[Xiao Huanxi] complacent

Ji Yangyang is very happy recently, and his emotions are so exposed that even his classmates who are not very familiar with him can feel the joy in him.Fang Xuxu went to school this morning, and before he entered the teaching building, someone patted his head from behind.She covered her forehead and stared at Ji Yangyang, who was catching up from behind, and watched him humming a little tune and walking to the front, with confusion in her eyes.

Yingzi happened to catch up from behind and patted her on the back: "Why are you standing there stupidly?"

Fang Xuxu walked into the teaching building with Qiao Yingzi, and while telling his good friend about Ji Yangyang's behavior just now, he complained coquettishly: "What do you think happened to him today? He was in such a mood so early in the morning good."

Qiao Yingzi smiled, and there was some unconcealable excitement in his smile.Fang Xuxu, who was so familiar with her, noticed the problem at a glance: "That's not right, Qiao Yingzi! Why do you have such an expression? Hurry up, what's the matter with you and Ji Yangyang?"

Yingzi shook hands, stomped his feet on the ground twice, and no longer tried to hide it, showing a bright smile: "Aunt Liu Jing came back yesterday! I'm very happy!"

Fang Xuxu reacted for a moment before realizing that "Aunt Liu Jing" was Ji Yangyang's mother, the wife of District Chief Ji, and she suddenly realized.

"So that's the case. But when did you have such a good relationship with your aunt? I don't know why."

Qiao Yingzi waved her hand in embarrassment: "I don't want to be a volunteer on weekends. Auntie works in the planetarium. Naturally, our relationship has improved."

"That's great." Fang Xuxu smiled, and stretched out his hand to pinch Qiao Yingzi's exposed neck, "Is there an adult to support you now? Are you happy?"

"Happy." Yingzi said without thinking, then sighed, and a little worried, "Xuxu, do you think my mother will allow me to go to the winter camp of China Southern Airlines during the winter vacation?"

Fang Xuxu felt that most of it was wrong, but she could only say, "Try, maybe. Aunt Song Qian loves you so much, if you insist, she can't help it."

Yingzi hugged her arm, walked towards the classroom, sighed and shook her head: "It's really a long way to go."

After talking about her, Yingzi turned around to look at Xuxu: "What about you? It's really the Tsinghua Winter Camp? There is an art test during the winter vacation. If you miss it, you won't have a chance."

Fang Xuxu: "I don't think so, just think about it."

Qiao Yingzi: "You are the one who has been fighting against the revolution for 12 years. Comrade Xuxu is doing a great job! The organization will continue to cheer for you!"

Fang Xuxu curled her lips helplessly: "My father has lost his job recently, and we have three senior high school kids at home. My mother didn't say anything, but it must be a lot of pressure. With my brother like that, I guess he can only leave I have to give it a try for the art test, and the family has two art candidates, so the burden is too heavy. In fact, if I want to learn music, I don’t necessarily have to go now. After graduating from university in the future, I will be financially independent, and I will pursue my dream for further study at that time. Not impossible."

Yingzi looked at Xuxu and didn't speak. It took a long while before he frowned, and said seriously: "Actually, sometimes I think you are a little too sensible and well-behaved. Although it's not bad, I just feel that you are in such a comfortable mood? I If my mother refuses to let me go to China Southern Airlines, my mentality will explode, and I will be unhappy every day. It is normal for you to be unhappy if you cannot realize the dream you have had many years ago. It is normal for you to cry and make trouble. With your current attitude , why do I feel something is wrong?"

"I didn't." Fang Xuxu opened his eyes wide and looked at Qiao Yingzi, "I'm really not very angry."

Qiao Yingzi looked at her suspiciously, and did not see any sign of resentment in her, so she suppressed her doubts, replaced them with sighs, and hugged Xuxu's arms again.

"You are also very tempered. You are really drunk. My mother should match you. Anyway, she is often angry, and you are not angry. You will not be able to quarrel in this life."

The lounge of the karting field is crowded with people, because of the weekend, there is more traffic, but Ji Yangyang is a frequent visitor here, and the nephew of the boss, there are always some special privileges, and it is impossible to find a table to rest.

