disqualified hero

The hero "Knight", whose real name is seldom known, Hawks remembers his surname as Yamada or Yamabukuro, in short, it is not a very impressive surname, he is between thirty and forty, in In the golden age of heroes, heroes at this age are not as physically strong as when they were in their 20s, but they have a lot of experience. With the combination of the two, they can still carry out heroic activities.

Having said that, there is an unwritten saying among heroes that one should become famous as soon as possible, and most of the heroes who become famous in the later stage will leave a strong mark in a very early period, such as the student days.

"It's normal." Dazai put a spoonful of curry into his mouth. On the esophagus, the Japanese absorb the essence of the East and pay attention to "eating without talking." Noisy sour radishes will not be eaten.The students of the High School Affiliated to Dongda University practiced this etiquette. After Hawkes ate twice in the student cafeteria, he couldn't bear the depression and never visited the cafeteria again.

Now eating and living with the students, it is impossible to escape alone, he would rather listen to Dazai's high-spirited talk than sitting with his classmates who are as quiet as dolls.

[In terms of poisonous tongue, among the people I know, no one can surpass Dazai. ] Hawks took a bite.

[But from another point of view, no one can surpass him in terms of the sharpness of the language, and abandoning those bad, Dazai-style black mud elements, what he said is not without merit. ]

[It even makes sense. ]

The word "black mud" was taught to him by the ground staff girl. The ground staff girl of Hawkes Office is a real fan of Dazai's books. Perhaps it is because Dazai Osamu didn't have much contact with her during the investigation, even After seeing the real person, she still maintains her admiration for Dazai's talent.

In a chat, she once said about Dazai's works: "If we talk about literary talent, there are almost no people in this era who can surpass Mr. Dazai. Coupled with his age, he is a truly extraordinary person. "As she spoke, she also became entangled, "But the content of black mud in the teacher's works is too heavy, especially "Human Affairs", which is said to be a collection of short stories. After reading each article, I feel heavy in my heart. Only when you are in a good mood can you read Dazai-sensei’s work.”

"Black mud?" Hawkes didn't quite understand the word.

"How should I explain it?" The ground staff girl waved her hands like a nimble fish. "It's the mental pollution in the game. If you explain it this way, Mr. Hawkes understands."

Hawks is a young man who plays games. He holds a game console for fun in his spare time: "Understood."

"Although Mr. Dazai also writes some healing works with only a touch of sadness, most of the articles will make people's San value go crazy." She shrugged, "Even in the reader circle, some people are afraid to meet the real Mr. Dazai .”

When she said this, the ground staff girl couldn't help but think of an interview with the author that was circulated among fans.

"Is there any reason for the name "Human Matters", Dazai-sensei?"

"Hey, why? If I really want to talk about it, it's what happened in the world." From his voice, one can imagine Dazai's dancing, his eyes must be bent, and his wrists might be flipped to reveal a dexterous movement. Radian, "It is not an exaggeration to call it a diary or a collection of essays. Too many things have happened in the world, and I only describe what I see with my own eyes."

"Birds circling in the sky, fish swaying in the water, flowers scattered in the wind, paintings of Shura, Rashomon in front of hell, glass mosaic in the holy church, sorrow of things and bliss in the world." He shook his head and said, "I see I can write whatever I want, and I can convey whatever I am thinking.”

"This is my "Human Matters"."

[Now that I think about it, Mr. Dazai sees the world as the cherry blossoms in Kyushu, the fireworks in Tokyo, those walking corpses, and elegant women...]

[It's too bizarre. ]

……

Back to the present, Dazai went on to say: "Heroes and professional writers are different. Some professional writers rely on talent, but occasionally there are late bloomers. Special events and special experiences will be turned into writing materials. It is better to say that except for gifted writers , and most of the remaining people have to accumulate to a certain extent before they can write excellent works."

"But for a hero, acquired hard work is important, but innate talent determines everything." He said, "If a person's intelligence and physical ability cannot make up for the gap in personality, no matter how much experience he has, it will not help, so In other words, if the hero has been unknown in the early stage, he will not have many remarkable achievements in the future."

The plate of curry was empty, but the words were not finished: "A mediocre hero will be mediocre to the end, that's how it is." The tip of the spoon was subtly tilted, pointing at the hero knight not far away.

"Knight" did not sit with them, but was surrounded by children in the middle. He liked children quite a bit. Like the people around him, he served a plate of curry and talked and laughed with them like an easy-going uncle. Occasionally He will also make a few strange expressions, making people around him laugh.

His figure is still very good, strong and strong, a figure that a hero would have, but he is...

"Do you think it's possible for him to be as wise as a fool?" Hawkes reached out and touched his chin. He shaved yesterday, so there was no stubble on his chin.

"what?"

Hawks said: "From the very first meeting, I thought he was too mediocre." It’s a bit hypocritical.” After thinking for a while, he added, “And his attitude towards me is a little too sincere and fearful.” Anyway, he is a famous local hero, and he must have the spirit of a host.

