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In June, the indigo sky is lightly pulled by the breeze.I arrived at the coffee shop where we met ahead of time, found a table for four and ordered a cup of clear coffee.While waiting quietly, I inadvertently saw the reflection of the glass window, subconsciously adjusted the state of my face, and smiled slightly.Waiting for today's protagonist is my best friend, Lin Lu.

My name is Li'an, and I like a boy named Lin Lu, who joined my youthful world.He is like a bird with flames, soaring in the sky, and the scattered flames brighten my dark world.I staggered after him, almost walking with him, but maybe not so close, I stopped.

Compared with the deserted home when I was young, my next-door neighbor, Lin Lu's home has the warmth of an ordinary family.We went to elementary school in the same grade and the same level, but in different classes. It was not until the last semester of the sixth grade that we started to have some little contact.

At that time, I was thin and white, maybe because I liked to be alone or because no one played with me.Well then, once an aunt I didn't know commented on me, 'Why don't I play with other kids, I'm a bit out of gregarious. "I ignored it. After all, it didn't matter. When Lin Lu appeared, I liked him a lot.

Counting the formal acquaintance should be the first morning of junior high school.As usual, I checked what I needed, locked the door and walked out. I saw Lin Lu who was acting like a baby with my mother right in front of me.

His mother saw me and smiled and asked, "Is An An also going to report in the Fourth Middle School? I am Aunt Lu, and I live next to your house." I hesitated and nodded when I heard An An. Every time I came home from school, I would see her picking up Lin Lu by the side of the road.

"An'an, can I ask you to go with Lu Lu? This is my child." She touched Lin Lu's head, and her gentle tone made it hard for me to refuse. In fact, there is nothing to refuse, but it is more than one person walking together.

I nodded, and Lin Lu, who was white and soft, grabbed his mother's hand tightly, a little shy.

"Lu Lu, this is Li'an's younger brother. Today you are a junior high school student. You are a little older than Li'an. Remember to take care of your younger brother. Go to school with your younger brother. Mom has something urgent to go to work in the morning. She will pick you up after school in the afternoon. you."

His little head slowly raised his head and looked at me, dazed, but he quickly walked over and took my hand and smiled, "Brother An'an, let's go together."

The time in the first year of junior high school quickly brought us who have not yet left our childishness to the level of youth. I feel that Lin Lu's life seems to be no longer ordinary. Get used to making small exchanges.

For example, his mother is a high-level executive of a certain company, and his father is a well-known professor who is now taking out archaeological students. Although he is far away, he basically has video calls with them every day.As for my family, although I don’t know what they do specifically, they should be similar to Aunt Lu, but most of the time they are very busy and often don’t see each other for half a month or a month. I am the only one at home who visits regularly The aunt who cleans and cooks.Lin Lu likes to laugh very much, and his warm family enriches his emotions.I'm a little envious.

In the second year of junior high school, Lin Lu finally faded away from his childish sense of warmth, but saw his future on the basketball court after school.

Waiting for the school bell to ring after class as usual, Lin Lu's seat is next to me.He seemed to be thinking about something and then whispered to me, "An'an, I seem to like someone."

I flicked my pen back to him casually. "who?"

He hesitated for a moment. "It's Li Boyan who is tall in the third year of junior high school. We can see him passing by the playground after school. He often plays basketball there."

Counting that I live alone, I know a lot more things to some extent, I thought for a while.In the end, he didn't think about the gender of the other party, but why Lin Lu liked him.

"He's a man." I said to him a little seriously.

"But I like him."

I frowned, and the school bell rang at this time.After I finished packing my schoolbag, I took him home, and along the way Lin Lu told me his thoughts intermittently.That night I browsed the comments on homosexuality and various comments on the Internet. Compared with the normal and majority of heterosexuals, others are not optimistic.

On the way to school the next day, I told Lin Lu what I had found and what I thought. "Are you sure you like him, isn't it a feeling of worship, Lin Lu, are you going to tell Aunt Lu that you like a boy suddenly?"

Lin Lu frowned, because he was still young, so he didn't know that liking someone so much might hurt his relatives. "But mom didn't say either."

"Lin Lu, don't tell your family first, it will make Aunt Lu and the others sad, I won't tell anyone, this is our secret." I looked at him, I don't know, if Lin Lu told himself My mother likes a boy. It seems difficult for me to accept any changes in his family, good or bad.

As if ignoring what happened that day and not mentioning it anymore, I observed Lin Lu, and Lin Lu secretly watched that person.I was suddenly jealous, maybe not suddenly, but the feeling of being taken from a friend who belonged to me was very unpleasant.Later, he and Li Boyan had a good time and called each other brothers.When I was walking home with Lin Lu again, it suddenly occurred to me that he was no longer my Lin Lu alone.

One evening after school, Aunt Lu, who had just come back, met me.She seemed to think of something, looked at me with gentle eyes and asked Lin Lu if he was in love.I'm a little flustered.It's not whether Lin Lu is in a relationship or likes Liu Yanbo, it's because I seem a little afraid to face the person in front of me.

Aunt Lu joked: "Don't be nervous, Auntie just sees that Lu Lu hasn't come back with you recently."

My words were organized quickly, "Aunt Lu, Lu Lu is not in a relationship. He likes to play basketball after school recently. I don't like playing basketball, so I came back first."

"Well, I thought Lu Lu had someone he liked at this age. Did you come to Auntie's house for dinner today? You cooked a lot of dishes." Auntie Lu smiled and invited me.

"Auntie, thank you, no need, my parents are coming back for dinner tonight." In fact, the two of them have not seen each other at all in the past few months, but it is very convenient to decline now.

When I closed the door and returned home, I thought of when I faced Aunt Lu just now, but I felt a kind of timidity. I vaguely knew something.The next day, Lin Lu took me to chat with me all the way from home to school, but I could see that his topics were not these.

After two classes in the classroom, he started to feel depressed, and he said to me after a while: "Li Boyan is going to go abroad in the third year of junior high school."

I was silent. From the beginning, I realized that during this period of getting along, Lin Lu really seemed to like Li Boyan, the kind of love between a man and a woman.

"That's good, everyone has his own aspirations."

Lin Lu didn't speak any more, just sat in a daze, thinking about something until after school.At first, I didn't want him to think about Li Boyan any more. In the following days, as usual, Lin Lu still went to visit Li Boyan, and I still watched behind him.

Li Boyan had been abroad for more than half a year before school started in the third year of junior high school.Lin Lu went to and from school with me as before.Not long after the countdown to the senior high school entrance examination rang in my ears, Lin Lu suddenly told me that before Li Boyan went abroad, he had confessed his love to Li Boyan.

At that moment, I looked blankly at Lin Lu, who had already left the figure of the boy in front of me, and my jealousy broke out from the ground in my heart.He said, "I will try my best to catch up with him. He said that he would wait for me at Timping University. Then I still liked him at that time, and he would consider being with me." Lin Lu's eyes were on his words when he said His eyes were full of light.

"What about Aunt Lu and Uncle, how do you plan to tell them?" Lin Lu smiled like Aunt Lu, with a gentle and dazzling smile. "At that time, I will tell them officially that I like Li Boyan. I know they love me very much, and I love them too. I don't want to make them sad, but I really like him."