summer love

Jinse

Li Shangyin

Jinse has no end in fifty strings, a string of thoughts and a string of years.

Zhuang Shengxiao dreams of a butterfly, and Wang Dichun cares for the cuckoo.

There are tears in the moon and pearls in the sea, and the jade in Lantian smokes in the warm sun.

This feeling can be treated as a recollection, but it was lost at the time.

What is love?

For me, love is long-term companionship, that is, he is always by my side.

Will love fade with time?

Personally, our love has never faded, just in different forms.He can make love or family affection or friendship.

Will love grow stronger with time?

Yes, the richness of love is not only manifested in his form but also in his company.

Love is like old wine, the longer it is, the more fragrant it becomes.

Love is like the porridge I cook for him, it becomes softer and thicker as time goes on.

"Brother, my stomach hurts! Brother, my stomach hurts! Brother, my stomach hurts..." After calling several times, I woke up from my dream.Yes, I am alone on the plateau where my brother came from, and my whole body was already drenched in sweat because of my stomach pain.This kind of lonely night is not the first time, but the daily routine after he left. The stomachache this night made me unable to sleep again.

Since I came to Qinghai, I am not particularly used to the diet here, but the old problem of stomach pain has not occurred.I've been drinking Kudingcha again since I found out about his death, I want to recall all the sweet details of being with him, I want to stay sane.

In fact, my stomach has always been good, but because I often drink cold tea such as Kudingcha and honeysuckle, I once ate rice for several days, which caused stomach pain.After that, the problem of gradually getting organized diet has been well relieved but it still occurs occasionally.It's not a big deal just a cold stomach.

I remember my brother was still by my side when I had my first stomachache.

When I was in the last class that afternoon, I felt sick to my stomach and had a dull pain.When my brother called me to eat together after class, he said, "Why are you sweating? It's not hot."

“Stomach a little upset”

"Go to the clinic and have a look, come up, I'll carry you behind my back," he said while turning his back to me, gesturing for me to go up.

"Brother, no need, it's not that serious. It's not as uncomfortable as before. Let's just walk. Do you still remember my ugly appearance last night and use an excuse to mock me?"

"Okay then, let's go on bicycles. I'll carry you on my back in the future."

I smiled and said "Okay!"

After arriving at the clinic, the doctor said: "It's nothing, it should be indigestion and a little abdominal distension. You don't need to take any medicine, drink some stomach medicine or something, drink more millet porridge to warm your stomach. Don't catch cold, especially at night. Keep warm. Also Can I have a drink?"

I said to the doctor: "Thank you!" and walked back with the medicine, but at this time I found that my brother was a little upset.

"Brother, why are you unhappy?"

"Why am I unhappy, you don't know?"

I pretended to be pitiful and said, "I don't know, tell me, I'm still sick."

"Your illness is self-inflicted. I didn't tell you to drink less. Why are you disobedient? Drink too much and let me carry you back. If you have a stomachache, I have to take you to see it. Why don't you I can’t order it.” Although my brother said fiercely, he didn’t take care of me at all, he put the medicine in my bag and carried it on his body, and he didn’t ride a bicycle and push me to the cafeteria to take me. Go for porridge.

"Brother, I'm sorry. I won't dare to do it again next time, please forgive me. I will definitely listen to you in the future, and you can do whatever you say, okay?"

"you sure?"

"Of course, it doesn't count when I speak."

"Sleep with me tonight, and if I ask you to sleep with me in the future, you have to sleep with me."

I didn't suffer from this deal and I couldn't wish for it, so I pretended to be wronged and reluctantly agreed.

But this matter is really my fault.

Yesterday was the birthday of the third child in our dormitory. We had dinner and get together at night, so we drank a little more.Before going to dinner, my brother reminded me not to drink too much at night, but to drink something to make me feel good, and I agreed.But when I was eating, I couldn't stand everyone's persuasion, so I didn't know how many cups I drank one cup after another.

When they were going to the dormitory, they were going to help me, but they found that I was shaking and couldn't move.It's no coincidence that my brother and his friend happened to pass by the hotel and saw us. I don't know if it was a coincidence or not.

He stared at each of our faces with menacing eyes and said, "Who made him drink?" They didn't dare to speak.

"It's what I want to drink, I'm happy, don't worry about it."

"Since you don't want me to care about you, go with them. I'll go first."

"Let's go, I can't live without you." I looked back and saw that the group of people left and disappeared, it was too dishonest.I immediately changed my face and said, "I really can't live without you, brother, can you take me back to the dormitory?"

He shook his head helplessly and picked me up.

"Brother, I'm sorry. I didn't listen to you. I didn't want to drink but they insisted on me drinking and I couldn't help it, so I drank too much. Brother, I feel so bad."

"Stop talking, lie on my back for a while, and you'll be fine in a while."

But I really drank too much and became a chatterbox along the way. "Brother, how about two of us drinking together someday? I'm going to drink you out. After I'm drunk, I'm going to beat you until you beg for mercy. Who made me so tired during military training? I'm going to I've settled all the accounts. Brother, why do you always attract other little girls because you are so handsome? I don't like that I will be jealous if you are not allowed to talk to girls in the future. If you are not allowed to talk to boys, I will be even more wrong. Let me tell you that I am very jealous, others are jealous jars and I am a vinegar vat, a vinegar urn, sooner or later I will show you my jealousy. Brother, I love you, do you love me?"

