The daily routine of being teased by a scholar

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During the lunch break, Li Jianxia came out of the head teacher's office, ready to go to the classroom to pick up his schoolbag, and then go home.

At this time, most of the students have gone home for dinner or nap.The corridor was very quiet, and the same quiet sunlight came in from the open corridor and shone on his face, making him feel slightly hot.

I wore the wrong clothes again today, and the school uniform that was one size bigger was really thick and heavy on my body.Li Jianxia rolled up his sleeves, exposing a forearm, and felt a little cooler.

He walked to the door of the classroom fanning the wind with his hand, and when he was about to push the door open, his footsteps stopped.

In the originally quiet classroom, there was a sound that shocked him a little.

In the classroom, there were several boys laughing in a low voice, and there was also an external speaker with the mobile phone turned down.

Li Jianxia heard a woman's low panting on the speaker, and other human voices that made him feel a little overwhelmed.

He frowned, not knowing whether to open the door or not.But after hesitating for a while, he reached out and pushed the door open.

The door opened with a "squeak", and those boys hid something quickly, and those blushing voices stopped abruptly.

When they saw that it was Li Jianxia, ​​the leader cursed "Damn", then he waved to Li Jianxia as if he was relieved.

"I thought it was a teacher," the boy frowned, "Come on, Jianxia, ​​come and show you something nice."

Li Jianxia's footsteps stopped, not knowing whether he should go or not.

That boy was one of the few punks in the class, basically nothing serious.Waving to Li Jianxia so kindly now made him feel a little instinctively afraid.

"Come here!" The person behind the boy was a little impatient, "Didn't you hear Brother Wei call you!"

The four or five people gathered together looked up at him. Li Jianxia hesitated for a moment, but gritted his teeth and walked over due to the threat of realization.

The leading boy called Brother Wei smiled when he saw him coming, put his arms around Li Jianxia's neck, kindly pushed him down on the chair next to him, and then took out his mobile phone from under the table again.

"What are you afraid of? I can still hurt you?" Brother Wei grinned, "Come on, since you are here, let me show you..."

Li Jianxia sat beside him a little at a loss, watching the pause button on the phone screen being turned on.

Immediately, two tightly intertwined naked bodies jumped out of the screen, and the two were rolling on a bed that looked like a hotel. The picture was shocking.

The woman in the video made strange groans and gasps, and the man growled in a rough voice, and occasionally cursed a few incomprehensible swear words.

The boys around him let out a burst of low-pitched laughter. Brother Wei squinted and smiled, then turned around and said something to the boys next to him.After watching for a while, several people burst into laughter again.

Li Jianxia stared at the screen dumbfounded, not knowing what to say.

A few seconds later, he suddenly felt a little uncontrollable trembling, and then his face flushed red.A sense of physiological discomfort suddenly surged up from the bottom of my body and mind, and my stomach also turned upside down.

He pushed the person next to him violently, stood up and ran to the toilet outside the classroom.

Ignoring the astonishment and unkind laughter of the people behind him, Li Jianxia suppressed the feeling of vomiting, rushed into the toilet and vomited faintly.

……

When Li Jianxia first realized that he was different from others, Li Jianxia was just in the first grade of junior high school.

At noon that day, he accidentally bumped into some boys who were watching pornographic videos in the classroom. After being forced to watch the videos for a few minutes, he was shocked by the strong impact of the images.

The images made him vomit and shake.But after the discomfort and disgust passed, he had another long, long dream that night.

There are only two protagonists in the dream, Li Jianxia herself and the man in the movie.He woke up sweating profusely, and was horrified to find the slimy feeling under his body.

However, this kind of dream did not happen only once. When a senior senior appeared in the dream again, Li Jianxia finally got into a black Internet cafe outside the school, and hesitantly typed the word "gay" in the search box.

He is timid and not good at changing.But the Internet has brought him a flood of information, and the door to a new world has been opened in front of him time and time again.

He quickly accepted his differences frankly and with a little fear amidst the surging information.

