summer love

There is a poem by Wen Tingyun: "Linglong dice and red beans are placed on the red beans, and the love is deep in the bones to know the unknown."We are all in love with each other but we don't know each other's mind, how can we find out his mind?

Perhaps this is the sad part of compassion, even if we love each other, we dare not express it until we are not sure that the other party also likes the same sex.We were all testing each other, and finally the emperor paid off, with a satisfactory result.

One afternoon he went to our dormitory to find me and asked me to help him change the script.I didn't want to go at first, but he actually said, "Just treat it as repaying his kindness for giving me a bath." Before he finished speaking, I pulled him out of the dormitory, otherwise the people in our dormitory would have to think too much.I was still thinking about where the kindness came from. He obviously asked to rub my back every time I took a bath, but he threatened me with it at this time, it was so insincere.

On our way to their rehearsal, a female classmate in their class called him to stop him.

"Zhang Longtao, why are you going?"

We all looked back and it turned out to be Sister Yi.Sister Yi is a senior in the society. After I started school, I joined the school's reading club and got to know her.I hurriedly greeted her: "Hello, sister Yi."

She looked at us in surprise and said, "You know each other?"

Brother Tao said, "Yes, I am his instructor."

Sister Yi said: "Then you take good care of this junior, this kid is very nice."

I said, "Brother Tao took good care of me."

Sister Yi rolled her eyes at Brother Tao and said, "I don't know him yet, he has a dark face and a hard heart. But it doesn't matter, if he dares to bully you, tell sister, she will cover you."

"Thank you ma'am."

"By the way, what are you doing?"

Brother Tao said, "Isn't it a dress rehearsal?"

Sister Yi said: "We won't have a row today, let's talk about it another day."

I said to Brother Tao: "If I don't make a cut, I'll go back. I'll take the script back and read it, and I'll tell you my opinion after reading it."

Sister Yi said: "Don't go, let's have dinner together, I'm hungry, there's nothing else to do anyway."

Then I was dragged to dinner by the two of them.

That restaurant is a very stylish restaurant next to our school, and it is full of ancient atmosphere after entering.At the dinner table, I heard Sister Yi tell me about Brother Tao's deeds in school. It turned out that he was the student of their class in our department, no wonder he was so popular with girls.I can also see that Sister Yi has some meaning for Brother Tao, but Brother Tao is very cold.

I also know that Brother Tao has a date, and he is new this semester.Sister Yi also teased Brother Tao and said: "He even quit smoking because of his partner. You said how much he likes her, but it's a pity that he didn't introduce us to each other." I could only smile awkwardly at the two of them, I really don't know what to say.

At that time, I felt that all thoughts were lost, and I knew that I had no role to play.If someone has a girlfriend, it means that they like girls; taking a step back, even if they like men, they won't like me if they are grass.

I just ate there in silence, tasteless.Occasionally looking at Brother Tao's handsome face is really delicious, but it's not my turn.

Love is so wonderful, when you like someone, you will feel sad for him unconsciously.Love is always ups and downs, and it is uncertain when there will be a turning point.One minute it feels like life is still dark and dull, and the next minute it may be sunny.Although our love has not ended, it has a romantic beginning that I feel.

On the way back to the dormitory after dinner, I was not in a good mood, because he already had his own heart, and my love could only be wasted.After sending the senior sister back to the dormitory, there were only the two of us left, and the atmosphere was even more awkward.

I don't remember what he said to me, so I said to myself: "There is no grass anywhere in the world, why bother to love a single flower."

Wanting not to be heard by him, he suddenly grabbed my hand and said, "You were dumped by your girlfriend?"

I said, "Nope. I don't have a date yet!" I avoided the word girlfriend because my date was supposed to be my boyfriend, but most people don't understand us.

Brother Tao said, "Then what did you mean by that sentence?"

I said, "What do you mean?"

"It's the sentence you just said, 'Where there is no grass in the world, why bother to love a single flower'".

"It's not interesting. I just saw such a sentence hanging on the wall of the restaurant just now, so I wrote it down and said it casually."

He said: "Do you know how to explain this sentence?" I shook my head at him.He went on to say: "It means: there are good men everywhere in the world, why do you like women." I looked at him in surprise and said: "So it can be explained in this way! But it's true, good men are grass, just like Brother Tao, you are also a tie-grass." At that time, I really wanted to slap myself twice and do something with the tie-grass.

Brother Tao asked me very seriously: "Then do you like tying grass?"

I stared at him blankly, not knowing how to answer.Then I plucked up my courage and said, "What's wrong with liking you? I just like men. Is it wrong? You can look down on me, but I didn't let you like me. At worst, I'll stay away from you in the future. Goodbye!"

Just when I was about to leave, I realized that he was still holding my hand. I couldn't walk away, but I heard him say: "Sicao also likes you." After he finished speaking, his lips touched mine.At that time, I didn't feel anything, and my whole body was stunned.

