I have never spoken

In the debate between her and Yuanzi, she won, thoroughly, wonderfully, and the self-esteem and pride she wanted to defend.

But the price is a bit heavy.

Gains and losses are always even.

Shinichi was on the way home, Shiho's words still lingered in his ears.

There was no anger anymore, it seemed that he had no position to be angry.

Everything is just his wishful thinking.In the final analysis, what Zhibao said was just to destroy his self-indulgence.

Do you become angry from embarrassment?Years of self-indulgence proved.

He didn't want to think about it.Even sadness and despair are spared.It was replaced by heart death.

There is nothing greater than heartlessness, now the world can finally be clean.Once the heart dies, no matter what kind of bloody storm there is, there will be no more pain.

Thanks to her, the director of the Department of Neurology of Mihua Hospital, before leaving, he performed a major surgery on his nerves, fighting with fire, and all the nerves that felt pain were so painful that he lost consciousness.Let him be like her when facing her leaving, without any worries or nostalgia.

Sure enough, he is the best doctor, and he never forgets to give anesthesia before any major surgery.

The day of leaving was approaching, and the hospital's resignation operation was completed. The nurses and other doctors who followed Zhibao were very reluctant to part with this old scalper who worked hard for the hospital.Because of her presence, the doctors and nurses in the neurology department were relieved and learned a lot.She heard many blessings and many thanks from patients. When she walked out of Mihua Hospital, she looked back at this tall building with neon lights at the top, and a reception room under the neon lights.

Not long ago, she hugged Kudo who had suffered a blow there.At that time, the summer rain was torrential.

In the blink of an eye, it is late autumn, and winter will come back soon.Time just passed by relentlessly.

Very lightly said.

However, it is never possible to predict the next second, what kind of gorgeous calamity will be dyed into life, and what kind of emotions will be brought.

Just like the great sorrow brought about by Shi's death, it is not so easy to go away with the summer rain, nor will it go away like the fallen leaves of a big tree in autumn.

It will be an eternal pain in the hearts of those who love Shi.Eternal life, can not let go.

At that time, Zhibao also naively thought that there is no relationship that cannot be diluted by time.

Now that she recalled her naive thoughts at that time, she couldn't help laughing at herself.

There is always such a feeling that can pass through all time and space.Let time continue to move forward, let space switch arbitrarily, they will still be deeply rooted in my heart.

For example, the endless memory of the dead.

After many years, she realized that there is another kind of feeling as well.

That feeling is called regret.Tan Baima urged her to leave quickly, but she never looked back.

It's not that I don't have feelings for the hospital.

If he looked back again, it might shake Zhibao's determination to leave.It was never her intention to leave.

Just her life.

Since that night, Shiho and Kudo have completely lost contact.So when Kudo's call came in, Shiho pressed the answer button in a panic.

"When is the plane?"

"……Tomorrow evening."

The conversation immediately fell into an awkward silence.

a long time.

"If I don't call you tonight, are you going to leave without telling me?"

Shiho just kept silent.

How can I tell you?How do you want me to have the guts to reach out to you after that night?

Naturally, I know that you care about me, and you are also reluctant to part with me. It is precisely because of this that I dare not do anything to hurt you anymore.

Just as Shiho was about to open his mouth to complain to ease the tense atmosphere, Shinichi spoke first.

See you tomorrow.

The phone hangs up.

So Shiho began to pray that Kudo would not do anything drastic the next day.

Don't hold back, don't show weakness, don't show him a trace of nostalgia.

Otherwise, she might really stay.

It's just that I can't stay.

So much desperation and pain has gone through, no matter what happens, she has nothing to fear.

……Do not.

She was afraid, what if time wiped out Kudo's heart of her completely.

Kudo, if I say something to hurt you tomorrow, you will never forget me, right?

Whether it's nostalgia for the past, or hatred for hurt, please don't forget me.

Remember me as a memorable memory, just as I remember you.Every day when I miss you, I sometimes think of me.

It is enough.Immediately when Xinyi contacted Baima Tan and offered to send them to the airport, all reasons for Baima Tan's refusal were dismissed.No matter what you say, Xinyi can be regarded as a friend. If he refuses, it seems that he will really lose face.

When Xinyi drove to Baima to visit the house, the suitcases were piled up at the door, and Zhibao leaned against the doorpost, never looking at Xinyi.Shinichi didn't want to face her with his deep dark circles, so he simply lowered his head to help them carry their luggage into the car.

Shiho's hair had grown to his shoulders at some point.She hadn't grown long hair for so many years, and she brought out the wildness of short hair to the fullest, and it was only then that Shinichi knew that her hair could be so charming after growing it.Just standing quietly is already captivating.After she waited for the two men to load all the luggage into the car, Tan Bai took her hand and opened the car door for her.She seemed to have gotten used to Tan Baima's almost doting care, got into the carriage, and sat down like a celebrity, all her movements were extremely cultivated.

Shinichi watched all this through the rearview mirror.

My heart really doesn't hurt.

The atmosphere in the carriage was a bit weird. Detective Baima chatted with Zhibao one after another, and the topics were irrelevant, like a conversation between an old husband and wife for more than ten years.

Shinichi just listened silently.