"I love you too."

"You finally talked. Chat with me, okay? Brother, I don't want to go back to the dormitory. Let's go to the playground to watch the stars? I like to watch the stars."

"Let's watch the stars tomorrow, and go back to the dormitory to sleep today."

"No, no, I want to see the stars."

I said so but my brother didn't take me, thinking I was on his back and he could take me wherever he wanted.But there was one thing he listened to me.

"Brother, are we arriving at the dormitory building so soon?"

"We're in the dormitory."

"Brother, I don't want to go back to the dormitory to sleep?"

"Then where do you want to sleep?"

"I want to sleep with you, I don't want to sleep with that guy in the dormitory. Otherwise, no one will care about me when I go back to the dormitory, bro, can you take me in tonight?"

"Okay, your floor is too high, so let's make do with it tonight."

He put me on his bed, "Brother, your bed smells really good. Go and get me a toothbrush, I have to wash before I can sleep, and I can't get your bed dirty." He didn't go to our dormitory to get it, Instead, the one in our dormitory sent it to me.

The boss of our dormitory gave me my toiletries. My brother was undressing me when he opened the door and came in.He said: "I'll take off my clothes so soon!" Putting down his things, he ran away.Then my brother took me to wash up and let me drink some water before putting me on the bed. "Brother, aren't you going to sleep?"

"I'm going to wash up, you wait for me."

"I'm waiting for you."

To be honest, I did drink a lot that night but not too much, so I still remember most of the things.So I didn't fall asleep so quickly, and part of it was because I took this opportunity to go crazy with alcohol.

After my brother washed up, he turned off the light and lay down.I hugged my brother's neck, got into his arms and slowly fell asleep.

I woke up and went to the toilet to find that the dormitory lights were on and my brother was sleeping next to me, holding me in one hand and playing with the phone in the other.

I said, "Brother, why are you in my bed?"

"Look carefully at who is in whose bed."

I looked around and recalled the situation just now, and realized that I was on my brother's bed.I didn't know what to say, so I said, "I need to go to the bathroom."

"Shall I help you?"

"No, I can walk by myself." It may be that I got up violently, and I got a little dizzy and sat on the bed again.

"Should I help you go?" This time I didn't refuse and let him help me to the toilet.

When I got to the toilet, I said, "You are not allowed to peek."

"I can't figure it out. If you want to see it, you have to look at it openly."

After coming out of the toilet, the seniors in their dormitory joked, "Is there going to be one more person in our dormitory in the future?"

I quickly Daoqian said: "I'm sorry, seniors, to cause you trouble, I'll go back to the dormitory right now."

But my brother said: "Go back to the dormitory, sleep honestly, they are showing you a joke, you can't hear it."

The seniors also hurriedly said: "Go to sleep, there are not many people in the dormitory, we wish you had come."

My brother actually picked me up sideways, put me on the bed, and said, "Sleep."

Lying on my brother's bed, curled up in my brother's arms, I was not as sleepy as before.I didn't know what to do, so I just looked at my brother there.

"Look at what I do, don't hurry to sleep."

"After a good night's sleep, I'm not sleepy anymore."

"Put on your headphones and listen to some music."

My brother played Eason Chan's song for me, and I fell asleep in the graceful music.

After dinner in the evening, my brother took me to their dormitory to rest.When I arrived at the dormitory, Brother Jie was in the dormitory by himself.

"Ziyu is here, why doesn't his face look good?"

"It's okay, I just feel a little uncomfortable in my stomach and take some medicine."

"That's good."

I said to my brother: "Brother, you go to our dormitory and take down my water glass, I will make medicine and drink it."

"Can't you use mine?"

"No, hurry up and get mine, or I won't take the medicine." My brother couldn't hold me back, so he had to go and give me a water glass.

Brother Jie asked me, "Are you really all right?"

"It's all right. I'm going to the bathroom."

When I came out of the toilet, Brother Jie poured me a glass of water and handed it to me. I knew it was Brother Tao's glass, so I took it without refusing. "Thank you Jackie!"

"do not mention it."

At this moment my brother came back and said to me, "Drink the medicine."

When he poured the medicine into the cup and was about to pour water, I said, "No need, brother Jie poured me a glass of water just now, and I can drink it directly with the water in this cup."

My brother said to Jie Ge: "Thank you."

Brother Jie said, "When did you become so polite?"

Brother Tao said: "I thank you for Zi Yu, if I don't thank you."

Brother Jie said: "It's true that everything comes down to one thing, you guys can have such a polite day. It's all thanks to Ziyu."

I had finished my medicine while they were talking, and my brother said, "Lie down and rest."

"It's still so early and I can't sleep."

Brother Tao said: "It happens that the three of us fight the Landlord, and you go to sleep after playing."

The three of us played Doudizhu for a long time before I fell asleep.

That night my brother was afraid that I would catch a cold, so he hugged me very tightly and kept warming my stomach with his belly.After sleeping all night, apart from being covered in sweat, my stomach doesn't hurt the next day.Since then, I often sleep in my brother's dormitory, as if I have become a part of my brother's dormitory.

Later, whenever I had a stomachache, as long as my brother was by my side, he would hug me to sleep and use his body temperature to warm me up. I gradually became a part of their dormitory.So for us love is not just love, it also includes family and friendship.For us love is our company with each other.