Pushing his face away with the other hand said, "You're crazy, there are people everywhere."

He said: "I'm blushing, I'm actually shy, just now I was so confident!" Then he took me to a place where there were few people, just the two of us.

I said: "Although I am a man, my love is not humble. If you just want to play with me, I advise you to stay away from me as soon as possible. Although I am smaller than you and not as strong as you, the rabbit is anxious." And it will bite."

He said, "How can I play with your feelings?"

I said: "You already have a partner and still like me, so what am I?"

He suddenly laughed and said, "So that's why you were unhappy all night? You're such an honest kid, and you'll believe the nonsense I'm using to prevaricate them. But I really want someone this semester."

"Who?"

"Of course it's you."

"I?"

"Yes. People quit smoking for you, why don't you stay with me?"

"for me?"

"Do you still remember, the first time I went to your dormitory, I smoked a cigarette in your dormitory. Then I saw you coughing a few times, so I pinched the cigarette, knowing that you don't like the smell of cigarettes, so I quit .I didn’t have any addiction to cigarettes at first, so smoking is just pretending.”

"That means you have liked me for a long time?" Then he began to tell me about the attention he paid to me from school to military training.

"Yeah, I fell in love with you the first time I saw you. I still remember that I did the formalities for you when you started school, and it was your sister who sent you here, right?"

I said, "Yes, how do you know it's my sister? That's my eldest sister."

"Am I smart? Just guess right."

I resented him and said, "You are a big-headed ghost, you can tell from your age."

"I saw your sister sending you to school, so I wanted to help you carry your luggage. Your sister is also sending you off, and you carry the things yourself, so she carried a small bag for you. It's a pity that I couldn't leave at that time , There were quite a lot of people reporting that day, so I let the idle and boring Shijie go. Even if that kid has a conscience, he will treat you to dinner, otherwise I will never end with him."

"Speaking of which, I should invite brother Jie back. After all, he has helped me, and there is no reason for him to invite him to dinner."

Brother Tao said: "Your reflex arc is too long. It has been several months. It was September when school started and now it is November."

I said helplessly, "I'm just stupid. My sister has inherited all my smart genes. I have something to ask you. Why have you been avoiding me for a month?"

Brother Tao said: "Did I avoid you? When did I avoid you? Don't we often take a shower together recently?"

I said anxiously: "It was the last time you were drunk and I sent you back to the dormitory, and then secretly kissed your hand. I haven't seen you for a long time until I met you in the bathroom." After I finished speaking, my face was flushed.

Brother Tao said: "You actually dare to kiss me secretly, you are so daring." Then he said seriously: "I have been avoiding you on purpose for a month. I used to think that I was unrequited love. I will only kiss you after you kiss me." I know you like me too. But neither of us are impulsive people, I think we should calm down, what if it’s just impulsive! Besides, you also know that most people don’t accept our kind of love, If we want to be together, we will have to pay a high price. So we need time to figure out what the price is and how to avoid it."

I said with a puzzled look: "So there are so many things to think about. I used to think that as long as two people like each other, it will be fine."

He touched my face and said: "Such a simple child, how can I have the heart to make you pay the price, so after thinking about it, I still want to be with you. I will pay the price, and you can enjoy the result."

After he finished speaking, I took the initiative to hug him and said to him: "Brother, I like you."

"I like you too."

"But I also hate you. If you force me to confess to you first, why don't you confess to me first? It's so shameless."

He smiled and said, "Okay, honey. Will you make it up to me later?"

I didn't speak, and bit his arm hard, and he held it back without making a sound. "This is my imprint on you, and you will be mine from now on." He hugged me even tighter.I was ten centimeters shorter than him, and my forehead just touched his lips, and I was wiped by him again, but I was very happy to be wiped.

"Do you know why we ran into each other in the bathroom?"

I thought about it and realized that things were not that simple. He must have found out the time and place of my bath before deliberately pretending to meet me by chance. "Are you following me?"

"How can it be called stalking? I just care about you and want to get closer to you. I know I like you. Although you kissed me secretly, I don't know what you think. I saw you taking a shower in the bathroom by chance Later, I found out that your time is fixed, so I was going to meet you in the bathroom. Sure enough, the first time you saw me, you inadvertently expressed your feelings."

"Did I say something wrong?"

"No, I accidentally saw your physical reaction." I was so ashamed to hear this.

"Then why didn't you tell me you liked me then?"

"I want to cultivate a relationship with you first, so I go to take a bath with you every day. I didn't expect you to be angry because of her words today, so I can only express my heart quickly. Don't be angry, okay?"

"Don't be angry, I am satisfied with you. It turns out that my heart has not been wasted."