He took the water from the waiter, thanked him, turned around and put the water glass in front of Liu Jing and District Chief Ji.

"Dad, Mom, uncle, there are some carbonated drinks here, or coffee, which you don't like to drink, so boiled water will go down?"

"Okay, anything is fine." District Chief Ji was a little absent-minded, took a sip of the water on the table, and didn't notice that the water in the glass was still a little hot.

Liu Jing looked away, feeling the uneasiness of her husband beside her, just smiled lightly, hugged the warm cup wall with both hands, and said softly: "Mom likes to drink water. Yang Yang, you sit too."

Ji Yangyang sighed, then sat down obediently, looked around, turned around and asked with a smile:

"What's the matter with your two elders today? You suddenly came to play karting with me, aren't you busy?"

District Chief Ji forced a smile at their son with bright eyes, opened his mouth, but still didn't say anything.

Liu Jing reached out and patted his arm, and looked at Ji Yangyang who was in a good mood: "Old Ji, let me tell Yang Yang."

Ji Yangyang looked at his parents, stopped laughing, frowned, and moved a little uneasily in his seat.

"What's the matter? Why do you have such expressions?"

Liu Jing looked at him steadily: "Yang Yang, Mom has something to tell you."

Ji Yangyang pursed his lips.He didn't want to hear it anymore.

It was the expression on his parents' face when they told him they were going to other provinces to take up their posts and left him in Beijing.

do not talk……

"Mom has a disease, it's cancer, breast cancer."

No, stop talking, he heard nothing.

"Your mother was away last week, we told you she was on a business trip, and she was actually in the hospital."

It was the voice of District Chief Ji, low, depressed, but calm.

Ji Yangyang thought, he would rather hear this voice scolding him loudly than hear such a tone.

"Yang Yang, my mother didn't want to tell you, but your father thinks that you should know. You have grown up and have the right to know what happened at home."

……

"Yang Yang?"

Do not!

He stood up abruptly and looked at them with confused eyes and expression, as if he couldn't understand what they were saying.

Liu Jing's sad eyes met his stunned eyes.

There was a short, short look between mother and child.

Ji Yangyang quickly looked away, he wanted to think, he wanted to talk, but after standing there for two seconds, he turned and ran.

"Yang Yang!" District Chief Ji stood up and called out to his back. He watched his only son leave with panic in his eyes.

Yang Yang... Liu Jing opened her mouth silently, and tears blurred Ji Yangyang's figure in her vision. She lowered her head, covered her face with her hands, and tears fell down in big drops.

"Ji Yangyang!" The car park regulars who were knocked away at the door looked at the tall figure who ran out in a blink of an eye in amazement. In Beijing in December, Ji Yangyang's open denim jacket was flapping in the wind, "This kid ,What's wrong?"

don't call me!Ji Yangyang roared loudly in his heart, go away!go away!

He ran several thousand meters in one breath, until his face became hot and his breathing hurt.

Ji Yangyang stood under an unknown overpass, looked left and right, as if he was panting so much that he no longer had the strength to straighten his waist.He bent over, gasped for breath with his mouth open, the cold air sucked into his body was like a weapon, he didn't know if it was in severe pain, a few tears suddenly fell out of his eyes.

With a "tick", it fell to the ground and was scattered by the sunlight.

The passers-by passed by him searchingly, and this well-dressed, handsome boy finally squatted on the side of the road, covering his mouth and crying.

Fang family.

Fang Xuxu leaned against the door, listening to the voices in her parents' bedroom.

When she heard that Fang Yuan had given out her severance pay to Fang Yifan as training funds for the art exam, she moved her eyelashes and let go of her hand on the doorknob.

Fang Yifan came out of the room at this time, holding the mobile phone in both hands, walked to the refrigerator with his head down, opened a bag of yogurt and put it in his mouth, planning to go back to the room and continue playing games.

As soon as he looked up, he saw Fang Xuxu who was looking at him.

Fang Xuxu stood at the door of his parents, looking at him quietly, without making a sound, Fang Yifan jumped when he first saw him.

He raised his hand, waved at his sister, and looked at the bedroom door behind Xuxu, trying to tease her about learning to eavesdrop on her parents, but for some reason she didn't dare to speak out.

