hold you in my arms

Tired all day, Lizhi fell asleep on Jiang Nie's lap on the sofa in the living room before ten o'clock.

"Come on, Jiang Nie." Mother Lizhi brought a bowl of Chinese medicine, and Jiang Nie could smell the strong and mellow bitterness of Chinese medicine from a long distance away.

"This is a prescription I specially brought from home today, it's good for your health."

"Thank you, auntie." Looking at the thick black in the white porcelain bowl, Jiang Nie couldn't help frowning.

"It's still hot, let me blow it on for you."

Mother Lizhi found a small fan, pulled the white porcelain bowl in front of her, bent forward, and shook the fan with her wrists. Bitterness filled the air, and Lizhi turned around uncomfortably.

Jiang Nie felt the tip of her nose sore, and pursed her lips.

"It's not hot anymore, drink it."

Mother Lizhi pushed the medicine to Jiang Nie, but found that Jiang Nie was secretly wiping tears.

"What's wrong? Don't cry if you don't want to drink it. I know it's bitter, but it's good for your health." Mama Lizhi hurriedly sat beside Jiang Nie and hugged her.

"No, it is," Jiang Nie's voice choked up.

"I really want a mother like you."

Jiang Nir's voice was soft, extremely lonely, and extremely fragile.

"Every mother has different characteristics. Maybe your mother is not like me, but she must love you in her unique way."

Mother Lychee caressed Jiang Nie's hair, once and for all, the slightly rough palm brushed across, and gently fell on the top of the head, Jiang Nie was greedy for this time, and the more she was greedy for the present, the more she hated Jiang Nie.

"But why she never cared about me, and only cared about my grades."

"Why do you force me to do it whether I want to or not?"

"I'm not their puppet, and I don't want to be."

"It would be great if you could hug me."

Leaning Nirvana in Lizhi's mother's arms, she revealed her inner depression one after another.

Mother Lizhi took out a tissue and gently wiped away tears for Jiang Nie.This child is very lonely.

"everything will get better."

Lizhi's mother knew that it was not good for her to go deep into other people's family affairs, and all she could do was to comfort her, but this little comfort was a drop in the bucket. It would be great if Jiang Nie's parents could give her some love.

"Where will it get better?" Jiang Nie choked, "Will it get better?"

"They also have difficulties, don't hate them, don't blame them, after all, they gave you life."

Mother Lychee's embrace is warm and soft, curling up in her embrace like a baby, as if returning to the mother's womb, safe and intimate.

"If you don't drink the medicine, you'll get cold. Come on, don't cry, it doesn't look good when you cry."

Nie picked up the traditional Chinese medicine in the small bowl and put it to his mouth. Bitterness filled his mouth, and he felt a hint of sweetness.

Seeing that Jiang Nie had finished drinking, Mother Lizhi handed Jiang Nie a glass of water, and took the bowl without forgetting to praise: "That's great."

It's like coaxing a child, extremely naive, but it is very useful for Jiang Nirvana.

"Cough, cough." Mama Lizhi coughed violently.

"Auntie, are you okay?" Jiang Nie hurried to pat Mama Lizhi on the back.

"It's all right."

Mama Lizhi waved her hand, but when she raised her face she was extremely pale.

"What's wrong with you!" Jiang Nie exclaimed, the abnormally bright red lips, yes, blood!

"It's okay, I just bit my mouth when I ate something, and it got stuck again when I swallowed it." Mama Lizhi wiped the blood from the corner of her mouth and forced a smile.

"Then would you like some water?"

"Yeah." Mama Lizhi took the water from Jiang Nie, put it in her mouth and put it down again, "Don't tell anyone about this, especially Lizhi, she is timid and likes to think wildly."

"Ah."

"Do you want photos of Lizhi when she was a child?" Lizhi's mother became interested.

"Okay."

Jiang Nirvana looked at Lizhi's mother to get the photo, looked down at the sleeping Lizhi, frowned for a while, and babbled for a while, what was this dreaming?

"Look, this is a picture of her six-year-old and we went hiking together." Mama Lizhi came back soon, holding a large photo album and opening it full of memories.

"It's so small." Jiang Nie looked at the litchi in the photo that was hugged by Cassia Ming.

"Yes, it's so big in a blink of an eye."

Mother Lizhi's eyes were full of love when she looked at Lizhi, and tears could overflow from the slightly red eye sockets in a second.

"This is a picture of her playing basketball with brother Caesar." Jiang Nie hurriedly changed the subject.

"That's right, both she and her brother like to play basketball, and Jue Ming is only fourteen at this time." Mama Lizhi's smile surfaced again, but she thought of something, and the corners of her mouth dropped.

"I will serve in the army in the next year."

"These two children are really suffering." Mama Lizhi began to mutter to herself.

"I am very happy to have a mother like you." Jiang Nie comforted.

"Where's father? Why don't you say that word?" Mama Lizhi looked at Jiang Nie with a smile on her face.

"I..." Jiang Nie held onto the corner of her clothes awkwardly.

"Good boy, I know you guessed it, so I can't bear to say it."

"Her father died when she was ten years old."