In this school full of people, at this age when every boy jostles and jokes to let off steam.Because of his own differences, Li Jianxia chose to hide far away in the corner of the classroom.

When someone came to look for him, he showed a gentle smile. The glasses on the bridge of his nose blocked most of his real expression, and also brought him a boundless sense of security.

until another person appeared.

Maybe it's because Li Jianxia's appearance is relatively weak, maybe it's also because of his timid character.After watching the movie that time, those boys always found time to make fun of him.

During the class break, Li Jianxia clutched the pen in his hand with a pale face, and was blocked by them in the corner of the classroom.The people in the class were noisy, and no one paid any attention to what happened in the corner.Occasionally, a few students looked at him, and immediately turned their heads away as if they were afraid of causing trouble.

"It's almost done." When he was bowing his head in silence, a boy suddenly came over, stood in front of him, and said to those people with a frown.

Li Jianxia looked up at the figure from behind, and was slightly taken aback.

He doesn't often take the initiative to communicate with people, and naturally he is not familiar with this boy who talks less than him.He only knew that this person was sitting in another corner of the classroom, and his name was Cai Zhan.

The bullies seemed a little jealous of Cai Zhan, and after a few words of displeasure, they went to other places to have fun.

When Cai Zhan turned around, Li Jianxia saw him frowning tightly, and suddenly felt a trace of fear.But after a while, the more serious insult imagined did not come.Cai Zhan just glanced at him, then walked away in silence.

When school was over in the evening, Li Jianxia hesitated for a while when everyone was about to leave, and lightly went over and knocked on the corner of Cai Zhan's desk.

"Why?" Cai Zhan raised his head and looked at him.

"Thank you." Li Jianxia thought for a while, as if there was nothing that could express his inner feelings better than these two words.

After the words fell, Cai Zhan suddenly sat upright slowly and stared at him for a long time.Cai Zhan spoke hesitantly when he saw that Li Jianxia was a little nervous.

"Do you have money?"

Li Jianxia was stunned for a moment, then quickly returned to his seat and took out his wallet.

"How much do you want?" he asked.

"I don't want it," Cai Zhan frowned, his eyes a little dodgy, "Borrow 200 yuan."

"Ah." Li Jianxia was stunned, and took out five pink banknotes from his wallet, "You...how about you don't pay them back."

Cai Zhan turned his head and strengthened his tone: "I don't want it, I already said it's a loan from you."

Li Jianxia was startled, watching him take two banknotes from his hand, then opened his mouth, but said nothing.

"I'll pay you back next week." Cai Zhan put the money in his pocket casually, picked up his schoolbag, and walked out from the back door of the classroom.

……

At dusk, two teenagers with schoolbags on their backs were sitting in the fast food restaurant in front of the school, facing the glass window, gnawing on hamburgers bite by bite.

Li Jianxia quietly looked at Cai Zhan several times, Cai Zhan was very good-looking, and the afterglow of the setting sun made a good outline on his face.But no matter how warm the setting sun was, it couldn't hide the bruises and chafed wounds under the school uniform.

Li Jianxia quietly glanced at the wound under his sleeve, and frowned silently.

"Don't pay it back if you're short on money," he sighed after a while, "I'm not in a hurry to use it."

Cai Zhan didn't speak, took a bite of the hamburger, and stared at the vehicle outside the glass window in a daze.

After a long time, after Cai Zhan ate the last bite of the burger, he slowly folded the wrapping paper into a square and opened his mouth.

"I said I'll pay it back this week. There's so much nonsense."

Li Jianxia was a little helpless: "How many times have I borrowed from you, and I didn't urge you to ask for it."

After a pause, he asked again, "Do you want to accompany me to music theory class this weekend?"

"No." Cai Zhan took a sip of Coke and turned to look at him, "How much is the meal?"

"I told you that I invite you!" Li Jianxia couldn't laugh or cry, "Are you stupid?"

"It's not stupid, it's just tiring." Cai Zhan sighed and smiled, "I have to worry about you borrowing money every time. I have troubled you for so long."

