when you look at me

So what is your relationship with Chen Shuo?

It was nearly twelve o'clock, and my mother went to bed early, Yuan Yiping looked at Yuan Yizhi who looked like a thief and asked.

Yuan Yizhi panted heavily with a hoarse voice, his broad chest heaved up and down, and beads of sweat dripped down his forehead.

is it so hotNo.Not because of the heat.

Yuan Yiping saw it. Just now, downstairs in his house, Yuan Yizhi was pressed against the wall by Chen Shuo holding his face.

If that person is not Chen Shuo, or if the witness is not Yuan Yiping, then probably no one knows what Yuan Yizhi and Chen Shuo did.

"Brother," Yuan Yiping tried his best to make his voice sound calmer, but he knew that his heartbeat was going crazy, he took a deep breath, and asked very softly: "Are you and Chen Shuo... in love? "

Yuan Yizhi narrowed his gaze, and turned away suddenly.

Yuan Yiping understood.It turned out to be like this - that's right, Yuan Yiping didn't think it was too scary, maybe it was because of his psychological speculation.That's right, when Yuan Yizhi looked at Chen Shuo, there was a handful of water in his eyes.That was an expression Yuan Yiping had never seen on Yuan Yizhi's face.

The next night after class, Yuan Yizhi took Yuan Yiping to Guijiang Hotel.Guijiang Hotel is the most upscale hotel in Yuan Yiping's area. Although it is only a three-story building, it is the poorest area in Gancheng after all, where the closed cotton mills and steel factories gather here.

This is the time when the restaurant is full of people. The moment the glass door is pushed open and the restaurant is entered, the noise and the air-conditioning rush towards the face at the same time.

Yuan Yiping followed Yuan Yizhi up to the second floor and walked to the end of the corridor.

The corridor of Guijiang Hotel is covered with a red carpet, which is soft to step on. On the wooden door of the private room, a rough phoenix is ​​engraved.In Yuan Yiping's memory, this was the first time he came to the private room of Guijiang Hotel.I only ate in the lobby once before, and that was when Yuan Yizhi received his salary for the first time.

"I said I don't want to come here, he insists on spending money." Yuan Yizhi grabbed Yuan Yiping's shoulders and pushed open the door and walked in. His tone was relaxed and helpless, but the sweat on his palms betrayed his nervousness.

The private room is not too big, and a round table is already full of dishes.

"Brother," Chen Shuo stood up, "Have you not had dinner yet?"

Yuan Yiping didn't know how to answer for a while, what is the situation now?Chen Shuo already knew that he knew they were in a relationship?Or Chen Shuo didn't know that he knew they were in a relationship, but he just wanted to treat him to dinner?

... The last time I was watching "A Chinese Journey to the West" at Chen Shuo's house, I told him that Yuan Yizhi didn't call him "brother", so why did he keep calling him "brother"?

For a moment of being stunned, Chen Shuo had already smiled, and he handed the menu to Yuan Yiping: "Look, what else do you want to eat?"

"I...anything is fine." Yuan Yiping handed the heavy menu to Yuan Yizhi again.

"Let's do this first." Yuan Yizhi patted Yuan Yiping on the shoulder: "Sit down, Yiping."

Yuan Yiping sat down in a daze, and then realized that Chen Shuo was sitting directly opposite him.

Chen Shuo was wearing a gray-green Nike T-shirt and no glasses.The chandeliers on the ceiling are complex and exaggerated, and the shadows of the lights are reflected on Chen Shuo's face, as if to elongate his slender eyes.

"Brother," Chen Shuo raised the white porcelain cup in his hand and looked directly at Yuan Yiping, "I offer you a toast, you don't have to drink it, I just mean it."

After finishing speaking, without waiting for Yuan Yiping to answer, he tilted his head and drank the wine in the glass.

After Chen Shuo finished drinking, he continued, "I will trouble you to keep the matter between me and your brother hidden from now on. I told you to see it last night. I hope it didn't scare you."

Yuan Yizhi said, "Yiping, Chen Shuo and I..."

"It's mainly me," Chen Shuo cut off Yuan Yizhi's words, and smiled with the corners of his mouth hooked: "Your brother is honest, but I was fooled into it. This road is not easy to walk. Blame me for leading your brother astray. I can't live with you and auntie, this cup is an apology."

After finishing speaking, he simply raised his head again.

