hold you in my arms

Jiang Nie came to Jiang Lin's ward with a fruit basket but saw lychees in it.Lychee was wrapped tightly, and the tattoos on her body were all blocked.Talking to Jiang Lin with joy, he didn't know what he was talking about, which made Jiang Lin laugh out loud.Hearty laughter passed through the door.

Jiang Nie stood at the door in a daze, thinking that he had misread.He hesitated for a long time before opening the door.

Seeing Jiang Nie coming, Lizhi took the fruit basket in her hand and led her to sit next to Jiang Lin, "Jiang Nie? You are here, come in. I am telling my uncle about the fruit basket I met when I was collecting folk songs from various places. It's fun."

"Yeah, these stories Lizhi told are very interesting."

Jiang Nie had an illusion that Lizhi was Jiang Lin's daughter...

Jiang Nie was a little cautious.

"Father." Jiang Nie greeted.

"Come on, eat an apple."

Jiang Nie looked at the apple handed by Jiang Lin. These thin and pale hands belonged to his father?These smiling eyes are father's?Did the father say this kind of greeting?

"What happened after you continued talking? How about the old man?"

Perhaps it was because of his illness. Jiang Lin seemed to be a different person, and he turned into a child.

Jiang Nie still can't believe this is reality, she always feels that the sun outside the window is bright and full of charm, it is too warm, not as warm as it should be in autumn.

"The old man looked at this and that well. Why is the water red? It turned out that a mountain was opened in the distance, and the gods in the mountain went up. The water was a warning to them!"

Seeing that Lizhi stopped, Jiang Lin couldn't wait to ask, "Then what happened next?"

"Later, I invited the gods to other places in order to get the Tao. You said that the better it is to open mountains and build roads. The superstitious government doesn't believe it."

Lychee described it vividly and said it with high spirits.Jiang Lin was fascinated by listening, interacting with Lizhi, completely immersed in the story described by Lizhi.

Jiang Nie put down her apple-peeling smile and looked at Lizhi with a serious face, "Shuihong means that some soil and rocks with high iron content will ooze red rusty water. It must have happened to move those rocks when the mountain was opened. "

"You are feudal superstition."

Lizhi: "Look, this is what the government said."

"Just listen to this kind of story."

Putting the peeled apple in his hand, Jiang Nie found that Jiang Lin was staring at the apple and swallowing.

"you eat."

"It's better to be a daughter."

Jiang Lin took the apple handed by his daughter, and began to swallow the apple with one big mouthful.Jiang Nie frowned slightly. He had heard about things that changed his temperament drastically after getting sick, but it was really hard for Jiang Nie to accept that his father who used to be serious and cold became like a child.

Jiang Nie patted Lizhi on the shoulder and said, "You stay with father for a while, and I'll go out for a while."

"Come back soon!"

This joyful goodbye was not from Yu Lizhi, but from Jiang Nie's father.

"En." Jiang Nie nodded, and the father became a child.

"Is there anything else besides stomach cancer that father...didn't tell me?" Jiang Nie and his mother sat opposite each other in a cafe not far from the hospital.

"Yes, your father...has Alzheimer's."

Haruko spat out the four words with difficulty, so difficult that even Nirvana could not accept and digest them.

"He's only 60 years old." Jiang Nie couldn't believe it.

"The doctor said it was early Alzheimer's disease. Because of stomach cancer, I dare not take medicine, and I don't recommend it."

The doctor's words seemed to be a death sentence. With a red seal, the god of death was about to come with a sickle.

"Yeah, there's no need to take medicine." Jiang Nie bit her lip tightly.

"Do you have any future plans?"

The atmosphere became quiet in an instant, and Jiang Nie felt that it was a bit redundant to ask this sentence.Knowing what the mother's plans are, I don't have the ability to change anything.

They have always been alone.

"I still want to be with your father, just as close as possible."

Haruko caressed the white porcelain coffee cup with her fingers, and smiled slightly.

Haruko put down the glass, crossed her hands on her knees, "Lichi has come to look for me, and she should have looked for your father as well."

Jiang Nie's expression changed drastically. He clearly wanted to hide, but this fool actually sent him directly to the door like this.

"She knows that your father and I made her unable to study in Beijing."

"It seems that her brother told her. I didn't find out that she still has a company commander's brother."

Speaking of this, Haruko seemed to be very regretful, with an embarrassed expression on her face, and she shrugged.

"However, she is very optimistic, saying that she would not have met the current master without the past."

"Besides, she's got you back now."

"Are young people's minds so weird?"

I thought that Haruko would be held accountable, but I didn't want to be a rare smile.