"Did you treat me as an outsider for two years?" Li Jianxia was a little speechless, "You still trouble me, if you talk about it next time, I will really turn my face off."

"Turn it over." Cai Zhan smiled and said indifferently.

Cai Zhan looks good when he smiles, his eyes are slightly bent when he doesn't smile often, and the corners of his mouth are curled up, with a cold smile.

Li Jianxia glanced at him, then suddenly lowered his head, staring at the ice cubes floating in the cola, his heart beating a little.

"Graduating soon," Li Jianxia was silent for a while, "I don't know if I can still be in a high school... When I graduate, I will give you a present."

"Why?" Cai Zhan turned his head and looked at him.

"Too much money is uncomfortable, I want to give it away." Li Jianxia smiled, "What do you care about me?"

Cai Zhan clicked his tongue and said nothing.

Cai Zhan's mobile phone was placed on the corner of the table. Although it was not very old, a corner of the screen was broken, and Li Jianxia had been paying attention to it for a long time.

If you can't stay with him, then you can just leave your phone.

……

If he knew that this would be the consequence if he asked, then he would rather not say a word.

Li Jianxia watched Cai Zhan slam the door of the piano room and go out, so he could only sit silently on the piano bench and exhaled quietly.

He just wanted to ask.

Intuitively speaking, he felt that Cai Zhan was the same kind of person as him.But in the few years of getting along, maybe it's because he's too familiar, maybe it's also because of his blurred feelings for Cai Zhan.As long as the mouth is raised, it will cause a series of chain reactions.

The balance that was finally maintained was suddenly shattered.

From junior high school to high school, he never mentioned a word about this to Cai Zhan.But when he just said half a sentence to Cai Zhan, "Do you want to be with me...", Cai Zhan slammed the door out in a little embarrassment.

What's even more helpless is that after asking this question, Cai Zhan began to avoid him again and again.

Well, hide away then.

Once we accept the reality and enter the age of more crazily secreted hormones, everything seems to be like weeds that grow wildly in spring, and if we are not careful, we will get out of control.

Li Jianxia didn't know when he started to change, but he only knew that ever since boys whistled at him in the art building, there seemed to be more and more people following him.

He hesitated to accept these gazes, and gradually he couldn't break them, and he didn't plan to.

The gloom and insecurity in this circle worried him, but he was sometimes relieved by it.

He can contact these people more indifferently. After all, everyone is the same. Few of them come and leave with sincerity.

Compared with Cai Zhan's evasiveness, he can accept himself and doesn't care about his differences.Li Jianxia doesn't care if he is stubborn, presumptuous, or bold.

People hide their sincerity from each other, so when the other party also shows their heart, you can show your heart to the other party.

What if you can meet the so-called "feelings"?

……

When the boy named Xu Huaiyang appeared, Li Jianxia was a little surprised, but more of a surprise.

He stood at the door and looked at Xu Huaiyang and Cai Zhan sitting on the same piano bench. He didn't know why he was a little disappointed, but after the loss, he was completely relieved.

The piano sounded, and the hands of two people were flying on the keys.An Nan, who was holding a pipa, looked up at Li Jianxia. When he wanted to call Cai Zhan, Li Jianxia stopped him.

He smiled at An Nan, silently exited the door of the No. [-] piano room, walked slowly to the steps of the art building, and sat down.

After a while, I slowly raised my head, staring blankly at the sky full of stars above my head.

"What are you doing sitting here?"

After an unknown amount of time, a person's voice suddenly sounded.Li Jianxia froze for a moment, and when he turned his head, he saw a tall boy behind him, standing on the steps with his drawing board on his back, looking at him.

"I look at the stars." Li Jianxia calmed down and said with a smile.

"Oh." The boy nodded.

The collar of the school uniform of the third year was not very clear at night, but Li Jianxia squinted his eyes and still recognized it.This person looked familiar, he seemed to be an art student upstairs.

With gelled hair and no school uniform on his upper body, he doesn't look like a qualified talent at first glance.

He and the boy looked at each other for a long time, but both of them were silent.After a while, as if realizing the embarrassment of the atmosphere, the boy took two steps and sat down on the steps beside him.