Only then did he realize how valuable the unnutritious conversation between Conan and Haibara Ai was.

My heart really doesn't hurt.

It's only a 10-minute drive to the airport.Xin parked the car and helped Baima Tan drag the luggage in. On the way, he and Baima Tan exchanged messages between men.

Shiho remained silent.He watched Xinyi and Baima Tan laughing and saying goodbye, but he just watched.

Shinichi never had any communication with Shiho from beginning to end, not even a glance.He brushed past Zhibao and walked into the crowd. The hurried passengers quickly covered him well.

You can't really see him with the naked eye.

"You just wait a moment, I'll check in the luggage first." Tan Tan rubbed Shiho's hair, dragging the luggage to the check-in area.

She watched Tan Baima disappear into the crowd before she said leisurely, "If I don't speak now, are you going to just watch me go?"

She knew that Shinichi was just hiding nearby, and she also knew that if she wanted to leave simply, it was best not to speak.

However, I really couldn't bear it.Knowing that the next meeting is really far away, don't even miss the chance to say goodbye at the time of parting.Sure enough, Shinichi appeared in front of her, looking down at her sitting on the chair.Zhibao didn't look at him, his gaze crossed his figure with some impoliteness, and looked elsewhere where the crowd was surging.

"Baker Street." It was Shinichi who spoke first.

"Huh?" Shiho raised his head and looked at Shinichi.

"It was agreed before, when there is such an opportunity, we will go to Baker Street together." Xinyi had an ambiguous smile on his face. "Didn't you forget it?"

Shiho met Shinichi's eyes and smiled.

Kudo Shinichi, why did you make the promise as soon as you opened your mouth?It's not good to say something else, but I just mentioned the agreement.You definitely don't know, if you go on talking, I will stay.

So, I can't let you go on.

"I won't wait for that impossible opportunity." Shiho suppressed all his smiles, and Shinichi's smile also froze on his lips.

"I won't wait for you. The person waiting for you has already been married by you. And I won't waste my time for you. I can go to Baker Street by myself, and you can too. Why waste your life waiting for a job? It's not necessary In the future, we will just make a phone call or send an email or something. Opportunities come and go, so why wait.”

I am sorry.

This is not what I mean.It's just that if I don't say that, I really don't want to leave.

I want to go to Baker Street with you.I want to see you in high spirits, with a cigarette in your mouth, a cane, and a mustache. That look has been pieced together in my mind so many times, and I want to see the live version even in my dreams.

"Oh, phone calls and emails, I see." Shinichi put on a smile that would collapse at any moment: "Then let me ask you a question. If I send you an anonymous postcard, will you recognize it? My word?"

Shiho was slightly taken aback.

She thought of the English notebook that Baima Tan had left in the infirmary of Didan High School a long time ago, and Xinyi was silent after she recognized that it was written by Baima Tan.

It turned out that he cared.Because I'm a detective, I don't miss any small things.

However, Shiho really doesn't understand Shinichi's characters.She suddenly felt that she was ridiculous, she thought she had liked him for so many years, and even claimed in her heart that she was the person who knew Shinichi best...

In the end, it turned out that he didn't even know his characters.

She could clearly destroy the agreement between the two of them so ruthlessly, but she didn't have the courage to tell Shinichi this fact.

She is guilty.

"I have the answer. Thank you." Xinyi turned his head and looked away, with an imperceptible glint in his eyes.

Because the light was against the light, Zhibao didn't see that trace of despair.

No more words.There was no wind, but the clothes were trembling slightly.

"Huiyuan." Shinichi looked into her eyes again and called her last name.The voice was so soft that he wasn't sure if he heard it.

But he knew that she must have heard it, otherwise there wouldn't be so many magnificent waves suddenly appearing in her eyes.

Perhaps this was the last time in her life she heard someone call her that.

Haibara Ai, Miyano Shiho, Hakuba Shiho...it's just a name.However, the name Huiyuan was called out by Shinichi, but it carried the meaning that things are right and wrong.

Because, next, Shinichi told her what he had said to her face to face for the last time in his life.

A very common sentence.But it can only be said after his heart is completely dead.

"Madam White Horse, goodbye."

He didn't stay any longer, turned and left.His walking posture has always been beautiful, and at this moment he is no different from usual.

Zhibao kept looking in the direction he left, wanting to see that person one more time, but he quickly disappeared into the crowd.

Dry mouth.

no...don't do this...

She stood up, trying to catch up, she deeply loathed her own cruelty.

How can I bear it.

Stop him, tell him what's in your heart, no matter what the consequences will be, she is willing to bear...

But bumped into Baima Tan who had just checked in her luggage. Baima Tan took her hand and asked, what's the matter, can't wait to board the plane?

She saw the same ring as herself on Baima Tan's hand, and all impulsive thoughts were scattered.

It's a dead end, Kudo Shinichi.Goodbye Mrs. White Horse.Thank you for giving me such cruelty in the end, so that I won't have any more illusions about you.Thank you thank you thank you.

Thank you for appearing in my life and bringing the brilliance of the sun to me.

But how cruel you are, let me see you, but never touch you.

no problem.

Every little bit of warmth from the past will be accumulated in my heart, and I will never forget it against the fleeting years.

Can't bear to forget.

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