In fact, I am attacking [entertainment circle]

When Gu Ling met Qi Yi the next day, he felt guilty and asked him tentatively, "Did you read Weibo yesterday?"

Qi Yi shook his head blankly: "No, I don't have time to look at my phone recently, what's wrong?"

Gu Ling felt relieved: "It's nothing, I'll just ask casually."

At this time, Zhou Xingyun passed by, Qi Yichong raised his chin at him, and tapped his shoulder to say hello: "Hey, handsome guy, you are also very handsome today."

With an indifferent face, Zhou Xingyun slapped his hands away: "Fuck you."

When Zhou Xingyun was walking away, Qi Yi tripped him a bit, and then laughed a few times in a playful way. Zhou Xingyun pointed at Qi Yi irritably and helplessly, and walked away cursing.

This is how friends used to stumbling and saying hello to each other before. Qi and Zhou Xingyun have always done this, but Gu Ling was watching from the sidelines today, inexplicably feeling subtler. feel bad.

Because Qi Yi wanted to record a variety show, he left early after filming today's scene.

Gu Ling slumped on the reclining chair, looking at the script absent-mindedly. Did he sneak a glance at Zhou Xingyun in the distance? Lu Shiyu, who was on the side, keenly sensed the clue, pushed Gu Ling's script away, and asked solemnly: " What are you doing?"

Gu Ling took the script away and looked at her strangely: "What's wrong with you?"

"What's wrong with me?" Lu Shiyu felt speechless, "Where did your eyes go? This little Zhou has your lines engraved on his face or something? Are you empathizing?"

"What nonsense are you talking about..." Gu Ling muttered without confidence. After thinking for a while, he tilted his head and asked her, "Is Zhou Xingyun a straight man?"

"It should be." Lu Shiyu was puzzled, "Why are you asking this?"

"It's nothing." Gu Ling began to talk nonsense, "It seems that the current boy groups are all gay, I just want to confirm..."

Lu Shiyu pulled the chair closer, stared at Gu Ling suspiciously, and said firmly, "You have a problem today."

Gu Ling was horrified by her, and waved his hand: "Don't look at me like that."

"I don't." Lu Shiyu resolutely refused, "Unless you explain the problem."

Gu Ling hesitated for a while, decided to admit defeat, sighed, and whispered in a muffled voice: "That's right, will Qi Yi like Zhou Xingyun..."

Lu Shiyu was dumbfounded, and looked at him in disbelief: "..."

Gu Ling called her: "What are you doing, with this expression."

"I know you have a problem today." Lu Shiyu sighed in disappointment, and pointed at Gu Ling's head, "You have a problem with your brain today."

Gu Ling was not convinced: "Oh, why are you swearing..."

"I'm really going to scold you." Lu Shiyu felt that the matter in front of him was extremely ridiculous, and immediately demonstrated what it meant to roar in a low voice, almost choking on his own saliva, "Qi Yi likes the ghost Zhou Xingyun, if Qi Yi wants to If you like someone, he likes you, brother!"

Gu Ling looked blank: "Huh?"

Lu Shiyu didn't know why he had to worry about this, but he just felt his heart hurt: "Don't tell me you can't see it, if you tell me you can't see it, I'll either call you heartless or white lotus, You choose the one that sounds good."

Qi Yi likes... me?

Gu Ling's brain seemed to be turned on finally, and he began to think slowly, thinking carefully about the situation they got along with in the memory, it seems that this is indeed the case, is it not because Qi Yi's personality is easy to be shy, but because he met him? Is it easy to be shy?Is Qi Yi different in front of him than in front of others?

Seeing that he didn't speak, Lu Shiyu called him and asked, "You like Qi Yi, right?"

"I..." Gu Ling was very shaken, "I don't know."

Lu Shiyu frowned when he saw the dodge in Gu Ling's eyes: "You don't know, or you don't want to think about it."

"I'm new to love. I don't know how much he likes me, how much I like him, we're both men and entertainers..."

Gu Ling lowered his head, staring at his hands, his tone wavering, as if he could be overturned by the wind at any time, "There are too many uncertain factors in a relationship, I neither know myself exactly, nor dare I say that I have fully recognized it. After getting rid of him, I don't know whether this relationship will be stable, whether it will be successful, and whether the ending will end in regret."

"I don't want to be flawed, and I'm afraid that one of us will regret it later."

"People can't predict the future. How can we know what will happen in the future if we don't start?" Lu Shiyu couldn't understand why he was so worried about gains and losses, and felt very puzzled. If there are any, or even non-existent, flaws, will it make you so afraid?"

Gu Ling didn't continue talking, picked up the script again, and didn't want to continue this topic.Seeing that he didn't want to talk to her anymore, Lu Shiyu knew that she had talked too much and accidentally overstepped, so she shrugged her shoulders and moved away knowingly.