Li Jianxia has not had this kind of experience, so he smiled indifferently, and continued to look up and let go.

After a few minutes, there was a sudden rustling sound. The boy seemed to have put down the drawing board and rummaged through the messenger bag next to him for a long time before he finally took out something.

"Do you eat oranges?" The boy hesitated, handed an orange in front of him, and asked.

Li Jianxia froze for a moment, then took the orange and smiled.

"Eat, thank you." He nodded.

……

"Damn, where's your Cai Zhan?"

Li Jianxia moved the last two pots of flowers out of the car. He was sweating all over his body and was extremely hot.

"He threw you home and didn't move the flowers. Isn't that a little too much?" Li Jianxia took the towel handed by Xu Huaiyang and wiped his sweat.

Zhu Shen went to a nearby supermarket to buy cold drinks. Xu Huaiyang looked helplessly at the flowers all over the yard and the soil spilled on the ground, and suddenly had the urge to throw people out for cleaning.

"Cai Zhan is busy, and I won't be back at noon today." Xu Huaiyang forcibly resisted the idea of ​​cleaning up, squatted down and pulled the leaves of the flowering flowers, "But are you two poisonous, and you came all the way to get a bunch of flowers? Has anyone moved here for more than a year before coming to celebrate the housewarming?"

"We didn't know you two moved before." Li Jianxia was also a little helpless, and simply squatted next to him, "It's not like you don't know Cai Zhan's narrow-mindedness, and he still avoids me... Damn, you don't jealous of me , he's still hiding."

"You think too much," Xu Huaiyang thought for a while, and said, "I think he may have left a shadow in the past, and now when I see you, I remember what I said before, 'I don't like men', and now I feel like slapping Face."

"Yes, I gave up such a good person like me back then, and finally stayed with you." Li Jianxia pretended to be serious and sighed, "It's a pity."

"Speak louder, and wait for Zhu Shen to come back and tell him in front of him." Xu Huaiyang was happy, "If you can say it, you are a real warrior, and I will give you all the money for the thirty pots of flowers."

"Forget it." Li Jianxia also smiled, and couldn't help but narrow his eyes.

The noon sun was very hot, so Li Jianxia and Xu Huaiyang stayed in the yard for a while before entering the house.I don't know if Zhu Shen went the wrong way or what, but I can buy a cold drink for half an hour.

"What was your impression when you saw me for the first time?" Li Jianxia walked around the room a few times and couldn't help asking after reading the photos and trophies on the glass cabinet.

Xu Huaiyang was stunned: "Seeing you? I don't even remember much."

"It's so sad," Li Jianxia sighed, "I still remember the first time I saw you when I went to Class [-] to help Cai Zhan with things, and you sat there reading extracurricular books..."

"Stop! I remembered!" Xu Huaiyang quickly stopped, "I remember, I remembered that you seemed to be quite polite, and then you were wearing a shirt... quite quiet."

After a pause, he laughed again: "For a while, I thought you were quite introverted, but you were deceived by your appearance. Now you have completely released your nature."

"Has it changed that much?" Li Jianxia walked beside him, sat on the sofa, and smiled.

"It's quite big." Xu Huaiyang looked at him and said.

The air conditioner in the room was on, and it was terribly comfortable.The two sat on the sofa, chatting without saying a word. After a while, there was a knock on the door of the room, and Zhu Shen came back.

Li Jianxia stood up and opened the door. When Zhu Shen came in, he handed him a large bag of cold drinks, and quickly kissed him on the cheek.

"What are you two talking about?" After the kiss, he looked at Xu Huaiyang without changing his face, and changed the subject.

Xu Huaiyang was startled, looked at Zhu Shen, then at Li Jianxia who was concentrating on turning over the cold drink, and sighed helplessly.

"We talked a lot," Xu Huaiyang smiled, "Everyone has changed."

"What changed?" Zhu Shen looked at him, and reached out to rub Li Jianxia's hair.

"It's changed for the better." Xu Huaiyang said with a smile.