The reborn sycophant

"am I wrong?"

The night was like a giant beast with its mouth wide open, devouring Wei Chuyan's whisper, Zhao Ji realized that she was not in the right mood, pulled her sleeve, and asked her: "What's wrong with you?"

Wei Chuyan gave her a very painful look, and then muttered to himself: "I... am I wrong?" Zhao Ji was stabbed by her eyes full of pain and confusion, with a huge Puzzled, she asked again: "What's wrong?" She didn't get Wei Chuyan's answer, but watched Wei Chuyan stand up like a fool, her black hair fluttering in the dark night, and fell into the pond.

"what?"

Zhao Ji leaned on the rock and glanced at her, and jumped down after her without thinking, holding her wide sleeves tightly with his fingers.

This is the edge of the pond. The water is not very deep, but there is a lot of silt because of the lotus planting. At this time, the two of them stood in the water up to their knees. Although they would not sink, it was still very difficult to walk around.

Zhao Ji pulled Wei Chuyan, trying to pull her to the shore. Chuyan had just knelt in the pond with mud on her hands and body. Zhao Ji pulled her out of the water, and stubbornly pulled her into the pond. The shore pulls, but if Wei Chuyan doesn't want to leave, who can pull her?After a long stalemate with Wei Chuyan in the pool, Zhao Ji finally couldn't help but shuddered.

At night in April, the water in the pool was still a bit cold, although the body is much better than ordinary people, but the girl's body should not be exposed to cold water often, and it has never happened like this for a long time. Zhao Ji gradually , It's really cold.

Her shivering woke up Wei Chuyan, Chuyan withdrew his mind from the state just now, touched her hand and found it was very cold, so he immediately took her back to the shore, and as soon as his feet touched the ground, Wei Chuyan couldn't help but carry her on his back, and walked to the inner courtyard.

Still worried about Wei Chuyan's pain just now, and worried that she is not in good condition now, Zhao Ji wanted to go down several times, kicked her on the back for a while, Wei Chuyan blamed himself, refused to let her go, struggling like this After a while, Zhao Ji compromised, gradually hugged her neck, and put his chin on her shoulder.

"You were just now, what's the matter?"

Wei Chuyan paused, then continued to walk forward with her on his back: "It's nothing."

Both of them were covered in mud, and they were a little embarrassed. After returning to the room, they immediately called for someone to bring water to take a bath.This is in my own home, there are not so many restrictions in the inn before, and the servants don't know that Her Royal Highness is not Lord Qianyang, so after receiving the order, they moved two bathtubs and separated the screen between them , Let the two wash at the same time.

This was the first time they got so close in such a naked state after returning to Chang'an.However, it is very similar that neither of them has any charming thoughts at the moment. Wei Chuyan is still doubting her previous choice, and Zhao Ji, she is worried about Wei Chuyan. She can't go to such a good opportunity to get close Take it easy.

Neck, shoulder blades, holding a cloth towel with one hand, scrubbing everywhere, at a certain moment, it stopped on the other arm, and there was a burst of ripples in the tub.

The girl sat in the bucket with her arms folded, depressed, and asked Wei Chuyan again: "What happened to you earlier?"

The sound of water on the opposite side stopped for a moment, and Zhao Ji's heart rose, but the result was destined to disappoint her.

The woman's answer to her was still the same "nothing".

Zhao Ji lowered her head and looked at the ripples on the water. At a certain moment, when the tears came surging, she slid down the barrel wall and her head was also immersed in the water.

It's okay, she can wait.Didn't she tell herself a long time ago that Wei Chuyan has many secrets, don't worry, don't force Wei Chuyan.

To wait for.

Wait until the day when Wei Chuyan opens up his heart on his own initiative.

But it has been five years.It's been five years since we met, when will that day come?

The shoulders buried under the water twitched slightly, and then Zhao Ji raised his head, with determination in his eyes again.

Wei Chuyan didn't know her unspeakable things made a sensitive girl sad again. Her mind was very chaotic. For a while, it was the sad and tender eyes of the emperor Zhao Ji, and for a while it was the clear and firm look of the young girl Zhao Ji Their gazes, at this time, at that time, their words intertwined, gave Wei Chuyan quite a shock.

Terrifyingly, she began to doubt the choice she had made.

This is really a terrible thing.

If she denies the legitimacy of her own suicide, then, as the one who has regained her life, she will not be able to gain real peace of mind.

Is she... right or wrong?

In the past, she didn't feel that she was wrong.She scolded Zhao Ji before she died, because she felt that Zhao Ji owed her. This is not to say that Zhao Ji made her suffer, but because of many things added together, she knew that Zhao Ji owed her of.

But... what if she's wrong?

If she is wrong, then it is not Zhao Ji who owes her, but she owes Zhao Ji.

How to feel at ease?

Drowning in doubts about the choices she made in the past, the left is right and the right is wrong, she doesn't know how to go.

That night, she developed a high fever.

When Zhao Ji was still growing up, he slept next to Wei Chuyan, so he slept deeply. However, no matter how sweet the dreamland was, when the people around him were suddenly burning hot, only the truly heartless people could continue to sleep. deep sleep.

Zhao Ji was dreaming at first.She dreamed that there was a severe drought that year, she was walking alone on the cracked land, the ground seemed to be burning, the sky was a fierce sun that could dry people out, she was wearing refugee clothes, holding a wooden stick in her hand, her lips were chapped and peeling , Sweating profusely, move to the west step by step.Many times, she fell to the ground, and the wild dogs behind her saw the green light in their eyes and rushed up, but she got up again, she beat the dog with a wooden stick, drank the dog's blood, chewed the dog's meat, she She couldn't eat much, and couldn't take much away, so she wisely threw the dog's carcass down. Behind her, the wild dogs frightened by her immediately rushed up, barking, and chewing on the flesh and blood of their companions... So she Gained temporary security.