"The sky collapsed all of a sudden."

"Jade Ming is going to serve in the army, and Li Zhi no longer smiles heartlessly and foolishly."

"I really feel sorry for the two children."

A sigh, is it a debt to the two children, or a sorrow for his inability to change the reality, or...

"However, I have made it through, brother Jueming is very powerful now."

"That's right, this child is really angry." As soon as Cassia was mentioned, Mama Lizhi showed a layer of pride on her face.

"Look, this is a photo of him when he was a soldier."

Turning over a few pages of the photo album, a very immature young man in military uniform stood in front of the barracks with a gun in his hand, his eyes were firm, his figure was tall and straight, and he was brave and heroic.

"It's very handsome."

"I just missed a girlfriend." Mama Lizhi shook her head regretfully, and patted Jiang Nie's hand thoughtfully.

"When is this?" Jiang Nie had a bad feeling and pointed to another photo.

"It was Lizhi's birthday last year. You looked at your little face, so cute."

Mother Lizhi caressed Lizhi's face, like an artist looking at his work with satisfaction, with love mixed with pride.

"Lichi is really careless and careless. You must have been tricked by her side." Mother Lizhi joked.

"It's okay." Jiang Nie smiled shyly as she remembered her birthday.

"The most worrying thing is her. You have to take good care of her when you are by her side in the future."

Before Jiang Nie could understand the meaning of the words, Mama Lizhi stood up.

"Would you like some fruit, Jiang Nie?" Mama Lichee asked.

"Hmm." Jiang Nie nodded.

Just as Jiang Nie continued to look through the photos, the phone rang inappropriately.

Jiang Nie turned on the phone, a call from abroad, gently put Lizhi's head on the pillow, and walked to the balcony.

"Father."

"How's your foot doing?"

Father is cold and has no temperature.

"It's ready."

Return Nirvana to ice-coldness.

"I'm going to Russia tomorrow, and I've applied for you to be a trainee of the Royal Russian Dance Company."

As if a thunderbolt struck, Nie clenched his fists tightly.

"It was you who said not to interfere with me."

Jiang Nie chose to argue with reason.

"Your mother said it, I didn't say it."

Are you and her so clearly separated?

"I dont go."

"If you don't accept everything arranged for you, we can only choose to give up on you."

Give up, it's so simple, without emotion.

"Give up on me? In your eyes, I am one of your stocks, right? Now that the stock market is not doing well, you are going to sell your stocks, aren't you!"

As soon as the words were spoken, Jiang Nirvana's tears overflowed his eyes, and big ones fell down.You gave me such a hard hit when I became emotional.

There was silence on the other end of the phone, Jiang Nie had never felt such an atmosphere, how could his father be choked by his own words.

It seemed like a century had passed before Jiang Nie's father spoke.

"Son, it's all for your own good."

This is what all ordinary parents would say, but it came out of Jiang Nie's father's mouth, but it seemed extraordinarily blunt.

Leaning on the door, leaning her head against the cold glass, she tried to calm herself down.

"I want to go again in a few days, is that okay?"

"Air ticket for next Thursday."

"Well, I see."

"Beep, beep, beep..."

The phone was charged.

Jiang Nie squatted down slowly, hugging herself tightly.She was going back to that world again, cold and strange.Jiang Nie is greedy for the sunshine here, but has to obey his father's arrangement.

The way to the airport was extremely short, and Lizhi arrived before he could say a few words to Jiang Nie.

"Go over there and keep warm." Mama Lizhi reminded.

"I know, Lizhi stuffed me with several down jackets." Jiang Nie patted the heavy box.

"Don't forget to drink the medicine."

"I'll buy a casserole first when I go there."

"If you want to buy it in the supermarket, the ones on the roadside stalls are not good."

"Mom, there is no way to set up a stall to buy this thing!" Lizhi reminded.

"That's right, then it's better to buy purple sand, the medicine made from decoction is better."

"Yeah, yum, I'll pick a good one and take a picture for you." Jiang Nie nodded again and again.

"Don't take photos, the fees outside are quite high." Mama Lizhi waved her hand.

"It's okay, I'll just send you a photo when I'm chatting with Lizhi."

"Alright, you must pay attention to safety when you go there."

"Lichi stuffed me with an electric baton, I think it should be able to defend myself."

"Where did you get the electric baton?" Jueming asked Lizhidao seriously.

"It's in your pocket." Lizhi smiled at Caesar.

"Why, it's not enough to lend it to a little girl."

"I knew it, it's not an example."

"Passengers on Air China flight CA1151, please go through the security check as soon as possible..." The broadcast reminded me of the security check broadcast, echoing in the slightly noisy waiting hall.

"Is it the plane you took?" Li Zhi had already memorized the flight by heart.

"Then I'm leaving." Jiang Nie pulled up her luggage and waved to the three of them.

"Bon Voyage."

"Remember to miss me!"

Jiang Nie walked forward, but couldn't help turning her head back, and took another look at Jueming, then at Lizhi, and then at Lizhi's mother.Resist crying, smile instead, soon I will be back, wait for me.

There is slag in the sugar, eat with care