Sweetness

It happened suddenly.

Recalling, Xu Qingning can only think of the word 'random'.

She diverted from the way to the airport to go to the hospital, rushed to the cold corridor outside the operating room, panted against the dazzling white wall, and waited quietly.

From the conversations of uncles and aunts around, Xu Qingning learned that Grandpa's health is not that good, at least not as good as she thought.

Grandpa Xu lived in a hospital at the beginning of last year.

Getting older and being hospitalized for surgery is like replacing a broken car with new parts. The new ones are not as good as the original ones, and my physical condition is not optimistic.

From then on, Xu Qingning also listened to her parents talking about not always making her grandpa angry.

She wrote it down at the time, but didn't take it too seriously, because in Xu Qingning's opinion, it was too difficult for her grandpa, who was always stern to her, and occasionally blew his beard and stared at her, to keep him from getting angry.

Moreover, Xu Qingning's period of time coincided with the college entrance examination, so she was concentrating on her studies, so she really didn't have time to make him angry.

From Xu Qingning's point of view, grandpa's postoperative recovery is pretty good.

Peaceful and optimistic, regular work and rest, and active exercise, especially when Tian Tian came last summer, he smiled more than before.

But after listening to the family doctor's words told by her aunt, Xu Qingning realized that all this was just a superficial appearance.

The monthly medical report was forged. That stubborn old man even threatened the family doctor in order not to let them know what was wrong with him.

Although what was being concealed was usually minor ailments and problems, but all causes must have consequences, and this sudden incident was not so sudden.

Xu Qingning's mind went blank.

In order to appease them, the professional doctor next to him tried to speak lightly, but Xu Qingning also understood through his relaxed words that it was very troublesome to enter the operating room twice because of the same problem.

After waiting for an indeterminate amount of time, it seemed as long as a century. The lights in the operating room were turned off. The doctor in a white coat took off his mask, looked at the anxious eyes, and comforted him: "Fortunately, the doctor was sent to the hospital in time, and the rescue came. , just wait for the old man to wake up now."

"Then when will he wake up?" Xu Qingning asked.

He glanced at her, hiding his eyes for a while: "I don't know yet. It depends on the situation. Let us know if there is any situation."

Xu Qingning understood again, it's good if you wake up, but it's bad if you don't wake up.

The uncle's assistant followed the doctor to go through a series of procedures such as transfer to the ward. Xu Qingning and others were led into the lounge on the same floor by the nurse, and a cup of hot water was put in their hands. Xu Qingning looked up at the second sister and thanked her.

It was still cold in early March.

The air conditioner in the lounge was fully turned on, but Xu Qingning didn't know whether she was wearing too little bag because of Tian Tiansao or what, her hands and feet were cold.

Feeling warm when the hot water flowed through her body, Xu Qingning listened to them discussing the issue of getting up to accompany the bed, and said that at least one person would accompany her here every day, not counting the servants at home.

Xu Qingning said: "I have no class tomorrow, and I will stay here for the next two weekends."

"Then are you in good health?" Xu Qingai looked at her worriedly, "I think you are not in a good condition, don't grandpa didn't wake up, you fell down again."

Xu Qingning looked at her: "It's okay, I'm not so delicate."

The adults were still discussing specific matters, Xu Qingning put down the water cup to warm her hands and looked out the window, the endless night scene spread in her eyes.

He turned on his phone and looked at the time. It was three o'clock in the morning, and a few hours had passed since the scheduled boarding reminder.If this hadn't happened, she should go to Yuncheng at the airport now, and wait for a surprise for Tian Tian early the next morning.

Xu Qingning suddenly missed her very much.

She clicked on He Tiantian's chat history, flipped through it up and down, wanted to find her, but couldn't bear to wake her up, so she clicked on the avatar twice, and the avatar shook a few times.

The erratic emotions seemed to be settled, Xu Qingning turned around, listened to them calling her, put away her mobile phone and walked out.

What follows is a long life in bed.

The first day was fine. With the help of Mrs. Xu, Xu Qingning did what she could. Occasionally, uncles and aunts would come to visit, and there would be laughter in the ward.

On the second day, the laughter gradually decreased, and each other's hearts were weighed down. No one mentioned it, and they were doing their own things silently.

Seeing that the third day was coming to an end, Xu Qingning felt that she would not be able to hold on any longer.

The thing she thinks about the most these days is that her grandfather wakes up, but things don't go as planned, no matter what she thinks or thinks, that stubborn old man just won't open his eyes while lying on the bed.

Xu Qingning buried her head in her hands, and was suddenly called out by the second aunt: "You have to go to class tomorrow, so go back and rest early today, I'll just stay here."

"I don't want to leave. I don't even have the time to go to class. Just let me stay here..."

"Nonsense! How dare you skip class? When grandpa wakes up, he will scold you! Be obedient, go home and have a good sleep to refresh yourself." She patted her on the shoulder again.

Xu Qingning nodded, but she didn't intend to leave, she wanted to follow in, and when she heard Xu Qingai's voice, she turned her head and found that Tian Tian was still following her.

She didn't seem to have changed much, she was still wearing the clothes she wore the day she left, as if she hadn't left from the beginning to the end.

Tian Tian walked towards her quickly, and called her 'sour', Xu Qingning wanted to cry for no reason, and smiled at her again.

A smile that she herself found extremely ugly.

Tian Tian smiled back and comforted her, "Don't worry, I'll go see Grandpa first."