So he pointed to his room, implying that he was going back.Fang Xuxu's eyes moved and fell on the phone he was holding.

Fang Yifan didn't know why he suddenly felt very guilty. Just as the game was over, he pressed the lock screen and turned his hands away with his phone.

Fang Xuxu paused, and then walked over, his expression was normal, but Fang Yifan subconsciously took two steps back.

"Brother," Fang Xuxu called him softly, "How is your art exam preparation going?"

"It's okay, it's okay." Fang Yifan said quickly.

Fang Xuxu nodded: "That's good. Brother, you must pass the exam. You need to work harder."

Fang Yifan: "Okay! I will work hard!"

At this point, he felt that he could go back. When he passed by his sister, Fang Xuxu turned his head in his direction again, with eyes fixed, and repeated.

"You must pass the exam, you know?"

Fang Yifan forgot to answer for a while, staring at Fang Xuxu's face without saying a word.But Fang Xuxu quickly looked away, didn't say anything more, patted him on the shoulder, and went back to his room to continue reviewing.

Fang Yifan watched her ponytail swaying slightly as she walked from behind, swallowed, and then turned to look at her parents' room.

He was a little absent-minded, put his phone back into his trouser pocket, the yogurt in his mouth seemed to have become dull, and he felt a long-lost sense of urgency.Dazed for a moment, he decided to go back to his room and do a few questions.

When the phone rang, Fang Xuxu was mechanically brushing up the questions.Her gaze was hollow, but she kept the pen in her hand, quickly filling in the options in the exercise book, doing it smoothly all the way.

When the theme song of "The Matrix" sounded, she trembled in fright. She picked up the phone and saw the caller, opened the call and put it next to her ear.

"Hello." She was not interested, and her voice was lazy and weak.

For a while no one answered.

She moved the phone away a little, looked at the caller again, then put down the pen, and sat up a little more.

"Hello?" Her voice was louder this time.

……

What responded to her was the sound of car horns and the noise of pedestrians, and then a few short gasps came through the microphone, incoherent and out of tune, cut off by the tremors in the voice.

"Ji Yangyang?" She was frightened, lowered her voice, and said cautiously.

"Hello." He finally made a sound, a short sound, full of trills.

"What's wrong with you?" Fang Xuxu's voice trembled a little, "You're scary, do you know that?"

"I...my mother," his voice was intermittent, and after a long silence, she waited for the next sentence, "breast cancer...my mother..."

There was a crackling noise, but she held her breath and did not dare to speak. She focused all her attention on the microphone, and finally managed to hear a burst of suppressed sobbing.

"Ji Yangyang..."

Didi Didi, the phone was hung up.

Fang Xuxu hurriedly dialed again, but was hung up again.

She didn't give up, and she didn't even think about giving up at all. She made twenty calls in a row, and the WeChat voice invitation also lined up a whole page in the chat box.

Finally got connected again.

Fang Xuxu didn't wait for him to speak, and said loudly, "Ji Yangyang, don't hang up!" After taking a breath, the phone was still on, and she continued quickly, "I beg you not to hang up, okay? I want to talk to you, I want to hear your voice, it doesn't matter if you don't speak, let me hear the sound from your side, okay..."

Her voice choked up as she spoke.She was too scared, Ji Yangyang's reaction just now made her panic, she was really afraid that he would do something terrible.

Thankfully, he didn't hang up, but he didn't make a sound either.Fang Xuxu didn't know if he was still listening to the phone, but she could only try her best.

She lowered her voice: "Where are you now?"

There was no response, and she continued to say, "Okay, you don't have to tell me. But if you are on the side of the road, you can lean in. There are so many cars there, can you go inward?"

After listening for a while, Xuxu didn't know if he had moved, but the frighteningly loud car horn sounded a little lower, and the whistling sound of the wind came out of the microphone.

"Yang Yang, do you remember, we said before, when your parents come back, if they realize their mistakes, you will forgive them, then tell them your ideals, and let them support you?"

Fang Xuxu said softly: "At that time, you always quarreled with me because of this, saying that you would never forgive your parents in this life. But after my uncle and aunt came back, they really worked hard to improve the relationship between you. I was a little envious when I saw it .”

