【Gao Gui】The Glorious Years

1945.5 Katsura Kotaro

I started to be afraid of the night.I began to fear the rain that seemed to never stop.Familiar faces lose their life in front of you almost every day, and those young and stiff bodies are left on the side of the road and gradually become one with the mud.Death, death is a thing that can happen so easily, as naturally as reaching out to pick a leaf from a tree.I'm starting to miss something.The small building is surrounded by lush Ryukyu pines, the fresh vegetables and fruits in the market are stained with dew or soil, and the warm and fragrant wind blows on my face when Jinsuke rides me around on a sunny day.

I thought about them night after night, until tiredness overwhelmed me and I fell into a deep sleep.

Nightmare is another distraction.Gunfire and gunpowder are the eternal themes.Blood flowed in rivers and seas in front of me, and people died, sometimes blond Americans, sometimes earth and silver, sometimes myself.

And sometimes Jinsuke.He looked at me silently in the sky full of smoke and dust, the wound on his left eye spread little by little, I anxiously wanted to catch him, and before I stretched out my hand, he disappeared in ashes.I cried desperately in my dream, but I couldn't make a sound. I only felt that my throat was extremely stuffy, and I wished it could be cut.

"Wig? Wig?" This familiar voice woke me up from the nightmare. I opened my eyes and saw **Ye's worried face.

"What's wrong with you? You look ugly. Are you having a headache again?"

When I was 13 years old, I had a high fever that lasted for five days. The doctors were helpless, and my family members sought remedies everywhere to keep me alive. However, the root cause of headache has fallen since then.Jinzhu took this matter very seriously, and if I showed a little discomfort on weekdays, he would worry about whether I was ill.At this moment, he looked nervous, and I couldn't help feeling warm in my heart.

"No. I had a dream."

I told him the dream honestly, but he laughed at me. "Tch." He returned to his arrogant look when he was teasing me in the past, squinting at me. "idiot."

"Hmph." I also turned my head and continued to sleep.What's wrong with an idiot, even if it's an idiot, it's the idiot you kept saying that you would always be with me.

Fighting in the daytime is far more difficult than dealing with nightmares.In the hail of bullets, I always wanted to be by Jin Zhu's side at all times, and I couldn't feel at ease when I couldn't see him. "Gui Xiaotaro, if you keep looking around like this, I won't care about you if you lose your life." Captain Tufang warned me over and over again.I had no choice but to agree.Tufang looked around again: "Fuck, where did the silver-haired bastard go, I think he'd better exhaust me to death."

Huh?Isn't Captain Tufang himself absent-minded?

Of course, I only dare to secretly be curious about this question. If I really want to ask him, I am afraid he will punish me for push-ups again.

Also afraid to say it is the deadly right leg.Ben didn't fully recover, and in order to see Jin Zhu earlier, he rushed to the battlefield, and it was rainy every day, and his calf ached from time to time.The comrades in arms must be afraid of my burden when they hear about it, but let's not let Jinzhu know that he will probably beat me up.

However, the leg injury, which has not fully recovered, was discovered.Hijikata, Okita and I were passing through a low-lying residential area when we encountered a small group of American soldiers. When they saw us, they shot at us from the other side of the wall. We were obviously outnumbered, so we had to fight back. Withdrew to the camp.At that life-threatening moment, my calf throbbed uncontrollably, and I fell to the ground in embarrassment.The earth side was so angry that while shooting at the Americans, they picked me up and were about to move forward, but I couldn't help letting out a miserable cry.It was only then that Tufang remembered that Jin Zhu had mentioned my leg injury in the past, and ordered Chong Tian to cover it, then bent down and said bitterly, "Damn it, come up quickly, I will carry you on my back."

Naturally, I couldn't hold back any longer, and obediently let the captain of the earthwork carry me all the way. I was so ashamed that I wished I could get shot a few times and die.Along the way, Okita complained that because of me, he couldn't release water in the cover, so Hijikata was shot to death by random guns, and Hijikata's face was ashen.

