens.

"So I often think that death may be a kind of relief for her." Ruan Yu added, "Since my father left, she seems to have been drained of spirit and completely lost the enthusiasm for life. Just for the sake of me lingering. Sometimes I'm grateful for her for the extra years, but sometimes I can't help but hate her. I'm like an undue burden she just has to pick up. Don’t move, just got what you want.”

"Ruan Ruan..." Qi Lan pressed her shoulders and looked at her worriedly.

Ruan Yu let out a breath slowly, and forced a smile at Qi Lan, "Sorry, did I scare you? That's why I don't like this place. Every time I come back, I feel bad."

Qi Lan shook her head, wanting to say something to comfort her, but her words were so pale at this moment, she still didn't say anything in the end.

Ruan Yu changed positions, opened the cake box, took away other offerings, and placed the beautifully crafted three-layer cake in front of his mother's tombstone, before saying, "Today is also her birthday."

Qi Lan was startled suddenly, and she was fully awake.

Although it was only a short sentence and a few words, the information hidden in it was like a huge stone falling on Qi Lan's heart.

She only knew that Ruan Yu's father was a firefighter who died for his country and became a martyr when he participated in a rescue, but she didn't know that it was his wife's birthday that day. Maybe his wife and children were still guarding the birthday cake at home, waiting for him to go back and have a happy reunion. .

If this is just a coincidence, then Ruan Yu's mother's death date and father's death date are also on the same day, which seems unusual.

"Aunt..." Qi Lan pressed Ruan Yu's shoulder and spoke with difficulty, not knowing whether to reveal the terrible truth.

"She committed suicide." Ruan Yu lowered her head and said softly.

Qi Lan only felt her heart sink, and the tip of her nose was attacked by a strong sourness, and her eyes instantly became hazy.She knelt on the cold stone surface and hugged Ruan Yu tightly.

"Actually, her health was already very poor at that time. The doctor said... it would take three to five months at most. I don't know if she knew it, should she know it? After all, it was her body. She suddenly became very energetic that day , told me that she wanted to eat cakes... I was so stupid, she hadn't celebrated her birthday for several years, but I actually believed her and went out to buy the cake she said, and it turned out..." Ruan Yu spoke very slowly, stopping several times I came down to adjust my emotions, but in the end I still didn't finish.

Qi Lan's heart twitched, and she realized that her shoulders were slightly wet, it was Ruan Yu's tears, and her own tears also fell down.

The two just hugged each other and cried for a while. At the beginning, they were both a little inexplicably embarrassed, but there was a little intimacy in the embarrassment.After a while, Ruan Yu tidied herself up without looking at her, and said in a low voice, "Are you stupid, why are you crying with me?"

"I cried half of your tears for you, so that you won't be too sad." Qi Lan said, paused, and then said, "You know the words of comfort, and I can't say anything new. But Ruan Ruan , I will always be with you, and you will never be alone again."

"Yeah." Ruan Yu rubbed his face, suppressing all kinds of emotions, "Actually, it has been several years, and I have figured out what I should think. But every time I come back and think of those things, I will still be like this, so I also Haven't been here a few times."

She laughed at herself when she said this, "So I'm not a filial daughter."

"Don't say that." Qi Lan disapproved.

"Anyway, that's how it is." Ruan Yu said, "I won't embarrass myself, maybe one day I'll think it through and I'll understand, right?"

She turned her head to look at the tombstone, and then at Qi Lan, "Since you're here, if you want, you can... kowtow to my parents too? By the way... change your name."

Of course Qi Lan was not unwilling, and simply knelt down.When the first one knocked his head down, he was probably too excited and didn't grasp the strength well, so he let out a "boom", which startled Ruan Yu, and all the complicated and dark emotions in his heart were blown away in an instant. .