"You told me that your favorite person when you were a child was your mother, she took you to your first car race, and from then on you decided to be a race car driver too, have wings and make her proud of you. "

"You love her, Ji Yangyang. You were so happy after your aunt came back from a business trip. I saw you happy, and I was very happy for you. I know you must regret it now, and blame yourself. I feel that I didn't cherish my aunt's return. Some time later. But is it too late now?"

A low and hoarse male voice came from the microphone: "It's useless. After what you say, I can't see it, and it won't happen again."

Fang Xuxu said softly: "To auntie, you are the future, the future, and hope. You feel sad and disappointed because they did not accompany you to grow up, and you hate that they have been absent from your life too much, and now auntie When she is sick, what she needs is the support of her family, the encouragement of her only son. You hate because of the lack of company, but if you don't accompany her when she is sick, it is another way for auntie. A lack? Since you have already experienced the pain of being left behind, how can you make such a gentle and kind Auntie Liu Jing feel sad?"

"Sometimes I really feel that I am a failure." Ji Yangyang said quickly in a low voice, "When I was young, they didn't want me and left me in the care of my grandma. I vowed to make them regret it, rebellious and tired of studying, and in the end Not many people care. They don’t think it’s their fault. Instead, they have more reasons to blame me. I just want to let them experience the feeling of being pushed away by my loved ones. As a result, my mother has cancer, and there is no one to let It's time for me to fight back with fire. Fang Xuxu, I just want a fair apology, as long as they say 'I'm sorry' to me, I can say 'I love you'."

After a pause, he said softly, "God never gave me this chance."

"Yang Yang..." Fang Xuxu's eyes became moist, and she couldn't hold back the tears. She sniffled her nose, "I'm sorry, I never really understood your thoughts. I don't blame you for being angry with me all this time. It's because I took it for granted and ignored the hurt in your heart. I will chat with you today, whatever you want to say, let me accompany you, okay?"

"I'm fine." Ji Yangyang's voice became much calmer, "I quarreled with you to anger you and hurt you with my unscrupulous words. I'm sorry. Now I suddenly figured it out. I should face it. Those who hurt me, I should ask them for an apology, but the people I hurt should also be compensated by myself. "

He stood up, holding the phone in his hand, and walked again: "I didn't say that I wanted to forgive them, because I still hate, but love and hate don't conflict. My mother loves me, and I love her too , she has cancer, I should go through it with her, and then after she recovers, smile and say 'I forgive her' to her, this is the best punishment for them."

Fang Xuxu hummed, and asked softly, "So have you made up your mind now?"

Ji Yangyang: "I'm looking for a barber shop. Cancer chemotherapy will cause hair loss. My mother loves beauty. It must be very sad. I will accompany her."

Fang Xuxu unconsciously twitched the corners of his mouth, and took a tissue to wipe away his tears: "It's great, Ji Yangyang. But even if you lose your hair, you must be the most beautiful bald head."

Ji Yangyang didn't speak for a while. When he spoke, his voice had changed. The calmness, relaxation and certainty contained in it made him seem like a different person.

"Xuxu, now I feel that I am loved by others. It's different from before. When I feel that someone cares about me, I'm suddenly not afraid of anything."

Fang Xuxu: "Because you think your parents can let you rely on. Ji Yangyang, there are many people who love you in this world. Your parents love you very much, your grandparents and uncle love you very much, and your teachers and classmates love you very much." I love you very much, the younger juniors who admire you in school love you very much, and your friends love you too."

She lowered her voice, as soft as Ji Yangyang was sitting in the barber shop and saw the floating dust in the air in the afternoon.

"I like you too."

The author has something to say:-

Ji Yangyang just wants to hear I'm sorry, and then say I love you

He longs to be liked and needs to be given a sense of security

About ten chapters to finish

again:

Fang Xuxu is smiling and depressed, some readers guessed it before

It doesn't matter, the author likes to make all characters happy, there will be no riots, and there will be no catastrophe

By the way, I would like to promote my new pit, the fellow of the Second Prince of Qing Yu Nian.

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