Okita and Hijikata have a strange relationship.I've heard some things about Okita's sister and Hijikata. It seems that after her sister died of illness, Okita began to curse Hijikata to die every day.But he said it anyway, but I never saw him really take advantage of the chaos to make trouble, but he did a lot of small favors.I think he actually cares about the captain of the earth side.

After returning to the camp, he was naturally scolded by Jin Zhu. "You are only happy if you want to lose your life. At the beginning, I told you not to come!" He yelled at me angrily.I immediately felt aggrieved, I was just worried that he wanted to stay by his side to make sure he was alive and well, so why would he always use this to scold me.I also got angry and stopped talking to him, telling him to lose his temper in the air.

During dinner, Yinshi smiled and looked at Jinzhu and I who were sitting far away, coughed twice in a strange way, and leaned into Jinzhu's ear and said a few words.Jin Zhu's demeanor changed obviously, as if he was a little surprised and a little annoyed.He turned to look at me and stared at me for a long time.Take a look, look at your size, I said angrily in my heart.

I was still very depressed at night, and I tossed and turned and couldn't find a position where I could fall asleep peacefully.Someone came over hesitantly in the dark, without even thinking about who it was.

"Wig." He whispered to me.

I ignore him.pretend to sleep.

"I know you're awake." He rubbed my hair, "Don't be angry, I'm worried about you too."

You are also worried about me, why do you always forget that I feel the same way.I know it's fierce.

I was still a little aggrieved, but his rare surrender first made me feel hopelessly soft-hearted.I sat up and faced him, but said nothing.

He reached out to my right leg near the ankle and squeezed it gently. "Does it still hurt?" he asked.

I shook my head.

"Tch, I won't tell when it hurts, isn't it the same as me." He laughed at me again.

I couldn't help laughing too, he was always quick to get my forgiveness, even after a night of violent arguments and even fights.I can't be hard on him.He beat me.

Matsudaira was busy communicating with his superiors today and forgot to deal with American prisoners of war, which made me breathe a sigh of relief.Even though Yinshi told me that they would die sooner or later, I still foolishly thought that it would be better if I saw them one day later.The pocket watch entrusted to me by the company commander is in my breast pocket, as if it weighs a thousand catties.And at this moment, Jinsuke is carefully massaging my ankle, which seems to have lightened the weight a little bit.At least my heart can beat normally again.At least for this moment, I know I am alive.

I watched his blurred silhouette in the dark and thought of his face in the light.He has a stern face, and the lines of his lips give the impression of being cold, but his palms are warm.He rubbed my wound patiently over and over again, and the part where the skin touched became warmer and warmer.For some reason, I suddenly remembered that he hadn't touched the body under my military uniform for a long time, my face couldn't help burning, and I turned my head guiltily.

"wig."

"Ok?"

He called me, but he didn't speak for a long time.

I had to take the initiative to speak to cover up my embarrassing emotion.

"What did Yinshi say to you during dinner? You stared at me so intently."

"Oh, that." He snorted, "I won't tell you."

Cut, who cares.

"Then what did you want to tell me just now? If you don't tell me, I'll go to sleep." I lay on my side on the ground with my back to him.

There was no sound after a long time, so I thought he might have walked away.

He did not.

He leaned down and brought his face close to my neck.His breath brushed against my skin little by little, itching all the way to my heart.

"I just wanted to say that I miss you more than you." He whispered in my ear.That deep voice suddenly tightened every pore of my heart, and my heart was beating too violently, as if it was about to come out of my throat at any moment.I think my face must be as ugly as a monkey's butt.

"Also." He turned my face and moved closer to me bit by bit.

"Yinshi told me that if I don't want you anymore, he will take over immediately."

Before the lips were covered and melted by the moist touch, I saw his half-smile eyes.

Ok.

It's not bad to die at this moment.