when you look at me

"Have you gone home?" Yuan Yiping asked hurriedly, "Can I come to you?"

"I'm in Gancheng Park," Chen Shuo said, "Ximen."

Yuan Yiping hurriedly hailed a taxi and rushed to the west gate of Gancheng Park.

He hadn't been to Gancheng Park for more than ten years. When he got out of the car, he found that the park was still the same. The stone lions at the gate were dusty, half dead in the cold wind.

It's a big Chinese New Year, almost no one comes to the park, Yuan Yiping rushed into the west gate, and after walking a few steps, he saw Chen Shuo sitting on a wooden chair not far away.He was still wrapped around his neck with the cashmere scarf that Yuan Yiping bought with Liang Yuyi in Shenzhen. It was gray and made his profile white.

"Chen Shuo," Yuan Yiping trotted to Chen Shuo's side, panting heavily, "I..."

"I'm fine," Chen Shuo interrupted Yuan Yiping with a smile: "I was too hypocritical just now, don't take it seriously."

"Chen Shuo, I want to tell you," Yuan Yiping took a few deep breaths, trying to calm himself down: "I'm serious, I really think so."

Chen Shuo raised his face: "What?"

Yuan Yiping bent down, put his hands on his knees, faced Chen Shuo, and looked him in the eyes: "Even if my brother is not sick, I think we will be together, and one day I can't help but chase you. The difference It’s just that I probably don’t have the face to see my brother, but this is my choice and has nothing to do with you, do you understand?”

Chen Shuo's eyes widened, his expression extremely astonished.

"What I said is true," Yuan Yiping grabbed Chen Shuo's hand: "Because I love you. I only realized this when I bowed to my brother today. I feel guilty towards him because he... I was unlucky and didn't survive, but I was lucky. This is fate and has nothing to do with you."

Chen Shuo turned his face away, and his voice was a little hoarse: "But I have promised him before, and now I really regret it. When I come back this time, I... I saw that Auntie misses you very much, she..."

"The reason is the same," Yuan Yiping said softly, "I already like you, whether you are with me or not, I will never like other girls, and didn't I just say that even if my brother Still... I will chase you one day."

Chen Shuo lowered his head, and after a while, he leaned forward, resting his forehead on Yuan Yiping's chest.

Yuan Yiping heard him let out a long breath.

"Actually, after kowtowing, I thought to myself," Chen Shuo said in a muffled voice, "I apologized to Yizhi. It's been ten years. I don't know if he will forgive me, but since I have to If there is no response, then it will be considered that he has forgiven me. So I will not let you go, even if one day your mother does not let us be together, and she forces you to break up with me, then I will not let you go. Yuan Yiping - I will give you one last chance, are you sure you want to spend the rest of your life with me?"

Yuan Yiping suddenly circled Chen Shuo and tightened his arms: "I'm sure, don't let me go."

After experiencing those deaths and pains, both of them are incomplete, but the two incomplete lives just fit together, so they are enough to face the impermanence and cruelty of fate.In this world, apart from each other, they can't find a soul that fits their soul better.There is no one like the other person who understands his deepest powerlessness and pain, and is still willing to hold his hand tightly in the face of the black and endless death.What is the meaning of life? Probably not to have a smooth life or a successful career, but to know death and then life.Knowing death, having experienced the coldness and impermanence of death, knowing life, after knowing the coldness and impermanence of death, in the face of inevitable and unpredictable death, I still want to live a long life with you.

This life will never be complete without you.

The winter sun in the north falls on the body, making the body warm and warm.In the small supermarket at the entrance of the park, "Flying Freely" was playing loudly.Yuan Yiping and Chen Shuo sat side by side, and suddenly Chen Shuo stretched out his finger: "Look, over there."

In the blue sky in the distance, an eagle kite floats.

"Do you want to fly a kite?" Yuan Yiping said, "It's quite windy today."

"Okay," Chen Shuo said with a smile, "I haven't -- I can't remember how many years I haven't flown a kite."

Sure enough, the small supermarket where "Free Flying" was displayed sold kites, and Chen Shuo picked a swallow-shaped kite.The boss grabbed a long centipede kite: "Hey, young man, look at this, it's long, it looks good in the sky! No, I just sold one yesterday, you take the swallow one, it's not conspicuous!"

Chen Shuo smiled and said, "Just this swallow, I just got married, a newlywed swallow, it's a good omen."

The boss was stunned for a moment, and quickly said: "Congratulations, ah, I'll give you two dollars cheaper!"

Chen Shuo looked at Yuan Yiping, then smiled and nodded to the boss: "Thank you."

Walking out of the supermarket, Yuan Yiping said, "Go back to Shenzhen and buy a ring! I invite you!"

"Okay," Chen Shuo said with a smile, "Then do you want to marry me?"

"Didn't you ask just now?" Yuan Yiping also smiled: "Didn't you just say to give me one last chance? Isn't that a marriage proposal? Don't try to play tricks."

Chen Shuo said meaningfully, "It's usually the husband who proposes, right?"

"It doesn't matter," Yuan Yiping said cheekily, "Anyway, we both know who the husband is."

"Really, before Liang Yuyi secretly asked me who was going up and who was going down, but I didn't tell her. When I got back to Shenzhen, I told her that I was my husband."

"Tsk," Yuan Yiping frowned, "Why is she so gossip?"

The two talked all the way, and walked to an open space in the park.Yuan Yiping grabbed the handle of the kite string and said to Chen Shuo, "You run forward with the kite, if I say let go, then let go."

"Well, look good, it's too early to fly." Chen Shuo stretched out his hand and tried: "Now, the wind is blowing."

After he finished speaking, he held the kite and ran forward, when a strong wind blew up in a dignified manner.

"Let go!"

Chen Shuo let go of the kite, and Yuan Yiping quickly reeled in the string, and when it reached a certain level, the kite wobbled up.

When Chen Shuo ran back, his cheeks were slightly red, and due to his shortness of breath, there was a layer of white mist on his glasses.

Yuan Yiping felt itchy, seeing no one around, he leaned over and kissed Chen Shuo on the cheek.

"Hey kite!" Chen Shuo shouted, "Leave the line!"

Yuan Yiping quickly set the line, running while setting the line, and finally did not let the kite fall.

"Fortunately, the wind is strong." Chen Shuo took the kite string: "Look, we surpassed that eagle."

Yuan Yiping didn't look at the kite, but looked sideways at Chen Shuo.

He thought of a poem written by a poet. Before, he didn’t understand how someone could be so idiotic about dreams, but at this moment he suddenly understood——

The wind and the sun are beautiful, making people want to live forever.

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The wind and the sun are beautiful, making people want to live forever. ——Zhu Shenghao

1. This is the end of the story, thanks to the friends who followed the article all the way, your comments and rewards are the motivation for me to update the article.

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