"Is it wise to be stupid..." Dazai said, "I never recommend judging people by their appearance." He said slowly, "Good people are never written on their faces, and bad people are never written on the faces of bad people. People's temperament is originally It's very mysterious, how can you judge based on your first reaction?" The reasoning is the same.

He said hypocritically: "Oh, I didn't expect that the No.3 hero would make the mistake of judging people by their appearance."

"..." Dazai's words left Hawks speechless.

"However," Dazai put up a finger mysteriously and stopped in front of his mouth after continuing to say, "The hero's intuition should not be underestimated. In a sense, it's okay to trust your own intuition. Mr Hawkes."

Hawkes was stunned for a while, and then he said, "Didn't you say nothing, Dazai?" With both possibilities in front of him, asking him which one to choose, it's too bad, this approach.

……

The children had almost finished eating, obediently put the clean plates in the recycling place, and went back to their rooms. Seeing that the young children were gone, the head of the orphanage took out a few bottles of beer from the refrigerator, Sent to the heroes in turn.

Chang Zhi held the wine bottle and followed behind him. The most beautiful women are needed to pour wine. Whether it is in the workplace or other places, it is an eternal truth.

"Please also this year, Mr. Knight." The dean's face was full of smiles, "Please ask for the safety of Kyushu and the safety of the orphanage."

Chang Zhi followed behind him and bowed: "Please."

The hero knight, or his real name Yamabukuro Jun, stretched out his hand and scratched his crew cut hair, with a slightly smug smile on his face: "Please say something, children are the hope of the future of Kyushu, of course we must Treat it well.” He said, “Is this year’s donation enough?”

"Yes, thanks to you, a new air-conditioning system was installed this year." He paused and said, "However, the school problem has not been resolved, and some children are not very willing to go to school..."

Shino Nagae followed behind the director of the orphanage and listened with his head bowed. Suddenly, Hawkes came out from nowhere. He didn't like the smell of wine very much, but at this time he held a glass in his hand: "It's been hard work, Mr. Knight."

He said: "I read the news. The bomb at Tangjin Elementary School was handled very beautifully. It was really hard work for the enemy to rush over after the bomb was dealt with."

"No, no, it's nothing hard." He said, "Compared to Mr. Hawkes, all I can do is this little thing that I can do." While speaking, he raised the cup with both hands to hold the glass with Hawkes.

[Hmm—] He twitched his nose slightly.

[Sure enough, I said something was missing. It stands to reason that the knight dealt with the explosion this morning. Although there were no casualties in Dangjin Elementary School, according to reports, the enemy detonated multiple bombs and injured the teachers. Fighting the enemy in an environment full of fireworks, even if you let the enemy go in the end, you will still get a little smell on your body. ]

[It is said that he came to the orphanage as soon as the incident was resolved, and the clothes were indeed a little dusty, which was consistent with the clothes in the video, so it was even more impossible to leave halfway to change clothes and wash. ]

Hawks was already meticulous, and when he was with Dazai, he deliberately did some training on thinking and reasoning, and after a few glances at the knight, he noticed something was wrong.After the events of Juli, he became more skeptical.

"Does Mr. Knight come to the orphanage often?" he asked.

"I love spending time with kids."

The dean next to him didn't want to hear the benefactor's modesty. He puffed up his chest and said proudly, "Mr. Knight is our biggest benefactor, bar none."

"Hey?"

"This used to be a very small and dilapidated orphanage." The dean said, "Compared with other places, the status of the children we accepted is quite special. If they are placed in other orphanages, it is hard to say whether they are willing to accept them or not. , The second is that children will be bullied, and most of the children in the courtyard are transferred from other places."

Hawkes knew early on that the children here are basically the children of the enemy. Even the naive people would not think that they can perfectly integrate into the group, and being bullied is the norm.

The bullying phenomenon in Japanese society is terrible.

The dean smiled apologetically: "Although there will be much less bullying after transferring to our place, ordinary donors don't like to donate money to us, and no one will adopt or raise children. The government's subsidies are limited. , but there are more and more children, and many children still need to go to school, which is another new expenditure.”

"The children here are living in a very difficult situation."

"There was a time when there was no fire in winter, and we had to grow the land ourselves to eat vegetables."

Hawks was speechless, even with the dean's language assistance, he couldn't describe this scene.

People are always reluctant to bring up the sufferings of the past. After describing it in a few words, the dean brought the topic to Mr. Knight again: "But that was a long time ago, from the first year Mr. Knight donated to us, the child We have never suffered from cold and starvation, and now we can all choose schools, which is really a great improvement."

He turned back to the knight and bowed: "Thank you very much, Mr. Knight."

"No, no," said the adult, "that's what I should do."

He has a somewhat embarrassed, social smile on his face, like an office worker telling the truth after drinking, with a natural clumsy sincerity that can almost make anyone relax their vigilance.

[However, none of these were done by me. ]

Only the inner voice cries out, and it cries out every time the boast falls on him.