In fact, Gu Ling has never analyzed his own heart and tried to understand his own thoughts. All his actions are based on the first reaction without thinking.After the day's work was over, on the way back to the hotel, Gu Ling finally had the time to think carefully about this point, which is "face yourself" as mentioned in many chicken soups.

Gu Ling actually doesn't like these four words.Speaking of the word "face", common phrases include "face to setbacks", "face to reality", "face to failure"...and "face to yourself" sounds like you are a particularly unbearable person, You look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself, "You're such a wretch, just accept it," as if "you" are your biggest failure in life.

There is still such a stubborn struggle in despair, this is really a good phrase.

Gu Ling knew why Lu Shiyu was suspicious of him during the day, because Lu Shiyu didn't understand why he felt uneasy about the predicament he imagined.Gu Ling thought about it for himself. There is a word in the world called "have nothing to fear", so only those who have a lot will be fearless. He has never been the person who has a lot.When his mother was still alive, whether he was around or not, he could feel that there was a pillar behind him to support his spirit. Although he was not born to be very positive about life, he could squeeze out a little Meaning comes out.As a result, one day the pillar broke, and something broke in Gu Ling's mind, as if he had suffered an irreversible internal injury. No matter how many years had passed, he could only escape from this wound.

He doesn't have a father, and he doesn't even know what the man who gave him half of his DNA is, what he looks like, but he is not a person who likes to feel sorry for himself, since he was a child, he has always felt that the poor one is not him , but his mother.

When he was in elementary school, his aunt once told Gu Ling that when Gu Ling was born, there were actually other people who wanted to adopt him. If his mother agreed at that time, his life would be much easier, and he would not be the only one. People work hard with their children.The purpose of the aunt telling the child about this is actually for her own sister, to let the child understand the mood and love of the mother, and then be more obedient and sensible, but unexpectedly, it has an overcorrection effect.

Gu Ling could always hear other people's gossip, and it was usually gossip passed between adults and then passed on to children, so the children in the class behind knew that Gu Ling had no father.Children are actually not very sensible, they often only imitate the tone of adults, and they don't know how hurtful words can sometimes be.

"Gu Ling's mother has been unable to get married because she has a child, and it's useless to be beautiful, and even blind dates are rejected by men", "Gu Ling's mother works so hard, but she is dragged down by her child"...

Every time he heard this, he would feel sad at first, but then he got used to it, and even admitted that he was indeed a burden, until one time, he heard a boy say: "My mother said, Gu Ling's mother is relying on her youth When she was too beautiful and fucked with men, that's why she was so miserable, it's all self-inflicted..."

It was Gu Ling's first fight, and he knocked out both of his newly replaced teeth. He directly asked his parents to pay for the medical expenses and gave him an apology.

In fact, he was very wronged in his heart, and kept his face sullen, but the only bit of stubbornness did not allow him to cry outside.It was already late when I got home, and my mother didn't educate him, but just touched his head, told him to sit by the dining table and wait, then went into the kitchen to put on an apron, and told him sorry that I didn't have time to buy vegetables today , Is it okay to have noodles at night?

Gu Ling nodded and said yes, but his mother suddenly thought of something, took out the tomatoes and eggs from the refrigerator, and said with a smile that a layer of tomato and egg topping could be added.

When his mother was chopping vegetables, Gu Ling saw her profile, and suddenly burst into tears, crying softly while wiping her tears, "It would be fine if I wasn't mother's child, if I wasn't Mother's child, mother will be able to get happiness a long time ago..."

When mother heard this sentence, she was suddenly distracted and cut her finger.

Blood slid down the back of the hand along the fingers.

It was the most dazzling red that Gu Ling had ever seen, like the sharpest fire, piercing through his eyes and engraving the pain into the depths of every nightmare from now on.

……

"Mr. Gu, Mr. Gu!"

When he was shouted, Gu Ling realized that he had fallen asleep in the car, and when he looked out the window, he had already arrived at the hotel.

"Go back to your room and sleep well." The assistant next to him said with concern, "I fell asleep after such a short journey, so it can be seen that Mr. Gu is really tired today."

Gu Ling's pitch-black pupils were slightly out of focus, and he looked sleepy and confused. He really looked like a person who hadn't woken up, and his movements seemed a little slower than usual.

He calmly thanked him, then entered the hotel and took the elevator.Before entering the room, he involuntarily glanced at Qi Yi's room. He couldn't see the light through the crack of the door, so there should be no one there. It would take a long time to record the variety show, and he might not be able to come back tonight.

He forgot when Qi Yi started running variety shows, but he always felt that it had been a long time since he had a good conversation with Qi Yi.

Gu Ling suddenly felt empty in his heart. Normally, as long as he saw Qi Yi smiling beside him, his mood would be much better.

It's so weird how people interact with each other.Gu Ling laughed at himself in his heart, and couldn't help thinking, how did he live before he met Qi Yi...