Zhao Ji writhed restlessly. She was hiding from dogs and people in her dreams. It is always the most dangerous for a child to walk in such a place alone. Some people want to eat her, some people want to sell her, and there are even those beasts with no conscience. , wanting to take her down... She dealt with them, sometimes escaping, sometimes killing.

Looking at the dream that was very different from reality, Zhao Ji felt as if she had split into two selves. Half of her soul was floating in the air, looking down at the self who was much more embarrassed than she remembered, and murmured: Such."

And the following things are still going on.

The screen turned, and at a slightly crowded intersection, a few angry people set up a stall and sold their meat.Zhao Ji was very hungry. She clenched the jade pendant in her hand, thinking of trading this priceless jade for a meal of meat... When she got closer, she saw the heads on the stall.

Those who were chopped into pieces are human flesh.

Zhao Ji was in mid-air, watching her grasping the wooden stick tightly, and walked away slowly without looking at the stall again, and someone behind the stall looked at her for a while, probably thinking that she was too thin to sell bones. No one wanted it, so I didn't pursue it.

It shouldn't be like this, Zhao Ji said again.She wanted to look away, but it was as if something was pulling her, making her only able to see, only listen, and only to watch that she was getting further and further away, the road back to Chang'an was too far away, and the person she met There were too many things, the kindness in her heart was worn away bit by bit, she still insisted not to eat human flesh, she was still hungry and weak, but she kept walking westward, at first, the people she met still had strength, and later, those who People didn't even have the strength to chase after her. She walked all the way, watching people starve to death, watching people die of thirst, watching people... being killed by people.

She watched people eat grass, eat bark, eat... people.

Later, she returned to Chang'an, and sent someone to escort Sun Yan back to Chang'an. She sat next to Sun Yan on a chair, and held her chin to watch someone cut off his body piece by piece, and then fed it to Sun Yan.

Zhao Ji couldn't stand it anymore, she said, "It shouldn't be like this."

She covered her head, and a figure became clear in her mind, and she finally understood what was wrong.

In this dream, there is no Wei Chuyan.

What about Wei's first banquet?Where is Wei Chuyan?Zhao Ji floated in the air, looking around blankly.

She did not find Wei Chuyan.

Feeling flustered like never before, Zhao Ji wanted to get out of this dream in pain. She even knew that she was dreaming, but she couldn't leave this place all the time. She struggled hard. The person below seemed to feel something and looked towards where she was. After a quick glance, Zhao Ji felt dizzy and heavy, and when she opened her eyes again, she came to a cold and gloomy cell.

This place, she used to stay.

This is the prison of Dali Temple.

There is another self in the prison.It's just that this self is very strange, rather than the self she is familiar with, it is better to say that she is the grown-up her, who wears an imperial robe embroidered with dragons on a black background, her eyes are fixed and her face is expressionless.But it was her, Zhao Ji could tell at a glance that she was sad.

What is she sad about?

Zhao Ji lowered his head and saw a person suddenly appeared in his arms. The person was lying there with his eyes closed, wearing a tattered official robe, countless wounds, and layers of blood.

That was...Wei's first banquet.

Zhao Ji was shocked, feeling that the world was shaking and everything was collapsing.

She woke up.

Her clothes were drenched in cold sweat, she sat up from the bed, looked at the person lying next to her uneasily, the person was still there, she touched her neck with trembling hands.

There, the pulse was beating vigorously.

What happened just now was a dream.

Zhao Ji confirmed that Wei Chuyan was fine, and then limp on the bed.

After a while, she remembered the hot touch just now, and her emotions became tense again.She called Wei Chuyan, the woman frowned and closed her eyes tightly, she didn't respond to her as quickly as before, she seemed to be trapped in a dream.

After careful inspection, Zhao Ji confirmed that this is not a craze.

It's a high fever!She jumped out of bed, stepped on one shoe, left the other bare, and stumbled towards the door.

Wei Mansion in the middle of the night gradually boiled up.

The author has something to say: the past life you want.

After thinking about it, I just wrote it in this way, I hope I won't make too many tears.

You have to believe me, Wei Chuyan, Di Wangji, and Naiji, they will all be happy in the end.

Because, what one needs to do in rebirth is to make up for the regrets of the previous life and change some things?

So don't be sad for a while, they will be fine.

In fact, since Wei Chuyan uttered the phrase "Am I wrong?", some things I have always wanted to express in this article have already come out.

Is she wrong?Of course she was wrong. The worst thing about her was that she voluntarily gave up her life.

I write a protagonist who is reborn after suicide, not to praise suicide, not to be reborn for rebirth, but precisely to say that suicide is definitely a mistake.

Don't scold my little Yan too badly, is she perfect?Do perfect people still need to be reborn?There are bad things in her character, but overall, she is a person who deserves a chance to be reborn.

And don't feel sorry for Si Xiaoji.Because of her own means, and she was too confident in what she had, and finally suffered such a result, it cannot but be said to be a kind of destiny.

Both of them made mistakes, so in this new life, I hope to make them both walk a little differently, or at least, realize their mistakes.Then, make good use of it to obtain happiness in this life.

I don't know if you understand me when I say that.