"I have to accompany you in the shower in the future, remember? I can't let other men stare at your body, and I can only watch it by myself in the future. No, we will go out to take a shower in the future, just the two of us."

"I listen to you."

He told me again very seriously: "Stay away from that boy Song Shijie in the future, do you hear me?"

I said, "Brother Jie treats me very well, why should you stay away from him?"

Brother Tao said: "It's because he treats you well, so you should stay away from him. This kid is plotting against you, don't you know?"

I said, "How could it be? I have nothing to plot."

"Your hue, why don't you come out? That kid is interested in you? Is your reflex arc a kite string, which can be reflected to the sky. He saw you kissing me secretly that day and knew that you liked me, so from that day Will he go to your dormitory more times in the future?"

I nod.Brother Tao went on to say: "Every time I go back to the dormitory, I will say how cute you are, how hardworking, and likable you are. I am so angry. You are my man, and he dares to think about you."

I said, "Why am I yours?"

He said: "If I see it, it's mine. Although the person is not with me, but the heart is with me. You have performed well this month, and you have not been seduced by him. I saw the right person." At this time, I knew that I Falling into a vinegar vat, he will be jealous every day in the future.But I like to make him jealous, and he is also willing to be jealous, and happiness is only in the vinegar tank.

I said, "His behavior irritated you so you decided to confess?"

"Yeah, I wanted to confess when you were in our dormitory that day, but I was worried that someone would come back and disturb us, so I didn't say anything. I also put a mirror on the table, and I can see you in the mirror."

"I said, why can I see you in the mirror, and I always feel that you are staring at me from behind. So it seems that I have to treat Brother Jie to a meal, and I haven't returned the invitation when I was invited to dinner at the beginning of school." I said He glared at me.I said helplessly: "Then let's invite him to dinner together, right? He is still our matchmaker. If it weren't for him, I'm still in unrequited love."

Brother Tao said: "That's true. It's getting late, let's go back to the dormitory."

As he said that, he took my hand and walked towards the dormitory. On the way, he saw someone pointing at us.Looking at Brother Tao, he seemed to know that I was looking at him, and he clenched his hand even tighter.I know this is one of the prices we have to pay, to bear the strange eyes of others.

I feel that the image of his whole person is getting bigger and bigger in my heart.I said to him: "Brother, I will call you Brother from now on. I can't call you Brother Tao like they do, it won't show my specialness."

Brother Tao said: "It's up to you, I'll call you Feather. You are so thin, I will eat more in the future, and I will make you so fat that you can't fly away." At that time, I was really thin, with a waist circumference of two feet one One hundred catties.

"Brother, you are so handsome, there must be a lot of people chasing you, and I am so ordinary. If one day you meet someone better than me, will you abandon me?" Now that I think about it, I have never been dazzled by love , has been so calm.No matter it was someone who provoked Brother Tao or came to disgust me, we dealt with it so calmly, never let others look down on us, and never hurt others.

Brother Tao said: "You will think too much about what I say, let me show you. I know you are a sentimental person, and you have to think about everything upside down several times when you see it. This is too exhausting. I won't let you Don't worry, you have to trust me."

I didn't speak, just told him with my eyes that I believed him, and he understood.

He sent me back to the dormitory first, and then went downstairs by himself. I watched him go downstairs before entering the dormitory.When I got back to the dormitory, I saw the boss of our dormitory, looking at me with a half-smile, which made my heart shudder.

I asked him, "What's wrong? Is there something wrong?"

He said, "Tell me honestly, is there something wrong?"

"What's the matter?" I was stunned.

The second child said: "Tell me honestly, we are going through three trials, do you still want to hang out in the dormitory?"

The fifth child said: "Of course I don't want to hang out in the dormitory. He is a dormitory where the two of us go back together. Why are we still hanging out in our dormitory?" After speaking, the group laughed.

"You all saw it?"

The boss said: "The adultery didn't start at this time. Think about how good you were during the military training. If you made a mistake, you were reluctant to correct it. Look at how much we have suffered. After eating and drinking too much, don't let Others are waiting for you to help. Tsk tsk tsk...we are all belated..."

I proudly said: "How? You also find someone to piss me off?"

The second child said: "We like women, which have different interests from yours." Then he patted my butt and said, "Be careful in the future!" I didn't understand what he meant at the time.

In the evening he called me to say good night, I slept very deeply that night, it turns out that love can make people so addicted.

Love is such a magic, it can make a person intoxicated, crazy.Ask what love is in the world, and teach life and death.Li Mochou's behavior is indeed hateful, but she is not trapped.When a woman is abandoned by the man she loves, what can that woman do, she can only turn love into hate and take revenge on the man.She thought she hated him to the core, but she didn't know that she loved him so much that she could still lose her life for love after decades.

Love is love to the bone marrow; it is the fetter of two irrelevant people being together forever.