Xu Qingning followed in, but she was persuaded by her second aunt to leave again. This time even Xu Qingai joined the battle, saying that she would definitely not be able to hold on if she stayed any longer.

She said: "I'll go home later, can you see me off?"

Xu Qingning finally returned to Xu's house with Tian Tian.

In the driver's car, Xu Qingning and Tian Tian sat in the back seat, the scenery on both sides of the road was receding, and the car was silent.

Xu Qingning suddenly felt that her hands were wrapped by some kind of heater. Looking down, Tian Tian's hands were wrapping her hands, rubbing them repeatedly, and muttering: "Why are your hands so cold?"

"Physical problems." Xu Qingning choked out four words, her voice hoarse.

Tian Tian glanced at her and warmed her hands, but stopped talking.All the way to Xu's house, Xu Qingning felt that her hands were hot.

As soon as the two entered, Mrs. Xu came up to them and asked if they wanted something to eat. Xu Qingning shook her head, then looked at Tian Tian, ​​who also shook her head.

Going upstairs silently, Xu Qingning sent Tian Tian to the door of the room, and whispered: "It's getting late, you go to bed early."

Tian Tian nodded and replied, "You too."

Seeing Tian Tian close the door, Xu Qingning slowly returned to her room, the familiar furnishings, although she hadn't returned for a few days, it felt like a long time.

Sitting on the rattan chair on the balcony, the wind blew for a while, until Tian Tian's hands that had been covered with heat became cold again. Xu Qingning touched her cheek with her hand, got up, and went back to the room to sit again.

Tian Tian pushed the door open and came in, what she saw was such a scene.

The curtains in the room were tightly closed. She was sitting on the single sofa by the window, with her head drooped, and only looked up when the door opened. Her face was as white as paper, and she smiled at her.

Tian Tian handed her a cup of ginger tea, squatted in front of her and looked at her: "Do you feel uncomfortable?"

The warm ginger tea pressed against her palm, Xu Qingning took a sip, the hot taste went down her throat, her whole body seemed to heat up, she shook her head: "It's not uncomfortable."

"Do you want to take a shower? You will feel more comfortable after taking a shower." Tian Tian looked at her again.

Xu Qingning only looked at the time on the wall, it was eleven o'clock, and looked at Tian Tian in front of her in surprise: "Why are you still awake?"

Tian Tian smiled and didn't answer.

The room was silent, and when Xu Qingning drank the cup of warming ginger tea slowly and her blood flowed, she slowly said, "The day the accident happened, I originally planned to find you."

Tian Tian glanced at her unexpectedly, snatched the empty cup from her hand, wrapped her hand again, it was still cold.

She covered her hands and heard her murmuring in a low voice: "I've thought a lot these days, and I think his evaluation of me is right. I'm too ignorant. Too naive."

"I have always believed in human effort. As long as I want to do something, there is nothing I can't do. Just like I chase you, I also think that you will become mine one day... But this matter, it seems that no matter how hard I try , If he doesn't wake up, he still won't wake up."

Tian Tian tightened her hand and comforted her: "I will wake up, don't worry."

"I know, I heard them say that the longer the coma lasts, the less chance of waking up, and it may be forever..." Xu Qingning gradually couldn't continue.

She lowered her head, Tian Tian touched her cheek with his hand, felt moist, caressed her lightly, sat on the armrest of the sofa and held her in her arms: "It's okay."

"Yeah." Full of nasal voice.

Tian Tian quietly waited for her to finish crying.

On such a quiet night, she inexplicably thought of herself, herself when her grandma passed away.

During the day, she has to hold on mentally to take care of the funeral, hold on not to collapse, hold on to face everyone who comes to express their condolences, and only in the middle of the night, when she is alone, can she hide in the quilt and cry loudly .

On nights like that, she would often think of her grandma, and occasionally, she would think of Xu Qingning, whom she had never met, and the life of two people that her grandma had described to her.

Xu Qingning in her arms seemed to have finished crying, Tian Tian took out two pieces of paper and handed them to her, she shook her head, didn't answer, and murmured: "I'm fine."

"Yeah." Tian Tian still hugged her.

The two lay on the bed at some point, facing each other, Tian Tian rested her head with one hand, looked into her slightly red eyes, and said, "It's okay."

Xu Qingning also slowed down, looked at her, and said out the stone that was pressing on her heart: "I don't want you to go during the Chinese New Year, so I asked grandpa to keep you. At that time, he asked me to think of a reason. I didn't think much, so I let you go He said he wasn't healthy and it happened again... I always felt like it was me."

Tian Tian: "What does it have to do with you?"

"I know," Xu Qingning nodded, "but I can't help but think this way, as if I wish..." The words stopped abruptly, and Tian Tian put her finger on her lips, blocking what she wanted to say.

"The matter of grandpa has nothing to do with you, and you have been with grandpa for so long, you have done a good job, so don't feel guilty."

Xu Qingning blinked her eyes, agreeing, then opened her eyes and looked at her for a long time, Xu felt strange, and asked, "Do you think I'm pitiful to be so kind to me?"

Tian Tian didn't answer, Xu Qingning said in a confessional way: "I was quite despicable before. In order to get you to pay attention to me, I deliberately acted pitiful and made you soft-hearted. I didn't expect this time..."

"It's not because you're pitiful." Tian Tian interrupted her again, "I also know you're not pretending to be pitiful."

Xu Qingning looked at Tian Tian for two seconds, and couldn't help saying: "I found out that I really like you."