Yuan Yiping stared at Chen Shuo. When he swallowed the wine with his head up, his protruding Adam's apple rolled up and down. After swallowing the wine, his lips became shiny.

Yuan Yiping has met Chen Shuo several times. Chen Shuo is gentle, kind, but always careless and lazy.The most exaggerated one was when the Supreme Treasure possessed himself to kiss Fairy Zixia, Chen Shuo shed two short tears.

Yuan Yiping didn't expect Chen Shuo to have such a side, the wine in the glass was like a flying knife blade, one drink after another, forcing Yuan Yiping to submit.It seems that he really worked hard to please people.

I struggled with my words for a whole day, but finally didn't say it.

"Brother," Chen Shuo asked without changing his expression, "give me and your brother an answer, will you?"

"...I won't say it," Yuan Yiping realized that he didn't dare to look Chen Shuo directly in the eyes: "Don't worry..."

"Hey——" Chen Shuo leaned back on the chair suddenly, tilted his head, and lowered his eyes: "I'm so nervous."

Yuan Yizhi quickly poured hawthorn juice into Chen Shuo's cup: "Can you do it?"

"I don't know," Chen Shuo looked up at Yuan Yiping, and said lazily, "Those two glasses are definitely high-grade liquor."

He took a sip of the hawthorn juice and said, "Brother, don't go back on your word, or I'll drink it for nothing, and I'll probably vomit when I go back tonight."

Yuan Yiping nodded.

"That's good..." Chen Shuo obviously breathed a sigh of relief: "When you came in just now, with that expression, I thought you were going to kill me..."

Yuan Yiping stared at the bowls and chopsticks in front of him, but said nothing.

"What kind of relationship can we have?" Yuan Yiping smiled helplessly at Liang Yuyi: "You have known me for so many years, what is my situation, don't you know?"

"Ouch," Liang Yuyi was even more suspicious: "I haven't said anything yet, so you don't blame yourself."

"Innocent and innocent," Yuan Yiping deliberately lowered his voice, "It's even more innocent than the relationship between the two of us."

"Yuan Yiping, have you noticed?" Liang Yuyi also lowered his voice: "When you get nervous, you start to talk poorly."

Yuan Yiping: "..."

Liang Yuyi persevered: "Come on, let me tell my senior sister, I've invited you to drink all the milk tea... Are you having an affair with Chen Shuo? I think so, let me analyze it for you. Look, first of all, you know Chen Shuo is crooked, and secondly, your relationship with Chen Shuo is very unusual, and you have never had a girlfriend since I met you, Yuan Yiping, do you know that the problem is serious!"

Yuan Yiping said speechlessly: "Why haven't I talked about a girlfriend? Isn't that because Jing and you built socialism together?"

"Come on," Liang Yuyi triumphantly raised her legs, and pointed her chin at Yuan Yiping: "I just said that you two have an unusual relationship, but you didn't deny it. I didn't see it, Yuan Yiping..."

"I can't say no to you," Yuan Yiping begged for mercy: "Go to Daoxian for a meal later? My treat, didn't you say you wanted to eat eel rice last time?"

Liang Yuyi nodded and smiled meaningfully.

Yuan Yi turned his face to the computer, pretending not to see it.

He really couldn't answer Liang Yuyi's question, so he had to confuse it. Although, the relationship between him and Chen Shuo didn't seem so unclear—he was my brother's ex-boyfriend—and in this day and age, he was with Liang Yuyi again. Yuyi, homosexuality is not a taboo topic.

He just couldn't say it.

Whether it was Yuan Yizhi, the relationship between Yuan Yizhi and Chen Shuo, or the relationship between him and Chen Shuo, he couldn't say anything.Although the memories between them are not all heavy and painful - the summer nights at that time always seemed to be very long, the street lamps were endless, and the beef tendon and chicken wings on the barbecue stall exuded the aroma of cumin Hey, there is no evening self-study on Friday. After class, Yuan Yizhi and Chen Shuo will take Yuan Yiping to eat barbecue, and then go to play billiards or watch a movie after eating.

But all the pleasure and satisfaction can't offset the later pain, not even one percent.

Those pains were like heavy rusted iron blocks, stuck in Yuan Yiping's chest for a long time.Over time, it has become one with his flesh and blood.

What he keeps avoiding and running away from, he will probably never be able to say.