[Whether it’s a hero’s name or a donation, apart from my love for these children, what else really belongs to me? ]

……

A child about one meter tall is holding a ball. She is a cute girl, wearing a T-shirt printed with a bear's head, and her half-length hair is combed into a shofar braid, which hangs obediently on both sides of her cheeks.

Green Valley Izuku finished the work at hand, he just wiped off his sweat, when he lowered his head and saw the child.He squatted halfway and put his palms on his knees: "Want to play together?"

The child is only six or seven years old, but she has a deep expression on her face that does not belong to her age. She glances at Lugu, as if she is estimating something: "Are you a student of Xiongying High School?"

Green Valley's expression softened a bit: "Yes."

He has seen many such children, looking forward to Xiongying High School, hoping to become a hero.

"Xiongying's students, will they become heroes in the future?"

"It's impossible to say that all of them become heroes, but most of them are." Green Valley told the truth, "My goal in the future is to become a hero like Orumite."

The ball jumped into the air violently. For a child, the strength of the ball was already very impressive, but Izuku Midoriya was a trained hero reserve after all. He was not hit hard by the ball. Catch the ball.

"Hey?"

He still doesn't quite understand what happened, the posture changed from holding the ball with one hand to holding the ball with two hands.

The child ran away after throwing the ball. She knew that she had done something wrong, but she was not ready to repent. She ran to the distance and shouted: "I hate heroes!"

"Hate! Hate!"

Lu Gu was stunned. There happened to be a student from the High School Affiliated to Dongda University passing by beside him. Seeing his appearance, he couldn't help interjecting, "Didn't your teacher tell you who are the children in the orphanage?" He pointed and ran away. "They are all children of the enemy. They have hated heroes since they were young. They were sent here because they couldn't survive in other orphanages."

"In short, they're all unloved freaks who don't even have a chance of being adopted," he said. "If they were normal kids these days, who would hate heroes."

[After all, the enemy’s child must be the enemy too]

[No, not right]

Green Valley walks into the child, he walks very fast, there is absolutely no way to get rid of him with the child's footsteps: "Can you tell me why you hate heroes the most?" There is still a warm smile on his face, like the sun Faced with a person with such a smile, even an angry child can no longer throw a ball, not to mention she knows that throwing a ball is actually wrong. The sister in the orphanage taught her not to use violence against others.

If you don't know what you're doing is wrong, you won't run away.

[I ran away because I knew something was wrong, and I knew I made a mistake because I had normal values ​​of good and evil. ]

"It's just annoying," she said. "At school, they made me play the enemy every time, and I was hit on the ground, and it hurt."

"..."

"It really hurts!" As if thinking of something, the child yelled, "So, why did the hero hit me?"

The ball that Green Valley put at his feet was picked up.

Dazai picked up the ball and put it in the child's empty hand. He pulled out a cute lollipop from his pocket as if by magic, and made his head into the shape of a bear.

"Because the one who beat you is not a hero." He said with a smile, "It's just a self-righteous clown wearing a hero's skin."

"There are quite a few stupid people among heroes, but as long as they can be truly called by this title, they will not initiate violence for no reason." The little girl was holding a lollipop, and she didn't know that it was Dazai's voice. It's beautiful, but it's because his movements are too gentle, or it's because he has a delicate face that can only be had by God's care and love.

In short, the little girl's attention was completely attracted by him.

"The one who hit Yuki-chan is not a hero, but an ugly person who takes pleasure in bullying others with force." He said softly, "Do you know how to deal with such a person, Yuki-chan?"

The little girl shook her head.

"It's simple, use your mind, use your hands, use your lovely face," he said. "Where no one can see, fight back, let adults realize your innocence, and let other children feel your innocence." Power, let the society know that you are the party of justice."

"Become a powerful adult who can protect yourself, Yuki-chan." He said, "In this way, you can protect yourself well."

"Hmm!" The little girl actually didn't quite understand what Dazai said, but she nodded fiercely, and left with the candy in her mouth and the ball in her hand.

But the person who had comforted the child just now turned his head to Lvgu, but changed into his usual expression of laughing, scolding and looking at the world.

"Having said that, if the child doesn't have enough brains and is not very strong, even if he has a cute face, he won't be accepted by the teacher." He said, "After all, she is a child from an orphanage. Vulnerable groups without parents, the weak are bullied and the strong are at ease, this is the truth in the world.”

"Mr. Green Valley, the ambition is to protect the weak, right?"

"……Yes."

"Then do you think you can be the one who protects her, the hero in her heart?"

……

At the door, the young man pulling the suitcase looked up at the orphanage.

The address has not changed, but the appearance of the building has changed drastically. It is almost impossible to see the previous appearance. The sun shines on the brand-new house number, almost coating the sign of the orphanage with a layer of light.

He paused for a moment, and shouted angrily: "Dean, I'm back!"

[Body: Osamu Dazai]

[Synchronization rate: 86%]