"Are you really not going to think about Bill?" Haruko asked again.

"You also know that I... can never marry, and I will never marry someone I don't love."

Jiang Nie was ready to be taught, watching her mother pick up the coffee cup and put it down again, but there was no accountability for it.

Nirvana is gone.

"Actually, I think you can develop a relationship after marriage."

Haruko's words were unexpectedly gentle.

"Your father and I are married in a family, but we have a good life after that."

"But I never thought your marriage was good." Jiang Nie said boldly.

"Why?" Haruko asked.

"You never smile at each other, and you don't interact at home. You always have a serious face, don't you feel depressed?" Jiang Nie asked puzzled.

"This is indeed our way of getting along, but it is also a kind of tacit understanding. I have always known what the other party wants, and I have a good understanding of the other party's thoughts. I think it is just a kind of tacit understanding."

Jiang Nie never thought that the way parents get along can be expressed by a tacit understanding. In Jiang Nie's eyes, this is called depression.

"I'm sure, I love your father, and your father is sure, he loves me."

"Of course, we are all sure, we love you."

Jiang Nie even suspected that her mother's uncharacteristic behavior was playing the family card, and she still had a layer of estrangement among the three of them.

"You love me, why don't you accept what I love?"

"What if I say, I accept it now?"

After the question and the answer, Jiang Nie couldn't accept it, and looked at Haruko hesitantly.

"Maybe everyone has their own way of life, what the little girl Lizhi said makes sense."

Haruko looked at Masamune's reaction and nodded at her.

"Mother? You..."

Jiang Nie softly called this name, never felt that this name had such a temperature, it was not cold, but...

warmth?

"After controlling you for more than ten years, the first time you rebelled, I thought it was puberty, and I will give you a little relaxation."

"I thought it could be like fishing, loosen the line and tighten it all at once, and you will continue to be obedient."

"But raising a child is not fishing."

"You saw the bustling outside, how could you go back to the dim world before?"

"The second time, you're going to scare me to death."

"Your father and I began to reflect on our own education methods, maybe there is something really wrong."

"As the old Chinese saying goes, do it again and again. I won't let you do it a third time."

"let it go."

After these words, Jiang Nie didn't know what to say, maybe he had never experienced this kind of warm family affection, and the sudden happiness made Jiang Nie's mind go blank.

"It's your luck to meet Lizhi."

"Thank you." After a long time, Jiang Nie spit out such a word.

Haruko just nodded, this was the most compromised thing she ever did to Sho Nirvana.

When Jiang Nie returned to the hospital and saw that Li Zhi was still in his father's ward, he felt indescribably uncomfortable, and came to Haiye's ward by some strange error.

"Master Hai."

"Little girl, are you here?" Master Hai put down the book in his hand and called Jiang Nie over.

"Why, I heard that your father is hospitalized, how is he?" Master Hai asked with concern.

Jiang Nie shook her head, "The cancer is terminal, and there is Alzheimer's, it's only a few days away."

"It's so miserable." Master Hai muttered softly.

"Then... for the next few days, you should just spend time with him," Master Hai said.

"Our father-daughter relationship is not very good."

"Then take it easy, you are their child."

"Although what I did before was really annoying." Master Hai muttered again.

"You may not believe it, but my mother allowed me and Lizhi." Jiang Nie said again.

"Fuck." Master Hai was so startled that he uttered a dirty word.

"It's early! Why didn't you say it early! Do you know how sad Lizhi is? If you say yes, you're allowed! I haven't allowed it yet!" Master Hai replied like a child.

"I... a teacher for a day and a father for the rest of my life. Her father and I disagreed now."

Hai Ye who pushed Nirvana down his sleeves, "You're still like a child."

"Hey, what do you think your mother is doing? I really don't understand the minds of these businessmen, they are weird." Hai Ye held his chin.

"But, I have something to tell you." Master Hai was serious for a second, and patted Jiang Nie on the shoulder.

"Although they treated you badly before, from their hearts, it may be for your own good."

"Furthermore, your father is not in good condition recently, so if you can accompany him, you still have to accompany him."

"The last sentence, you may not like it when you say it, but I will say it."

"When a man is about to die, his words are good."

"Maybe really aware of my lack of education, maybe really nostalgic for this family relationship."

"Treasure this fate, father and daughter fate for more than 20 years, do your best."

Master Hai sighed deeply, "People, you only cherish something when you're about to lose it."

"Well, I see."

Jiang Nie nodded, but he listened to Hai Ye's words to a certain extent, and Jiang Nie didn't know.

Master Hai looked at Jiang Nie, let him live happily in the next few days, after all, he is a person who wants to return, and he has to send this journey.