when i used to love you

"Thank you for your care these days." I stood at the door of the hospital and extended my right hand to Dr. Lu.

"Hmm." Doctor Lu shook my hand symbolically with a calm expression.

"Then... let's go." There was a secret joy in my heart, and I hurried away without waiting for a reply.

"Congratulations on your discharge from the hospital, brother." Zhiyu walked beside me, looking at me with a smile on her face.

I return him a smile.

"However, where did your father go? I haven't seen him in the past two days. It's strange that my son didn't come to visit when he was injured." Zhiyu looked at me in confusion.

"Well, he and his lover... went on a trip to Europe, so I didn't bother them."

"Oh... what about your mother? Why didn't she come? Even if you are busy with work, you will always have time..."

"Ah, she..." Suddenly, my temples jumped violently, and then I rushed forward.All I could hear was the howling wind and the increasingly blurred cries of Zhiyu behind me.

I ran home at a sprint speed of [-] meters, ignored my aching legs, opened the door tremblingly, and was greeted by a strong smell of alcohol.I squeezed my nose and barely walked in.After searching the entire house, it turned out that she was not at home.I must have gone out to drink again... But fortunately, I was thinking too much.How could she find out that I haven't come home for so many days...

As soon as I turned around, I saw Zhiyu standing at the door with a somewhat surprised expression.My heart suddenly fell into an ice cellar.

"That..." I opened my mouth before Zhiyu could speak, and turned my back in a panic.

I don't know what I'm talking about, I just speak incoherently.

"My mom wasn't the young beautiful career woman you imagine. She was a sad woman who lost her husband and drank every day. Although she is now mostly of her own making, I'm... sorry , if you find it unbearable..." I stopped talking.The fingers pinched the palm tightly, almost bleeding.If... If Zhiyu really turns around and leaves, and ignores me, then what should I... what should I do?After all... But I don't want to lie, to cheat this moment of peace...

There was no sound behind, as if there was a dead silence.I turned around slowly, and there was no one at the door.The slippers at the door are still messy, as if mocking my overreach.

I leaned against the wall weakly, trying to make some noise, because the house was so deserted.

"Hey, hurry up and clean up, it's rare for me to help." Suddenly, Zhiyu poked her head out from another room, with a floral cloth around her head, plastic bags on her feet, and her hands on her hips, looking a little funny .

"Pfft." I smiled lightly, and put my heart back into my stomach.Fortunately...you are still here.

"Hey, you are the owner of the house, you actually asked a guest who is a guest for the first time to help... Wow, this wine smells... Hurry up, I have a slight obsession with cleanliness, this house really..."

I leaned against the wall, tilted my head and looked at Zhiyu who was busy going up and down, and this boy who was dressed funny and looked serious. For the first time, I felt that this house that smelled of alcohol all the time...is so... warm.